Sorry I had allot going on with my personal life. Things have calmed down a little and writting helped me get my mind off things for awhile. Thank you to everyone who was patient with this chapter. Love you all and please review :)


Severus stared up at the ceiling with dull eyes, frowning as his thoughts went back to his previous conversation with James. The image of the small wooden trinket came to his mind, deepening his frown.

I've never seen anything like it before.

After years of reading and studying Severus never came across an object like that. He read stories about how one can feel others pain and about how people have once died because of it. The spells for something like that were extremely complex, even for him. Spells were one thing but an actual object filled with that kind of power, there shouldn't be anything like it. It didn't seem real.

"I guess there's allot I still don't know about the world." Severus whispered softly. Everything that was happening seemed like a dream almost. He would ask himself if it was real or not. James loving him. People caring about him. James risking his life by just being with him. The tortures he went through everyday. Was it really worth it?

Severus heaved a heavy sigh, closing his eyes. James's smiling face came to his mind, making him grip the sheets.

Why is he still with me? An oily little snake, who is invisible to the world. Someone who wouldn't be missed.

James is perfect in every way. His looks, his athletic skills, his personality, and the way he can woo people into liking him. Compared to me, I'm just a shadow.

Severus gripped the sheets tighter, feeling tears whelming in his eyes.

Am I really worth all of this?

Tears slid down his cheeks and he bit his lip, trying to contain his sobs. Doubt gripped his heart with sharp claws.

How much more of this can I take? Would it be better if we weren't together? Would James be happier?

The small Slytherin slowly cried himself to sleep, desperately wishing he had an answer.


James frowned as he picked up another book, he opened it forcefully and began scanning through the pages.

"The room of requirement is a room in Hogwarts that opens up to those who are in need. The room will change to the users desire, making it into what ever the user needs. It will only open to those who are in great need and are of pure of heart." Remus's words echoed in his mind, sadly the young werewolf didn't know where the room was.

"Damnit they tell you everything about the room except its location!" Angry, James closed the book and stood, making his way out of the library. He stormed around the school, bumping into passing students as he walked upstairs. It was getting late and everyone was getting back to their rooms before curfew.

James walked past the Gryffindor common room, deciding he wanted to walk more. He had allot on his mind and knew he couldn't sleep even if he tried.

"Sev must be suffering." James stopped and smashed his hand into the wall next to him, wincing as pain shot up his arm. The impact shook the paintings above him.

"Hey boy! Some of us are trying to sleep!" A painting of an elderly man shouted. James clenched his hands into tighter fists.

"Piss off." He growled, ignoring the mans curses as he walked away. James cradled his injured hand to his chest, hissing when he tried to move his fingers.

"Damn it all." He stopped in his tracks, looking down at his feat. "How can I protect him?" What was this need to protect people so desperately? His friends. His Sev. They were all he really had. James didn't care much about his wealth or his skills. He would gladly trade them all in order to protect them.

Without realizing it tears began to slide down his cheeks as he sunk to the floor slowly. The great and proud James Potter, with all of his glory and talents, he couldn't even protect the most important thing to him. He drew his knees close to his chest, wrapping his arms around them tightly.

"Please." He whispered. "Please just make all of this stop." The wall behind him shook violently, sending dust and gravel down onto him. Alarmed he stood up, stepping back cautiously. The wall in front of him transformed into a large wooden door.

"What the hell?" The door became more vivid as the dust cleared. James watched in awe as it glowed and words appeared above it.

"The room of requirement has opened to your need. Use it wisely to protect what is yours. Your heart is strong. Never give up."

The words vanished and the door opened slightly. James slowly rested his hand against it, opening it slowly and stepping into the room. The door closed behind him, showering more dust on him. He coughed and ran a hand through his hair, shaking the dust out of it. He looked around the room, his jaw dropping.

Laying in the center of the room was an enormous bed, covered in red silk sheets. Velvet pillows were stacked high on it. Black desks stood on either side of the bed, big enough to fit clothes into them. Turning his head James noticed another room. He switched on the light and his eyes widened.

It was a bathroom. A large porcelain tub was up against the wall. Fancy shampoos and soaps were lined up against the rim of it. Behind the tub was a stained glass shower, two shower heads were on either side and there was enough room to fit a couch in it.

"Oh." Was all James could say. He turned the light off and walked out of the bathroom and towards the bed. He sat on it slowly, running a hand across the silk sheets. A smile tugged at his lips gently.

"Thank you, this is just what I need."


"M-moving? James what the hell are you talking about? I need to go the Slytherin common room, it's almost curfew!" Severus cried out desperately, trying to release his hand from James's vice grip. Two days had passed and Severus was out of the infirmary. It was late and the second he was out, James told him he wanted to show him something.

"James please! Can't you wait until tomorrow to show me this?" Severus called out. The proud Gryffindor merely smirked, still dragging the small Slytherin.

"Relax! It will be worth it trust me!" James suddenly stopped, releasing his hold on him. Severus looked around, expecting to see something.

"Well?" He asked. "What is it you wanted to show me?" James chuckled and stared at the wall in front of him.

"Just wait." Severus frowned and followed his gaze. Suddenly the wall shook, alarmed he took a step back. Severus watched in awe as the wall was replaced by a large wooden door.

"W-what is this?" Severus asked. James smiled and opened the door.

"Come on, I'll show you." He walked inside the room and Severus followed cautiously. What he saw next completely surprised him. It was as if he walked into a kings bedroom. The silk bed, the velvet pillows, the large fireplace, everything.

"W-wow." Was all he could say. James chuckled and wrapped his arms around his waist.

"This my dearest Sev is your new room. It was given to me by Hogwarts to protect you. You and me will be sleeping here together, everything you need is in this room. I even got you some new robes and clothes. All your books and other necessities are here, taken from your room." James pulled away and sat on the bed, smiling brightly as he patted the spot next to him.

Severus should be overjoyed by this but fear gripped his heart tightly.

I can't stay here, Lucius would know!

"J-James, this is amazing and all but…I just can't stay here with you." He whispered painfully. James frowned and narrowed his eyes.

"What do you mean you can't stay?" His voice was stern and he stood up. "Did I do something wrong?"

Severus shook his head and looked at his feet. "N-no, its just what are people going to say when I don't return to my room? There gonna ask questions and-"

"That's already been arranged." James interrupted. "Dumbledore told your room mates that due to your health you've been assigned into a rehabilitation room until you have recovered completely. It is true in a way." James rested his hands on Severus's shoulders. "Its going to be ok."

Severus did everything in his power to avoid his gaze from James. He knew that it wasn't good enough, he had to go back to his room. If he didn't Lucius would punish him, regardless of the reason. Just thinking about that send a chill down his spine. He didn't want to go back, he wanted to stay here with James where it was safe. But, he knew he had no choice. For the sake of everyone he had to go back.

"James, I-I still need to go-"

"I hate liars." James growled. Severus froze and looked up at James. The kind eyes that were once staring at him were replaced with the eyes of the James that would torment him in the past. Severus tried to pull away but James gripped him harder. Fear gripped him, was James going to hurt him? He began to tremble under James's grip, feeling tears whelming in his eyes. But, he swallowed and tried to hide the fear in his voice.

"W-what do you mean?" He asked. James gritted his teeth and glared at Severus.

"I know what wounds look like when someone is beaten Severus!" James used his name instead of his nickname, voice stern and menacing. "You've been lying to me haven't you?" Severus stared up at him with wide eyes.

"W-what? James I don't know what your talking about!" Severus said desperately.

"Swear to me then! Swear on my life and your life that someone isn't hurting you! If someone is then tell me who! I can help you!" James shouted. Severus tried to pull away again, only to be gripped tighter.

"I…..I" Severus stopped, a sob escaping his lips. "I c-can't!" He cried. "If I do then y-you'll all be killed!" James growled and shook his shoulders.

"I don't care! Tell me now Severus!" He shouted. Tears poured down Severus's cheeks and he trembled even harder.

"Fine! It's Lucius! Are you happy now?" Severus began to sink to his knees, James settled him down slowly. "He's hurting me because I'm with you!" He buried his face in James's chest, gripping his shirt tightly as he sobbed. James rubbed his back soothingly.

"I figured." James said softly. "But it's ok Sev, I'm here now and I'm going to help you." Severus shook his head.

"N-no. I can't stop this, not yet." Severus said shakily.

"What do you mean? We have proof."

"No we don't." Severus cried. "My word isn't enough, I'll get proof I swear! But I need to do most of this on my own, you have to understand James! I know what I'm doing! I just need more time!"

"No you don't!" James pulled away and rolled up Severus's sleeve, revealing bruises. "This doesn't look like you know what your doing!" He said sternly. Severus flinched and pulled his sleeve back down.

"Please James…I swear if something happens I'll come to you but you have to trust me on this and act like you don't know about any of this!" James sighed heavily, frowning deeply.

"Fine." He wrapped his arms tightly around Severus. "I'll put my trust in you, but don't you ever lie to me again. And I promise I will protect you no matter what" Severus nodded in his chest, gripping James's shirt even more tightly.

Moments passed before James finally pulled away. "Come on, lets go to sleep." Severus stood shakily with the help of James.

"I'm so sorry James." He whispered. James kissed the top of Severus's head.

"It's ok, come on let's just get some sleep. I bought you some new pajamas, there over by the rest of your things." Severus was to tired to argue with James, he hated the fact that he bought him new clothes. He slowly pulled his robe off, feeling James's gaze burning in his back. He blushed and threw on his new clothes quickly. He turned back around, noticing that James had changed as well. He blushed even more because James was only wearing a pair of sweat pants.

Severus laid down in the bed, throwing the covers over himself. James chuckled and laid down beside him, pulling him close. Severus buried his face in James's chest, taking in his scent and relaxing.

"I could get used to this." He whispered. James smiled.

"Same here." Severus closed his eyes and nuzzled deeper in James's chest.

"Sleep well Sev."

"You too."

That night Severus slept, he actually slept fully without being awoken by nightmares or the fear of something happening to him or James.