Engraved in your heart

Chapter 11: "Our last Chance"

"It takes ten times as long to put yourself back together as it does to fall apart"

Prim had us all up by 7am that morning, the makeup, and dresses were all spiralled around the master bedroom, and we were painting each other's nails, well Prim and Jacey were, Johanna and I were standing in uncomfortable silence while (The local hair dresser) was explaining what she wanted to do for our hair. After she finally finished I caught Johanna before she rushed off. Look I love Peeta not Gale, even though he's an idiot, and Gale loves you more than everything! "It's not about if he loves me or not, I've lost everything, but you've gained it all, a family, the one thing that I've wanted but couldn't have, the one thing you've refused to give me."

After hearing that it finally clicked, she wasn't mad that Peeta said Gale loved me or that I was still living with them, or the fact I had dragged her five districts away from home… It was that I didn't give her Jacey when I promised five years ago.

*Flash Back*

The pain of labour was the worst pain I had ever felt, like knives were being shot into my body then pulled out again. Johanna and I were in the waiting room while Gale was getting me checked in. "What do you think we should name the baby? Jessie? Jade? What about Jaqueline, oh or Jolissa!" I haven't heard of the name Jolissa before where did you get that from? "I think I went to school with one before, I don't remember, but maybe I should cross that off the list."

Johanna was more than excited for the baby, the plan was I'd have the baby, Johanna and Gale kept her and I could go travel. But the moment I saw my baby girl, I couldn't leave her, not for anything.

I held her in my arms and looked up towards Johanna, I started to cry, and it was an ugly crying, this beautiful baby girl had light brown hair on her head and bright blue eyes that could barely open. I couldn't give her up, so I kept her… In the same house with her supposed to be parents.

*end of flash back*

With two hours left until the ceremony Prim was having usual second thoughts. "Oh Katniss what if we're wrong? What happens if he gets cold feet? Or we change our minds down the road?" Prim relax, you're crazy about each other and nothing is going to get in the way of that, I'm not wear this frilly yellow dress for you to change your mind, now sit back down so you can get your hear finished.

"But Katniss what if it's not what we think it's like?"

If you get cold feet and run away you will never get to know the great things that could happen, getting to have a family, living the person you love most, don't do what I did, don't run away before you get a chance to see what it's like to be truly happy, we have been through enough shit to last a life time, it's time we get to be happy.

With a glowing smile on her face and sat down again. With what seemed like minutes but really hours the ceremony was about to begin.

"Wasn't that just a beautiful ceremony?" One of the guests asked me, I just nodded in agreement and went back to my gin and tonic. The whole town was here, a lot more people then I remembered but they all seemed to remember me. Asking questions on where I have been, and who Jacey really was, I couldn't take it so I stayed silent by not letting a glass leave my lips, but by my fourth or fifth glass I was a little tipsy maybe more. I felt warm comforting hands on my waist and a soft warm breath on my neck. The world seemed like a blurred mirror showing me my mistakes in life but not letting me see it clearly. And for some reason I allowed this stranger to continue holding me in a very sexual way. He quickly turned me around and I saw blond hair a bright blue eyes.

Peeta kissed me and in a horse whisper he said "I'm sorry of all the pain I've caused you and Jacey" I pulled him closer until my lips could touch his ear; Jacey should know who you are, and why I love you so much. Before I could recollect myself Peeta and I were heading back up out of the meadow and towards his house.

We got through the door and it was quickly thrown shut behind me, I think we made it to Peeta's room before things got too hot to handle.

A/N

I am the worse! I killed my compute's charging outlet thingy and I has bad writers block, so I stole my brothers battery today and finished writing, I hope the next one will be up soon bye!