Summary: So I'm back finally with three brand new prompts. Sorry for the delay but better late than never right. Anyways I really wanted to stay in order here but I realized that since I didn't write them in order they won't be posted in order. I'm here with two today and I hope you really like them. Enjoy :)
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Prompt 19-Acceptance
Title: His Five Stages
Pairing: John Dorian/Perry Cox
Prompt: 019: Acceptance
Word Count: ~300
Rating: PG
Spoilers: None
Warnings: slash
Authors Notes: Denial was only the first stage.
They say that when patients know they are going to die they will suffer from the five stages of death. Denial, Anger, Bargaining, Depression, and Acceptance. He had learned the five stages from grief counselor Dr. Hendricks when a patient of his was going to die and there was nothing he could do about it. Perry had thought the man was full of it but soon came to accept the terms as well as apply them to other things besides death. One thing he realized was they also applied to falling in love. The reason Perry believed that love was one of the things the stages applied to was because he went through them when he fell in love with J.D.
Denial
He knew that he had feelings for the kid when they suddenly found themselves locked inside a supply closet together. It was his on fault really; if he hadn't been looking for him then he wouldn't have gotten himself caught up in the situation. When he found him, he had accidentally closed the door behind him not knowing it was broken.
"Newbie what the hell are you doing" Perry yelled as he came into the occupied supply closet.
"Don't close the…door" J.D screamed at the older doctor but it was too late. The door closed behind Dr. Cox, locking them both in as well.
"What the hell"
"The stupid Janitor locked me in here" J.D sulked as he set back down on the floor. "And I tried to open the door to get out but you know how klutzy I am then; I don't know the door was broke-"
"Newbie"
"Yeah"
"Shut-up"
"Fine" J.D said, quickly closing his mouth and pulling his knees up to his chest. It was quiet for all about two seconds before he pulled out a chocolate candy bar that was in his pocket and proceeded to eat it.
Perry watched as he tried to quietly pull off the paper off the candy bar but it was making a loud noise anyway. Getting annoyed, he walked over to J.D and pulled him up onto his feet, causing the candy bar to fall on the floor. He looked at J.D's scared face and suddenly had a strange feeling in his gut, as if he wanted to pull J.D close and kiss him. Just as he felt himself moving his head closer, the Janitor swung the door open and looked at them.
"Which one of you broke my door?"
Perry didn't say anything but just growled as he dropped J.D to the ground and walked out of the room to get his thoughts in order.
Anger
That previous incident made Perry mad as hell. How dare Penelope make him feel that way about him? Had she no shame. Perry wanted nothing more than to gauge J.D's eyes out with his fingers, rip his body from limb to limb, and kiss him on pouty lips. Wait no what; he didn't want to do that did he. He shook his head back and forth and walked all the way into the locker room.
He shook that last statement from his mind and decided that he needed to do something about it. He knew that he couldn't kill the kid but he could do the next best thing. Breaking into the J.D's locker, he pulled out an 8x10 picture that he knew was in there and began to rip it to pieces. Perry then proceeded to jump up and down on all the torn pieces as a sign that he was anger at the kid for making him feel that way about him. This is how J.D found him and was completely shocked at the doctor's actions.
"Dr. Cox, what the he-"
"Had to be done kid" Perry smirked as he walked out of the locker room, bumping J.D hard in the shoulder as he walked by.
Bargaining
Perry paced back and forth in his apartment mumbling to himself. Finally, he got down on his knees and kneeled in front of a statue of Jesus and Buddha.
"Okay holy figures. I don't believe in any of you because I think that you are a load of crock I mean come on, all this destruction in the world and you can't do a thing about" he rambled pointing to the Jesus figurine. "And you", pointing at the Buddha statue, "There is no such thing as gaining enlightenment by just sitting around and mediate all damn day long but I need help from one of you."
"It seems that I have caught feelings for a certain someone that I don't want feelings for so I need one of you to remove them. I don't care how you do but do it soon because I need it done. Whaddya say Jesus, if you do this for me I might every once in a while thank you after saving the life of a patient that you left to die. I'll even go to church everyone once in a while and pray to the big man upstairs."
Perry thought about that for a moment and quickly shook his head no. He knew that even if the feelings disappeared there was no way he was going to church, especially not on Sunday when it was hockey season. Or baseball, basketball or anything other season that had a ball in it.
"What about you Buddha?" he said turning from Jesus to the golden statue that sat down with his legs crossed Indian style. "If you take away these feelings I'll do yoga and become enlighten and do all that Buddhist crap."
"Nothing" Perry frowned at the figurines as if he expected them to say something but doing nothing but stare at him through their glass eyes.
"Ah forget it" Perry scowled as he left out of the room and went to his bedroom to think about his problem some more. He knew that it would be no use to sleep because too much was on his mind and he needed to find a way to fix it.
Depression
It had been a week since Perry had come to the realization that he liked J.D. He decided the best way to handle the situation was to simple ignore the kid but seeing as how he was always around, Perry found that difficult. Finally, Perry snapped and told J.D to go away and never bother him again if he didn't want a foot up his ass. That had been yesterday, he hadn't seen J.D since, and even though he hated to admit it, he was missing J.D.
Because he was missing J.D, he hadn't been acting like himself. He hadn't yelled at an intern, made Barbie cry, or insulted Kelso once. He didn't know how to shake the feeling off so he opted to walk around the hospital with a frown on his face.
Sighing as he walked up to the nurse's station, he growled when Carla just handed him to more charts without even looking up. He noticed that she was on the phone and talking to J.D.
"Bambi, I'm telling you; wear the black button up. It will make you sophisticated and attractive at the same time. Okay, yeah I know, I'm awesome. Alright, hasta luego to you too." Carla laughed as she hung up the phone. She looked up to see Perry staring down at her and noticed that Perry had been in a sad mood all morning. She decided that as his friend, she should find out what was going on. "What's wrong with you?"
"What do you mean?"
"You've been acting un like yourself all day. Like you're sad about something"
"Why do you assume I'm sad about something?" Perry snapped as he looked through the charts in his hand. He didn't know why he was trying to hide how he felt because if anybody could tell something was up with him, it was Carla.
"Because you haven't yelled at anyone today. No intern, not Elliot and not even Kelso; not even when he said that everyone will have to attend a mandatory physiatrist evaluation and I know how you feel about psychiatrist. Did you and Jordan have a fight or something?"
"No me and Godzilla did not have a fight Mrs. Busybody anything else you would like to know, hmm."
"Just asking, but I know something's up so you might as well tell me what it is"
"Anyways" Perry frowned, ignoring Carla as he picked up his charts and turned up to face her. "Was that Angela on the phone?"
"Yep"
"What's wrong with him, it sounded like a fashion emergency?"
"If you must know, Perry J.D has a date tonight and he was wondering what he should wear?"
"A date huh, so is Gandhi upset or has he realized that he can't have his cake and eat it too."
"You're such a jackass" Carla scowled as she picked up her own charts. "J.D has a date with a girl that he has been seeing for about a week. I'm actually happy that he has finally moved on."
"From what?"
"Well he didn't tell me exactly who it was but he had a huge crush on one of the doctors here. He tried his best to get their attention but all his attempts failed and now he decided that it was time to get back into the game." Carla smiled as she started to walk away from the counter. "Still, I just wanna say that those two look like they could get serious so if that doctor wants Bambi they better step up before it's too late."
Perry didn't say anything else but just grabbed his charts and left down the hall. Carla just laughed as she thought of how Perry was going to try to tell J.D how he felt. She had known along about Perry's feelings and knew that whatever he would try to say wasn't going to be pretty at all.
Acceptance
Perry paced outside of J.D's door for ten minutes before he finally found the courage to knock on it. When he did knock, a half naked J.D answered the door. Perry looked down to see the young man in blue jeans and a bottle of gel in his hands. It took all his composure in his body not to sexually attack J.D at the door. Instead, he just shoved his hands into his jeans and stared at the floor.
"Dr. Cox what are-"
"Don't talk, just listen," Perry growled as he used his shoulder to pushed J.D out of the way and made his way into the apartment. It wasn't the first time he had ever been in J.D's apartment but it was the first time he had ever been nervous about being there. "I need to tell you something."
"Okay" J.D shrugged as he sat down on the arm of the sofa, arms folded across his chest. "Shoot."
"I guess I should start from the beginning," Perry breathed as he starting talking, pacing at the same time. "Every since we got locked in that closet together I realized that…maybe on some deep level deep down, that it appears that I have…feelings for you and that I think that I may…like you"
Perry watched as J.D looked confused at first but the face was quickly by surprise. Perry suddenly felt embarrassed by what he just said as he felt his cheeks become fairly hot. He decided that maybe it would be best if he left when J.D spoke to him, stopping him mere inches from the door.
"How do you mean like me?"
"Huh."
"I mean do you like me like a cousin or do you like me like a brother, or do you like me like a best friend. Or do you like me like you want to screw me into oblivion, like me." he said the last part with a mixture of hope and lust in his voice.
"The fourth option." Perry quickly said as he reached his hand for the door when J.D unexpectedly grabbed him from behind to turn him around and placed a hard kiss on his lips. Perry quickly reacted to the kiss by wrapping his arms around J.D's slender body, using his tongue and fight for dominance over J.D's. What seemed like hours but was only minutes, the two of them pulled apart and Perry watch J.D's lips break into a smile.
"Well it's about time you accepted your feelings for me Perry because I accepted mine a long time ago." J.D smiled as grabbed Perry by the hand, leading him back to the bedroom. "But I have to admit, I thought you'd be living in denial forever."
"That was just the first stage," Perry said to his new lover as he kicked J.D's door closed with his foot behind them but not before all the stages ran quickly through his head.
Denial. Anger. Bargaining. Depression. Acceptance
He had to admit that he liked acceptance the best, especially if he received the opportunity to be on top of J.D more often.
Yeah I know longer than a prompt is supposed to be but I kinda let myself get carried away when I was writing it. I hope you don't mind. Ah, who am I kidding you probably don't. Anyways I gotta go, still have one more to post.
Keep your friends close and your favorite snacks closer,
LadyCizzle.
