Chapter 11- the hospital

Riding, Riding in the car….. Looking at trees, cherry blossoms, birds, and families settled together having a picnic and enjoying life….. Sakura always wanted this… She always wanted to have a complete family…. She thought that having a Father and a Brother would be enough…. But something just didn't feel quite complete…. She wanted more, She wanted to feel completely happy…. But she isn't and this always upset her and made her sad to look at other people's happy lives.

You know when you were little, and you always wanted to reach up and touch the sky but you couldn't because you could never fully reach it and touch it, it was always impossible. And in this case Sakura wants happiness but she could never touch it….. She could never have it…. because she could never reach it and that is Sakura's reality.

" Sakura? You've been awfully quiet since we left the house" Yukito asked sounding a little worried

Then touya looked at yuki with a reassuring look and said, " Don't worry about her…She's been acting like that since Dad went into the hospital"

"Oh…. sakura you want to talk or would you like to say anything?"

Then sakura looked away from the window for a second to look at Yuki and then returned her gaze to the window.

" She looks like she's mesmerized…"

" Yeah…She looks at me like that now too" Touya said lightly

Then after a long while of driving they finally reached the hospital and they parked their car on the side and quickly got out and started walking towards the door.

When they reached the room that her father was in she took a quick look outside the glass window to see how he was doing. When she took a peek she saw the least person she would ever want to see, Chihiro. And she was beside him sitting on a chair and holding his hand.

" Id rather not go in till that woman leaves" sakura said angrily

Then touya looked to Yukito and then turned back to sakura and said, " You might as well go inside, I don't think shes going to leave…"

" Well…. then tell her to wait outside while I talk to him!" sakura exclaimed

" Sakura…" Yuki started, " Your dad needs her to be at his side right now…. And he needs you too"

Then sakura thought for a long while and thought better of it and went inside. Once she opened the door Chihiro looked at her with confused eyes, not knowing whether to stay quiet or talk. When sakura looked into her eyes she noticed that they were heavy and baggy underneath which means she wasn't sleeping enough but besides that she also saw sadness in her eyes.

But after a few minutes she decided to speak " You're Dad wanted to see you yesterday…. I believe he wanted to say something…. How have you been?"

" Good" sakura said rather fast

" That's great…."

" …And you?"

" Fine, Fine"

" I bet you are" sakura whispered in a low voice

Then a few minutes passed and sakura did not know what to say. This is a woman that had purposely ruined her life and had also caused her Dad to be in the state that he was in at least that what sakura believed. All she wanted to say was how mad she was at her and that she didn't want to see her ever again. But something held sakura back in saying that. She didn't know what it was but every time she wanted to say that she never could. So she decided to try a more helpful term of communicating.

" Listen, I know you say that you love my father…."

" And I do" she interrupted

" Wait till im done!" she exclaimed, " But I know you really don't! You think this never happened before! My dad used to attract a lot of people like you that were only interested in his valuable things and money!

But my Dad isn't a fool! One day he's going find out about you! And then well see what you're going to do then!"

" Why are you screaming? Can't we talk in a more suitable manner?"

" SHUT UPPP!!!!!" sakura screamed " Ill talk however I want to!!"

Then suddenly Fujitaka started to move and then he opened his eyes and saw sakura's anger and rage and started to get up. But failed, and fell back down to the bed sheets.

" Dad?" sakura asked in a worried tone.

" Sa-Sakura…..?" he asked, " Why…. why are you screaming at Chihiro…? He said his voice tired and low.

Then sakura looked at Chihiro wondering why she had acted like this, She knew all the reasons she wanted to act like that. But by doing that she had made her father very sad and that was something sakura never wanted to do. Sakura never wanted to act the way she did but she had to let it out she knew that if she never said those things everything would stay the same and she didn't want that she wanted things to go to be the way they used to. Before this woman entered their lives

After sakura thought of that Fujitaka decided to speak " Sakura I have to talk to you…."

" I know dad… Can you tell your, wife to be to wait outside while we talk!"

"…. No she needs to be here too…"

" But Dad…."

" I'm sorry Sakura…. But I love her…Very much…" he said looking into her eyes " I haven't loved anyone like this since your mother died"

Then sakura started to get tears in her eyes as she said " But…you told me you would never love anyone as much as you loved mom…."

" Listen, Sakura I will never stop loving your mother…. I loved Nadeshiko more than I loved life itself"

" So then why Do you love her!" sakura exclaimed pointing at her

" After She died…. I always felt…alone"

" But you have us! Me and Touya!"

" And I still do…. But my love for Nadeshiko and my love for you two was different…" he explained " You see I was really depressed…. on the inside of my heart… I didn't want to tell you or touya because I know that you guys would worry…. I thought I could handle it… I thought it could go away… But it didn't, it never did…. I met Chihiro in the middle of June last year"

" Oh god Dad!" sakura exclaimed " You've been keeping this secret since last year!! Did you even bother thinking about what we would think! Jesus Christ!"

" I did…. That's why I didn't tell you," He said as he shook his head " I knew you would hate the idea of me dating and I knew touya would too…so I did the only thing that I thought that would prevent you from finding out…"

" By lying behind my back!!" she screamed

" I didn't want to lie to you!!!" he said screaming back " I didn't…. But I didn't want you to hate me!"

" Well what do you think I feel now Dad!!" sakura said now with tears streaming down her cheeks " I feel worse then when I came here!!"

" I'm sorry…" Chihiro said as she entered the conversation.

" No you're not! You got exactly what you wanted!!" she said as she ran out of the room before anyone could stop her. And then sakura found herself walking home alone at night. While she was walking she felt a drop of water fall to her shoulder and immediately knew that it was starting to rain.

While sakura was walking she passed a few houses and was in a neighborhood she didn't recognize. And by the looks of it, it was quite poor for the windows were broken in some of the houses, and the color was fading away rapidly. As she was walking she read all the old mailboxes that said the names of the families. But there was one house that sakura couldn't quite read what it said. As she grew closer the rain became more strong and there was more wind then before. While she was trying to read it she felt hand on her shoulder, but she wasn't frightened, she wasn't alarmed, it was as if she knew who it was. She turned around slowly, and the person she saw was exactly the person she wanted to see, at that moment she knew whose house it was, it was Syaoran's.

" You shouldn't be out here getting wet!" he shouted over the pouring rain " You'll catch a cold!

" Its all right my house is just a few blocks from here!" she answered, " I think I could make it!"

" Its too far! Come inside! Its better than being out here!"

" Yea but…."

" Its ok…. Please come in…"

" Ok"

Then he quickly put his coat over her head trying to cover up his head as well, while he did this sakura could feel the warmth of his jacket as he wrapped his arm around her shoulder so that the jacket wouldn't fall, while she was walking with him toward the house she felt his breath against her skin because of how close they were and it was hard for sakura not to blush at this.

Once they were inside the house and he let the jacket go she studied her surroundings and what she saw she barely liked for everything was either broken, used, or old.

" I know…its not fancy or pretty…. but its home…" he said with a half grin

" Yeah…its interesting ill give you that" sakura said with a smile

" So ummm…. I should get a towel for you…" he said sounding nervous, " Lets go upstairs"

" All right" she said as they walked though the kitchen and the living room. But before they could pass the living room a tall woman came in from the back and surprised sakura when she spoke.

" Syaoran…. is this…a friend?" she said sounding very confused

" Ughhh…. Yeah…" he said as if he was almost ashamed to say it.

" Well this is quite…. unexpected…"

" Mom…can I go upstairs now…?"

" Wait…don't you want to introduce her to me?"

Then under his breath he whispered " No" but then thought about it and said " Sakura meet my mom, Mom this is sakura… my friend…"

He sounds almost ashamed of me being his friend…maybe he's not used to saying it.

" Pleasure to meet you Mrs. Li"

" I like her… she sound nice, I haven't seen you with anyone else besides that boy with glasses, so you understand its kind of a shock"

" Yes…Mom can we go upstairs now"

" Yes… fine, but first get a towel and get her dry she's dripping wet!"

" Its all right mom ill just get towel and she could do that upstairs"

" Fine But-"

Then before she could say anything he grabbed her hand and ran upstairs so that he wouldn't have to hear her. Once they were upstairs they entered a room and he quickly shut the door. And for some reason this made sakura nervous. When she turned to look at the room, all she saw was a bed, a small lamp on the floor, a closet and the wall was painted green. So technically the whole room was half empty.

" You should really hire a home decorator" she said, " it looks like you really need it"

" I don't really care if it doesn't look good to you" he said sounding annoyed " If it looks good to me then its ok"

" Ok…. It was just a suggestion"

Geez this guy really needs to learn to lighten up,

After he gave her the towel sakura couldn't help but feel tense after all the room was pretty small and since the room only had a bed sakura had thoughts about a lot of things it confused sakura why she would think of this after all she knows that he would never do that and she knows it would never happen. But something made sakura wonder, but she didn't like thinking of that so she quickly thought of something else.

" Are you still cold?" he asked

" No… im o-okay" she said even though she was starting to shiver

" Here…."

Then he handed her his sweater and wrapped it around her. After he did he asked, " The rain stopped… Want to go look at the stars?"

" Ummm….?" She said confused " don't ya know that there aren't any stars at this hour? Besides why would I want to?"

" Actually there are…. and you don't have to…. ill go by myself then"

Then he walked across his room and opened the closet. And when he did sakura was surprised to find a latter that was against the wall, he must have had an attic or so she thought.

" Wait!… I changed my mind!"

" Fine…" he said his face not changing " come up then"

Then she walked quickly to his closet and began climbing after him. When they both reached up, there was no attic. It was the roof. And Syaoran was now on top and he was carefully lying down on it.

" What are you doing! Isn't that dangerous?"

" Not if you're standing, its not"

" Are you crazy you could start slipping!!"

" So? Im not afraid to die"

" So what about your parents they'll care!"

" Well they would if they had to pay for it, they wont care trust me"

Then he continued " Don't worry ill try to grab you if you slip…"

" Ok…. But if I die! My dad is suing you!"

" Yeah ill try to keep that in mind" he chuckled

" That's the first time I hear you laugh" she said while she smiled at him

"I guess it is…. Are you coming up?"

" Yeah…hold on" she said struggling to get up between words. When she was finally up she quickly laid on top and tried to maintain her balance.

" Hey this isn't so bad…."

" I always come up here when I want to get away from this place…"

" You don't like living here?"

" No, I hate living here, with these…people"

" Your mom seemed nice"

" Step mom, actually…. I only call her mom when im in front of her so that she cant get mad"

" Oh…."

" So how is you're Dad?"

" Well…. I don't want to talk about him right now"

" Oh…ok" as he turned his head to look at her.

" I've never seen so many stars before… They don't really appear much in my neighborhood"

Then he looked back at the stars and said " Yeah I guess there's too much light over there…"

" Yeah I guess,…" she said " Wow… ive never seen anything more prettier than this before"

Then he turned back to look at her and said " Yeah…"

" I know I should get back… But I don't want to"

Then Syaoran sat up and looked over and said, " Everyone is probably worried about you, you should go"

" Sorry if this is a little off the subject but Can I ask you something?"

" Sure…"

" How come you've never had a girlfriend?"

" Ummmm…" he said starting to get red " Why would you ask me that?"

" Well it just comes to my attention that your not bad looking…. Actually your very handsome, and im just curious why anyone wouldn't want to date you"

" I think you should go now" he said with a hint of panic in his voice

" Don't tell me you're embarrassed… it's not like IM asking you out!" she said

" Yeah that would be weird…." He said half joking

" Ok fine…. Ill go…" she said hastily wanting to that

" I guess ill see you tomorrow…"

Then as she was starting to climb down the latter she stopped midway and said " Hey why don't you come by tomorrow after school?" she asked

" Ughhh I don't know…Im kind of Bus- "

" Great! Come at five!"

And she kept going until she finally set foot on the floor and left. After she left he sat up and looked over the edge to see her walk to her house. He didn't know why but he did so anyways.

When he saw her leave he shouted to her " Bye Sakura! Ill see you tomorrow!"

Then she shouted back " Bye! Remember to come at five!"

And she was gone.