Slowly Jac shook her head "No, no, I can't Joseph, you know I can't. I can't leave Holby, my friends and my career, I've worked so hard to be at the top, and now I am, I don't think I can leave that Joe." "Then, I'll move down here, we'll stay in your flat for a bit and then we'll find a bigger place. We'll be the perfect family, me, you, Posy and Harry." "No." Jac shook her head, tears falling down her face "I can't, I can't be a mother to Harry, I just can't. How can I be a mother to a child who, whenever I look at him will remind me of every stupid mistake I've ever made, every person I've hurt. It isn't fair on him; he deserves a proper mother, someone who will never judge him for others mistakes. Please Joe, I find someone, someone simply, with no complicated past, no string of ex-husbands and no manipulative ways. Someone caring, because I can't leave you on your own, you know that. I love you, so much it hurts, but I can't, I can't marry you, I can't hurt you again. Please this is the easiest way. I'm so sorry, but we can never be together again, we have too much history, our life together could never be simply. Not now I've done so much to harm it. I'm sorry, I'm so sorry, I love you, but please, please go, please, I can't bear it." "Jac? No please I want you, need you, please?" "No, no go, go please Joseph, before I change my mind. We can't ever be lovers, just friends, good friends, but not lovers. We can see each other regularly; Posy can stay with you frequently. That's fair yes?" Jac cried as she saw Joseph shake his head "Please, please go, now. I'm sorry, I'm so sorry." Jac wept as she turned her back, using all her will power not to turn around and beg him to stay. "Jac, please?" she heard Joseph beg "No, please, I'm sorry." Then she stayed turned around until she'd heard him walk out the room and leave the building. The minute he left burst in to heavy tears, silently speaking to him I'm sorry, please god Joseph forgive me. Please see the sense in this; please promise me you will understand.
I'm sorry for all the Jac-Joe fans out them, it broke my heart writing this chapter, but I didn't want this story to be the same as many of the other great ones on FanFiction, I wanted to give it a bit of a twist. I hope you enjoyed it though, please R&R
