EDWARD POV:

While I may be slowly starting to loosen up with Bella... There are just some lines that I refuse to cross. One of them would be making love to Bella. I know that I wouldn't be able to do that to her while she is still human. I will not risk hurting her.

Everyone turned to me and glared. I saw Bella sigh in annoyance. Tough. She will just have to deal with it. I will not be persuaded otherwise. Phil raised an eyebrow at me.

"Why do you think that you would hurt her Edward?" He said and he kissed Camilla's forhead and slowly handed her over to Renee.

"She is human and I am a vampire. She is weaker and more fragile. I cannot lose control around her."

Phil sighed. "Edward. Did you or did you not learn anything from the memories I showed you?"

"I saw how much I hurt Bella." What was he getting at?

He let out a low growl before taking a deep breath. "Edward. Listen and listen good. Renee was human when I met her. She was human when we started dating. She was human when we married. She was human when we had sex. And not once did I ever hurt her. She is my mate. My vampire side knows and acknowledges this. It will never hurt it's mate. Even hunting. Renee went with me when I hunted and I never hurt her. Even giving into my instincts Renee was safe with me. I could bite her and not turn her. Why are you so against this Edward?"

I listened to what he was saying but I refused to believe it. "It is different because her blood calls to me."

"Let me go ahead and say Bullshit to that right now. You have already proven that her blood doesn't call out to you anymore. Choose a better excuse."

Um... "I don't want this life for her."

"Eeeeh! Wrong answer. You have already agreed to change her."

"If she marries me."

"So me marriying you is the only way that you will agree to change me?" I heard my love speak and turned to her.

"Yes. You knew this."

Bella glared at me. "No."

...what? I stared at her in shock. What? I heard my family's thoughts.

Edward! How could you be so cruel?-Esme

Bro that is messed up!-Jasper

What the hell were you thinking Edward?!-Rosalie

Edward! That is not how one goes about proposing!-Alice

Man Bro... Not even I would have chosen that. Rosie would have shreaded me and lit my ass on fire if I had.-Emmet

Son... Are you kidding me?! You seriouly made marriage a condition?! What were you thinking?!-Carlisle

I ignored them. I knew I was right.

"Why no Bella?" I had to know.

Bella sighed, crossed her arms and sat down indian style in front of me. "Where to begin?"

"Begining is always a good place to start."

She didn't appriciate my response. "Be quiet Edward. I will not marry you because one) I know that you do not want me to become like you. While we are mates and I want to be with you for eternity, I feel like you just want me to have a normal human life. Second)You didn't even propose. You just said 'marry me Bella.' Like a demand. Well I will not marry because you demanded it from me. Third)Even if I did marry you, what guarentee do I have that you would actually change me, and not keep putting it off and off until I am old enough to be your grandmother or am lying on my deathbed too weak for the change. I refuse to promise forever when my partner refuses to."

I just sat there looking at her. She was right. I didn't want this life for her. I don't want to condeam her soul. I would put it off until I knew she would be too weak. And now that I think about it, I never did ask. But still, "I do promise you forever."

She gave a harsh laugh. "Your definition of forever and mine differ greatly. When I say forever I mean that I want to spend several centuries with you Lord willing. Your forever means till I die then you go and commit suicide."

"Edward I love you. That is never going to change. You keep saying that you want me to have every human experiance... Let me tell you something... I don't need those experiances. I just need you. I refuse to only be with you for maybe eighty years when I could be with you for an eternity. Unlike you all I will be making this choice. I know what I am sacrificeing. But fortuantly, I won't have to say goodby to parents. I will be able to be with them. I won't be leaving any friends from school behind. Except Angela and Ben but I can deal with that. That Pack will still be around until they imprint and stop phasing. Edward, my true friends, my family, my sibilings, are all vampires. Except Charlie-"

"Phil has agreed to turn me before Christmas."

I couldn't stop the shocked expression from showing. "Why would you chose this life Charlie?!"

"Because Bella will be one of you and I refuse to lose her."

"Idiots all of you." I muttered under my breath.

"Thank you for insulting me Edward. Nice to know that you think I am an idiot." Bella snarked at me.

"Don't snark at me Bella. I still refuse to let you become like us."

I saw hurt flash in her eyes for a second before she schooled her features.

"Edward... If I stay human and died.. You would lose your mate. You would go to the Volturi and beg for death. Again. And again you would be refused. So then you would resort to exposing yourself in broad daylight causing the Volturi to act. You would cause Carlisle and Esme to lose both a son and a daughter. You would cause Emmett, Rosalie, Jasper and Alice to lose a brother and a sister."

"So. I refuse to live while you are dead!"

She snapped and stood up. "Oh for fucks sake Edward! The answer is simple if you actually think about it for a split second instead of brooding. I will not die as easliy if I were like you!"

I stood up. "I still think that you are making a stupid mistake! You are younge and have no idea as to what you wan-" I froze and lifted my hand to my cheek. I stared wide eyed at Bella.

She was breathing heavy and was holding her hand with her other while glaring at me. "Dad?" She turned to Charlie. "Keys. Please." Keys?"

Charlie nodded and tosed her a key. "Just this once. I still don't like it." What is she going to do?

"Thanks dad. Sam...you are in charge." She took of running toward the front of the house. I made to follow her. Those weren't the keys to the truck... She could get hurt!

I ran after her and saw her get on her motorcycle. I quickly grabbed the handles before she could leave. "Stop acting irrational Bella. This is stupid. Get off. You don't even know how to ride this properly. You could die."

Bella just glared at me. "Let go Edward or I will run you over." Huh?

I was so stunned that I lossened my grip. She took advantage of that and quickly took off.

I snapped out of it and started running next to her. Thankfully non of her neighbors were out or paying attention."Bella! Stop now!" She ignored me. "Damnit Bella listen to me before you hurt yourself!" Still ignoring me. "I am ordering you to stop Bella!"

She quickly turned around and glared at me. "How I wish I could slap you without hurting myself Edward. You 'order' me? Fuck off until you learn how to listen. Talk to Phil. He is the only other vampire that has had a successful relationship with his singer. Or did you not catch that part when he showed you that memory?"

I blinked. I had missed that part. Now that I think about it... I missed a lot of things.

Bella sighed and leaned foreward on her handle bars. "Look, go back and talk. I will be back in ten minutes."

I glared at her. "You are ridding a freaking death trap!"

She actually thru her head back and laughed. "I have ridden on your back several times Edward. I have also ridden on Jake's and Sam's back when they were in their wolf form. This is nothing compared to that. Before Jake phased he taught me how to take this baby apart and rebuild it. I know every part that this is made of. I also know how sturdy it is. Jake also made a modification to it. Since my center of gravity is alittle off kilter, he calculated for that when we rebuilt this. I don't know excatly what he did but I haven't fallen off my bike since that first time."

I growled. Jake did this. Jake did that. Jake. Jake. Jake. Jake. Everything is stupid fucking Jake! Wait... First time? "What happened the first time?"

She turned her bike around. "Oh nothing big. Just took a corner to sharp and flipped off of my bike into a rock and gave myself a concussion." She revved the bike and then shot off.

Flipped? Rock? Concussion!? What the hell Bella! I made to run after her but was stopped by Phil and Emmett holding me back. "Let me go! She could get killed!"

Phil grabbed me and litterally dragged me back to the bonfire. He tossed me to the ground. "Sit down and be quiet Cullen."

I ignored him and made to stand up. Carlisle stood up and forced me back onto the log. "Sit down Edward."

I sighed and forced myself to stay seated while my girlfriend was out riding on a death trap.

Edward! Hi sweetie! I'm coming for you!

My eyes shot open and I jumped up. "Oh hell no. Doesn't she ever get a fucking clue."

The wolves stared at me. Phil and Renee looked confused. Charlie just blinked. Peter and Charlotte cringed in sympathy. Ben and Tia just sat down amused. My family on the other hand stood and looked toward the forest. Not ten seconds later a strawberry blond vampire was rushing toward me. Could this day get any worse?