Okay, I will start writing on Ashley's POV and sometimes in Shay's POV, and idk what I'm writing? Just, read okay?

Chapter 11: Not Easy

It's been a week since I kind of realized I liked Shay as more than a friend. I don't even know what I'm feeling, it's something new, like, I know that Shay will never hurt me and there's something in the way she talks that I just find so cute, I can't stop staring, I didn't realize that I always did it until now, and it's fucking scary.

"Are you okay?"

"Yeah, I'm just a little mad because Marlene said I had to dye my hair again"

"You look good in any color, babe"

"Thanks"

I couldn't even hold a conversation without getting all nervous, she was going to notice, she was going to know how I felt and that was going to be it, our friendship will be ruined, it will be a nightmare, Ryan will hate me forever, more than he already does.

"Ashley, what's wrong? You're kind of scaring me, you look like you've seen a ghost"

"I'm okay Shannon! Stop with the questions, it's annoying"

"Woah! Don't get all sassy with me. I have to go anyways, call me when you are not with your period"

"No, wait, I just told you why I was mad"

"Yes Ashley, but I'm not Marlene, so"

"I'm sorry"

"It's okay, I do have to go though"

"Wanna hang out after your scenes?"

"Haven't you read the script? We have three scenes together, filming all night buddy"

"Cool, then I'll see you later"

"See ya"

The first week filming passed really quickly and I lost a couple of chances to tell Shay what I was feeling, but it always ended up with a "nevermind", "I've been thinking I should start dieting" "what's on tv right now?" "I'll call you later" and the list goes on.

"Shay I have to tell you something"

"What's up?"

"I…"

"Yeah..?"

"I wonder what's like to kiss a girl?"

"Hmm, Ash, you've kissed Vanessa, you should know what is like" and that's it she started laughing, her lame attempt to exposed her feelings had failed, again.

"Besides, I've never kissed a girl if it's not in front of a camera so"

"Me neither, that's why I was curious"

"What's got into you lately? You've been acting weird"

"It's" I sighed defeated, "I'm scared that if I tell you what's on my mind, you wouldn't feel-, think, the same as me"

"What?"

I can't, I just can't, no, no, just no, don't, she'll leave you, she'll think you're a freak.

"I don't know"

"You don't know?"

"It's not easy, okay Shannon?"

"Oh my god, are you pregnant?"

"No, what?"

Shay sighed relieved and stared at her waiting for answers. She's noticed how Ashley has changed; she's been acting really weird and almost always avoided eye contact or touching.

"What's wrong? You know you can tell me anything", and there she goes with the 'you can tell me anything'; it's not that she didn't trust her, it's that she couldn't tell her, she was really confused.

"I think-"

"What? Ashley c'mon you're scaring me"

"I think I'm-,no"

"What?" Shay asked confused, her mind was making up lots of scenarios, all of them included their friendship ruined.

"I'm in love with you"