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Chapter 11: Happily Never After!

Bella's POV

I sat there for several hours, telling Edward about everything, when I started telling him about more intimate details he quickly got up and stood by the window, turned away from me.

I sat against my headboard and continued to talk, the more I told him the more his shoulders slumped. I felt awful, I hurt the man I love. I was selfish and disgusting. Bye the time I was done. I was hyperventilating I was crying so bad, I kept apologizing over and over again.

Edward came over and sat beside me, he pulled me into my lap and rocked me. I laid against his shoulder, tears streaming down my face. He finally tucked me in and kissed my forehead. He told me he had a lot to think about and then he was gone.

I cried myself to sleep that night, I cried for James, I cried for myself, and most of all I cried for Edward. I betrayed my love, and hurt him deeply.

The next morning I didn't feel better at all. I walked to the washroom and there on the counter was James, leather jacket. I pulled it to myself and hugged it tightly. Fresh tears staining my cheeks. "What the hell is wrong with me." I whimpered into the jacket breathing it in. Seconds later Alice was standing beside me and pulling me into a hug. I jumped and then melted into her. After everything she is still here for me. "I'm so so sorry Alice, I fucked everything up, its all my fault."

"Shh Bella, its ok you didn't do anything wrong. Things just happened. I love you Bella." With that she pulled away and held me at arms reach. "Whatever you decide, whatever happens, I'm here for you and I love you like a sister…. No matter what." What did she mean what I decide, I already decided. Edward.

"I chose Edward, Alice, of course Edward.." She looked at me with sad eyes then smiled and nodded. We went into my room and we talked about James and what happened.

"So Bella, what was with James' eyes. When did he start that, A rogue vampire turned soft by Bella Swan." she held her hands up as if it was posted. I giggled at her and explained when I found out. She laughed and listened as I got it out.

Talking about James to Edward was awkward, and all kinds of wrong. Talking about James to Alice. I couldn't help but be animated about him. Alice smiled and listened intently.

By the end of it I had a watery smile and felt more lost than before we talked. Alice pulled me into another hug. We stayed that way for awhile. Then when she pulled away she said. "Really Bella, If you decide that Edward isn't right for you anymore. I am here for you and I will help you find him. I love you." I just nodded, not trusting my voice to speak. She left after that, and I curled up in my bed. Holding James' jacket tight to my side. Breathing in his scent, my body exhausted I fell asleep soon after that.


Three weeks of nothing, three weeks of not feeling better, three weeks of missing James so much that my chest felt as if it might explode. I didn't see Edward the same as I used to. He was still the same sweet Edward, but I felt like I was seeing through different eyes. I felt like I was doing something wrong. Even when he would hold my hand, I felt like I was betraying my heart.

I didn't want to hurt Edward. I was trying so hard to forget James. But in the comfort of my own room as soon as the lights were out. I would be holding James' jacket to my chest, wishing desperately that it was him beside me, not just his jacket.

I no longer let Edward watch me sleep, I told him I just needed time. Always more time. Rosalie looked even more murderous at me, Emmet…..well, Emmet was Emmet. Jasper could feel my emotions and excused himself a lot, I felt so bad, I didn't mean for him to feel my pain. Alice looked at me with sad eyes. Always hugging me and trying to sooth me without making a scene. Esme and Carlisle were just happy that I was ok. Edward, dear sweet understanding Edward, he was the most understanding, caring, gentle man and I felt awful that he had to go through this.

So I continued to try, I smiled, I ate, I did my school work. I went through all the motions of every day life, but I never felt whole. My midsection burned. It felt like I had a fresh wound and salt was being continuously dumped in it. I missed him deeply.

Edwards POV

I knew something was happening, Alice would not let me in her head, reciting Beside you lyrics, and when that didn't stop me from trying she thought of different sexual positions with Jasper, well that stopped me quick. I could see something was different with Bella, and even though she told me it was just lust with James, I couldn't help but think she was lying not only me, but herself too.

I seen in James' head and no matter how hard he tried to hide it I seen it clear as day. Bella changed him, in such a short amount of time she made him whole again. I seen his eyes, they were golden like ours. He completely changed for her. He lied for her, made it sound like he didn't care. But his mind couldn't hide how much it hurt him to deny it, and even more when Bella didn't confess for him.

I was utterly scared, I didn't want to lose Bella, she changed my life. She is the love I thought I would never have. I existed merely for her. But no matter how much it hurt, no matter how much my heart will break. I will not keep her from James if that's what she wants.

I scaled her house and slipped inside her window, and what I saw broke my heart, but also let me know my answer. Bella was curled on her side tears rolling silently down her eyes, and James' jacket hugged snugly to her chest. I leaned back against the wall beside the window and watched her sleep for a few minutes. Then I lightly pushed myself off the wall and sat down beside her. I wiped her tears away and she woke with a start. She looked up at me surprised then worried when she realized she was holding James' Jacket. Before she could speak and try to make excuses I put my finger on her lips to stop her.

"I know you didn't mean to Bella, and I know that you don't want to hurt me. But you cant continue to lie to yourself, and me. You love him don't you?"

I moved my finger from her lips and waited for her to speak. "Oh Edward I'm so sorry. I never meant- I never thought in a million years I would ever feeling this way about anyone but you. I'm so sorry, I don't know why or how. I'm so sorry. I will try to forget about him, in time we can go back to normal." I almost scoffed at her, she was always doing what everyone else wanted even if it meant never being truly happy.

"No Bella, you and I wont be together anymore." I said it softly but the minute it came out her eyes became pained and she started to cry harder.

"You- you don't want me?" She asked. I wanted to laugh at her ridiculous question.

"No silly Bella that's not it. You are in love with James, I see it in your eyes. How much it hurts you to be away from him. You look like your trying to hold yourself together with your arms Bella. I want you happy, and if that means its with James and not me, well then I will have to deal with it. We can remain friends, I may not be around you for awhile, but I will come back and we will be friends. It may seem silly after everything we have been through, but I would rather that than to never see you again." I leaned down and kissed her forehead. She reached around and pulled me into a tight hug.

"I'm so sorry Edward, I never meant for this to happen. I'm so sorry." I shook my head and told her it was fine. As long as she is alive, healthy, and happy, I would be able to survive.

I ran home and Alice was outside waiting for me. She looked sad and apologetic. I just shook my head and went inside. I told the family that I was leaving Esme was sad, but she also understood. I needed to be away. I needed to be out of Bella's way so she could move on.

James POV

I was back in the cabin. It was the only place that held her scent . I lay on the couch. Thinking about our time together. Her laughter, her smell. I knew I should stop doing this to myself. I needed to shape up and try to move on. As a Vampire, time moved quickly for me, but these past 3 weeks were slow, so slow that it felt almost like time had stopped.

I thought about going back to human blood, but really I couldn't do that. I knew it would only mess me up further and I didn't need that. Besides, bears suit me quite well.

When I got back most of Victoria's ashes had flown away and I felt a sense of pride, at least I did something right. With Victoria gone I would not have to worry about Bella being harmed.

I laid there all day and well into the night. Wondering if Bella was alright. Hoping she was happy. Edward better treat her right or I will end him.

I got up and headed to the shower, only to stare at the wall I had her pushed against, after her bleeding finger. I groaned and looked away. The shower was quick and I went back to lay on the couch. I heard something outside and took in a deep breath her scent hit me like a ton of bricks and I ran out the door.

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