Chapter 11

Again he was all over me. I lay on my back on his bed, he was on top of me, his hands were on my hips and his lips on mine. I tried to focus, I didn't want to lose my mind again, I knew if I would, than things would go out of hand. Not that I didn't want things to go that way, but I wanted to take things a little slower, at least a little. His lips moved to my neck and I arched my back, I could feel him smile at my reaction. My fingers dug into the fabric of his shirt and I let out a moan, as he started to bite and suck on my neck. If he'd continue like that, I wouldn't be able to hold back.

I moaned again, as he found my sweet spot and squirmed underneath him. My reaction spurred him on, I felt his hands wander, leaving my hips and wandering upwards. He almost reached my breasts now, suddenly he bit down a little harder and a breathless "Kili" left my throat. All of a sudden he backed away from me, his comforting weight leaving me. I was disappointed, moments before he backed away, I had changed my mind, I would let him do anything to me tonight.

I lifted myself on my elbows, starting to feel insecure, maybe he didn't want me? "Is there something wrong?" I asked, hoping he wouldn't answer and instead just take me now. Oh my, what was I thinking? I sounded like a whore…but I didn't care, I wanted him.

He smiled at me, a little insecure. "Nothing, really nothing." He said, I didn't believe him, I got up and crawled over to him, I tried to kiss him, but he looked away. "You don't want me, don't you?" I felt like I was about to cry. I looked down, tears rolling down my face, I felt stupid and dump. What was I thinking? Of course he didn't want me. Suddenly I felt his hand on my arms, rubbing up and down, but I didn't dare to look at him. "Are you insane?" he took his chin in one of his hands and forced me to look into his eyes. I saw nothing but love…and hunger, I instantly felt better. "How can you think that? I've been thinking about sleeping with you all night long. Actually I have dreamt about it for five years now." His eyes darkened at the thought and I felt a heat tingle within me, so he wanted me after all. "Then why not do it now? Why won't you sleep with me?" I almost begged. He sat down on the bed, holding my hands in his and gave me that dirty smirk again, making me think about just jumping on him and doing the job myself. "Tui, my princess, I would really love to do that, and trust me it takes all my strength not to do it now, but I don't want to rush things. I want our love to take time and develop, sweet kisses, taking walks together, secretly meeting in the middle of the night. All those little things, I want to take it slow and enjoy it. "I looked up at him, he was serious about that, his hand cupped my cheek and his thumbs stroked my face lovingly. "And then after courting you properly, I will sleep with you and thrust me it will be worth the wait." His eyes looked into the distance, I guess he thought about doing that and so did I.

"You will scream my name and squirm underneath me, you'll be breathless and covered in sweat and the only thing on your mind will be me and pleasure, as I take you again and again throughout the whole night in every position I know. On the bed, the table, against the wall, you underneath me, you on top of me…" I put a finger on his mouth to silence him "Stop talking like that, or I won't be able to wait and take you right now and here." He giggled. "I'm serious, Kili." He nodded, smiling at me, he took me in his arms and laid back on the bed, my head rested on his chest and I could hear his heart beat slowing down. Slowly I cooled down as well, he ran his fingers through my hair and rested the other one on my hip.

When I felt composed enough, I lifted my head and looked at him. "Court me properly, huh?" "Of course, you are a princess and a princess deserves to be courted properly." He smiled, I wondered what he had in mind for that. He started talking about something I don't remember what it was, but I fell asleep happily to the sound of his words and his heartbeat.