**This story consists of Ren x Stimpy action. The characters are portrayed as humans with their anthro qualities (animal ears and tails) and may be a bit OOC. Rated Mature for future chapters.
I own no right to Ren and Stimpy**
~Stimpy's POV~
Ren returned home not too long after handling the issue with his psychiatrist. He was more… quiet than when he left, but I didn't mind. I enjoyed it in fact; the silence in the living room as both of us sat shoulder-to-shoulder next to one another. It made me think on what I should do for the rest of the day.
"What's for dinner?" Ren muttered softly, his attention not on me.
I look over at him and wrap my arm around him.
"I dunno~! Whatever you want, Renny!"
Ren sighed in exasperation as he leaned back on the couch, pulling a couch pillow towards himself and laying his head down on it.
"Man, I told you, I don't fucking care what we have for dinner. Just fucking get to it."
I glance at the clock, and then look back at him.
" Well… it's only 2:15, so I'll get started a little later, Ren." I smile at him.
Shrugging off my response, he hides his face in the pillow.
"What's there to do in the meantime though?" I say to myself as I try to think of something.
Ren moans softly, "Shut uppppp…"
I look at him and gently rub his back.
"Oh come now, I'm just trying to think of—
"Just watch tv or something! I don't give a fuck what you do, alright?!" Ren interrupted as he glared at me.
Pulling my hand away, my cat ears slide down from his tone.
"You could fucking die for all I care and I wouldn't even bother with it!" Ren said in anger, sitting up, "Pfft, you're always a fuck up anyway so you'd do this world a favor!"
Melancholy rises in my chest as I look down steadily, taking the insults and abuse. I look at him. Those pink eyes filled with rage and… depression, if you will, were glaring at me like a knife to the chest.
Suddenly, Ren grabs my shoulders forcefully and pulls me in. I tightly close my eyes and brace myself for another onslaught of beatings.
"Don't you know just how much I fucking hate you?" He growls in anger. "I don't care what you do anymore! How many times have I fucking told ya that?!"
I slowly open my eyes, looking into his. I'm a bit taken aback as I see… tears in his eyes. He's… sad.
"Just do me a favor and GET OUT OF HERE!" He yells as he chokes back tears.
This is all too much for him… I think to myself as his grip gets loose around my shoulders. First the accident I had, then the incident at work, and now… I sigh internally. What kind of selfish person am I…?
Carefully, I wrap my arms around him, gently letting him rest against my chest. Surprisingly, he takes that offer as I feel a trembling little hug around my waist. He breathes rapidly as he cries, his tiny back and arms shaking from the overflow of emotions that he finally spills out. I hold him and rub his back, my hands gently caressing his tiny spine.
"I'm so sorry Ren…" I say softly, holding back my melancholy feelings, "I shouldn't have walked out a while ago… it was wrong and selfish of me and I'm so sorry…" I stroke his hair. "I shouldn't have left you at home alone…"
"I…I don't fucking care… You didn't fucking do anything!" He pulls away and glares at me. "Don'tcha see, it's all my fucking fault!" He roughly jabs his finger to his chest. "It always is!"
I watch him, wanting to disagree so badly.
"I'm the fucking crazy person here… not you…" He says as his voice trails off into a tiny whimper at the end of his sentence.
"Ren please… You didn't—
"Just save it.. I know what I did wrong." He stares at me with eyes the pleaded me to be quiet.
I hold down my rebuttal and take his hands.
"I can make it better so it's not that way, Ren…"
Ren scoffs at my reply and pulls his hands away.
"I'm fucking unfixable. You can't fix me, doctors can't… even medication can't…"
I put my finger to his lips as I feel tears sting my eyes. I hate hearing Ren speak like this. It's so heartbreaking that he thinks this way.
"Please just... give me a chance."
Ren looks away and has a defeated look in his eyes.
"Fine… it won't be easy, you know…"
"I know, but… I'm prepared for it." I laugh a bit, trying to hold back my sympathy. "I mean… I've been here by your side for years… why would I even give up?"
Ren looks away, lacking in a reply to me.
The room grows deathly quiet fast as the only sound that resonates in a low rumbling sound of thunder.
"What do you mean 'give me a chance'?" Ren asks as the dark bedroom illuminates with the occasional flash of lightning.
I look over at him as we lay next to one another in bed.
"I want a chance to help you… I know I can't understand your pain, but I'd like to try…"
Ren pulls the comforter closer to his face.
"Why do you care so much?"
I blink a few times, feeling my face blush a bit.
Because I love you, that's why! I just… can't say it… I mean, I have before but…
"Well?" He asks, getting impatient.
I look at him and scoot closer to him, holding his hand under the blanket.
"I care because…"
He gives me a questionable look.
I try to force the sentence out, but my body rejects my advances. I bite my lip, wanting to say it so desperately.
"Well?" He glares at me, now getting completely annoyed.
"I love you." I quickly say as I feel the blush spread across my face, making me feel vulnerable.
He stares at me, and then looks away.
"If only it were true." He finally speaks.
"What do you mean?"
"How can love someone as… fucked up as me? Jeez… Ya gotta be real fucked up to love a crazy psycho like me…"
I lean in close to him.
"Ren, I've told you how much I care about you before. I've told you that I love you."
He rolls his eyes and turns away from me, laying flat on his back.
"It's fucking sick how you deal with me… I'm always this fucking jerk to you… but sometimes you just piss me off so fucking much that I just snap. I mean… A human being like you can't be so fucking stupid! At least… you can't be stupid enough to actually still want to live with me.. let alone care for me…" He laughs a bit top himself. "You're probably just making all of that up—
I lean over him, my lips pressed against his as I keep myself steady above his body. I gently place my hands on his cheeks and slide them through his stringy bangs. It's not long after I kiss him that I feel his hands around my neck, pulling me closer.
A low rumble of thunder sounds as I lean closer into him.
I wouldn't lie to the one I love.
