I hope everyone is okay with smutt, because that is what you are going to get in this chapter. As well as a lot of major things are going to happen as well. I urge you not to skip around in this chapter.

Spring in Oregon was nothing but a few rays of sun and showers of cold wet rain that never seemed to cease. However, the March and April rain brought along with it flowers that bloomed in mid April. Tulips, Daisies, Lupins, and Cherry blossoms that bloomed in light soft pinks and whites, that livened up the forest. They were transient, so it was nice to enjoy them while they lasted.

Loki made constant trips to the pond during this time. It reminded him of the gardens back on Asgard- the flowers in full bloom and the air was light, but heavy with the flowers fragrances, and the birds were singing their sweet songs in the trees.

Loki usually went by himself to give him some time alone, but this day was different. After an hour of trying to convince Hannah to put on a blindfold, she willingly let him put it on her and he took her to the pond. Loki lead her through the thick forest, and down the now visible path, until they got to their destination.

"Loki. where are we? We've been walking around in the forest for about twenty minutes now, what is it?"

"Just hold on, darling…" Loki stood behind her, and untied the sky blue tie that had been used as the blindfold. As it fell from her eyes, Loki made a swift move to stand next to her, and watched as her mouth dropped and eyes widened at the beautiful sight that lay before her.

"Loki...where are we?"

"I…I'm not entirely sure." Loki stammered, "I found it a while back, but I haven't got a name for it yet."

Hannah walked out to the middle of it near the bench, walking past a patch of daisies and light purple flowers.

"You found this place?"

"Yes, I just said that not two seconds ago." He said, being a little melodramatic. "I did make the bench, however."

Hannah's eyes immediately darted over to the simple wooden bench next to her. "You made this?"

"Yes, and just repeating everything I saw in question form isn't going to change my answers." Loki smirked. He wrapped his arms around her waist, set his chin on her shoulder, and started humming. Hannah put her hands on his and tangled her fingers in his.

"What are you humming?"

"A song." He said and started humming again. He started to swing his hips side to side, and Hannah moved hers with him.

"That was not what I meant."

"I know." Loki breathed and pressed his lips onto the crook of her neck. "I just don't have to tell."

HIs warm breath on her neck made Hannah moan. Tilting her head back ,she closed her eyes and smiled. "Why can't you just tell me?"

"Why can't you just let it go?" He murmured

Hannah scoffed and pulled his hands tighter around her waist. "Come on."

Loki kissed her neck and started to sing. "So, you're on the prowl wondering whether she left already or not. Leather jacket, collar popped up like antenna. Never knowing when to indoors, par for the course. Lights in the floors and sweat on the walls, cages and off the search for your soul, or put it on hold again. She's having a sly indoor smoke and she calls the folks who run this her oldest friends. Sipping a drink and laughing at imaginary jokes. As all the signals are sent, her eyes invite you to approach, and it seems as though those lumps in your throat that you just swallowed have got you going: Come on, come on, come on, Come on, come on, come on number one party anthem."

Loki loosened his grip around her and stepped in front of her, his gaze in hers. After a few seconds, he tilted her head up so his lips hovered just above hers, but he could still look her in the eyes.

"She's a certified mind blower, knowing full well that I don't. May suggest there's somewhere from which you might know her, just to get the ball to roll. Drunken monologues, confused because It's not like I'm falling in love I just want you to do me no good,and you look like you could…" Loki put his lips on her mouth, and brought her hips to his. His hand moved down her back and to her butt, just before Hannah pulled out of the kiss and stopped him.

"Not now, you already used your 'one free butt touch' already."

Loki whined and pulled himself away from her. "I know, but I really like touching your butt."

"I know you do, but-"

"I know." Loki laughed. "I understand perfectly. It's alright." Loki turned his back to her and started walking down the the waters edge. The sunlight glistened on the still water and Loki looked down into his reflection in the water. His brow furrowed and he tilted his head slightly. He never really enjoyed looking at his reflection, not because he didn't think that he was handsome,not to sound too full of himself, it was because after he found out what he really was, he never looked at himself the same way again. He did see a prince, but a monster. He did not see his reflection as a Frost Giant, but himself in the form of a monster. Loki looked as he normally did, but there was just something about the way his reflection held his head, and the way his eyes were cold and mean.

As Loki brought his head back up, he saw Hannah's reflection in the pond as well as his. She walked slowly to his side and put an arm around his waist and leaned into him.

"Are you okay?"

Loki's reflection had a blank look on his face, and he replied. "Yeah, I'm fine." Loki loled up from the pond and changed the subject, so she wouldn't ask of he was okay again. "I'm just a bit curious as to when we are going to Seattle to meet...uh, whats his face. The guy that Corryn has been talking to for the past few months now."

"Gus?"

"Yeah, Augustus or Gus. When are we meeting him?"

"We're leaving tomorrow at around noon to meet him by at least four."

"And we know he's not an axe murder. Am I correct?"

"There is always that possibility, but again we are going with her so it'll be fine."

"If you think that I'm going to discourage an axe murder, then you're wrong. I might fight him off at first, but I might die as well." He shrugged and walked away from the pond with Hannah's hand in his.

"I'm bored." Hannah said abruptly, as Loki bent to the ground and starting pickling flowers from the patches of daisies and other flowers growing in the field.

"And what do you suppose I do about that?" He continued to tear the flowers from the stem.

"I don't know. Watch a movie, go shopping, take a walk."

"We just took a walk, so I wouldn't mind watching a movie or going out for Lunch in the city. My treat." He handed Hannah the bouquet of daisies, and she took them and brought them to her nose. "And Corryn get's out of school when? 2:20?

"Yeah."

Loki put his wrist in front of his face and read the time on his watch. "That gives us about three hours until she gets home, so if we have a relatively fast lunch, we can go shopping I suppose."

"Really?" Hannah smiled walking up to Loki and pressing herself against him.

"Yeah, we need some new clothes for spring anyway." Loki kissed the tip of her nose, and she smiled at his touch. "C'mon, lets go."

As the weather took a turn for the worse, they walked back to the house and from there they went to the city and went to a small Thai food restaurant and had a quick lunch of a plate of noodles and chicken curry. Loki looked outside to the falling rain.

"Maybe it'll be sunny on Tuesday."

Hannah turned and faced the dark grey sky. Hannah knew better than that. They walked through the city under a bright red umbrella and walked into clothes shops, and when Loki opened the door he smiled for Hannah and she smiled back at him and, for Loki, everything seemed to be alright, even though it wasn't quite alright but the thing was, Loki didn't know why he wasn't okay.

He carried on though, buying Hannah and himself clothes that they needed for the warm weather of spring that had left them about an hour or so ago. Gathering the purchases of shorts, a few shirts, and some pants, Hannah checked the time on her watch.

"We should go soon. Corryn will be home in about an hour."

"Pardon?" Loki say giving his attention to an article of clothing that had caught his eye in the

window display.

"We need to go."

Loki sighed "Alright." He opened the door and Hannah smiled back at him. Loki opened the red umbrella and handed it over to Hannah to shed his coat.

"Loki, aren't you cold?" Hannah took the umbrella from his hands.

"No. I was actually starting to heat up a bit in the jacket."

"Are you alright?" Hannah asked, pressing the back of her hand to Loki's forehead. "You're not feverish."

"Yeah I'm fine, it's just I was a little hot in the jacket."

"Okay, put if you get a cold-"

"It'll be my fault. I get it."

Once they got home, there was nothing productive to do, so Hannah napped on the couch and Loki flipped through an old book. He eventually got around to packing his things for the three day trip to Seattle, which should be exciting. Loki shoved the two shirts, pants, pajamas, and socks into a black backpack, and put it in the trunk of the car with the other two bags.

They ate leftover spaghetti for dinner that night.

By the time it was time to leave came around, everyone was packed tightly into the car,and they were gone. Hannah turned the radio on and they sang along to the songs that they knew, and made attempts to sing along to the ones that the knew, but were unsure of what the lyrics were, laughing at the mistakes they made.

Loki had grabbed the camera that had been snuck into the car, and put under the driver's seat. He turned it on and started flipping through the photos that had been taken over the past few months, starting at around Christmas. There weren't a lot of pictures with Loki in them, but the few that he was in he was with Hannah, except for one.


"You're very photogenic, Loki." Hannah laughed, putting the camera up to her face to see a photo that she got of Loki

"What?" Loki asked, setting a book down on his lap

"I finally got a picture of you." Hannah gloated.

Loki got up off the couch and walked over to Hannah , who still stood smiling down at the camera.

"Hannah, c'mon, you know I don't want my picture taken." He stood behind her and started down at the photo. The photo was of Loki looking happy, flipping through a book. To have hims in a picture was one thing, but to have him looking happy was a completely different thing. So, to have them both together was something that she would never delete.

"I know, Loki, but it's just one picture." She turned her to face him, and saw him looking down at the photo, and he glanced up at her and smiled.

"I love it, Hannah." He smiled, and looked back down at the photo.

"You should get a haircut soon." Hannah ran a hand through his hair, that now was coming to his shoulders.

"I will, just not today." Loki smacked his lips, and snatched the camera from Hannah. "Alright, now its your turn. Smile, Hannah!" Loki brought camera to his eye and snapped a picture of Hannah trying to take the camera away from him.


Loki ran his hand through his hair. It still needed to be cut. He tucked the camera back down under the seat and grabbed Game of Thrones and started to read. He really did enjoy reading this series and it was one of his favorite books. Loki always had it by his side. He touched every page that he turned, learning every twist and turn, and remembered every single word that was written, even the ones that made him cry. His absolute favorite quote was: "Let me give you some counsel, bastard. Never forget what you are, for surely the world will not. Make it your strength. Then it can never be your weakness. Armor yourself in it, and it will never be used to hurt you."

The Loki would always remember who he is, but it was his weakness, not his strength. It was often used against him, to make him feel weak or sad, or angry and after awhile, he couldn't take the constant jibes. At first, he ignored them, then he snapped one day, and the rest is history. After that he agreed with the ones who made the jibes. Loki accepted their taunts as truth and he told himself that he was those things:

A monster. A beast. A bastard. Undesirable.

Loki thought that he would never get better and that forever he would be unwanted and a monster, and he will forever be one. But, he can change the outlook of his life by making his life a happy one, filled with love, hope, and the sense of belonging. No one would bite back his anger, hostility, guilt, envy, and pain as he did. Loki would never let his feeling and woe show because if he did, the ones he loved would resent him. So now he uses what he is-a monster, a beast, and undesirability as a strength and not a weakness. This way, no one could hurt him.


Thor and Loki walked to the stables to get their horses for their jousting lessons. They had just returned from their sword and hand to hand combat lessons and Loki kept his eyes to the ground, crossing his arms and keeping to himself. Loki huffed as he kicked up a pile of dirt.

"Will you stop kicking the dirt up, Loki?"

"I'm sorry, brother. It's just that the instructor and the others made me angry."

"Loki we did well. Get angry if you didn't."

"That last fight was terribly easy to beat. If I had done it, not you, I would have had won. I would be the the more impressive one. But you had to take my place, didn't you?"

"I just told you that you shouldn't use magic to help you win. That's cheating."

Loki stopped and grabbed Thor's shoulder. "There is no cheating in war, brother dearest. It's win or die. It does not matter to me how I survive in war, and attain victory."

"I know, but this is just a game."

"No, it's not just a silly game, Thor. If war were to raged out tomorrow, you wouldn't be prepared."

"I don't believe a war is going start tomorrow, brother. I think that you are just a little jealous of me."

"Yeah, sure." He said sarcastically, rolling his eyes. He took a deep breath before he spoke again. " 'Loki, why don't you have Thor teach you how to swing a sword properly?' "Loki mumbled under his breath. " 'It's a good thing Thor is your brother, so he can teach you how to do things the right way, and not make a fool out of yourself. Oh wait, you already have.' 'Why can't you be like your brother, Loki?"

"Now come on, Loki, who said that? I will find them and teach them a lesson or two."

"Don't waste your time on me, brother. I am perfectly fine on my own and handling my own problems." Loki tuned and started walking away, with Thor at his back.

"Loki, come on. You are just as good as I am."

"Have you ever heard the way father introduces us? 'This is our first born son, Thor." Loki said in a deep, proud voice, imprestating Odin when talking about Thor. Loki looked off to the side a bit looking disappointed. " 'And this is our other son, Thor's younger brother.' Its like he is saying, 'You are no son of mine. Disperse back into the pits of Hell, where I found you. And when you go, don't ever return to me.' They should have just had you and got a fish or something that would get more recognition than I get."

"Sigyn likes you." Thor said, trying to cheer him up.

"That is different, Thor, she is my wife. She is supposed to like me."

"Well, a wife is something that I don't have that you do. That is something to be proud of. She also bears your child."

"I am aware that she carries my child, Thor. I see her everyday and each day, her stomach becomes more and more prominent."

"Are you at all excited?"

"Pardon? That seems like an absurd question. Of course I am, but I am also scared to death about it."

"Very well."

Loki rolled his eyes and started walking slightly faster than Thor to get ahead of him. "Why are you walking so fast?" Thor started catching up to him

"Why are you?" Loki said, irritated with his brother.

"Because I can." Thor said, nearly passing him on the right.

Loki looked at Thor, and increased his speed to almost a run. And Thor did the same. This went on until they were both sprinting to get to the stables. Loki pushed passed Thor and kicked dirt behind him to get him to stop.

"I win." Loki huffed slowing himself in the large palace stables. He bent over, hands on his knees to catch his breath, as Thor walked in and leaned against one of the wooden poles at the entrance. Loki smiled up at him as Thor gave an annoyed grunt.

"I have no time…" -He took a breath- "For your games. Loki."

"Your just jealous that I'm a better runner than you, brother." Loki straightened himself out, and turned to face his horses stall. "Besides, if you had no time for games, why did you play?"

Thor gave another irritated look at his younger brother, who waited patiently for an answer. "Because….I….."

Loki scoffed and grabbed his horses bridle and saddle. "You should get your things before William gets here and becomes furious with you."

Thor picked himself off the pole and grabbed his horses things. "Whatever you say. little brother. Anyway, when I'm king we won't have to practice combat every single day and learn how to joist."

"Right, that is because you'll be drunk off your ass and won't be able to lift a sword."Thor glare at him as Loki continued to make jibes at him.

"Don't be an arse." Thor said throwing a small handful of hay at his brother in the next stall over.

"Well, stop drinking and eating. Soon the whole city will be dry of the sweet taste of wine and we'll all forget the taste of bread and fresh berries." He sighed glancing off into the distance.

"Don't be so dramatic." Thor huffed, strapping the saddle onto his horse.

"Don't be so dramatic." Loki mocked. He huffed lifting the saddle over his horses back

Thor ignored his brothers immaturity, and went on getting his horse dressed in his jousting attire.


Loki looked up toward Hannah, driving the car, and smiled. Since Valentines day, nothing had really changed despite the fact that they kissed, held hands, and watched Star Trek together at 2 am on more than one occasion. Loki feared that something terrible would happen to her, though. Loki let Hannah into his heart and Hannah let him into hers, after he said that he wouldn't become vulnerable and he did. He was unsure if this would cause him pain or not, Loki's original plan was to walk the world on his own, not getting too attached to anything, because he didn't want to get hurt or hurt anyone by leaving. Alone was what Loki had. Alone was what protected him. But it was too late now. Loki loved her to much to walk out on her, and he couldn't bring himself to hurt her. But, if a time ever came where she would be in danger with being with him, he would have no choice, but to leave her in a heartbeat. Thus doing so would cause him insufferable pain and regret.

Loki's dreams were not as empty as his hope was. His hope and desires had been bled dry, and he was running solely on dreams in which he and Hannah were together, were no one was there to take him away. But, it was just a dream and dreams aren't as stupid as they seem when you dream them up.

In fact, his nightmares would always become true and his dreams were just foolish fragments of Loki's desires.


Several hours later, they were in Seattle. The city was larger than Portland, but it was still a small city. Glass and steel buildings stretched to the sky, and concrete highways moving in and out of the city. Located at the north end of the city was the iconic Space Needle, next to a medium sized body of water. That was where they would eat dinner and meet Gus.

After sitting in a car for several uneventful hours, it was a nice change to get out and stretch your legs out and walk through the city on a warm sunny day.

"Why do they call it a 'Space Needle'?" Loki asked, snapping a picture of the top of the Needle.

"It's just a name. Why is your name Loki?" Hannah asked. Loki opened his mouth to answer, but was cut off. "It was a rhetorical question, Loki." She patted his shoulder, as he smiled and nodded.

"Of course it was."

They boarded the elevator at four, just in time for their reservation. Fitting their way into the elevator, Loki silently wondered why the boy in front of them had a ring in his nose.

"Corryn, what does your pen-pal look like?" Hannah asked on the way up.

"I'm not sure. Dark hair, blue eyes, short."

"I'm five foot six, actually." The boy in front turned around. "I'm Augustus, or Gus." He smiled kindly, his pale lips parting to reveal white teeth. He was skinny and pale, with a black hoodie and dark jeans frayed near his red converse. His raven hair swooped over his right eye, accentuating the blue in the other.

"Uhm, hi." Corryn said shyly, smiling back. Loki could see her blushing, but kept it to himself. The elevator dinged, and the four stepped out into the dining room. The walls were lined with booths, each with window from which you could see the entire city, and red leather seats.

"Shall we go to the observation deck and leave you two alone?" Loki asked, and Corryn nodded.

"Is that all right, sir? I mean, this is our first meeting." Gus asked. Loki smiled. If the boy was this polite all the time, he'd let Corryn marry him in a heartbeat.

"Well, we aren't going far, and since we've determined you're not an axe murderer, I think a date alone would be alright."

"Loki…" Corryn Blushed, and Loki smiled before walking with Hannah back into the elevator.

"Why'd you leave them alone?" Hannah asked as they climbed back into the elevator and hit the observation deck button.

"He's the type of boy who would just sit there and hold her, even if the world was ending. The type of man to give a naked woman his jacket rather than stare and tell all the other men to fuck off."

"All that from an elevator ride?"

"What can I say?" Loki shrugged, "I'm good with people. I know them...maybe a little too well."

Walking onto the observation deck, Loki immediately darted toward the outside viewing area, and Hannah didn't follow immediately, but instead went to one of the mini stores and bought them dinner. Loki pulled the camera out of its black case at his side, and started taking pictures of Elliott Bay and surrounding buildings. He was fascinated with the car wash, Pink Elephant, and took pictures of the sign over and over again. When Hannah came outside, she had a bag in hand.

"What did you get?" Loki asked snapping a picture of Mount Rainier.

"Gummy candies a few sodas and some sandwiches. It's our dinner for the night." She sighed, lifting the bag to her head.

"Do you wanna go in and eat?"

"Not yet. It's been a while since I've been here, so I want to get the most out of this."

"You're grown up now and I guess it's just time for a new experience."

"Everything has been a new experience since meeting you."

"I am unaware if that statement was a compliment or not." Loki chuckled quietly.

Hannah scoffed. "It was kinda both."

Loki shrugged, putting the camera to his eyes, and taking a picture of her reaching for the camera trying to take it from smiled and laughed when the picture came up on the screen.

"Loki, give it here!" Hannah shouted jokingly, as she reached for the camera. But Loki would move it away from her reach each time she grabbed for it. Eventually she stopped and crossed her arms and pouted like a child.

"Come on, Hannah." He teased, poking at her shoulder. "Don't be like this."

"Just give me the camera." Loki huffed and handed her the camera, and when she got it she flipped through the photos he had taken. "These are pretty good, Loki." She nodded.

"So, does that mean, we can keep the one I got of you?"

Hannah laughed and nodded in response. She put the camera strap around her neck. Grabbing Loki's hand, she and him walked to the edge of the deck and took it all in-the calm still water of the bay, the traffic flowing in and out of the city, the clear blue sky with some clouds scattered across it, the tall buildings that kissed the sky, and the fading sun in the distance.

"The horizon is beautiful." Hannah said under her breath, just loud enough so Loki could hear.

"It is, but not as beautiful as you are, darling. The horizon does try to be, though, it's just as not as kind on the eyes as you are."

"Oh, Loki, you're so sweet." Hannah blushed and covered her cheeks, so he wouldn't see. Loki bit his lower lips and wrapped an arm over her waist, and she put her head on his shoulder.

They were silent and still, holding each other in their arms, watching the city go about, and the sun fall behind the buildings taking the blue sky with it.

"We should eat before the soda's get warm and the sandwiches get gross." Loki said, taking his arm off her and turning towards the door with Hannah following behind.

They ate their sandwiches and drank their soda on a small table next to the window and watched the blue sky continue to be dragged down by the sun. Loki picked at the jellybeans and gummy worms Hannah had bought.

"What are these?" Loki opened the bag of the jellybeans and poured some onto his hands. "They look like normal beans, but they're not. Are they a type of treat?"

"Yeah, they're jellybeans. Just try one and I'm sure you'll like them." Hannah took the beans out of his open hand and put them in her mouth.

Loki cocked his head and raised his eyebrows "Really?" He laughed grabbing a few more from the bag, and put a green one and a yellow one in his mouth. He sucked on the hard outer shells tasting the lemon and the lime and chewed its softer jelly-like center. "You weren't wrong." He put another one in his mouth. "They taste fantastic and as of now, they're my new favorite candy."

"I thought your favorite was peanut butter cups."

"Forgive and forget." Loki took cleared the garbage off the table and retook Hannah's hand. They walked back outside, where they were the only ones there because of the cold Seattle wind. It bit into Hannah's skin, under her thin sweater. Seeing her distress, Loki took of his sweatshirt and handed it to her.

"Won't you get-"

"No." Loki shook his head. "I don't cold easily."

Hannah put the sweatshirt on, and it was obvious it wasn't hers-The sleeves came past her hands, and the hem of the sweatshirt came down to the upper middle of her thigh. She walked over to the edge, and slumped over it, looking down she could see people walking around minding their own. Loki came up from behind her and snatched her waist and hoisted her up, laughing as he did.

A terrible scream came from her lungs and she cursed, as he nearly brought her completely over the edge. He put her down, and immediately after he feet touched the ground, she slapped his bare arm. He cursed rubbing the redding arm.

"The hell was that, Loki?" She shouted, narrowing her eyes.

"I would never let you fall." He said reassuring her. "I'm sorry, that was wrong of me, and I won't do anything like that again." He said sincerely, putting a hand on her jawline, lifting her face to his. "I would never let anything bad happen to you." She gazed up into his eyes. "Okay?"

Hannah rolled her eyes and shrugged, "Okay."

"Okay." Loki repeated.

At 6:30 they picked Corryn and Gus up, and they exchanged phone numbers, and spent less than two seconds hugging before he waved goodbye and went on his way home and they went to their hotel.

Hannah went into the hotel, while Loki and Corryn waited in the car for her to come back with the room keys.

Loki took a deep breath before asking, "So, was he...y'know a good guy?"

Corryn's face went red and she answered as quiet as a mouse. "Yes."

"I don't mean to pry, Corryn, but I just need to know if the guy is a good person or not."

"I know, Loki. You would do anything to keep the people you love safe, and if that means asking about Gus, then so be it."

Loki nodded in agreement. "What music does he like?"

They continued to talk about what type of person Gus was and Loki was pleased with the answers that was given to him. Gus was a good person at heart who wanted to help others and was very quiet at first, but once you got to know him ,he would open up a bit.

Hannah came back to the car a minute later and handed Corryn her room key.

"You're letting me sleep in my own room?"

"Yeah, have fun and don't rack up the hotel bill. If you need anything, Loki and I are in room 228."

Loki dropped his bags at the entrance of their hotel room. He reached into his pocket, pulled out the key and opened the door and held it open and Hannah walked in. Loki followed close behind, before he bumped into Hannah, frozen at the threshold of the room.

"What is it, love?" Loki asked, setting his bags down.

"They screwed up the reservation…"Hannah said, still as a rock at the entrance of the room

"And?"

"And….they gave us the honeymoon suite." Hannah swallowed before walking into the room more to let Loki in.

Loki took it all in- the rose petals scattered across the floor, the champagne on ice in the corner, the tall skinny red candles burning , and the one ridiculously plush king sized bed.

"I apologize for the inconvenience this has brought us. I'll just go talk to the concierge." Loki said softly, turning back out the room.

"Don't." Hannah replied, sitting on the side of the bed.

"I'm sorry?"

"Don't. It's not like we paid for the room, so we might as well enjoy it."

"Huh, okay." Loki walked over to the large window at the end of the room, that gave a brilliant view of the city. At night, the city of Seattle seemed more alive than during the day. The city was alight with bright fluorescent lights like stars, and the sky was a deep purple blue with the moon hanging high above the Space Needle.

Loki turned back at Hannah, who was cracking open a bottle of the champagne.

"So, who's gonna get the bed tonight?"

Hannah looked up from the bottle, and poured herself a glass. "I will."

"But, then where will I sleep? I mean I'm not sleeping on the floor-I'm not a dog."

"I know." Hannah's eyes darted across the room, until she pointed at the fireplace in the other room and a chair in front of it."You can sleep there."

Loki hung his mouth open and furrowed his brow. Really? A chair.

"Really?" Loki cocked his head to the side.

"Look, tell you what: If you can make it the entire night without getting out of the chair, you can have the bed tomorrow. Fair?"

Loki looked over the antique white golden trimmed chair in the corner of the room and sighed. It would be a nice to sit in and read a book or two, while drinking a nice tea next to a roaring fire, but probably not the best place to sleep without developing neck or back pains by morning. But Loki obliged.

"Sure, but until I or you actually goes off to bed tonight, I can stay on the bed. Fair?" Loki smiled.

Hannah nodded and poured him a glass of champagne. "Of course."

Loki went into the bathroom to change into his pajamas, before getting on the bed with Hannah to watch movies and drink a glass or two of champagne. The bathroom was glorious and quite large. Marble flooring, and counter tops with white glossy sinks that had a gold trim The heart-shaped tub with rose petals thrown in was a little over the top, but no doubt would be nice to bathe in.

When Loki got out of the bathroom, Hannah was in her pajamas as well, sitting cross legged and nestled up against the shiny wooden headboard, flipping through the channels on the TV. Loki put his clothes back in his bag and jumped onto the end of the bed.

When Loki landed on the bed, it was like laying on a cloud that had been trapped in a bed sheet made of the softest cotton, the feather pillows were just that, light and soft, and the plush cotton blanket added that little something special. It was no wonder that the hotel management had chosen these materials for their honeymoon suite.

The laughter in the room increased as the amount of champagne decreased and two hours later the only sounds in the room was that of laughter and the cartoon playing in the background. They found the gelato in the freezer, along with the chocolate dipped strawberries in the fridge and like the champagne, it was gone before they had time to comprehend it was really there.

By the time eleven rolled around, Loki was a bit tired, but not exhausted and so he rolled off the bed, brushed his teeth in the extravagant bathroom and slumped into the chair. Yawing, he said goodnight to Hannah, who was still sitting up in bed, under the cotton soft sheets and plush blankets.

Loki closed his eyes almost immediately after he had said his goodnight, but did not sleep. He heard Hannah get out of bed and walk into the bathroom. The sound of water splashing in the sink, and the scratch of a toothbrush against teeth. Every sound was amplified in his ears, and he tossed and turned in the chair trying to get himself to relax enough to sleep. The chair was as comfortable as it had looked. With the way the chair was made with lumps along the it, he would find no comfort sleeping on the chair tonight.

After an hour or so, Loki got up from the bed and walked over to the sink, turned on the faucet and splashed his face with the lukewarm water that came out. His clenched the counter and for the time he was there, he let the warm water drip off his face, before he dried off with a towel and walked back over to the chair.

"Are you still up?" Hannah asked rolling over, and putting an arm under her head

"Yeah. The chair- I can't sleep in it."

Hannah sighed and picked up the blankets on the bed, inviting him in. "Come on."

"Pardon?"

"Come on, Loki. You can't sleep in the chair, so you can sleep in the bed." Her eyes invited him to approach

"With you?"

"With me."

Loki was hesitant to do so, but he asked. "You sure?"

"Loki come on." Hannah said, a tone of frustration in her voice.

Loki walked over the end of the bed, and slipped under the covers. Hannah rolled over on her side and turned over to face him. Loki was as stiff as a board under the sheets, Sure he didn't mind cuddling with her an hour before, but this was somehow different. He would be sleeping with her, and he had a tendency to roll over and lean up against with whatever was in the bed with him. Loki rolled the other way and wrapped the blankets around himself tightly.

The minutes that passed became hours that passed until it was past midnight and Loki was still wide awake. He rolled over and lie on his side irresolute. He reached over and lightly tapped Hannah's shoulder,it was little contact at most. Immediately after his touch, Hannah rolled over and faced him.

"What?" There was no signs that she had been sleeping before. No grogginess in her voice, and she didn't yawn once.

"I can't sleep."

"Neither can I." Hannah sat up against the middle backboard and plopped her hands into her lap. "I thought the bed would help, but I guess not."

"I guess not." Loki repeated, softly.

Hannah sid down back onto the bed and rolled onto her side to face Loki. Loki was hesitant, but ever so lightly pressed his lips against hers. It wasn't even a kiss really, more like mere contact at most. He began to kiss her harder, and his hands found her neck and one of them begins to entangle itself into her hair. Hannah moved her hands as well, only to his waist and brought him closer to her's. She even kissed back a bit. Hannah broke out of the kiss and rested her forehead against Loki's.

"I am in love with you, Hannah Gracelynn Hyden."

"I love you too." Hannah moved her lips back to his, and kissed him hard and deeply and even started to bite at his lower lip. Loki ran a hand up the nape of her neck, through her hair and started to entangle it in her hair, as another hand brought her closer to him. Hannah opened her mouth, and Loki slipped his tongue in. He rolled her back over on her back, so he was on top of her.

"Do you want to do this?" He asked in between kisses

"Yes." Hannah crashed her lips to his, and dragged her hands down his chest, and under his shirt. Loki took his hand and placed it on her jawline , and tilted her head up. He grabbed at her ass, and a smile broke across his face as she shrieked at his touch. He made a move to lift Hannah's shirt up, but she stopped him halfway up.

"What are you doing?" He whispered in her ear. "I thought-Do you not-"

"No, I do, it just that….I don't think…"
"Think what?" He said softly. He looked into her eyes and saw that the lights in here eyes were fading. "What is it?"

"It's just that...I don't think that I am…"She started to speak in a lower tone and blurted out, "I don't think that I am beautiful enough."

Loki was taken aback. "What? Don't be silly, Hannah. You are absolutely beautiful." He cupped her face in her hands.

"I know that you think that, but I have scars from when I was eight and had the chicken pox, and a scar from when I had appendicitis and had to get surgery-goodbye binkis. I just don't think that-"Hannah was cut off by Loki pressed his mouth to hers.

"I think that you are the most beautiful of all. Scars and all. Hell, I have scars too. Don't you remember how we met?" He kissed her forehead. "I love your intelligence and how you can come up the solution to any problem." He kissed her cheek. "I love your blue eyes and how they are like the blue in my grey world." He kissed her nose. "I love your nose because I think its cute." She laughed as he brought his lips to hers her lips. "I love your lips, and the kind words you speak to me." He stopped and looked her in the eyes. "I love everything there is about you." Loki brought his hands back down to the hem of her shirt and pulled it off completely, leaving her laying in her blue laced bra. "See, I told you. You are beautiful."

Loki put his lips to hers in hard, deep, wet kiss. As his mouth trailed down to her neck, Hannah tangled her hand into his hair and clutched his shoulder. At first, Loki didn't know what to do with his hands. He wanted to touch every part of her, and so he ran his hands up and down her body,learning every curve and bump on her body and finding out what makes her quiver.

Loki was overwhelmed with love that he had no idea with what to do with himself. He became still suddenly, and his eyes closed and pressed parted lips on Hannah's forehead, just breathing her in. His heart about to burst with how much he completely, and utterly loves the women in his arms.

He eventually moved again, and stopped his hands at her breasts massaging her nipples under his thumbs, and hide his face in the crook of her neck, panting on her neck while whispering sweet words into her ear. He started kissing her neck and she could hear him moaning out her name. She could feel the fierce strength in his hands, but he would never hurt her.

Hannah put her hands at the hem of his shirt and began to pull it up. Her hands stopped at his shoulder and her nails bit into his flesh. Loki pulled his mouth from her neck and pulled his shirt off, threw it on the floor and bit into her neck and slipped a hand down her pants and to the wetness between her legs, as she pressed her face into the crook of his neck, choking out in protest.

"Bastard."

"You're probably right. I knew that my father was Laufey, but not quite sure who my mother was or if they were married or not. But, I suspect you don't mean that quite literally." He whispered into her ear, as he massaged her crotch and eventually worked his middle finger in twisting and hooking. She bit her lip hard not to let a moan escape her lips.

Seeing her bit into her lips, he slipped his finger out, clenched her waist and moved his hands down to her ass, and and yanked her pajama pants down below her knees and they pooled at her ankles. She kicked them off and they feel to the ground, before, Slowly, he kissed up thigh, stopping every now and then to suck on patches of skin, as if marking you as his own, making Hannah shudder. Loki slipped his thumb into her panties and hummed as he moved to her stomach,"You really do, do me no good." He muttered against her skin moving up to the flesh between her breasts, the middle of her neck, and her lips.

He bit into her lower lip, as Hannah dug her nails into his shoulder. Her hands clenched his hips and she rolled him over so she sat in between his legs. She leaned forward placing one hand on his chest, and the other on his hip. Her lips trailing down his abdomen starting at just above his chest. Loki looked down at her and groaned, as she pulled his pajamas and relived the friction that was growing in his pants. She pulled them down just below his waist and Loki sat up to help pull them down further to his knees and kicked them off. Hannah made her way back up to his neck and bit into him, causing a whine to escape from his lips. Her hands clenched his shoulders, neck, and chest, as they continued to move up and down his body. Her lips did the same.

Loki wrapped his arms at her shoulders and then moved his hands to the back or her bra, where he unclasped it and skimmed his hands over her smooth naked back. His fingertips ran up her shoulders, gently tugging the strap of her bra down and off her breasts.

Hannah sat on his hips and let his eyes wander across her body, and he did. From her eyes, to her neck, her collarbone, down to her breasts, and to the curve of her hips, his fingers brushing lightly over her round breasts.

Loki put his wanting lips to hers in a rough way, but that had a gentle quality to it. This lasted about a minute, before Hannah pushed him back onto the bed and shoved her tongue into her mouth and he kissed her back the same. This went on for about another second or two before Loki flipped her over so he sat with one leg in between hers.

" I wasn't done yet." Hannah groaned. Her nails dug into his back and left left a number of deep scratches, and bruising from his shoulders to his lower back.

"Shame." Loki trailed his mouth down her neck and to the soft skin between her breasts, and then sucked, licked, and bit into them, giving them both equal attention. He grabbed both her wrists and pinned them against the mattress, slowly grinding into her.

"Loki." She blurted out in a grunt. She tried to pull her wrists away from his grip, but he was stronger than she started squirm under him and he laughed at her attempts to free herself.

"Loki...please." She whined.

"Please?"

"Loki...please, c'mon." She twisted her wrists in his grip. Loki groaned, and released his grip, and her wrists were red from the pressure he put on her. Loki returned his attention to her panties. She arch her back, as his lips pressed on the soft, warm skin of her stomach and drifted down to just below her naval. Loki stopped, and fixed his gaze in Hannah's.

"I really do like these on you." Loki plucked at them with his teeth, teasing her. and started pulling them down. "But, I find them much more lovely on the ground then on you." He pulled them off completely and ran his slender fingers along the inside of her upper thighs finding the slick heat between them.

"Hannah, darling...I love you." He said, his voice deep and hoarse, but in kind. "I'll be as gentle as possible." He said moving back on her. Hannah nodded, and he moved back over her. He gazed into her eyes, before slowly sliding into her.

Hannah groaned immediately, and instinctively wrapped her legs around his waist, as he grabbed her first, he moved slowly, as he kissed her gently on her neck and jaw.

Hannah continued to yell from the pain, but Loki would be there to whisper softly into her ear.

"Shhh, the pain will subside soon, darling."

"I know, it's just-fuck!" She screamed as he moved harder and deeper.

Loki smirked and pressed his lips near her ear, and whispered, "Trust me, darling, your voice sounds much more intoxicating when it's hoarse from screaming all night long."

Loki did not bother being so gentle after that. That was not what he wanted, and if Hannah didn't want it, she would have said something. Loki started rocking his hips forward and Hannah buckled her hips to his thrusts. As his pace started to quicken, Loki bit into her lower lips Hannah moaned loudly, grabbing at his neck and hair, causing him to moan with her. Loki went harder and deeper, and Hannah sherik with pleasure and pain.

"Loki." Hannah grunted. "Fuck." She let out a moan that quickly became a scream of pleasure. When she came, she grabbed his necklace that hung from his neck, so he would be closer to her. She began to breath in short breaths, and her eyes closed. Tilting her head back, her mouth opened slightly. Hannah melted in his touch, and she was perfect.

Loki rolled his eyes into the back of his head, and his jaw tightened. He grabbed her hips, and came with the arch of his back and a throaty, wet groan. His entire body trembled, and he nearly collapsed on her.

Loki slid out of her, reached behind himself and grabbed the blankets that had been pushed off to the side. He put the blanket around him like a cape, before he gently fell onto Hannah, and wrapped her in the blanket as well. His head was on her chest, and her arms were wrapped around his neck.

"What now?" Loki whispered, touching her side.

"I don't know." Hannah shook his head. "However, I...I was hoping that maybe, just maybe that we could share a room."

"We are sharing a room, Hannah. That's how we got like this in the first place."

Hannah sighed. "That is not what I meant."

Loki laughed. "I know, and yeah, it would be nice to share a room with you."

Loki smiled, as Hannah kissed the top of his head. Loki rolled off her, and she buried herself in his embrace.

"I don't mean to pry, but...did you want this to happen?" Loki asked, wrapping his arm around her back.

"You wish."

"That's not entirely what I meant, darling. I ask that because you didn't want me to change the room and you let me on the bed."

Hannah was hesitant to answer. "I...I-yeah. I did want to sleep with you."

Loki cupped her cheek and put his index finger under her chin. Open lips pressed against her forehead.

"Well I'm glad you got what you wished for. We should do this more often than not. I really did enjoy myself and is assume you did too."

Hannah breathed into his neck, "I did." She scooted closer to him and wrapped a leg around his waist, and pressed her forehead against his chest. "We can do this again tomorrow."

"Tomorrow," Loki repeated. "Let's do this again Tomorrow."


When Loki woke up, the sight before him was something he had seen before, but was not common to see every morning. He saw Hannah sitting at the edge of the bed, her golden hair just coming down to her shoulder, providing no coverage of her naked back. The sunlight cascaded down from the window and shone into the room providing light and making the air seem light and fresh.

Loki brushed the his cold fingertips over her exposed skin, causing her to quiver. She faced him and smiled, his fingers still running up and down her spine.

"Your fingers are really cold."

"Uhm." Loki wasn't listening to what she had to say and kept moving his fingers, until his eyes caught something blue on her right shoulder. "What's that?

Hannah put her hand on the shoulder that he pointed to. "Its a watercolor tattoo I got awhile back. It is a flower, nothing too special about it."

"I think it's lovely." Loki sat himself up, and rested against the backboard. Changing the subject, he asked, "Are you going to get breakfast at a restaurant or have it downstairs in the cafeteria."

"We're going out as soon as Corryn tells me she is awake and we get dressed." She planted a kiss on his lips, and got out of bed.

"Are we gonna tell her about us?" Loki kicked his legs over the side of the bed and bent down, reaching for his boxers.

"Yes, but not over breakfast." Hannah laughed, throwing Loki a clean shirt.

"Thanks." Loki said catching the shirt. He put it on when Hannah cursed. "What is it?"

"You broke my bra." She said struggling to hook it on. "The damn clasp is broken."

"No it's not." Loki walked over to her and took the clasp in his hands, and hooked it together. "See." Hannah huffed and turned, her body pressed against his and put a hand down the back of his boxers to squeeze his ass. Loki's eyes rolled into the back of his head, and he sighed. "We don't time."

"I know, but I can tease you all I want." She pulled his boxers down a few centimeters just far enough to see a bit more of his hair.

Loki moaned and shook his head. "We should get dressed before Corryn gets suspicious."

Hannah glanced back up at Loki, who had his eyes closed and was humming.

"Okay." She grabbed a clean pair of pants and slipped them on.

Loki and Hannah finished getting dressed with time to spare for brushing hair and teeth, without the worry of Corryn getting to suspicious of them. When they met her at the lobby, she was sitting by the fireplace, flipping through an old book.

"Are you ready to go?" Hannah asked slipped her fingers into Loki's

"I've been ready for nearly an hour. Where the hell were you two? I was about to walk up when you came down."

"We just got a late start." Loki said a little too fast for Hannah's liking. Loki kept his eye contact with Corryn, trying not to draw attention to himself.

"Huh." She glanced over at Hannah, who kept her eye contact as well. "Well, I want pancakes and I can tell that Loki wants waffles, so we should go."

Loki and Hannah nodded and they walked to the waffle house that was down the street. Corryn had pancakes, Loki had waffles, and Hannah ate off of Loki's plate. After breakfast, they walked around Seattle taking pictures of several different buildings, went to the Pacific Science Center, Pike Place Market, The Waterfront, and ran around in the Seattle Public Library.

Hannah and Corryn added gum to the famous gum wall at Pike Place market, while Loki gagged at the wall full of chewed gum pasted on the brick wall.

"That is repulsive." Loki said cringing, as Hannah stuck the piece of gum to the wall.

"It is, but I might as well do it now, otherwise I wouldn't do it at all."

He rolled his eyes and sighed exacerbated and walked away.

Loki loved the library the most of all the places that they had visited that day. It wasn't like Powell's bookstore, but for a library it was one of the most exquisite sights he would ever see. Floor was stacked upon floor with small shops on the second one. The second floor was open and airy with a 50 foot ceiling. Level four was his favorite because the entire room was red and that was all. It was very easy to get lost there. Loki wandered on his own for half an hour before Hannah and Corryn found him buying a rather large bag of jellybeans.

"Loki how much money did you spend?" Hannah asked annoyed, grabbing the two pound bag of jellybeans from his grip.

"So many." Loki nodded, but the shook his head. "Six dollars and fifty cents."

"Alright, but that is it, alright?"

"Yeah."


Several photographs were taken at all these various locations. None of them wanting to forget about any of this. They couldn't live on like this forever, but their memories would. Loki mainly took pictures of Hannah, and he was in very little, but once Corryn got a hold of it she took several of Hannah and Loki together.

The night ended with them having burgers and milkshakes at a local burger place.

Almost immediately after getting back to the hotel room, Loki was on Hannah, feverishly kissing her, and he pushed her up against the wall. First her shirt came off, and then her pants. The rest was a blur of kisses, and hands touching here and there. He picked her up and brought her to the bed, and from there, he was gentle with her. Loki took his time taking her reminding close off.

Nothing was rushed.

Nothing was bruising.

Hannah nipped at his skin where the shoulder met the neck, before soothing it with her tongue. She let her hands drift across his chest and abdomen. Loki grinned into her, slowly that made Hannah curl her toes and fingers into the bed sheets. He pulled his boxers off, and met Hannah's hand with his own.

They made slow love that night, and the bed creaked with every thrust, but neither of them really noticed. Afterwards, Loki hummed quietly, situating himself behind Hannah, legs entangled in hers, arms wrapped around her waist, and face buried in her hair.

"I wish we could stay like this forever." Hannah muttered, her words a little slurred

"Me too," Loki yawned, and kissed her goodnight.

"Did you have fun today?" No answer. Hannah turned her face to see him sleeping soundly pressed up against her. "Me too."

The drive back home wasn't to terribly long, and Loki read most of the way home while listening to music and occasionally snacking on the jellybeans he got.

The past few days had been, well, eventful to say the least. Corryn really did like Gus and they planned to see each other maybe once or twice a month. Loki and Hannah

Suddenly, a wave of uneasiness hit him. Loki didn't know why, everything was fine. Hannah and Corryn were singing along to the radio, and nothing was out of the norm. Something was wrong. Loki sat up straighter, shoulders back, and chin up. An hour passed like this: Loki kept his mouth shut, unless Hannah or Corryn talked to him, and he would respond with short sentences. Nothing happened. Loki relaxed his muscles and put his head against the headrest, and fell asleep.

Loki stood alone in a dimly lit, concrete room. The room was small and cold. with the faint smell of mold and the sound of slow dripping water echoed through the small space. Loki glanced behind his shoulder and saw a door with a square window in the middle of it that let in the only light. He cautiously walked toward it, making long strides, but his steps were quiet. He tried the door knob. Locked. He looked through the opaque window and saw nothing but his reflection looking back at him, only his reflection was blue and his eyes were red. Loki looked down at his hands that were turning a dark blue, but seconds before were pasty white. His eyes went wide and his mouth dropped, as frantically rolled his sleeves up and revealed more blue skin on his arms. Loki looked back up at the window and saw himself as he was.

"You can't hide from this, Loki." The reflection snidely smiled. Loki could feel warm tears welling up in his eyes, and one started to fall. "You can't run from what you are. A monster. A beast. A bastard. Undesirable." The reflection changed. It was no longer blue, but he was not himself. Golden horns sat on the top of his head. "A murderer." He said, and the reflection changed again, only this time, Loki was himself. "You can't hide from this, Loki." He shook his head. "You can't change. You will always be a monster and a murderer. There is nothing you can do about it, and though you may try, you will fail."

"No!" Loki sobbed. "No, no, no. I'm getting better!" He shouted through gritted teeth.

The reflection laughed. "How foolish are you? You are blind to the fact that you are still a monster, and Hannah...oh, Hannah…." He smiled. "She doesn't know, does she? You haven't told her the truth about who you are-"

"She doesn't have to know!" Loki slammed his wrist against the window pane. "I'm not….I can't be-"

"See, that's where you are wrong, Loki. Everything you do and are will come back to bite you in the ass sooner or later. Whether that be murdering some poor, innocent soul or hurting Hannah. You said that you wouldn't make yourself vulnerable, and you did. You let people into your heart and you know what happens to every person you let in. They either die, or they wish they had. You remember what happened to Sigyn, don't you? She trusted you. She trusted us, Loki, and you let her down." He said solemnly.

"No, no, no, no." Loki muttered, wiping his eyes with one hand.

"You have also been lying to Hannah since the very second you laid eyes on her. Can you just image what will happen when she finds out that you are a monster? She would cry out her eyes!" He started laughing again, and put his hand to his mouth. "You were born to lose. Maybe if you would just choose defeat and walk away none of this would ever happen to you. Just look at all that pain that you put on yourself and others…."

Loki choked out breaths in between chest wrenching sobs. The reflection showed no pity or compassion towards Loki, who held his head in his hands.

"What did you dream of Loki? Uhm? You once dreamt of fame- a powerful king, perhaps. Or a war hero, who saves the day. But just look at all that shame that you brought upon yourself and the ones that you love, and you realize that fame will never are nothing more than an undesirable, selfish, volatile monster, good for nothing. Next time you are knocked down and out, it is where you should stay." He spat. "You can never achieve happiness. Loki. Sorry." He shrugged, and smiled, before disappearing altogether.

There was a terrible sound. Loki sucked in a breath and it rattled in his chest, and when Loki exhaled the breath hissed. His entire body trembled, and he collapsed to his knees, his hands pulling and clenching his hair, forcing his head to his thighs.

He inhaled again, before letting out a terrible and violent sobs and screams that made his throat raw.

Even though Loki opened his eyes after the nightmare, he never woke up.


Okay so major things are about to happen within the next few chapters and to find out what happens next, I strongly suggest that you leave a review, It makes me feel like a better writer and it also gives me the motivation to continue with the story. Thank you to those that are reading this. Lots of love and have a fantastic day.