Uruha woke up in an unusual room. As he sat up, he felt pain go through his lower body and backside. He gripped his pounding head and looked down to find himself naked on a blue bed. He looked over to find his friend Saga naked and soundly sleeping beside him.
"What happened last night?"
~~The night before~~
Uruha slipped into a simple outfit of a pair of jeans and a white shirt. He put a little make up on, then sat on the couch and waited for his friend to get here, but it wasn't too long before Saga was knocking on the door. The honey blonde answered it and welcomed his friend. He was wearing baggy pants and a blue t-shirt.
"Is that what you're wearing?" The bassist asked.
Uruha looked at himself. "Is there something wrong with it?"
"Uh…no I just thought you would wear something more…you."
"What's that supposed to mean?"
"You know. You like to show off your body and stuff."
The honey blonde blushed. "I do not."
"You've seemed pretty down here lately and I thought that going out would help. I'd like for you to be yourself. You can change if you want. I don't mind." Saga said with a smile. The guitarist smiled and blushed some more as he headed towards his room.
"Give me a few minutes."
Uruha came back out with a pair of tight pants on, black tank top, his hair done and different make up on.
"That's more like it!" Saga shouted. "You ready to go?"
"Yes." The guitarist whispered. They headed out and went straight to a club they both knew. They went in, found a table and then ordered some drinks.
"Why did you want to go drinking?" Uruha asked.
Saga smile. "Just felt like it and I didn't want to do it by myself at home. You looked depressed these past few days and I figured you needed a good time, so I called you."
The guitarist smiled, but then thought for a second. "I thought you called your band first."
The bassist blushed. "Eh…I um…"
"You didn't did you?"
Saga sighed. "No. To be honest, I thought you would say no if I hadn't told you that. I really just wanted to hang out with a friend that I didn't see every day."
"I would have hung out with you either way."
The bassist blushed and gave a small smile. They continued their small talk as they ordered drink after drink.
"Oo, I like this song! Let's dance." Saga slurred, pulling the other away from the table. Uruha sighed, but decided to go along with it and started dancing with him. He had to admit, he like this song and the way Saga moved to the beat. He moved closer to the brunette and started dancing against him. Saga rubbed his hands down the honey blonde's sides and gripped his hips as he rubbed against the guitarist. Uruha turned around only to rub his ass against the other, making him moan and grip the honey blonde's hips tighter. The guitarist threw his head back as he felt Saga sucking on his neck and then felt the other's bulge rubbing against him. The bassist's hand roamed down and squeezed Uruha's crotch, making him moan. The honey blonde finally realized through his foggy mind that they weren't dancing anymore. He turned, breaking the other's hold, but then he pulled Saga into a kiss. The bassist gladly kissed back, but Uruha pulled away.
"Let's go somewhere."
Saga looked at him with a smile. "My place."
Uruha lead him out and they caught a cab. The driver occasionally glanced back to see them making out and touching each other as he drove to the destination. When they made it into the apartment, Saga pushed the guitarist into the wall and attacked his lips. Uruha gladly kissed back as he began unbuckling the brunette's pants, making him giggle through the kiss. They couldn't get their hands off each other and somehow, both their shirts made it to the living room as they kissed every few steps down the hallway. Saga's pants finally fell to his ankles, but he kicked them off as he continued to push the honey blonde towards his room. When they finally made it, the brunette pushed Uruha onto the bed and climbed on top of him. They rubbed each other as they kissed deeper and soon Saga was kissing down the other's neck. Uruha smiled, biting his lip as he felt the brunette kissing down his stomach to his pants. The bassist started pulling the jeans off and smiled at the bulge that had formed in the red boxers. He kissed it making the other moan.
"You like that?"
Uruha gasped, feeling the other's tongue run over his member through the boxers. He didn't hold back his moans as Saga started sucking on the bulge. The brunette rubbed the honey blonde's thigh as his hand made it up in to boxers, but they moved to the back and rubbed the plumped cheeks. He spread the cheeks with his thumb and middle finger. Uruha moaned out when he felt a finger go inside him.
"Ah, Saga!"
The brunette looked up with a smile. "What is it baby?"
The honey blonde moaned when he felt the finger thrusting inside him. "So good!"
"You want more?"
"So much more!"
Saga pulled his finger out, making other whimper, but he slipped his hand in the guitarist's boxers as he crawled over the honey blonde. "Tell me what you want."
"I want you inside me." Uruha moaned out.
"What part of me?" The Saga whispered stroking the other's cock.
The honey blonde whimpered. "I want it in me."
The bassist sighed before slipping down between the guitarist's legs. He slipped the red boxers off, showing the twitching cock. He raised Uruha's hips and slipped two of his fingers in, making the honey blonde squirm. He moaned out more when Saga licked the tip of his cock. The bassist giggled as he began sucking on the tip and thrusting his fingers hard into the honey blonde. Uruha screamed out in pleasure as he bucked his hips and clenched the bed sheets.
"Saga!"
The brunette sucked down more as his fingers got faster, making the other moan out more. Saga grazed his teeth on the member as he pulled off. Uruha peeked his eyes open to see the other smiling at him.
"I want you Uru."
The honey blonde smiled. "Then take me."
He whimpered when Saga pulled his fingers out and he watched as the brunette got off the bed. The bassist slipped his boxers off before opening his nightstand, grabbed a tube of lube and sat on the bed. He licked his lips as he spread Uruha's legs wider and raised his hips. He grabbed his own cock and coated it with the lube. The honey blonde started moaning, swaying head and rubbing his body.
"Getting impatient?" The brunette asked.
"I want it." He moaned.
Saga smiled as he grabbed the honey blonde's hips. "I want it too." He whispered.
He pushed his member in, making them both moan out. Immediately, Saga started thrusting a slow pace, but Uruha didn't mind. He loved it. He wrapped his legs around the brunette's hips, his arms around the other's neck and pulled him closer. He wanted this heat, he loved it, he needed it. The bassist pulled him into a kiss and only broke away to get air, then kissed him again. He wrapped his fingers around the honey blonde's cock, stroking it, making him moan through the kiss. After several intense minutes, Uruha pulled away and moaned out. Saga smiled, knowing he found the right spot and he continued thrusting roughly on it. The guitarist clawed the brunette's shoulders and tightened his legs to get him closer.
"Damn Kouyou!" Saga shouted as he thrusts shortened and got faster. The honey blonde knew the other was closer and so was he. The bassist stroked the other's cock harder, making him moan out harder. Their moans became in sync and their breathing got louder.
"Saga!" Uruha yelled as he shot his seeds onto his stomach. The brunette started thrusting harder.
"K-Kouyou!" He shouted shooting his seeds with each thrust, wanting it to last longer, but it ended. He pulled out before laying on top of the honey blonde. He licked his lips before pulling Uruha into a kiss. The dazed honey blonde gently kissed back and then Saga pulled away.
"I love you Kouyou."
~~Back to present~~
Uruha gasped, remembering those last for words. He looked over at the sleeping brunette and felt his heart beat faster. He quietly stumbled out of bed, searched for his clothes and got dressed. He slipped on his shoes and was about to open the door to leave.
"You're leaving?" A sad voice.
He turned to find Saga with a sad face standing in a pair of boxers in the hallway. "Um…"
"Please don't." He looked to the ground blushing. "I'm sorry. I just…I thought that maybe…never mind."
"What?" Uruha asked.
Saga became redder, but he walked closer and pulled the honey blonde into a hug. "Will you go on a date with me?"
"I…"The guitarist's voice shook.
"Please, give me a chance. I'll make you happy."
~~At Aoi's~~
The raven was sitting up in his bed, smoking a cigarette, staring out the window with his bloodshot eyes. He sniffled and wiped his watery eyes again.
"I guess I am a lowlife piece of trash." He mumbled, squeezing his eyes shut.
~~Last night~~
He lead Ruki into his living room and smiled.
"Do you want something to drink?"
The singer smiled. "No, I'm fine."
"Alright, well then you must be tired. You can take the bed if you want and I'll take the couch."
The red head smiled and followed him to the room, but then stopped at the door way. Aoi turned and saw fear in the singer's eyes.
"Ru."
The red head started breathing hard, shaking and he started crying. "No!"
"Ru." The guitarist whimpered. He walked closer and gently rubbed Ruki's cheek. "I'm sorry. I swear, I'm not—"
He was interrupted when the shorter man slapped him across the face. The red head gasped and covered his mouth with his hands.
"I-I'm sorry Aoi."
The raven looked at him with broken eyes, but walked past him and grabbed his phone. He called for a cab then looked at the sad singer.
"Maybe it's best if I stay I away from you."
"Aoi."
"You need to leave."
"Aoi!" Ruki cried, but the raven grabbed the shorter man's casted wrist and dragged him to the door. "Aoi, you're hurting me!"
The guitarist instantly let go. "You need to leave Ru. You need to…to go be with Reita."
The red head gasped, but before he could say anything, he was out the door and it was slammed behind him. Aoi looked out from his glass door and watched over Ruki until the cab arrived and picked him up. He grabbed the bottle of vodka out of his freezer and sat on his bed.
~~Back to Present~~
The raven sighed and took another drink from his bottle, then he decided to call Kai to tell him he's sick and can't come to practice.
"Yeah, I'm feeling under the weather too." The drummer mumbled. "I'll call everyone else."
"Kai?"
"Hmm?"
"Have you ever done something so awful you think you shouldn't live anymore?"
"Aoi, what did you do?"
The raven laughed. "I…I did something that I should be shot in the head for."
"Aoi," Kai had a very serious tone. "I'm coming over alright, don't do anything stupid."
"Too late."
"Aoi!"
"See you later Kai." He mumbled hanging up the phone. He hiccupped and started laughing.
~~Last night~~
After the door slammed behind him, Ruki walked down to the front of the apartment complex. He shook his head remembering that night.
'Please, I'm sorry! Aoi please!'
"No!" He whimpered shaking his head. "It was just a dream. Had to have been. It had to."
His head started pounding as the memories kept coming and they suddenly stopped when the cab stopped in front of him. He got in and told the driver an address and he stared out the window, hugging himself, fighting with himself. The scene kept replaying itself over and over.
"We're here." The driver broke his concentration. Ruki quickly gave him the money, then ran up to the apartment and started banging on the door.
"Alright already! I'm coming!"Shou yelled walking to his door in his boxers. He opened it only to get hugged by a crying Ruki.
"Hey, hey. Calm down."
"It didn't happen, it didn't!"
"What's going on?" Tora walked out of the bed room, wearing baggy sleeping pants, trying to hide his boner.
"It was a dream! Please tell me it was a dream!" Ruki cried and pulled Shou to the ground with him. The ashy blonde looked up at Tora, who shook his head and closed the front door. He helped get the red head on the couch, then went to the kitchen to make some tea.
"Ru, you told me about it. Why do you think it's a dream?" Shou asked. Tora was sitting across from them listening to the whole story.
The red head whimpered. "I don't know. I was fine and then I went home with Aoi. He…he was always kind and gentle and he always thought of me. How could he have done that? It had to have been a dream. It had to."
Shou petted his friend's head. "Ru, it happened and he said sorry. You said it yourself. He just lost control of his anger."
"It's so confusing." Ruki mumbled. "My head hurts. My tummy hurts."
"Do you feel nauseas?"
The red head shook his head. "A little. I feel tired. I feel weak."
"Alright, Tora bring the trash can in here."
The guitarist shook his head and went to get it as Shou rubbed the other singer's head. "You're staying here tonight. I don't want you being alone."
"K." The other whispered. Tora sat the trash can beside the couch, then got a pillow and blanket for the red head. The ashy blonde laid Ruki down on the couch and it didn't take but a few minutes for the red head to fall asleep.
~~The next morning~~
Ruki woke up with a headache worse than a hangover. He sat up with a queasy feeling rising in his stomach. He grabbed the trashcan sitting beside him and pulled over to puke in it. He shook pushing the can away, then he got up and stumbled to the closest bathroom. He turned the faucet on and rinsed his mouth out, but when he stepped out, he heard something from the bedroom. He peeked in and saw Shou naked riding Tora, who was gripping the ashy blonde's hips.
"So good Shou." Tora moaned.
Ruki walked back to the living room and laid back on the couch, gripping his aching head. He felt the drowsiness taking over again and he closed his eyes, welcoming the sleep again.
~~At Kai's ~~
The brunette jumped out of bed and got dressed before running out the bedroom. He slipped on his shoes, but then he stopped when he remembered the night before.
~~Last night~~
"Please, I can't." Kai pushed Miyavi back.
"I-I thought you wanted this."
The drummer sighed. "I want more than this."
The soloist scowled, closing his eyes. "What more do you want? I'm giving you attention, I'm talking to you, showing you affection."
"Miyavi," Kai whimpered. "I don't just want that. I don't want something that will end in sex all the time. I want to go out in public, I want to cuddle, I want to just lay down and hug. You constantly want sex and that's what this relationship is going to be based on. I don't want that. I want to be loved."
"I do love you."
"You love my body, nothing more."
"Kai." He whimpered.
"Sorry Miyavi, I can't be with you. I don't love you."
"Tch," The soloist glared at him. "I don't need a fucking bitch like you."
Kai gasped.
"You're right, I was only trying to get in your pants again and I still am."
He held the drummer's arms down.
"No!" Kai screamed, kicking his legs, but the other was too strong. "Reita help!"
"Quiet!" Miyavi slapped him across the face. He grabbed his shirt on the bed and shoved it into the brunette's mouth.
~~Back to present~~
Kai shook his head not wanting to remember. He jumped to his feet and ran out the door to his car. On the way, he called the other's to tell them that practice was cancelled, but Reita was the only one who answered. So he told him and left messages on the other two's phones. Before he knew it, he was pulling into Aoi's place. He ran up to the apartment and started banging on the door, but the guitarist didn't answer. He grabbed the knob and noticed that it was opened, so he stepped in.
"Aoi? Your door was open. Are you here?" Kai shouted. He slipped out of his shoes and walked in. He walked to the back and saw Aoi on his toilet, a razor in hand and blood running down his wrist. "Aoi!"
The raven looked up and smiled. "I'm a coward."
Kai grabbed the guitarist's arm and saw just a small cut. He sighed in relief. "Why did you do this?"
Aoi watched as the drummer held toilet paper to the cut. "You know, I really wanted to do it, but every time I placed the razor down, I see Ruki's smile. Questions run through my head. Will he be happy? Will he be mad? Will he miss me? Will his smile disappear? Then I think how I will never see his smile again."
"Aoi,"
The guitarist smiled. "Then I think, if we had never met, then it wouldn't have happened and I wouldn't have hurt him."
"What happened?"
The guitarist giggled as tears flowed down his cheeks. "I raped him."
