Azure Light
~A~
Harry sat upright and turned to his left, seeing the blue man from earlier. Only, this time he remembered it with the 20/20 vision that his newly reconstructed memories had given him. He was on the moon Pandora, around five years travel from Earth. He'd finally been freed from the screams of his home world.
He'd been trying to reorganize his Pandoran memories, but instead he'd been brought here. Looking down at himself, he frowned at the sight of blue skin. So, this was an AVATAR. But he was only supposed to be able to enter one through one of those Link beds. Why had meditating brought him here?
"You are-" He paused, frowning. ~What is your name?~ he asked in slightly stilted Na'vi.
The blue man looked slightly relieved. What about, Harry had no idea. ~You can speak again. I am Tsu'tey. Do you not remember?~
Harry shook his head. ~No. I am… trying to become… not so confused. Cannot remember everything. Do you know what happened?~
The Na'vi sat back on his haunches. ~I… we… There was a blue light. I wanted to… touch. After that, an… accident happened.~ He held up his braid of hair, and the weird dancing filaments came out again. This time Harry was slightly weirded out, but wasn't in the same state of mind as before. ~We bonded. The light… it was very strange. Our way, it is to bond with a woman when we have become an adult in the clan. Men cannot bond with men. Eywa did not make us that way. I wished to separate our bond, and… pulled our queues apart. I'm afraid that I may have damaged yours.~ He reached for the braid resting against Harry's back and the wizard flinched away. Tsu'tey's expression hardened, but Harry could see genuine regret in the Na'vi's eyes. ~I am sorry for that. It… it is considered a very grave offense to damage the queue of another Na'vi.~
Harry frowned slightly, finding it difficult to read the multitude of emotions passing through Tsu'tey's eyes. ~Well, if it caused all of these problems, I should cut it off.~
~NO!~
Harry flinched back in surprise at the sheer vehemence of Tsu'tey's response. Biting his lip, he pulled the braid out in front of him and examined the freaky ending bits. They did look a little… singed, compared to Tsu'tey's. ~Why do they look like this?~ he asked, turning the braid back and forth to see the sluggish filaments form a different angle.
~I… do not know. The first time this happened, you were disoriented but uninjured.~
Harry started when he realized that Tsu'tey's face was merely a foot from his own, examining the filaments with a stormy expression. ~Wait, this has happened multiple times? Didn't you just say that males do not bond in your culture? Then why has this happened?~
Tsu'tey met his own confused eyes. ~I… had first believed that you did it on purpose, to confuse me after I… but now I do not know. We were in the water. The current could have… and there was the glowing light.~
~Glowing light?~ Harry thought about it. ~You mean this?~ he cupped a hand and let his magic flow into them. Tsu'tey jumped back as if Harry had conjured fire in front of a muggle.
~Put it away! It is dangerous!~
Harry tilted his head to the side. ~It is just… energy. It is not dangerous in itself.~ Changing the pure magic into healing magic without really much thought, he shoved his queue into it and nearly yelped at the feeling that raced up the back of his spine. Oh god that felt nice. A deep rumbling purr made his chest vibrate, and he smiled. It felt as though someone had just sunk liquid heat into the worst knot he'd ever had and was soothing it out like a balm. When the headache that he'd been suffering for the past six hours finally went away, he let the healing magic fade. Still smiling, he held his queue up to the light and examined the shiny new, writhing filaments. ~See? All better.~
Tsu'tey, who had backed away as soon as Harry had brought out his magic, slowly made his way forward again in a crouch. When he saw that Harry's queue was fully healed, he moved with an agility that startled Harry. Taking it from Harry's hands with gentle fingers, he examined it with a critical eye. The filaments, almost as if they had a mind of their own, began to dance faster. When Tsu'tey ran a gentle finger up the side of one, Harry was completely unprepared for the electric desire that raced down from the back of his neck and to his lower regions.
Only, he had thought he didn't have lower regions anymore. When he'd examined himself in the forest some days ago, he'd been rather shocked to find his junk missing. Instead, he'd found a completely smooth pelvis.
But then the primal part of his brain told the scientist in him to shut the fuck up because damn it felt better than someone running their finger up the side of his cock. Arching backwards, the only thing that kept him from collapsing onto the ground was a well-placed arm holding his weight.
Only, instead of keeping going, Tsu'tey stopped caressing his filaments and started watching his face instead. Harry, brought out of his pleasurable high, frowned. "Why'd you-" ~Why did you stop?~ he asked, his words ending in a purr that he couldn't seem to control.
Tsu'tey stared at him for a while longer, his face completely unreadable to Harry's dazed brain. ~I am sorry. Usually it is only a mate or mother during childhood who… do this. As you are a dreamwalker and not Na'vi, I was curious to see if you would react as Na'vi.~
Harry smiled slightly. ~Whatever the reason, you can keep doing that to me all night if you want,~ he said with a purr, totally turned on and therefore upper brain function not exactly functioning at optimum levels. Under normal circumstances, he would never have said something like that.
Tsu'tey touched it again curiously, and Harry hummed happily, his tail flicking with a mind of its own. ~Why would you say that? Do males mate among the sky people?~
Harry tried to get his brain working. ~Uh… yeah. The way that Mother Earth created us, a part of population is… attracted to their own gender. Actually, I think the entire planet was that way. Some scientists did research, and even animals on Earth would sometimes show attraction to their same gender. I take it that's not common here?~
Tsu'tey hummed thoughtfully, absentmindedly playing with Harry's queue now as he stared off in thought. ~No. Eywa did not make us that way. So, why is it that you are… attracted to men in this body?~
Harry purred. ~This body was made by crossing DNA of a Na'vi and a human. So, it takes on characteristics of my human body.~
~But I thought you said you were not of the Sky People, but the Lost People?~
When the fingers stopped playing with his queue, Harry made a small noise of complaint. ~You keep doing that, I keep talking.~ He said, when it seemed like Tsu'tey had no intention of continuing. Besides, it never as fun when you were playing with it yourself.
When Tsu'tey seemed to agree to his terms for this conversation, Harry purred again and lay down on the ground. ~I'm not Sky People. The Lost People have m- that energy that I showed. Sky People don't.~
~Are there more Lost People?~
~No, I'm the last.~
~Is that why you cannot die?~
~I don't know. I think so, but I've never been able to figure it out.~ Yawning, Harry closed his eyes, still enjoying the petting of his queue.
Tsu'tey made a small amused sound that Harry wouldn't have been able to hear if he were human. ~You realize that mothers do this to their children to calm them down after night terrors.~
~Well, I never had a mother.~
The petting paused before starting again. ~What happened to her?~
~She and my father were killed by a bad man when I was a baby. He was Lost People, too, but he hated. Hated very much. Wanted to kill all the Sky People because they were different. I don't much like the idea of killing anyone, and neither did my parents, so he killed them too. Eventually, I managed to win when I was older. But now I wonder… that if I had let him live and kill all the Sky People, would Mother Earth still be alive and well?~ Unable to help himself, he started crying. He'd been keeping it pent up inside himself for so long… the guilt. The questions of 'what if'.
The knowledge that he had failed.
The queue petting had long since changed from sexual to comforting, much like how he felt when his hair was played with or his back massaged. He hadn't been laid in so long it was no surprise this had turned him on, really.
Being lost in his thoughts as he was, Harry was completely unprepared for the arms that lifted him into the air and held him against a warm chest partially-covered in armour. Blinking in confusion, he nearly yelped when Tsu'tey started running up a nearby tree with a skill that made Harry envious.
Before the wizard had a chance to comment, Tsu'tey had settled them in the extremely large crook of a Pandoran tree branch. Wrapping his arms around Harry, he absently began to play with the end of his queue again.
~Why…~ Harry didn't know exactly how to put into words what he wanted to ask. Tsu'tey was a hard man to read, even when his face was inches from Harry's own.
Tsu'tey met his eyes for a moment. ~I See you.~
Harry didn't really remember the saying clearly, but somehow he felt it was… important. ~I don't understand.~
Tsu'tey watched him for a few more moments before closing his eyes in 'sleep'. ~You are not Sky People. I have seen into you through the… bond, and you are in pain. So I am…~ his arms tightened as he didn't know how to explain. Perhaps it was something that was inherent to their culture? ~Sleep.~ He commanded.
Harry let himself relax in the Na'vi's hold and let his head rest on Tsu'tey's shoulder. He was slightly shorter than the taller man, so it wasn't nearly as uncomfortable as it could have been. Plus, with the fingers petting his queue and the soft humming of a song he could almost remember, it was easy to close his eyes.
~A~
When Harry woke up the next morning, he felt… strange. Going into this mind, he was surprised to see that the mess that his mind had been was mostly cleared up, and even the Pandoran corner had righted itself during the night. Was the Na'vi mind really so deeply affected by the health of their queue that it had affected him in his human body? What would happen if Tsu'tey hadn't been there to keep Harry from cutting it off?
Speaking of Tsu'tey… Harry opened his eyes and frowned at the sight of the bottom of his bunk. Oh. He was back in his room… His eyes slipped closed again as he yawned.
Then they snapped back open, wide and he sat up straight as a board.
He had entered his AVATAR through his mind last night. How… how was that even possible? The scientist in him balked at the sheer impossibility of it all, while the wizard inside him, who had seemingly woken up again when dynamite had exploded inside his skull, told it to stuff it and anything was possible where magic was concerned. Hence the word 'magic'.
Well, damn. He needed to get back in a link in order to talk to Tsu'tey about what had happened last night. He hadn't been on a trip that bad since he'd had a run in with some new drug at a bar that had resulted in him melting half the metal apartment of the guy who had intended to rape him that night.
He'd needed to fake his own death to cover up that fuck up.
Quickly changing into a clean pair of clothes, he brushed his teeth, ran his fingers through his hair, and then ran out the door.
"Dr. Blackstone!"
Harry grimaced just as he was sitting down on his link bed. Shit. He'd forgotten Grace had wanted to talk to him.
"Good morning, Dr. Augustine," he greeted politely as she came storming towards him.
She raised an eyebrow. "You and I need to talk, bucko."
"Uh, I'm a little busy at the moment for talking. Omaticayan life starts early, and all." He smiled widely at her.
She didn't look pleased in the least. "You better get to sleep at the same time as Jake tonight, or I'm going to yank you out of that link bed myself. Capiche?"
Harry saluted. "You got it captain!" Before she could say another word though, he'd pulled the lid of the link coffin shut and closed his eyes.
~A~
When his eyes opened again, Harry was slightly disappointed to see that Tsu'tey was nowhere in sight. Wilting slightly, he looked around the tree branch he'd been left on for any sight of blue man. Immediately, he chastised himself. Tsu'tey's very biologic make up made him straighter than a fucking… everything he could think of, from horizon to ruler bent slightly or could by physically bent.
Grumbling to himself in annoyance, he crawled down from the tree and tried to ignore how shitty it was for him, a gay man, to get a crush on a Na'vi male.
He was so fucked.
Stripping off his dirty boxers, Harry jumped into the river and started thoroughly washing the grime off himself that he hadn't finished washing off the night before. After that was done, he started washing his clothes too so he'd have something to wear out of here.
~I See you, Harri.~
Harry yelped and slipped on a rock, getting himself thoroughly drenched. Getting back to his feet, he wiped loose bits of hair out of his face and glared at the grinning and laughing sight of Tsu'tey. His irritation couldn't last long, however, at the sight of Tsu'tey not being an asshole. Completely floored, he just stared.
Tsu'tey, having finally stopped chuckling at his expense, tilted his head to the side, making the beads and feathers in his hair dip to one side. ~Are you going to greet me in return? It is customary among the People.~
Harry smiled. Tsu'tey was actually being nice! A ball of energy knotted up in his stomach. ~I See you,~ he greeted back, nodding his head slightly with a smile.
~Are you feeling better this morning?~ Tsu'tey asked, walking over to the edge of the river where Harry had hung his pants and boxers to dry. Currently he was working on the shirt.
Harry nodded. ~Much better. Thank you.~
Tsu'tey's eyes glanced down at the shirt in his hands currently hiding his non-existent junk from view. ~I have brought you clothes. You need not wear those.~
Harry blinked and looked down at the worn, hole-ridden shirt. ~Oh. Okay.~ Shrugging, he walked out of the water, wringing out his shirt. Hanging it up on the same tree as the others, he turned toward Tsu'tey expectantly, completely naked and not particularly caring.
The Na'vi didn't seem to either, tossing him something that was half rope, half cloth. Harry stared at it, bewildered.
~Clothes.~
Harry looked at it, at Tsu'tey, and then back at the skimpy thong he now held in his hand. Er, loin cloth. Well, it was basically a thong with a strip of cloth that would hang down over the crotch… area. Since there was no particular crotch in sight.
… Okay, this was beginning to bother him just a little too much. ~Um, Tsu'tey? Before I get this thing on… I have a question. It's a little… embarrassing.~
Tsu'tey raised an eyebrow. Well, a ridge, because they technically didn't have any hair on their faces. ~Yes?~
Harry looked down at the flat plane that was his… well, junk. ~Well, you know about how these bodies aren't our real bodies, right?~ Tsu'tey nodded. ~So, I don't know how to…~ He kept looking down.
Silence.
Then Tsu'tey started roaring with laughter, making Harry one irritated kitty. Just ask his tail. ~You do not know how to relieve yourself?~
Harry's face turned red. ~I know how to do that. I mean, how do you… you know.~
Tsu'tey stared at him in incomprehension.
"Wank." He finally said in English, embarrassed beyond relief. Tsu'tey parroted the word back at him, still not understanding. "Jack off?" Blank look. "Beat the stick?" An alarmed look. "Pump the stump?" A 'wtf' look. Wow, so a Na'vi can pull that off… "Masturbate?" And back to incomprehension. Great. ~How do Na'vi have babies?~ he finally asked.
-Toki Mirage-
"Don't play with that, you'll go blind." – Grace Augustine
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