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"I just… I don't understand Zexion." I closed my eyes, trying to calm myself done. My mother had sat me down to talk to me about all this and I knew it wouldn't be fun.
"It doesn't matter if you understand or not! You are not taking him away from me if you can't handle it!" My attempts of calming myself didn't help. Tears had gathered in my eyes and were threatening to overflow.
"Calm down, honey. I just… I don't remember you being this way." I suppose I can see her side of this. I mean I never really was gay all my life. I wasn't in to girls or boys.
"I'm not gay. I just happened to fall in love with Roxas." The room suddenly fell quiet after I said that. I could hear my heartbeat in my ears, waiting for her to say something.
She stood up abruptly. "No you aren't." She whispered, as I grew scared. I've never seen her like this I had no idea what she was going to do. "You are not in love with him!" She stepped forward and forcefully grabbed my arm, her long nails digging in to my skin.
I tried to pry my arm out of her grasp but it didn't work, she was too strong at the moment. "Mom… It hurts." I gasped as I felt tears start to roll down my cheeks.
She realized what she was doing and released my arm. I fell to the ground with a smack, holding my right arm. I watched her as she walked over to the sink with her back facing me.
"Go to your room." I didn't say anything to her as I picked myself up and rushed to my room, closing and locking the door behind me. I quickly dug through my pockets and pulled out my cellphone.
I frantically pressed the numbers to Roxas's number and pressed it to my ear. My heartbeat and breathing getting faster every ring I heard. I wanted him to pick up; I need him to pick up.
I suddenly heard the familiar voice "Hey, Zexion." I broke down the second I heard his voice. I slid down to the floor, immediately burying my head in my knees.
"Nnn… Uuuh…" I tried to keep my sobs as quiet as possible. I felt bad suddenly calling Roxas and then bawling to him as he tried to calm me down.
"Zexion, what's wrong?! Just take a deep breath and tell me what happened." I did as he told me to do and slowly calmed down. I wiped my tears from my face and wiped my nose.
"My mother saw us. On the porch. She sat me down to talk about it. She didn't understand at all." Roxas stayed quiet as I explained the whole thing to him. He was a really good listener when I needed him.
"Did you look at your arm yet? Are there any bruises or cuts?" I switched the phone to my other ear and stretched out my arm in front of me. I could see four small cuts were her fingernails had been in my skin and a small bruise starting to form.
"Basically a hand print." I ran my hand over the wound, slightly wincing when I touched the bruise.
"A kiss would make it better." I shuddered. His voice tone changed, in to the voice he used on me when we were alone. I could feel myself slowly start to respond.
It seemed like in seconds I was already thinking of all the things I wanted Roxas to do to me. What was wrong with me? I seemed to have changed so much. And yet look at how happy I was.
"Man, I'm already hard." I blushed, knowing I was the same way. But how could he say it so easily like that! What if someone heard him! He'd be in even bigger trouble then me.
"Shut up, we're on the phone."I gripped the phone tightly as the pressure in my lower half became worse. Something about the thought of being caught turned me on.
"I wish we weren't. Then my fantasies would come true." I could picture the smirk that was probably on his face. I'm sure he knew I was blushing like bad.
"Nngh, don't Roxas."My aching member was begging me to touch it. I could see and feel it throbbing through my pants. I blame Roxas for my pain.
"Hey, touch yourself." I shivered at his voice. Although I wanted to do his command, it wasn't that easy. My mother was in the same house, and more importantly the one I love could hear me very easily. I would be very embarrassing!
"But what if we get caught?!" Even though I said that, my hand was already pulling out me erection and softly stroking it. And it felt really good. "Ahhhh."
"Does it feel good, Zexion?" I knew he was smirking, but I didn't care one bit. The way he said my voice made me forget about everything except him.
"Y-Yeah… Nnngh…" My breathing started to become uneven. Pants and moans were all that was coming from me, and I could tell how much Roxas liked it by his grunts.
"Rub the tip, babe." Ah fuck, that nickname made me shiver. I did exactly what he told me and ran my finger over the slit at the top over and over again.
"Nnnghhh ahhh!" My body spasmed involuntary. My back arched off the door, my hand gripping my leaking member. I felt close already, even though I was just listening to Roxas's voice.
"Are you close?" It was like he was right next to me, he knew what I was doing and knew I was just about to cum. I couldn't take it anymore, I needed release badly. And I knew Roxas would be happy to give it to me.
"Ahh, I'm going to come!" My hand accelerated along my ready to explode erection as I heard Roxas's pants speed up. We were so close I could hardly handle it.
"Together… Zexion." My body started to tremble just before I exploded in to my hand, moaning loudly as I did."Nnnngh!" Roxas's moans signaled he had found release just like me.
All I could hear were Roxas's pants through the receiver of the phone. I tried to catch my breath also, wiping my splattered hand on my pants. My mind was completely blank.
After our steamy moment we stayed on the phone for hours. We talked about everything that was on our minds, until it was late in to the night. Roxas made sure I was alright before we decided to go to bed and get together tomorrow. It was by far the best phone conversation I've ever had.
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I loved hanging out with Roxas. Even if it was just lying around on a couch watching TV like we were doing now. We made the decision to hang out at his house since his parents are never home. I wasn't even sure if Roxas had parents. I haven't even met them yet.
"Where are your parents?" I had to ask at least once. What kind of frie— boyfriend would I be if I didn't? But it always seemed like Roxas tried to change the subject.
I could feel his hands start to wonder. Running over my skin and under my clothes. He was really clever that way, making me feel really good so I'd hopefully forget.
But of course I wouldn't. So I placed my hand on his and pulled them in to my lap, holding them tightly so they wouldn't get away. "Answer the questions, Roxas."
He gave me a soft kiss on the lips before sigh with a smile on his face. "Okay, Zexion. You win. My parents on a business trip." He pulled his hands away and went back to fondling me.
It took me awhile to register what he had said. I never guessed he would say his parents were on a business trip. If his parents were away from home, what was Roxas doing all alone at home?
"Wait, what? For how long?" My mother would never just leave like that. She would at least find someone I can stay with.
"Ummm… I dunno. They said they'll be home whenever." He started to kiss his way up my arm slowly. But I wasn't going to forget this that easily. It was a serious thing for me. His parents don't seem to care about him.
"They just left you? All alone?" I was completely stunned and angry. What kind of parents would do that to their own child? Roxas was only in ninth grade!
"Yeah, so what? They always do that. As long as there's food I'm happy." He gave me another kiss on the lips. Why did it not seem like he cared?
"But aren't you… lonely?" I felt water drip on to my hand in my lap. I looked down, confused. I wiped my cheek to find it damp. I… was crying? But that didn't make sense. It was his business, I shouldn't care, right?
I suddenly felt Roxas's arms around my body, pulling me in to his chest. "You're crying for me. That makes me really happy." His warm made me feel instantly better, which made me pull myself even closer to him.
He was so calming, even though he made my heart race with just looking at me. I did love him a lot, but I wasn't so sure about him being along. Something could happen to him. And all I wanted was for him to be safe.
