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Chapter 11:
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"Then why are you drunk Jasper? You couldn't come and talk to me you just up and walked away and into here earlier and what pounded bottles of liquor?" She starting ranting at me.
"Go back to Peter." I said harshly.
"Jasper?" she said wrapping myself up around me. "What did I do?"
"Bella… I can't do this."
Bella's POV
"You can't do what Jasper?"
"I can't keep having you in and out. I want you to stay in my life. I don't want you to leave again. And fuck I am pissed, you would have never gotten hurt if you would have just listened to us the last time we told you to stay around, and to move in with us. I get it you want normal, but besides that you won't tell us a god damn thing Bella. You always go to Peter, don't try to say you don't. We both know that it would be bull shit. I always come after him or with him but the only time we ever were together just us we were drunk! What do you want from us!" he screamed at me.
I couldn't stop myself from wanting to pull away from him. I wasn't used to this side of Jasper he had never gotten mad at me.
"I want you both Jasper. I love you both. I want to live my human life here with you both and I want Anthony to grow up and get married. I want him to have a family, for me to have grandchildren."
"I get it Bella, that is what you want for Anthony but what do you really want from Peter and me. You have to know how this will get in 10 years, 5 years we can make it work but Anthony will notice things Bella."
"I want to be with you both. I can't imagine life without you guys in my life. I am just scared."
"Bella, it is not like Peter and I have any experience with this. We both had single mates before and now we are doing our best to share because we love you. We want you to be happy and comfortable with the choices you are making."
"But I can't help but worry. What about Anthony, what about when he gets old enough to notice you are not getting older? What about when I get older. I am already older then you Jasper, and I am almost as old as Peter. Things will get noticed." I sighed
"Is that what you are worried about?... Bella."
"Yes, it is. Mostly it is what we will do in the future to make sure my son has a normal life."
"Bella all we can do is try. I can't say we will or will not tell him what we are. That would be the easiest but not everyone in their teens would take that as well as you did when you met us." he sighed. I always knew Jasper thought things out so I had hoped he would have some helpful thoughts for all of this.
"What about my mom? She will be devastated if we take Anthony away from her but we will have to do that won't we? She will notice much sooner then Anthony if she sees you guys at all that you are not getting older. We can't just avoid holidays and everything." I laughed as I heard the gagging noises from Jasper.
"Oh I am so not eating shit" he blurted out. "Oh and you are such a buzz kill girl. Stop worrying and just do what feels right. We love you, we love him. We will do whatever we need to do to make sure it is all okay Bella." He said leaning down towards me and softly kissing my lips. He pulled me over onto his lap and started to nibble down the side of my neck.
I moaned softly and sank down onto his lap.
"I'll stay here, and once we get older we will have to figure this all out. I am not going to let him be in the dark Jasper." I said with as much conviction as I could muster.
"We will take it when the time comes Bella." He sighed wrapping his arms around my waist. I curled up onto his lap and put my head against his chest never wanting to move away.
"So Jasper what was the problem really? What else is wrong?"
"I am fucking pissed Bella. You wouldn't have been hurt if Peter would have kept his god damn word and now I am stuck here not knowing if I can trust the fucker to keep his word again in the future. It is hard to trust someone at your back when you can't even trust them to stay away from someone for their own safety."
"Jasper, please. Jasper I understand the trust but forgive him. If he had not come back I wouldn't be here now."
The bottle got thrown across the floor before I knew it.
"And now you have these to fucking show for it!" he screamed pulling my hair back off of my neck.
"You have bites, fucking bites all over your body. You shouldn't have them, you should be pure and sweet, your skin unmarred. Not fucking chewed up- shit!" he growled looking all over my skin.
"Jasper" I sighed out kissing his neck.
"Bella." He said looking up into my eyes. "I'm sorry"
"Come in" he screamed and I heard the door open.
"Baby Bells!" I heard Emmett scream and I hoped up and ran over to the door and saw him standing there and Rose was next to him. She was shocking in what looked like pajamas. I guess comfort for the drive won for her.
"Bella it is wonderful to see you." Rose smiled over at me. "Now where is my brother?" she asked looking around.
"Oh follow me, he is in the game room." I walked over followed by Emmett and Rose. "Just leave your things right here." I told them and I opened up the door to the game room. I was happy to see Jasper had cleaned up the bottle he had thrown and shattered.
"Jasper" Rose almost squealed as she walked over and gave him a tight hug.
"Hey bro" Emmett said from the door looking around the room.
"You want a drink?" I asked him looking over my shoulder at him.
"Bella? You shouldn't drink." Emmett said looking over at me.
"Sure okay Em, how else do you think I got myself into so much trouble with these two." I smirked
"I don't need to know that" Emmett said covering his ear and laughing and humming."So where is the other idiot?"
"He went out a while ago. I am not sure when he will be back actually." I said looking over at Jasper who was sitting back down on the bean bag.
"So drinks?" I asked again going over to the bar and grabbing a rum and coke.
"Vodka on ice" Emmett said over to me and I tossed him a bottle from the freezer.
"There it was on ice." I smiled over at him.
"Thanks Bells" he said opening up the bottle and taking a chug while laughing.
"Rose?" I asked looking over her way.
"No thanks Bella"
"Pool?" Emmett asked looking around the room.
"Sure" I heard Jasper say finally talking to everyone else.
Rose walked over to me and I saw her looking at Jasper a bit worried.
"Did we interrupt?"
"No, well yes, we were having a talk about a few things. He is a bit pissed off right now at Peter." I sighed and saw Emmett and Jasper look over at us women.
"What did he do now?" Emmett said looking over at me worried.
"Rose did you tell him? About Edward?" I asked worried now what Emmett knew.
"Fucking idiot, showed up at her house. Edwards saw him do it too, he is such a fucking idiot. After Edward told us to stay away. That is why Edward beat the shit out of her. That is why Edward bit her and wanted to leave her to die on the floor. That is why Edward probably would have raped her if we hadn't fucking gotten there in time!" Jasper growled over at me.
"He didn't rape me Jasper!" I screamed back at him. "I get it you are pissed, but fucking stop it! Being angry at Peter is not going to help any of this."
I heard a low growl coming out of Emmett and I walked over and wrapped my arms around him.
"Emmett I am fine, and I will be fine." But he kept growling while his hands were looking at my throat.
"Fuck you guys, really!"
I turned around and chugged my drink walking towards the garage. I grabbed the keys to the house walking over towards the Lambo and pulling it out of the garage. I hadn't noticed it but it was light out and early in the morning. Stupid naps messing up my day and sleep schedule. I guess I can go and get Anthony then in a little bit. I missed my little guy. I backed down the driveway tears pouring from my face. I hated this shit. Why couldn't Jasper just move on over it. I was okay, yes it had scars but I had so many of them from before. I had the huge one on my arm from when Jasper tried to attack me on my birthday.
I don't know how I didn't hear it coming. I started to back up the driveway not bothering to do my normal three point so I could see better pulling out onto the road. I looked back and forth quickly and to the side as I back into the road and never saw it coming.
"Shit!" I yelled as I saw the truck coming.
Jasper's POV:
We all looked at each other as we heard the sound of something crashing close by the house. I couldn't stop and went running out of the house down the driveway screaming for Bella looking around for her.
I saw the pieces of orange all over the road and knew right away this was not good. There was another car off to the side of the road, front end crushed in onto itself with the roof crushed down and laying on it's roof. The Lambo was wrapped up around a tree.
"Rose go and check the other car please!" I yelled running over towards Bella. "Bella!" I screamed in at her and saw her blink her eyes a few time. Fear and pain were screaming from her emotions and a bit of love when I called for her.
"Jasper they are dead" I heard Rose call over from the other car.
"Remove the car, take it back to the house. We will take care of it later. Emmett get over here." I called over to him
"What? Oh god." The sheer amount of love and concern from him made me realize how much he loved his little sister.
"I am going to get Bella out of here. I need you to bring the car back to the house as well." I said as quickly as possible and I started to bend the car back into shape so I could pull Bella's body out of the twisted wreak. I had to hold my breath as I pulled her limp body from the car and held her into my body. I ran with her back to the house and put her into a bedroom. I knew what had to be done and this was not going to be easy.
I sat her down onto the bed and leaned over her.
"Bella can you heard me? Bella?" I asked again and again. "Bella you can't die on us. Bella please."
"yes" she coughed out and I knew she knew what I was asking. I slowly bent down over her head and kissed her forehead.
"Jasper" I heard Emmett call from downstairs. "Give me a minute" I said as I kissed Bella once more and then bit down over Edwards bites on her neck making sure to push as much venom as I could into her system. I did the same on the other side of her neck as well again making sure to cover over Edwards bites. I was done with him, he was going to burn tonight.
I bit down onto the back side of her knees making sure to push in enough to only need these 4 bites. She didn't need any more scars then what she already would have going into this. I watched for a little bit as I saw the bruises start to heal in front of my eyes.
I heard Emmett walking up behind me and I sat down on the bed next to Bella.
"You changed her?" he asked looking down at the ground.
"She said yes. I couldn't let her go. I couldn't let her die. I love her Emmett. I would do anything for her."
"What do you need us to do?" he asked looking over at her.
"I am trying to keep her quiet. There are too many neighbors around for her to be screaming out. I need you to go and start a fire. Burn the other body, burn the boxes in the garage with Edward in them. There are 5 of them, all say e-1 through e-5. He needs to pay for what he did to her. Keep his head until I come down. I want to throw the last piece in." I sighed looking over at him.
"You got it Jasper."
"Rose" I called over knowing she wasn't far.
"I need you to find us a new house. Not too far from here, I know Bella once she wakes will want to know about Anthony. Please. I need a bunch of acres, 50-100 or more please." I hated this, where the fuck was Peter when I needed him.
"I am here Jasper" I heard the fucker say from downstairs. "I bought a new house, it is not far from here about a 40 minute drive." He said looking over at Bella. "How did it happen?" he said leaning down to kiss her softly.
"You" I growled at him.
"I am sorry, I had to leave. I just felt that I had to go and that she would decide her future tonight. I told her before I wouldn't be angry at her no matter what she picked." He sighed out. Fucking 8 ball is pissing me off.
"You should have been here for her." I growled at him again. I was pissed.
"I am sorry, I just had to go. I knew I had to leave." I hated how he used his gift as an excuse for things.
"She couldn't have picked to be changed if you would have been here?"
"No, she would have came to me in the house instead of leaving. Things would not have turned out how they did."
"She is fucking dead Peter. How is that okay! She has a son, a human son, what will happen now. She can't be around him anytime soon. What do you think is going to happen now. Geez she probably thought you ment to pick or choose between me and you!"
I saw Rose run into the room and wrap her arms around me.
"Jasper I love her too, and it will be okay." Peter said as he sat down in the chair in the corner of the guestroom I brought Bella into.
"Jasper do you need anything?" Rose asked.
"Has Emmett done what I asked?" I said looking over at her.
"Yes, there is only the one box left. The frames obviously we can't burn down of the cars though."
"I have a lake on the new property, go and rent a truck. We need to pack this house up and fast. We have 3 days to get her to the new house and get it unpacked." Peter said still looking right at Bella.
"Lets go" he said looking over to Rose and Emmett.
I watched as they ran around the house boxing everything up, making phone calls to moving trucks. Before long I heard the trucks pull up and I heard a car leave. Days turn into night and night into day.
"Jasper it is time to go" I heard Rose say looking over to me and Bella. The only thing not packed up was the bed we were laying on right now. The rest of the house was bare.
"I will get her" I said wrapping my arms around her burning body. I could feel the fear and pain from her and it was starting to drive me nuts. Peter had told me to expect her to wake up later on tonight which was something to look forward to.
I carried her out to the car as Rose and Emmett picked up the rest of the bedroom pieces and loaded them into the back of the last truck.
We drive over to the new house and I saw that Peter had already painted up a few rooms so we knew whose things went to where. I carried Bella up to a beautifully painted blue room. It was a soft tiffany blue with white panels on the wall and I saw he had put a set of folded cyan sheets and a fluffy white comforter on the table. Rose walked in with Emmett with the bed frame and mattress and she quickly made up the bed so I could put Bella down. I sighed as I placed her down on the bed and gave her a quick kiss.
"Peter" I called out as I heard them running around downstairs. "What are the plans with Anthony?" I asked looking over at him. I hoped his mind had found a way to make this work.
"I talked to Renee. I told her Bella had been in a car accident." He frowned. "I told her that she is very hurt and unable to care for him Jasper. I am sorry Bella." He said looking down over at her on the bed. "I am hoping it will give us a year or so of Bella in "rehab"" he said using air quotes. "till she is better enough to take care of him again. I also told Renee we were going to move back with your father for a while, so that he could help us. She thinks we are in New York Jasper."
"We can work with that." I said looking over at him. "We need to talk sometime Peter."
"Not now, she is going to wake up soon." He said smiling over at our sleeping Bella.
"So why did I see a smoky back yard at the last house?" he asked quickly
"Edward is burned, I through his head in on the way out. We also had to burn the remains of the other human."
"Okay." I am going to go work on the petting zoo I am making outside" Peter smirked and then smiled at Bella. "She is going to want to take after your family." He said walking back downstairs
I smiled at the thought of Bella. I hoped she would be happy about this all. We were trying out best and she knew what she was getting herself into.
I heard her heart starting to slow down and saw Emmett, Rose, and Peter all come running towards the door.
Bella's POV:
The burning was horrible. I knew what I was doing though; I was going to be one of them. I had to keep my thoughts as positive as I could. I had no choice it was either this or die and there was no way I wanted that to happen to me or to Anthony. Oh god Anthony. I wanted to see him, I hadn't seen him in so long but there was no way I was going to be able to see him anytime soon. It could be years before I got to see him. The panic at this started to sync in and I wasn't sure I had made the right choice.
Jasper never left my side. I could feel his emotions from next to me and could feel when he would take up some of the pain I was going through. I had to thank him so much for that. I had to thank him for the offer to change me. I am glad he gave me the choice though too and didn't just do it himself. I loved them both with all of my heart. I wanted them to be my mates for eternity. I had been an idiot running away from them for the past year.
I slowly opened up my eyes and saw for the first time perfectly clear. I saw Jaspers stunning golden eyes looking down at me from the left, and saw Peters bright red eyes from the right. I smiled up at both of them and kissed them both softly on the cheek. Well as softly as I could while getting used to being a newborn and how quickly I moved. At least I couldn't bruise them if I went to fast.
"Bella, how are you feeling?" Peter asked looking down.
"Surprisingly not like I just got hit by a truck" she laughed as she slowly sat herself up. I tried my best to go slowly so that I wouldn't scare myself. It was going to take long enough to get used to the smells. I could smell 4 people and looked over seeing Rose and Emmett ad the door.
"Can I get some blood now please, my throat is fucking killing me!" I said looking around at all of them.
"Well Bella, if you follow me I have a nice fun treat downstairs for you." Peter smiled and then took my hand and walked me downstairs.
He opened the back door and I saw a barn and smelled the blood flowing throughout the barn behind the doors.
"How do you expect me to learn to take care of myself. I need to learn how to fucking hunt you idiot." I snarled at him and then threw my hand up over my mouth.
"I am sorry." I closed my eyes. When I opened then up Peter was standing in front of me with his hand on my chin.
Peter's POV:
"Bella it is natural. If you want we can go out into the woods. I had just figured you could take the edge off with one of the animals I caught for you in the past 2 days." I told her looking down into her bright red eyes.
"God those eyes are sexy." I growled at her.
I am sure she would have blushed if she still could have.
"I haven't looked at myself yet" she sighed looking over at me.
"Follow me" I said grabbing her arm and running with her towards the lake. I saw the bear sitting on the edge of the lake and saw her eyes perk up. She took off running towards the bear and I saw her snap it's neck and sink her teeth into it's vein. She lifted her head up and I saw the smile on her face as she wiped the blood that was dripping down her lips off.
"Taste good?" I asked looking over at her.
"Fuck no tastes like shit. God damn!" she gagged and I broke out laughing. Next thing I knew she had me pinned down to the ground and was biting onto my neck.
"Damn women" I said flipping her over under me grabbing onto her hand with mine and kissing her all over her neck and her face. "I love you, and I am sorry" I told her leaning into her lips and pushing myself down onto her body. She grinded her hips up against me and I let out a growl.
"Maybe later darlin, have to finish filling up that belly of yours." I laughed down at her.
"That shit tasted nasty, do all animals taste that bad?" she asked looking a bit upset.
"Bella, it is up to you what to eat but yeah they all taste pretty bad. I can help you find human blood. I can help you find the lowest of low if that is what you want. I will help you no mater what."
"I got that idea Peter", she said leaning up to kiss my lips.
"Do you want me to help you? I asked looking over at her.
"I want to try animals. I know they taste god awful nasty but I don't want to kill anyone." She said looking upset as she glanced up at me.
"You got it dear" I smiled as I stood up pulling her up by her arm and wrapping it around her waist. "Let's go find you some more furry friends." I laughed at her.
"Ouch!" I screamed as she slapped me in the ass and took off running.
"I am going to get you" I screamed after her taking chase.
"No you won't!" she called back running faster.
God damn her newborn speed. I got a sudden feeling of dread as it washed over me and knew this was not good.
"Bella stop! Wait!" I screamed, by the time I caught her I saw her sitting on the ground with a body next to her legs.
"Oh god, I am sorry Bella." I said reaching down with my arms and pulling her up to my body.
"I want to go home." She cried out looking back to the body on the ground. She was a natural, she hadn't made a mess at all with the human unlike the bear which she still had a bit of blood on her shirt from, but I could see how bad she felt about this.
"Please, don't tell them Peter" she sobbed into my chest.
"Bella I won't tell them you made a mistake, it is okay. It happens. I am sorry I let you out of my sight." I sighed into her hair.
"Thank you Peter" she said melting into my chest.
I took care of the body as she sat looking away from me and the corpse. I walked over touching the back of her shoulder and she stood back up looking over at me as I took her hand.
"Lets head on home, do you need to feed more?" I asked looking down at her sexy red eyes. I would hate it when they were gold but she would be stunning no matter what her choice was.
"Yes please" she said as we walked back to the house. She grabbed a quick snack from the barn and walked it outside and then broke its neck. I had told her to do it not to scare the others so they would stay alive long enough to still be used for food.
Days went by it turned into weeks and then into months. After a few months we brought a human over that I had found trying to rape a woman in an alley. We were hoping Bella wouldn't eat him since she had just fed, but she killed him as soon as she smelled him, we couldn't hold her back. I was glad she wasn't an angry newborn but it was obvious Bella was going to need to work on her control. She was still having problems keeping her bloodlust under control. She had no problems controlling her anger and emotions though which made it easy for us to try to help her.
I wasn't sure what to say to Bella though. Rose and Emmett had left a month or so ago so it was just Jasper and me with her. She hated herself every time she failed on of our tests. She would typically go and lock herself into her room and sit in her bed looking through picture of Anthony throughout the past 5 years. She has missed so much and it was killing her. Renee had been sending updated photos as he aged. The worst day was his 5th birthday. He called to talk to mommy about starting school in a few weeks. She sat in her room for almost a week at that point dry sobbing. She wanted to be back in his life. It had been almost a year now and she wasn't any closer to being able to stay around humans and getting to see her son.
She finally came out and went to the barn and ate through almost 10 animals. I had never seen her eat so much. She demanded we grab her a human now while she was full. It went just as horrible as the other trips. She was a mess after that. She was so full on blood and still couldn't manage to contain her thirst for human blood. Jasper and I had never seen someone fight so hard with their own bloodlust and it was killing us to watch our mate have such a hard time. We hadn't brought up our relationship with Bella, neither of us had been with her in months besides slight kisses here and there. She was too upset for us to even bring it up.
"Bella darlin?" I asked through the door after the last slip. "Can I talk to you?" I said through the door.
"Come in Peter." I heard her whisper from her bed.
"Bella, I want to talk to you about something. I know you have been having problems with your control."
"Shut up and get out Peter!" she growled at me pushing me off the bed. God she had control of everything else, she only pushed me enough for my ass to fall off the bed. I didn't crash into anything else but the floor. She could control herself, her movements, her emotions, everything but her god damn bloodlust and it was the worst part about this.
"Bella I am sorry, but please listen to me" I called out to her looking at her as she clung a picture of Anthony to her chest.
"I miss him so much" she sobbed and I sat back down next to her pulling her into my lap.
"I know and I want to help you as much as I can." I told her wrapping her up in my arms. "You both are my everything and our family won't be complete until we have him back with us."
"What can I do Peter?" she sobbed looking down at the picture in her lap.
"Bella I know you want to stick to your animal diet but have you thought about my suggestion about our natural food source? We could try it and see how your control is?" I asked trying to be as gentle in bringing this up as I could.
"I don't know Peter" she let out a sigh. "I just, I don't know"
"Bella there is no rush."
"Oh like fucking hell there isn't Peter, it has been a year. I missed my own sons birthday because I suck at this shit. I can't control myself enough to be around the most important person in my life!" she screamed at me and I knew what I said was stupid.
"Okay look. I am going out hunting tomorrow night. You are welcome to join me and I will do my best to help you learn." I told her looking down at her eyes again. They were still not gold. A year of trying to live off of animals, but she had still made enough mistakes that she still had red rimmed eyes. I understood her frustration and Jasper kept telling me how much her emotions were all over but she at least had been honest with us about everything.
The day went by and I didn't ask Bella about if she wanted to go out with me tonight to town. She would make up her own mind on what she wanted to do. I know she felt bad about the idea of killing humans but for some reason I just have a feeling she is not going to be able to succeed if she only feeds from animals. I just have a bad feeling about it.
"Bella" I call out looking around the house for her before I go to leave. I turn around and she is sitting at the door Indian style.
"Hey sweetheart" I smile over at her.
"Lets go" she says still looking a bit upset.
"Keep her safe please" I hear Jasper call from the living room. He had told me many times he did not like the idea of Bella feeding from humans because of her emotions about it but also knew that by now if she couldn't control herself at all then we have a problem.
We got down to the city and I held her hand tightly as we walked alone. I was thankful her newborn strength was gone now which meant I could easily keep her in line if need be. Yes I hated to use force against her but it was the only way I was going to get this to work if she snapped out of line.
I found 4 guys in an alley way and saw them passing drugs between them all.
"Bella is this okay? They are drug dealers and users?" I asked knowing I wanted her to feel better after this not worse for killing them.
"Yes they ruin many lives" she said half smiling over at me. I let go of her hand and she snapped 2 necks while I got the others. She had them both drained while I was finishing up my second. She smiled over at me as I stood up walking over and kissing the little bit of blood dripping down from the side of her mouth.
"How are you feeling?" I asked hoping to not get beaten for asking.
"As a human, I feel like crap. As a vampire, I feel wonderful." She said looking up into my eyes.
"Lets get you back home darlin."
She held my hand as we ran back to the house. Before we got to the door I smelled a human. Oh fuck.
"Bella?" I asked looking over at her as we stood on the porch. I saw the mail man walking up towards us with a box.
"I'm okay" she said as she stop breathing. This was progress.
"Hello Sir, Mam." He handed me the box and I quickly signed for it and he walked back to his car. I looked over at Bella and she smiled.
"I did it!" Bella squealed at me on the steps. "I didn't eat the mail man!" she jumped up and down laughing. Well damn this was a first. I hoped this wasn't the last though either.
