"I want you beneath me."

"Why?"

"So if I fall down from the heights, I know you will be there to catch me."

Edward bursted out laughing. "Aw, how romantic", he commented. I made a face at him and then decided to tickle his sides. He doubled over and had a little scream of surprise in the middle of his laughing.

"No! No!" he begged and walked backwards over to the glass wall of his room to escape from me. I just followed him and snatched him in my arms in bride style and took him over to the bed. Knowing it was a very soft bed I freed him by just flopping him onto it.

"Aah!"

Edward was being quite vocal today it seems. Has he slept enough? Usually he isn't this much all over the place like the pixie. He has mildly dark circles around his eyes, but the green orbs are sparkling and his whole face is smiling at me.

He tries to stifle in his laughs so a weird, but adorkable sounds comes from him. I fall lying down next to him on the bed and take him slightly under me by dragging him closer and place my forearm beside his side. I bring my other hand to his head to run my fingers through the silky, copper hair of his.

I lean in and give him chaste kisses all over his jaw, lips, forehead and cheeks. Edward hums quietly, enjoying my touches. His arms loop around my waist and he hugs me closer to his body.

I'm starting to wonder where was this going. Are we just going to make out or something more?

"Jake... Um, not yet please. Later on, but I don't think I'm quite ready yet", Edward then mumbles to my shirt clothed shoulder.

"Of course. We can wait as long as you need. We have no hurry", I tell him and give another kiss on his pink lips.

"Good. I'm... I don't know really. I don't know what I'm waiting for really. I've already waited for like a hundred years..." He sighs.

"A hundred years? You haven't done anything during the hundred year as being a seventeen year old boy? I cannot image what has it been like especially with your looks and having to go to high school all over again. You've never wanted...?" I ask and he shakes his head sheepishly.

"I've never met anyone who I would actually want to do anything more than just talk. Bella was the first one I had ever kissed. And I would like you to be the one who I've ever gone further than that and ever will."

"What a romantic you are. I see where you're coming from. Literally. But would you then like us to marry first? Because I'm not sure if it's legal in Washington", I began thinking that if that's what he wanted to do first then we could travel somewhere else to get married too.

"No, I mean, sure. But it's not a must thing for me, even though as a romantic like you said, I would find it nice. Then again how much attention do we want to drawn on to ourselves? I'm some weird hybrid of a vampire, you're a shape shifter, both males and we are together. How out of the ordinary can we be?"

"Oh, but Edward it's boring to be normal. No one's completely normal to be real."

"I know. I should know, I can read their minds after all. But right now I don't want to worry about the traditions, when we're all but traditional otherwise anyway. I just want to do us."

"That's exactly how I would like it to be too. But you know, maybe some day the tribe would let us do it like they have done the ceremonial and in La Push if you want", I suggested.

"Yeah. Let's see", Edward nodded and smirked. "But for now I just want to be with you. Just the two of us if that's okay?" Edward asked sounding a bit insecure. I couldn't imagine why he should feel like that.

"Absolutely. I love you!" I exclaimed a bit too loudly that Edward had to shush me with a grin.

"I love you too", he said back and now gave me quick a kiss.


I hadn't seen Edward at the grocery store. No Cullens at all even. I might have not just seen them, but I'm still very sure that it was a lie, when Jacob told me they had been shopping and I couldn't reach Edward.

I was more convinced by that than anything of the fact that Edward was in trouble. I decided that I should check on him, but then I got a brilliant idea. No, I wouldn't need to contact the Volturi for anything. I could use them for a reason for me to be changed.

I could not sleep that night. So I thought, what the hell, I'll just visit the Cullens now.

I put on my poker face, glad that even though I can't lie very well, I could still hide my emotions pretty well. Then I just needed to add a few more sentences to my speech which hold understandable issues already and then exaggerate it a little bit.

It turned out as perfect. Now that was done, all I had to do was wait until my graduation. It wouldn't even matter if I didn't pass my tests that well, because I'm going to live forever. How wonderful. I can't wait to let it begin.

And if I want to to feel better about my financial status, someday I can try things out again or just fake the grades and get good job and support me and Edward. It's not like we would need a lot of money, because we only needed to drink blood and could stand to stay outside for as long as we wanted to without any shelter.

But really, I'm smart. I think I'll get through it all even without really reading. Anyways I can barely concentrate on anything other than Edward and his safety.

But wait a minute! Edward isn't a vampire anymore. I still don't know what he is really and what does he need. Does he need human things like food, drink, warmth and those type of things?

I really have no idea. I should study him more, but how am I supposed to do that when I don't get to see him anymore? When I visited the Cullens few weeks earlier, and I told them about my concerns, Edward didn't look so good to me. He looked tired, but maybe that's because I woke them up like that in the early morning. But he also seemed thinner and just worse. He obviously needed me.

There's definitely something up with him and Jacob. Something bad...

I must get him out of there. As fast as I can.

Fortunately, there's only two months until my graduation.

Hold on my love. I'm coming.