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Disclaimer: All characters and places belong to Twilight and Stephenie Meyer I'm just having fun with my imagination.
Up And Away
Bella POV
"Are you excited?" Alice looked like her face was going to come apart from the length of her smile.
"Nervous, scared, feeling a little crazy for letting you talk me into this, but no excited not there yet." I told her.
We had been in the air for a few hours and I still couldn't believe I was headed off to Brazil to find him and bring him back. Him; I still was having a hard time getting my mind to say his name and yet I had let Alice talk me into running to a foreign country to…to…to do what really? To tell him I loved him? He already knew that. To tell him I can't live without him? He already knew that.
What was I doing? I was going all the way to South America to get my heart broken all over again; that was what I was doing. I knew it. I knew it as soon as I agreed to Alice, but what had made me go along with this. What had gotten me to allow Alice to drag me through three different cities and countless different shops just to go down her and make a fool of myself? Was it just about my loving him? Had I agreed to all this just so that I finally was able to let myself go?
I knew that if I got down there and he was with someone else or having the time of his life, however long it has been, than it would destroy me. I wouldn't be able to go on. I'm talking lock me away and throw out the key. Padded rooms and steel cages, but it had to be better than the walking dead impression I had been doing over the last few months. I needed a resolution. I either needed to let him go, let myself go or find a way to make us work. Either way I couldn't go back to how I had been.
That had to be why I had agreed to this; to this insanity. This was a turning point. Either I was going to survive or I wasn't but I wouldn't keep living the half life that I had been.
"Alice tell me again that this is a good thing we are doing?" I asked her.
"Bella, this is going to be great." Man she was happy. "I have seen it and everything works out perfectly."
"And you are sure about how he feels?"
"Of course I'm sure. You think I would have you going down here if I wasn't?"
"Jasper?" I looked across Alice.
"Yes Bella." He always sounded so formal. I supposed now had less to do with me and more to do with the hundred or so other humans on this closed in plane. Poor Jasper.
"Are you sure?" If anyone knew how he felt it would be Jasper.
"I already told you Bella that he loves you, why are you asking Jasper?"
"Because he can feel it."
"But…" Alice started.
"It's okay, Honey." Jasper calmed her down. "Bella, I have never felt the emotions from Edward that you inspire. Even from the first moment that he meet you there has been a strong tie between you two. Sure there was the blood." He whispered. "But more than that was he felt protective of you. I have felt those emotions grow over the last year and believe me when I say that he loves you. There was never a waiver of that emotion. Not after what I did, not as we were leaving, and not when he was with us before he took off. Alice is right, he loves you, more than obviously he ever let you know."
"I want to believe you." I looked at them. "I want to believe both of you, but he and I never made sense."
"What do you mean?" Alice asked.
"He is gorgeous, as all of you are, and smart and well traveled and cultured and I could go on and on." I looked down at my hands. "And then there is me. I am plain and although I'm not stupid I don't see any Ivy League school knocking down my door in the future. Not to mention that the closest I have ever been to well traveled is when my mom thought about getting married in Mexico and then changed her mind. I have nothing to offer that would make him want me." I whispered feel more ashamed of myself than of rushing to find someone that might not even want me.
"That is just about the most retarded thing I have ever heard." Alice scoffed. "Bella you are beautiful and very smart and you don't have to travel around the globe to be well traveled to be cultured. You have an elegance that in innate and Edward is lucky to have you."
"Not to mention Bella that when we love there is nothing that can break apart that bond." Jasper chimed in. "You don't have to do anything for him to love you but be yourself. That is all he wants."
"That is easy for the two of you to say." I still wouldn't look at them. "You have each other and tomorrow you know that you will still have each other."
"And tomorrow you will have Edward." Alice pushed. "I swear you two are perfect for each other. If I didn't know it before I definitely know it now. Him with the 'I'm a monster how could anyone love me' and you with the 'I'm plain why would he want me'. You both make each other better and you are no more plain than he is a monster. Am I clear?"
"But Alice…"
"No buts." She sounded so frustrated and I wanted to believe her, but there were so many reasons to not. Starting with the refection I saw in the mirror. Sure there were moments that I felt more than pretty like in the salon after getting my hair and make-up done but over all I knew that I would never be more than plain-Jane-Bella.
"You still don't believe me." Alice continued. "Fine I will prove it to you. Jasper get ready." With that she pushed the stewardess button and pulled my chin up so that I was looking her right in the face. "When that cute steward guy comes over I want you to look right at him, smile and ask for water or a pillow or something. Jasper will read his emotions and that should convince you and if it doesn't then I am going to push you into the lap of every guy on this plane until you get it through your head that you are beautiful. Are we clear now?"
Alice POV
They would be the death of me. Well, not literally but almost. I had meant what I said. Between Edward and Bella and neither of them seeing themselves correctly I was going to explode. How was my plan ever going to work if Bella didn't see that she was gorgeous and Edward didn't see that not only does he need her but she needs him?
"How can I help you?" The steward guy leaned over us. He really was cute.
"I…um…was wondering….that is I would like….um…could I get a glass of….water?" Bella finally got out. Well that might not get the guy to fall down on the plane confessing his undying love but it still should do the trick.
"Sure I will be right back." He turned to leave and Jasper looked at me skeptically.
"Not yet." I told him so quietly that I knew Bella wouldn't hear me. I turned to her and spoke up. "Where was my smile and put a little eye flutter in it when he returns."
"Alice I don't flutter." She was beet red.
"Just pretend he is Edward and you want to get answer out of him. What would you do?"
The steward came back then and I must say I was impressed by the fake smile that Bella had stapled to her face. I almost believed her. "Here you go." He handed the water past Jasper and I. "Is there anything else you need?"
"Thank you." Bella's voice was a little lower and almost seductive as she took a sip of water and looked up at him through her lashes. Very impressive. "I was also wondering about how much longer we have before we get there? I'm not the best when it comes to flying."
He smiled down at her. This was going to work better than I thought. "We have about twelve more hours but don't worry you should be just fine and if you need anything I will be happy to get it for you. My name is Jayson."
I looked over at Jasper and he was so close to laughing I had to poke him in the side.
"Could I possible get a pillow?" Bella asked softly with a hint of a smile.
"Absolutely." He walked about three rows up and opened the over head compartment. "Here is a pillow and a blanket, just in case." He winked at her. Now I was almost laughing.
"Thank you again."
"Not a problem." He leaned in closer. "And I'll come back and check on you a little later to make sure you don't need anything else."
"That would be great." Bella's smile looked a little to genuine for my taste now.
"Weren't you going to take a nap?" I asked. "We want you to be well rested and ready when we get there."
"Of course." She smiled and I heard Jasper laughing behind me.
"Well if you're sleeping then I won't bother you." Jayson was saying. Then he smiled and walked off to help someone else.
"What the hell was that?" I turned to her as soon as he left.
"I just did what you asked Alice. Why are you mad at me?" I could hear Jasper really laughing now.
"Well, you didn't have to do it so well." Now I was going to have to dissuade Jayson somehow before we landed. This was not working out the way I planned.
"Jasper did it work?" She looked over to Jasper.
"Of course it worked." I said crossing my arms. "You don't have to be an empath or a psychic to see that."
"Alice don't pout." Jasper had finally stopped laughing.
"Why is she so mad?" Bella asked him.
"She didn't expect you to do so well or for him to be so over come with lust for that matter." Jasper explained. "In case you haven't noticed Alice is a little protective of Edward and she sees you as an extension of him."
"But it was her idea." Bella looked at me. "Did I do something wrong?"
"No Bella," Jasper continued. "You did everything right. That's the problem." She looked so confused. "Think of it this way. If Edward was here would he like to see you flirting with some other guy and that guy falling all over him to get to you?"
"No, I guess I see your point." They were both ignoring me now.
"By the way," Jasper continued. "Not only was he lusting after you but he was very, very excited. Which I am sure you can see made Alice very, very mad."
They both snickered. "Would you two stop talking about me like I am not sitting right between you?"
"Will you stop pouting?" Jasper asked.
"Will you stop being mad that I did what you said?" Bella continued.
"Maybe." I was still upset but my mood wasn't helping anything. "Can I scare him if he comes back?" I smiled at them both.
Jasper just shook his head at me and Bella prompted up her pillow to lay down. "What? I could smile really big at him and maybe glower my eyes a little. Kinda like I am getting ready to pounce on dinner." Now Bella had her eyes closed and Jasper went back to reading the philosophy book that he had brought with him. "Well I think it's a great idea." I said to myself. "Teach him to mess with what doesn't belong to him."
"Alice you need help." Bella said without opening her eyes. "And right now I don't belong to anyone. Goodnight."
I wanted to argued with her but Jaspers hand on my arm stopped me. She was so wrong. She belonged to Edward and us. Not in a bad way like a pet but in a good way like a sister. She was part of our family more than she knew and we needed her. Sure it would bring home Edward but it would do so much more.
Sometimes I wished I could just show everyone my visions so that they could see how everything was suppose to be. But if I showed Edward what I saw he would do everything in his power to avoid it. Not that he wouldn't want the ending that I saw but he would be so worried about what it would do to Bella that he would punish himself to keep from making it happen. He wouldn't even look hard enough to see that Bella was happy. Not my stubborn brother. He would just know that his way was the best way.
Just like leaving. I had tried to warn him of the damage that he would do but he wouldn't listen. I had seen what was coming. Bella being reckless and putting herself in danger, vampires still attacking her, but when I had saw her jump that was when I had acted.
We couldn't lose her or we would lose Edward. I saw his decision and I knew that it was a matter of time. I had to get her to him soon. That was one vision I didn't want to come true now or ever.
AN: Okay so I know that Alice's visions are based on what people have decided and at this point Bella hadn't decided to do anything reckless or to jump of the cliff but for the story I need to speed up that vision. Plus I am going with the idea that when she decided to be friends with Jacob that maybe it just pushed all the other idea.
Let me know what you think.
