A/N:

Thank you for R&R! It means a lot to me as this is my first fic. I know that this chapter is a bit short but I had fun writing it. Hope Y'all like it! :) *^_^*

BooksAreEverything3 (BAE3)


Chapter 10 – The Effects of Hot Chocolate

Ahsoka couldn't sleep. She was sitting at the holo-chess table in the dark, a mug of hot chocolate in her hands. Every time she closed her eyes, she could see Anakin slashing his lightsaber through her. She had tried to meditate but that had been a total failure. She had too many thoughts running through her head.

According to the internal clock on the ship, it was 3:25 am on Onderon.

And she was already on her fifth hot chocolate.

She was thinking about were to go the time to leave Onderon came and what the best thing to do would be when she heard a faint whoosh of a door opening. She looked up to see Lux, who, like her, was wide awake.

"Couldn't sleep?" he asked.

"No, I couldn't. You?"

"Same." Lux sat down beside her. Whenever he was around her, Ahsoka's heart would always speed up. She took another mouthful of hot chocolate.

"So Ahsoka, just how many of these have you had?" Lux enquired pointing to the drink.

"This is my fifth."

"Alright, I think that's enough for you." Lux took the mug out of her hands. He was about to place it on the table but he stopped, "You mind if I had some?" He asked sheepishly.

"Go ahead," Ahsoka smiled as Lux drained what was left of the hot chocolate. He set down the mug and guiltily grinned at her.

"Sorry, couldn't help myself."

"Hey, we all have to indulge ourselves at some point," she replied, an amused tone to her voice. Lux laughed softly.

"On a different note, why is it so dark in here?"

"Oh yeah," she touched her lekku, a habit she had started to develop when she was distracted. She had been feeling that way for a while now, "I tried to meditate, sometimes it helps me to sleep, but, as you can see, it didn't work."

"Couldn't you have, I don't know, put yourself to sleep with the Force or something?"

"Nah I wasn't bothered, besides, it only works on other people,"

"Never thought I'd hear those word coming out of your mouth." Lux mussed to himself. "You not being bothered to use the Force."

"I –Ugh, never mind." Ahsoka didn't bother continuing her thought, "How come you couldn't sleep?"

"Too many thoughts on my mind. I suppose it's the same for you?"

"Yeah. Sometimes I wish I could just forget things. It would be so much easier."

"I know what you mean Ahsoka," Lux shifted slightly to face her, "But, it's not just the memories about the past. It's also about the things that could happen in the future," he stopped for a second, "Remember when Dooku killed my mother? Remember how hung-up I was about having revenge?"

"Yes… You tasered me. How could I forget?" she said.

"Look I'm sorry about that. Really." He looked slightly self-conscious, "If- If you weren't there with me during that time, when I was with Death Watch," he shuddered and Ahsoka put a hand on his arm. She had never seen Lux this way before. She'd always found that he tried to cover up his emotions, afraid of being read like an open book.

"When I was with Death Watch," he continued, "The thought of nothing apart from revenge kept me going. Then you came into the picture. You told me about how awful they were and I still didn't listen to you. I should have. I was the reason that people got hurt… That you got hurt…" he lowered his head in shame. Ahsoka started to speak but he kept going.

"I've been so worried that another one of my mistakes could harm a person again. That's why I'm worried about the future. I've always found it easier to do rational things when you're around." Lux placed his hands on her shoulders. "You've been the only person who kept me from doing idiotic things."

Ahsoka's heart was beating hard and fast. Her thoughts had started to become clouded.

What was wrong with her?

What was happening to her?

"Lux… You've had other people too. The rebels, and Padmé, and Steela, and–," Ahsoka was cut off by Lux who leaned towards Ahsoka and kissed her.

In that moment Ahsoka forgot everything.

The only thing she could wrap her mind around was the fact that Lux was kissing her and his hand had moved to her neck. It was hesitant… Gentle…

When they broke apart, Ahsoka's eyes were wide, her lips parted in shock. Even though it was short, it didn't matter.

Lux Bonteri kissed her.

She was glad that it was dark so Lux wouldn't be able to see her flaming cheeks. She looked up at Lux who had gotten up from the table.

"You should get some sleep," he told her. She nodded, unable to speak. "Night, Ahsoka."

He gave her a nervous smile as he left the room.


A few minutes later, Ahsoka numbly got up from the table and headed towards her room. She briefly stopped in front of Lux's room and searched for his presence in the Force. It wasn't hard to find.

When Ahsoka entered her room, she flopped on her bunk. She didn't bother getting in because she was giddy with the events. Ahsoka touched her lips where the kiss still lingered. She was still in shock. The person who she'd had a crush on for a while, had kissed her.

Sure, we kissed before but that was just for show. We were in danger. Ahsoka thought to herself. This time it was real and–

"–I may have kissed him back." She whispered to herself in the darkness, finishing the thought aloud. She let out a small sigh. Being a teenager is hard…

After a while, she fell asleep, happy and content.

Her mind, for once, clear of thoughts.

Except one…