Chapter Eleven
Lily ran down the hall, leaving Sirius in the dust.
"James," she said, grabbing his shoulder and spinning him around. "It's not what it looked like,"
"So you weren't kissing your ex-boyfriend?" James retorted snidely.
"He kissed me!"
"Well you kissed him back!" Lily blushed and looked down, ashamed. She had nothing to say to that. It was the truth.
"James, I'm sorry, I don't want to lose you!"
"Well you should have thought about that before you went around kissing your ex's!" He shouted before storming off. Lily slid down the wall and cried. She felt a presence above her and she looked up, hoping it was James. She looked up and saw Sirius standing over her. Lily clambered to her feet, furiously.
"This is all your fault! If you hadn't kissed me, this never would have happened!" Lily yelled, prodding Sirius in the chest every other word.
"Well maybe, if you didn't kiss me back-" Sirius was cut off by Lily's hand making contact with his face with a SMACK that echoed through the train. She spun on her heel and marched down the corridor in rage. Lily found and empty compartment closed herself in. She sat on the floor, with her knees under her chin and cried. She not only cried for James, but she cried for Sirius as well. As horrible as it may sound, she still cared for Sirius, and that kiss made it even more evident. However, she also cared for James, but in a different way. One could not compare the two former friends. Sirius was wild and rambunctious. He was the type of person that you would go to if you were looking for a good time or a romp in the sheets. He was fun loving and unpredictable and he could also be caring at times when you needed it. James on the other hand was sensitive. He was a person you could really talk to about your problems and he would listen and try to help. If you were upset and wanted to be alone, he would respect your privacy. He was also very romantic. He was not one to rush into things. Many a time he had set up romantic evenings for him and Lily. Despite their differences, Lily loved them both very much and she couldn't decide what to do. Just then the compartment door opened and Sirius entered. Lily looked up at him through teary green eyes. Sirius' eyes softened and he picked Lily up and put her on the seat next to him. Lily sniffed loudly. Sirius put his muscular arms around her in a hug, allowing her to cry on his shoulder.
"I'm sorry Lily, I really am," Sirius whispered in her ear.
"I know you are, I am too," Lily pulled away from his embrace and looked him in the eye. "Can I tell you something?" Lily said.
"Anything,"
"At first, me and James were only dating to get our revenge on you-"
"I knew it!" Sirius interrupted.
"Let me finish!" Lily said aggrivated. "But after a few weeks, I felt myself falling for James. But I still loved you and the whole plan was to get you back. But I couldn't deny my feelings for James. So James and I got together, for real, and I loved him like a girlfriend should. Maybe even more. But this whole time, I've also been harboring my feelings for you. The whole time I was with James I was happy, but every so often thoughts of you would just pop out of nowhere. I love you both so much! I don't know what to do!" Sirius looked at her sympathetically. He leaned down and kissed her softly, she snaked her arms around his neck and pulled him close. But they were interrupted once again.
"You bounce back fast," James commented from the doorway. Lily blushed and pulled away from Sirius. "May I borrow the Head Girl please Black." It was more of a statement than a question. Lily followed James out of the compartment. They walked towards the heads compartment in silence, but that's not to say that James didn't notice Lily's tear stained face. 'Was she crying over me or Sirius?' James thought. They entered the Heads Compartment where Professor McGonagal was waiting to give them their orders.
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Lily was not in the Great Hall for dinner that night. 'Probably off shagging Sirius,' James thought bitterly. But then he noticed Sirius at the other end of the table and sighed. He was going to miss her. (A/N: wow that was a pointless little section LOL)
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After dinner, Sirius found Lily down by the lake, thinking. About James, about Sirius, and a whole lot of other things that were going on.
"Hey, are you okay?" Sirius asked as he sat down on a nearby boulder. Lily simply nodded as she stared off into the horizon. "Lily?"
"Hmmm,"
"Do you think we could give 'us' another chance?" Lily looked at him.
"I don't know, Sirius. I've been thinking lately. It was stupid of me to try to get you back, especially in that way. But I've also been thinking about why we broke up in the first place. I don't know if I can trust you again. I can't take much more heartache,"
"Lily let me explain about that. You didn't give me much of a chance to in September," Lily raised her eyebrows and urged him to continue. "Okay, heres the thing. Back on the first day of school, I made a date with Amanda Packard. I knew that she had to go away to visit her grandmother for a few weeks so we made the date for when she came back. I asked you out on the second week of school, not really expecting much. But to my surprise you said yes. I did really like you though, don't get me wrong. It's just, James liked you more, and longer,"
"He loved me," Lily mumbled. Sirius ignored her comment and continued.
"So we were happy together and everything, and then I received a note that said 'meet me in the astronomy tower at 7'. I had completely forgotten Amanda by this point, so I went, thinking it was you. Then she kissed me and I was about to push her off when you walked in and jumped to conclusions. And you know the rest," Lily nodded.
"I should have let you explain. I'm sorry Sirius," Lily put her cloaked arms around his neck in a warm embrace. "I just can't be with you now. I need time to think. After that we can start over,"
"I'd rather take it from where we left off," Sirius smirked. Lily smiled and stood up.
"You'll know when I'm ready." She turned around and headed back up to the castle, with Sirius not too far behind.
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Over the next few weeks, it didn't seem like James was going to come around. Lily had attempted to talk to him, but he ignored her each time and each time, it broke Lily's heart all over again. But in the meantime, Lily was becoming close to Sirius again. They spent much more time together than they had over the past months. Hogwarts students were confused at the sudden changes. Weren't Lily and James going out? Didn't Lily and Sirius break up much earlier in the year? They were completely lost.
"Ahh! Sirius stop! It tickles!" Lily cried as Sirius attacked her sides with his fingers. They were in her bedroom in the heads dorms.
"That's kind of the point Lily," She grabbed his wrists, hoping to stop the torturous tickling, but to no avail. Lily rolled over and she brought Sirius with her. They landed on the floor with Lily laying on top of him, still holding his wrists which were now pinned to the floor.
"If someone were to walk in, this would be a very comprimising situation," Sirius pointed out. Lily rolled her eyes. Sirius was always thinking of something like that. She looked down into his chocolate brown eyes and smiled. She had never noticed how nice they were.
"Lily are you okay?" Sirius was answered with Lily's mouth attacking his in a passionate frenzy. After he got over the initial shock, he pried her hands off of his wrists and put his arms around her waist. He flipped their positions without Lily even comprehending. She lifted her hand up to his school shirt and unbuttoned it slowly and pushed it off of his shoulders. She ran her hands over his tanned muscles. She could feel the goosebumps rising on his skin. Sirius removed his socks and shoes and climbed onto the bed as Lily did the same. A guy in boxers and socks is not hot. Lily unbuttoned her shirt and let it fall to the floor. Sirius' erection became evident as Lily began to unclasp her bra. She dropped it on top of her shirt and got in the bed next to Sirius. He climbed on top of her and caressed her milky white breasts, causing her to emit soft moans. Sirius dragged his fingers down her body slowly and sensually. They stopped at the rim of her skirt to unbutton it. He pulled it off of her and discarded it with the rest of her clothes. He moved to remove her panties as well, but Lily stopped him.
"Your turn," she smirked, as she reached down to unfasted his slacks. Sirius pulled them off of his body and tossed them randomly to the floor. Sirius' hands found their way back to Lily's panty line. His pinkys slipped under the delicate material and dragged them slowly down her legs and dropped them into the pile of clothes next to the bed. Lily yanked Sirius' boxers off, exposing his completely erect member. She pulled him on top of her and he sucked on her neck gently as he entered her. Each of his thrusts were met by one of Lily's own. They moved together erotically, occasionally emitting a gasp, a moan, or the others name.
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James entered the common room that evening and was greeted by soft sounds coming from Lily's room.
"Oh Sirius!" He heard through the door. 'Deja vu' James thought as he left the common room.
