"He was probably lying to me." Carlos sniffed and felt dangerously close to tears. He began walking back into the lobby when he bumped into someone.
"Excuse me-oh Carlos!"
Carlos looked up to see Dak standing in front of him with an apologetic look on his face.
"You were late." Carlos sniffed. Dak's small smile faded and he looked upset.
"You stood me up." Carlos turned around and crossed his arms. He felt tears pricking his eyes but Dak hurriedly stepped in front of the Latino.
"No I didn't! I promise Carlos! I-I woke up late and had to go into the studio for a while,and besides I'm here now!"
Carlos glances up to see a hurt look on poor Dak's face. Dak shrugged and sighed, before a sly smile came to his face.
"Oh well I guess I can get rid of this box of fruit smackers." Dak said slyly. He knew Carlos LOVED fruit smackers so he picked up a box of them. But when he saw Carlos was upset at him, he played the "Oh well, I got you a gift and I'll get rid of it though you'll love it!" card. Carlos glanced up to see Dak holding a twelve pack box of Fruit Smackers.
He knew what Dak was doing and he would've said no if it weren't for the fact he was holding Fruit Smackers. He greedily grabbed for the box, longing for the nice taste of the gummies when Dak yanked them away. Dak acted like he was confused.
"Wait...does this mean you forgive me?" he asked and smiled that gorgeous smile. But Carlos crossed his arms and pouted like a little kid.
"You're being mean."
He said, sticking his lip out, making him just look more dramatic. And adorable, Dak thought. But still Dak continued to smile and Carlos finally saw he was being serious. He stopped pouting and smiled a little.
"Yeah I guess so. I'm sorry I shouldn't have been acting all melodramatic." Carlos rubbed the back of his neck and smiled at Dak.
Dam shrugged.
"It doesn't matter. I'm here now so let's go."
He handed the gummy snacks to the eager Latino, who ripped the box open immediately. Dak thought up something and he put his arm around Carlos's shoulders. Carlos flinched a little but stopped and smiled at Dak. Dak could see he was still scared.
"Sorry." he murmured and he pulled his arm off Carlos's shoulder. But Carlos just blushed and continued stuffing candy into his mouth.
"It's okay." he whispered before giving Dak one of his long stares with his gorgeous puppy dog eyes. Dak's breath hitched a little and he looked away, realizing they were in the Palmwoods park. Carlos stopped them at a cross way and looked at Dak curiously.
"Where are we going?" he said cautiously. Carlos was still a little scared to go places. Dak chuckled before looking down at the raven and seeing how serious he was being. Dak gave him a reassuring look.
"Don't worry, were just gonna go grab some donuts and coffee or something." Carlos seem satisfied with that and continued munching on the gummies. Dak was just glad to see his little Carlitos was eating more. He'd looked pale and thinner last night.
They crossed the road and walked to the closest donut shop there was. He dragged Carlos inside and watched Carlos's face light up when he saw the shelves filled with creamy and delicious looking donuts. He knew how much Carlos liked sweets. Carlos immediately went up to the counter and ordered a dozen of them, pointing out nine donuts he already liked.
Dak chuckled and Carlos seemed to remember he was there. Carlos's whole face went a deep red as he stared at the donuts. Dak could only get three...
"I'll get rid of some of mine." he blushed. But Dak quickly shook his head.
"Nah, I'm okay. Besides I brought you here for donuts so you could pick some out." he smiled at Carlos who blushed deeper and looked away.
"You sure?" Dak nodded and Carlos filled the box with three chocolate eclairs before closing the donut box. Carlos insisted on paying but Dak argued a good point to which he finally paid. After they left the shop they walked on over to the park and sat under a tree, Dak giggling as Carlos munched and chewed on the donuts.
Carlos finally narrowed his eyes playfully at Dak and swallowed the lump of chocolate and sprinkles.
"What?" Dak chuckled and shook his head.
"You're just look adorable."
"A-Adorable? Me? No way!" Carlos cried out. He bit into another donut and flopped back on his stomach. He dropped the box and groaned suddenly.
"My tummy hurts." he squeezed his eyes shut as Dak picked up the box and laughed.
"You just ate seven donuts and half a box of fruit smackers, dummy. I'm pretty sure you're gonna hurt."
Carlos groaned again and rubbed his enlarged tummy. Dak couldn't resist but he leaned over and kissed Carlos on the belly. Carlos startled and sat up quickly.
"W-What was that for?"
Dan shrugged and chuckled at the same time but stopped when he saw Carlos was still being serious. It was weird how Carlos got worked up so easily. His cheeks burned.
"I-I just thought..." he coughed,"I was thinking of like when a mom kisses her kids boo boo's."
Carlos arched an eyebrow before he got the joke.
"You were trying to fix my belly ache." he smiled. Dak smiled back and shrugged. He scooted a bit closer to Carlos. Carlos bit his lip as Dak took his hand.
"Carlos?" Carlos looked away but still answered his nice friend.
"Uh huh?"
He felt a hand gently pull his face back and his chocolaty brown eyes meet Da'ks golden brown ones. He blinks away tears when he remembers how they looked like...someone else's. Dak sees the tears and kisses them away.
"Carlos, I just want you to know I'm never gonna hurt you or touch you in a wrong way." Carlos nodded to say he understood when Dak smiled.
"Stop flinching then okay? Do you trust me or not?"
Carlos stared at Dak before giving him a small nod. Dak leaned over and kissed him in the nose as his phone vibrated. Dak sighed and pulled his phone from his pocket. He answered the call and sent an apologetic look to Carlos.
"Hello?...yeah...okay I'll be right in." he shut his phone and groaned.
"I gotta go back in." he looked at the quiet Carlos.
"I'm sorry." he kissed Carlos on the cheek making his blush and smile.
"It's okay. I should be getting back anyway. I usually don't get up early anyway so they might be worried if I'm not there." he smiled again. Dak felt good on the inside. Carlos looked bubbly and happy again.
"I'll see you later okay?" Dak hugged Carlos tight and he could hear him giggle.
"Yeah okay."
After Dak left, Carlos took his fruit smackers and donuts and went back to the Palmwoods. He went quietly into 2J, mainly cause it was their day off and he was pretty sure everyone was sleeping. He put the donuts and fruit smackers on the counter and decided to take a small nap. He went down the hall to go to Kendall and Logan's room when he saw that no one was in his room. He sighed happily and went into his room flopping on his bed, which had the blankets and pillows returned to it. He kicked his shoes off and snuggled into the pillow. He was dozing off when a sudden though came to mind.
where WAS James?
Kendall groaned and blinked his eyes open. He looked at his alarm clock to see it was only eight in the morning. He groaned softly and went to cuddle back into the warmth that radiated off of Logans body when he felt something wet. His eyes opened in alarm and he carefully pulled the blanket up.
He bit his lip in annoyance when he saw the large stain on his jeans and sheets. He knew he had came last night, but that was from dry humping Logan right? Wrong. Kendall distinctly remembered having a dream last night about...he shook his head and covered his face. He felt ashamed.
He'd had a wet dream about Carlos. That's when he decided he needed to go see someone about this, because THIS had crossed the line.
James sniffed and looked at himself in the mirror. It was only seven am but James had been up for two hours. He'd couldn't take it anymore-it'd been a week since he started cutting. He gotten up and took a razor to his forearms. He glared down at the cuts before sighing. It was the only thing to take his mind off the pain. The pain he realized he had from losing Carlos. The night that Carlos had yelled at him, he'd had an epiphany. His idiotic mind had realized what all this was about. And he realizes how bad his heart felt. Guilt settled and he'd ended up crying into his pillow after he cut himself.
James covered himself in a sweatshirt before walking out of his room and into the living room, where he curled up on the couch, pulling his knees up and tucking his arms into his stomach. He sighed and shut his eyes for a moment. He heard a door open and he laid perfectly still, hoping no one saw him.
But Carlos stepped out into the hallway. He was hungry and decided to start the day anyway. He walked into the living room, where he saw James snuggled up on the couch. Carlos but his lip when he saw how bad James looked. His hair was tousled and his lips were bloody red and cracked, as if he'd been biting them. And not applying chap stick like he usually did.
His eyes had bags under them, noticeable even with his eyes closed. His nose and eyelids twitched and Carlos knew he was awake. He couldn't help but feel a teeny bit guilty. But he shoved the thought out of his head and decided to at leafs give the boy poor a small gesture that he wanted to talk. He picked up an afghan and threw it over James, who pulled it around him and buried his face in it, eyes shut tightly.
Carlos sighed and walked into the kitchen pouring himself a bowl of Fruity Pebbles. He remembered how all the boys used to make fun of Carlos for eating them, so because they were called FRUITY Pebbles. Carlos stiffed a little at the thought and chuckled to himself instead. Now they couldn't make fun of him without making fun of themselves. Carlos stuffed a spoonful in his mouth and chewed before he glances at James again. James was still huddled still on the couch, eyes squeezed shut. He kept twitching when he finally scratched himself. Carlos shook his head slowly. James really sucked at acting.
He poured another bowl of cereal and walked gingerly into the living room where he slowly put the bowl on the coffee table before he walked back to his room, bowl in his hand.
James opened his eyes and stared down at the cereal and blanket. Carlos had just did something nice for him? What did that mean? James didn't know but he picked up the cereal and took a bite not realizing how hungry he was. He then scratched his arms, his bandages itching like crazy. He flopped back and moaned slowly. Why did it always seem to be him?
Carlos flopped on the couch. James had moved but he didn't know where. Actually he was pretty sure the obsessive boy wasn't even in the apartment. Carlos shook his head and reached for the TV remote as his phone rang. He groaned and whipped it out of his pocket. He smiled though when he saw the caller ID.
"Hello?" he answered happily.
-"Hey Carlos."-
Carlos shivered. Dak and him had been seeing each other for a week and yet they weren't tired of each other yet. Dak's voice, so happy and innocent,always made his skin crawl in a good way.
"What's sup?"
-"Just thought you might wanna do something."- Dak chuckled. Carlos smiled through the phone.
"Sure. How about we go to the pool or something?"
-"Hmm, I'm not sure. I don't really feel like getting wet...how about we go see a movie?"-
"Sounds great. Meet you downstairs in ten minutes?"
-"Sounds good to me babe."-
"See you in ten minutes,babe."
-"See ya."-
Carlos shut his phone and stood up only to see James standing by the front door, his eyes wide as he stared at Carlos. He blushed and looked away, before turning around and slowly walking out. Carlos wanted to tell him to come back but he urge himself not to. He felt down and decided to hurry and change out of his pajamas. He walked into his room and bit his lip. He always felt like a girl going on an important date when he chose his clothes. Finally he settled on a grey and black striped t-shirt win light skinny jeans and his black high tops.
He smiled at himself in the mirror and grabbed his phone and wallet before he walked out. He hurried down the stairs to the lobby but he ran once again into James. But this time James grabbed Carlos and gently pushed him against the wall. Carlos start shaking and squirming.
"Oh god not again." he thought. But he looked up to see James golden hazel eyes were wide open in plead.
"Please Carlos! D-Don't go!" he sobbed. But Carlos just writhed and glared at James. He opened his mouth to yell for help when James pressed his lips to Carlos's. He poor Latino flipped out and tried pushing away in fright.
James pressed a bit harder, but he tried to make it seem romantic when he felt Carlos's hands on his chest. The boy glided his hands over James chest, making James shiver and stop to look at the Latino. But the second he stop kissing Carlos, he was thrown back a few steps, the right side of his face throbbing from where Carlos punched him. Carlos was glaring horribly at the brunette. James began crying as Carlos surged past him.
"Wait!" James tuned around quickly,grabbing Carlos's arm but Carlos turned around and quickly punched him. Hard. In the stomach. James fell to the ground as Carlos leered over him.
"Now you know I how felt." James noticed he looked more sad then mad. But still Carlos turned and walked into the lobby. James took a second to let it all sink in before he sat up, curled into a ball against the wall and sobbed hard.
Kendall was walking in from the pool when he saw the brunette. He quickly knelt next to him and shushed him.
"James what's...wrong..." his voice fades when he sees the bruise starting to form on his face. James sobs harder than ever and Kendall finally sighs and pulls him to his feet. James pressed his face into Kendall's shoulder.
Kendall was shocked. But he rubbed James back gently, before sighing.
"James you need to see someone about this."
James stared at his feet. He felt so embarrassed at having to sit in a therapists office, like he was an anorexic chick or a suicidal emo kid. He was especially embarrassed that Mama knight had brought him. She sat next to him, toolkit through a magazine, obviously not caring how many teenagers and their moms were staring at the kid wearing a black hoodie with a bruised face.
"James Diamond."
James sighed and stood, not wanting to do this. But he sucked in a breath and decided to get this over with.
Carlos snuggled against Dak's shoulder, his eyes fixated on the movie screen. They both laid still, ignoring the small looks they were getting from the people around them. Dak glared at a few people who were sneering at them disgustedly, just wanting to spend a nice time alone with his Carlos.
After the movie was done, they walked out of the theater, holding hands and still ignoring the looks they were getting. Until someone threw a cup at them. It hit Carlos in the back of the head,making him squeal and let go of Dak's hand as the cold drink flooded over him.
"Fags!" someone yelled and before Dak could do anything, the person ran. Dak looked over at Carlos. He was holding his arms up lamely, watching soda drip of his bangs and fingers. He was looking at his feet, blushing hard.
Soda covered his back and t-shirt. Despite blushing, Carlos looked sad. His eyes were downcast and he looked fallen. It was horrible. Dak felt really bad. He reached over and took hold of Carlos's hand once more, gently pulling the poor Latino to his car. He opened one of the doors and gently pushed Carlos inside. Poor Carlos huddled in the seat, before he stripped off the wet sticky shirt. Dak climbed into the drivers seat and gave a small sad smile to him.
"I'm sorry."
"What for?" Carlos shrugged, "It wasn't your fault."
Dak sighed and glanced over at Carlos. He felt heat running to his cheeks when he realized how...built the Latino was. It was pretty hot he had a hard time getting the keys in the ignition. When he finally did, he drove them straight to the palmwoods, where he pulled the shirtless Carlos to his apartment.
Carlos seemed confused until Dak pressed his lips to his, pressing them down a little bit harder. It was sweet and romantic,despite not being soft, it made Carlos feel good as Dak ran his fingers down Carlos's bare chest.
Carlos moaned a little as Dak rubbed his nipples, but then Dak pulled off of him. Carlos whimpered a little and stared at Dak in puzzlement.
"W-What was that for? Why'd you stop?" Carlos pouts and sticks his lip out,making Dak chuckle before he opened the door.
"Look, I like you Carlos. But let's not speed this up so much okay? Besides," Dak pouted dramatically before smirking, "I still haven't got an answer." then he pushed the pouting Latino out.
Kendall was glad that Logan wasn't here right now, because he really needed to find out what was wrong with him. He had decided to go see a therapist just like James was. Kendall came in to the room and sat down.
The therapist was a tall man, black hair and blue green eyes. He had a nice face and glossy eyes, but he looked very thin and almost a tiny bit creepy.
"Hello Kendall, I'm Dr. Forehan." he smiled and they shook hands before Kendal settled back into the seat. Dr. Forehan settled into the chair across from him and smiled.
"So Kendall," he said as he crossed his legs, "tell me what's been going on." he gave Kendall an encouraging smile as if to say "it's-okay-just-let-it-all-out". Kendall sucked in a breath and exhaled before he began speaking.
"Well, you see, my boyfriend and I have been doing great until we found out our friend was expecting a baby. And his boyfriend was beating him. Well he ended up hurting him badly and killed the baby."
"And how did that make you feel?"
Kendall bit his lip and put his hands in his lap. He looked down And a big fat tear rolled down his cheek when he remembered that horrible day.
"It was horrible. I felt terrible because I promised to keep Carlos and the baby safe but instead I goofed around and ended up holding my best friend in my arms as his baby died. I felt so guilty."
Another tear fell off his face and then another. He couldn't stop.
"And next thing I know...," he sighed deeply. This was gonna be hard.
"I can't stop thinking about him. I want him to be mine. And yet I still love Logan.." he glanced up at Dr. Forehan, who was frowning in confusion. He rubbed his chin. Then he gave a hand motion as if to say continue.
"And then..." he bit his lip, "I had a w-wet dream about him."
The therapist looked up in surprise. Kendall blushed deeply,embarrassed at what he just told Dr. Forehan.
"Well..." the therapist cleared his throat, "what do you feel when you're around him?"
"Happy." Kendall looked down again. It was just embarrassing.
"Well maybe...maybe you should try talking to him. It might help."
Kendall nodded and stood, before shaking the doctors hand and leaving. When he went back to the palmwoods he saw Carlos sitting on the couch with no shirt on. It was hot but Kendall knew he shouldn't say anything. With Carlos hanging with Dak and him dating Logan, it would probably cause everything to mess up. He decided to just keep it in and try to forget it all.
James laid in his room, hands behind his head. Help hadn't helped. Mama knight bad dropped him off at home and James had gone immediately to his bedroom. He wanted Carlos. He needed Carlos.
It was fucked up...everything...
He wish he could start over. He wished he didn't have the thought that Carlos should obey him but he did. He sighed when he thought about how many weeks of visiting his therapist had been assigned to him. He covered his far and sighed louder. His heart hammered in his chest so hard it felt painful. He knew that was what Carlos had probably felt all those times. James sniffed and stood up. He went to his bathroom where he found his razor shoved in the back of his drawer.
He yanked off his shirt and immediately ripped over the closed cuts. He sniffed as the blood ran down his arms when he suddenly had the feeling to do something.
He carved Carlos's name over is heart is the best cursive he could do with a razor. The blood dribbled down his chest and he ended up sinking to the ground and sobbing. Carlos...Carlos...Carlos...
XXXXXX Two weeks Later XXXXXX
Carlos smiled and bobbed above water laughing as Logan continued pushing him underwater, trying to get him back for throwing him into the pool. The two boys splashed around, laughing until they saw a shadow form above them. They stopped and looked up. Kendall was standing above them,smirking. He reached down and grabbed Logan by the front of his shirt, lifting him up out of the pool. His jeans and shoes drenched the sides of the pool from so much water.
"Let's not kill my boyfriend okay?" Kendall chuckled. Carlos nodded and ducked underwater. Kendall looked at Logan, who's hair was matted and stuck to his forehead. His shirt clung to his body and so did his jeans. He actually looked very hot. Kendall kissed him on his wet cheek and laughed before guiding him to the lobby.
Bitters started yelling about getting the carpet wet.
Kendall looked at him.
"Up yours bitters." Then he turned to Logan.
"Go get changed okay? I'll be upstairs in a minute." he winked at Logan who blushed and walked to the elevator,earning a slap on the ass from his already tight skinny jeans being wet and more tighter. As soon as Logan got in the elevator, Kendall turned around to go grab them some smoothies, but he guessed he turned at the wrong time.
Dak, on the other hand, had been relaxing by the pool, trying to tan a bit before taking a dive. He looked up and saw probably the hottest sight in the world. Carlos was climbing out of the pool, water dribbling down his hot built body, down his V line and where it stopped at the hen of his swim suit. Dak could feel his body warming up in a tingly way and he like it a lot.
Kendall felt that too and his jaw dropped.
Dak and Kendall both reacted the same-their bodies heated up and they felt like they had gotten slapped. Dak on the other hand walked over to the pool and gently glided his hands down Carlos's body. Carlos giggles and Dak leaned closer nibbling at his earlobe. Despite not having an answer yet, Dak and Carlos had started doing this often.
Kissing and teasing each other when ever they got the chance. Carlos wasn't so scared around Dak anymore and he started enjoying the make outs, the kisses, the teasing. Dak took Carlos by the hand and dragged him upstairs, where he pushed him against the door as he tried unsuccessfully opening it. When they finally got inside Dak's apartment, he slammed the door shut and pushes the soaking wet Carlos up against it.
Carlos moaned as Dak kissed him,before he moaned even louder to Dak forcing his tongue down his throat. It felt so good.
Suddenly Carlos felt something hard against his leg and it took a moment to realize Dak was hard. Dak stopped kissing him and glanced down. He blushed hard and started to pull off when he felt it.
Carlos had a hard on also.
Carlos blushed deeply but gave Dak a sly grin, but he seemed shaky. He leaned close and Dak could feel his breath ghosting on his lips. He flicked his tongue out and ran it across the Latinos bottom lip, before taking ahold of it in his teeth and pulling it before letting it spring back.
Carlos moaned a little as Dak grabbed hold of his lip again and bit down on it. Dak started slowly thrusting against him, before he grabbed Carlos's legs and lifted him up, sliding his hands under his thighs and too his ass. Carlos let out a squeak and when he did Dak grabbed and squeezed his ass.
"B-Bedroom." Carlos whispered. Dak carried him, stumbling at the same time. He couldn't seem to concentrate as their lips locked and Dak pulled him into his bedroom.
Kendall was breathing hard. Carlos...oh wow...he tried to clear his head as he walked upstairs to his apartment. He decided to go check up on Logan, do something to get that moment out of his head. He stepped into his room to hear the shower running and stop. The shower curtain was pulled back and the bathroom door opened to a very hot and tired looking Logan. He only wore a towel.
Kendall's jaw dropped and his fingers twitched. Two hotties in one day? AMAZING. Logan looked up and noticed Kendall, which is how he immediately blushed, trying to cover himself up more with his towel. But Kendall licked his lips eagerly, flashing a smirk to Logan.
"Hey sexy." Kendall walked over to Logan, who just stood there with deep crimson cheeks. Kendall trailed his hands down his boyfriends body and sighed contently. Then he ripped the towel off.
Logan squealed and tried to cover himself up, but Kendall grabbed his hands and held them up,away from Logans body, which he started ravishing with his mouth. He started on the lips. He bit and tugged them, making Logan moan a little until Kendall shoved his tongue down his throat.
Logan moaned as Kendall swirled his tongue everywhere, trying to find all of Logans sweet spots. Then he moved to Logans neck, moaning against the skin,making Logan squirm. He could tell the nerd was enjoying it. He licked and sucked on Logans neck before finding his pulse and biting down. Hard.
Logan screamed and Kendall couldn't stand it. He had a hard-on and it was starting to hurt, so he picked up Logan and threw him on the bed. He couldn't wait for what was next.
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