Deidara is staring at me; his eyes are wide and are clearly showing hurt. I feel bad about it, but not just because I just broke up with him. It's also because I feel happy. I feel happy because of his hurt. This may seem really heartless of me, but it's not what I mean at all; I'm happy because he wants to be with me. I guess it's still quite heartless of me though.

His arm retreats from me completely and he moves to look at me properly. His jaw is tight, his fists clenched and I can see his whole body is tense. Now I feel guilty as well. Very, very, very guilty and I really want to throw myself at him and explain.

Before I can do this though, he grabs the front collar of my shirt and pulls me towards him. My eyes are wide as our lips meet and I hear myself gasping in shock.

His tongue moves inside my mouth.

My eyes are falling shut.

I feel his hands traveling around my thin figure again.

I'm lowered to the ground.

It feels so good.

His hands are traveling up under my shirt now and I'm shuddering, arching and moaning his name into our kiss. I don't know when I began acting like this, but I know I don't want it to stop anytime soon.

But still…

We don't know each other.

I move my arms from around his neck (I wonder how they ended up there) and take a hold of his hands, stopping them from reaching more sensitive areas; I don't think I'll be able to stop this if it continues like this –if he continues to touch me like this.

"Let go of my hands, yeah" he growls into my ear, his tone needy.

I think he knows I'm needy too.

"No" I reply; I realize I'm panting, "you have to listen to me"

"Shut up, yeah! You want this" Deidara hisses, "you want me, yeah"

I can't deny it; I want him so much… so bad.

"Yes, I do… and that's why you have to listen"

I feel him relax and I let my grip on his hands loosen before I move them up and around his neck again, running them through his blonde hair.

It's soft. I bet he showered today.

"I think we should be friends, get to know each other and then… then we get back together" I tell him silently as I feel his hands retreat and leave my skin.

"Why, yeah?" he asks and our eyes meet, "why can't we just be together?"

I stay silent for a few seconds as I think about what to say; I already know what I want, but I don't know how to word it. He's probably getting quite impatient already, I know I would've.

"I want this to last… so we need to get to know each other; we can't do that if we continue having sex" I reply.

He sigh and leans down before he nuzzles my neck, "how long, yeah?"

I think about it; I already know neither of us can stay near without really touching for long. This is one of the reason as to why this break up´ is important; relationships isn't all about sex and physical attention.

"Christmas"

Deidara stares in disbelief and I stare back with confusion.

"That long, yeah?!"

I nod.