A/N: Wow aren't I just going on an update frenzy? Perhaps this will inspire updates of other stories. Hahaha I'm joking. Anyway ,it's been a while to say the least, so sorry for the delay, here's the next chapter:

Again listen to this song "Everything" by lifehouse

Find me here, speak to me

I want to feel you I need to hear you

You are the light that's leading me

To the place where I find peace again

You are the strength that keeps me walking

You are the hope that keeps me trusting…

A thousand scenarios of simply taking the young man who lay asleep in his arms away from that place flooded Cassian's mind. If he could only make him see, if he could only change his mind, if only he could save him.

People can't be saved

It was selfish to think that way. Selfish to believe that someone who has lived their life in so much pain could all of a sudden see the light. It was not as though Cassian was the escape from darkness, either. He'd killed people before, wished terrible things upon people he hadn't even known. He couldn't fool himself anymore than he could fool Jizabel. The doctor, an adult with the mind of child, and Cassian, vice versa...yes, it was foolish to think that he was any better for Jizabel than the cardmaster was.

Yet, he knew one thing. Alexis didn't give a damn about his son, and Cassian did. In his mind, that was justification enough to stay by the doctor's side. As long as he lived, he would prove to that man that he cared for him…that he loved him.

Jizabel's breathing was steady, although his body trembled. Cassian pulled him closer against his chest, brushing the wet hair from his face.

He's so beautiful when's he's not covered in blood…

"Cassian?" he whispered, voice almost drowned out by the storm. "You're shaking…" Cassian smiled a bit, realising that he was freezing. He'd barely noticed his own trembling as he held his superior close.

"I'm alright."

"Okay…" he stirred a bit, nuzzling against the older man's chest. "Can…can we just stay like this for a little…while…longer…?" the question faded back into the steady breathing of sleep.

"Forever is fine by me, Jizabel…"

You are the life to my soul

Your are my purpose you are everything

How can I stand here with you

And not be moved by you?

Would you tell me how it could be

Any better than this?

A flash of lightning illuminated the sky and the rain began to settle, leaving only a few low rumbles of thunder in the distance. A clock from down the street rang in the hour. Three in the morning, a few hours until day break. Cassian's heart sank as he looked at the man curled asleep in his arms. He didn't wish to think about the very real possibility that this could be the last time he would ever see Jizabel…alive, at least. A shudder swept through him, and he pulled him closer.

The young doctor's lips were slightly parted, breathing smoothly. Again, Cassian brushed hair away from his eyes which were lightly closed. Fingers pulled tighter around the fabric of Cassian's shirt and the younger man's eyebrows furrowed.

"…No…please…just, no…" normally Cassian would have woken him up seeing him in the middle of the nightmare, but this time he was curious. "father…why?...Please h-help…father…Cassandra he…please…help…" he took gasping breath, eyes snapping open. He sat up, desperately scanning his surroundings. Cassian held him closer, gently speaking,

"Jizabel…shh…it's ok, it was just a nightmare…" the doctor looked at him, confused.

"Cassian, what are you doing here?"

"Doctor…don't you remember…A few hours ago I found you…do you really not recall." Jizabel stood quickly, stepping in a newly formed puddle of water.

"Why are my clothes wet?"

"It was raining…you fell asleep out here." Jizabel shook his head, pacing the walk way in the huge garden. "What are you doing here?" It was as though he had dual personalities. One, scared confused child, and two, scared, confuse, and angry on the surface child.

Cassian tried to say in his calmest voice,

"Because you needed me to, Jizabel."

"Don't use my name!"

"But J-…doctor…I don't understand…" the doctor paused, staring at the ground.

"You should leave, Cassian…If they find you you'll be dead…" Cassian shook his head, approaching the other man. He softly lay a hand on his shoulder, feeling like his heart would burst.

"Doctor…did you really forget what happened only a few hours ago?" The hand was violently batted away. The sky was slowly growing lighter in the distance, and Cassian knew that this was his one chance to say something.

"Jizabel, listen to me!" he stated loudly. That got his attention. Jizabel whirled around, only to be caught by two small arms wrapping around his neck. Cassian, who was crying by now, having lost everything that he wanted within a few short hours whispered into his ear,

"Doctor…if you really want me to go I will…but…but…you're going to die if you stay here," Jizabel's eyes widened and the hands clung desperately to the back of his robe. "if the drugs don't kill you…something else will, I just…I just know it…" he sobbed, taking a few gasping breaths before speaking again. "You need to escape, Jizabel…" the doctor found himself wrapping his arms around his assistant, and tears fell from his own eyes. "Because…I…I love you…"

You calm the storms you give me rest

You hold me in your hands you won't let me fall

You still my heart and you take my breath away

'Cause you're all I want

you're all I need

you're everything

everything