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Emmett POV

I caught Jasper and set him down gently on the ground. What am I going to do, I started pacing, what am I going to do? I was freaking out. I should have forced Jasper to go to Carlisle the first time I found him hurting himself. Why was I so stupid?

Suddenly, I smelled a scent that could save me anywhere, it was Rosalie, my Rosie. But her scent was not alone. Carlisle, Esme, and Alice were there too. Oh no, not Alice. She didn't deserve to see her love, her protector, her Jasper like this. I knew that she would be able to handle it, she was strong. But still, she was my younger sister, it was my job to protect her when Jasper couldn't. In a way, I was glad that Alice had come, though, she had that best chance of helping him.

Alice POV

I needed Jasper, now even more than I had before. I needed him to put his arms around me and to tell me that everything would be alright, that it would work out fine. But he couldn't be here for me right now. God knows what shape he'll be in when we get there.

Right now Carlisle, Esme, Rosalie, and I were in the forest running to forks. I was running and watching Jasper's future at the same time. I was suddenly hit with a horrible vision of Jasper, Bella, and Emmett. A vision that made me stop and just start outright bawling. When I had seen Jasper by the river in forks, looking so weak and vulnerable, it had hurt me so much. I thought I knew what agony was when I saw him hurting himself so badly. But none of that was bad, not compared to what I saw now. It was Jasper, he was on the ground, lifeless, just skin and bones. If it weren't for the slight twitch of his fingers, something that happened every time he was having a flashback, I would have thought he was dead.

I forgot that I wasn't alone until Esme put a loving arm around my shoulders.

"You're ok," she said, "everything will be ok, we'll get to forks and Carlisle will help Jasper, you'll be ok."

"No", I said, "no you don't understand, I just saw Jasper…he…he was on the ground, he's so malnourished and weak, he just collapsed. I think he's having a flashback…" I trailed off, realizing that I just almost gave away one of the many secrets about Jasper's past that only Edward and I knew.

"A flashback?" Carlisle asked, "but what could have triggered it…"

He started pacing and mumbling to himself, then turned to me after a couple of seconds.

"Is there something we don't know about Jasper's past?" he asked.

"Well…um…"

I had promised Jasper that I would never tell Carlisle or anybody else the parts of his time with Maria that he himself had not told them, but this was for Jasper, my Jazz, they needed to know.

I sighed, looking up at Carlisle.

"Carlisle," I said, "I'm sorry, I never told you, Jasper didn't want you to know, didn't want anybody to feel pain on his behalf, as he put it, this is how Maria used to punish him, I think he's punishing himself. She used to starve him for months on end, bite him, tear him limb from limb, rape him, and then make it seem like it was all his fault, make him think that he deserved it. Starvation and self-harm became his releases whenever he was feeling depressed, which was basically all the time until, and even a little after he met me. He felt comfortable with me and eventually, with our family, so he stopped, but now he doesn't, he feels like a burden on us and blames himself for Edward's actions. He's in so much pain, Carlisle, but he isn't my Jazz. Maria has taken over his brain, changed him into something he's not, changed him into a killing machine, but not for anybody else, for himself, he's killing himself, Carlisle."

By the time I was done, Esme was quietly weeping next to me, Carlisle had started pacing again, and Rosalie looked like she wanted to kill somebody. She turned to the tree next to her and pulled it out of the ground, roots and all. She was about to through it, but Carlisle stopped her, saying "Rose, violence will do nothing for us right now, we need to get to forks, let's go!"

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