a long awaited update...sorry im so slow at getting this done but i think i have the final 4 chapters mapped out good now so with out further adue chapter 11 read and review please.

The shock was enough to kill Ben Franklin on the other end of his fucking kite…Sam was pregnant to. I looked over Randy's shoulder, why hadn't I seen it before? She was simply glowing, pregnancy was good to her and I could only hope that it would be as good to me. What was I going to do? I didn't want a baby, family was something I never planned for and now I was finally back with John and I could feel him slipping away from me.

Randy must have been able to see the worry written all over my face and he reached out and touched my arm in an effort to comfort me. "It's going to be ok." He told me. I wanted to believe him but I didn't, once John found out about this baby I would be by myself once more. I just had to remember how to stand on my own again.

"What are we going to do Randy?" I asked him, speaking softly not to alarm his wife. "Should I keep the baby?"

He let go of my arm and just looked at me. "Of course you should keep it, as much as this was not supposed to happen I will always want my child."

I turned my back to him and laid my hands on my stomach. "Ever think that I don't want one."

"It's a child!" He said in an angry whisper, grabbing my arm. Randy calmed down and turned me around to face him. "Look." He started. "I know that this isn't what you wanted but have to realise that getting rid of that baby is selfish. We made a mistake but that baby doesn't deserve to suffer because of it."

I knew that he was right. The only thing that I ever did outside of the entertainment world that ever made me happy was my work at the shelter. Every week I saw cats and dogs get put down because nobody wanted them, how could I do that to my own child? "Your right." I said.

"Listen, you and me are going to get through this ok? I'm going to be there every step of the way…I'm going to take care of all the medical bills and we need to get you in for an appointment to get vitamins and things like that."

I moved my hands around his neck to bring him in for a hug. "Thank you!" I told him.

He hugged me tightly. "You're my best friend and I'd never abandon you…just one thing?" He said to me.

"Anything." I replied.

"Keep this between you and me for now? I'm assuming you haven't told John yet."

"I wanted you to know first."

"Good." He told me. "Because I don't want to spring this on Samantha just yet, the stress of her finding out about us was already hurtful to the pregnancy. It's not good for the baby if I tell her just yet."

I reluctantly agreed and took off to find John.

I opened the door to the locker room and poked my head inside; John was being his usual pre-match self, playing Nintendo on his sofa. "Hey." He said looking up at me. "I was beginning to think you got lost."

A nervous laugh escaped my lips which one then replaced with my finger as began to bite my nails. "Nope, I'm right here."

"Good." John replied as I sat down beside him. "Because I wouldn't want to have to send out a search party out or anything."

I felt his arm move around my shoulder as I spoke. "I just had to make sure that Samantha was ok, I mean I didn't want what happened coming between her and Randy's relationship. I just felt really bad ya know?"

He kissed the top of her head. "You're an amazing person…" He started.

"I wouldn't say that," Was my reply. I was lying through my teeth, and he didn't even know.

"No, you really are. Most people wouldn't look back, they couldn't face the person after something like that and now here you are concerned for his wife."

I hung my head, I hated when he thought the best of me. He really should think the worst…I hated how cool he was with everything because it made it that much harder to lie to him. Well keep the truth away from him, it's not like he asked if I was pregnant. I know I know I'm trying to justify things but I wouldn't have to if he were a normal grudge holding human being.

My head fell on his shoulder, I didn't want to loose that amazing soul either. He was everything good about the male race and telling him would crush him, I just knew it. I couldn't expect him to forgive me for having another mans baby, sleeping with Randy was one thing…we weren't together, but how could he handle another mans child running around.

He disturbed my thought when he moved; gently making my head come off his shoulder. "I better go." John said. "My match is really soon."

Oh god he was fighting Randy, I'd almost forgot. I hoped that things really were cool between them because I didn't want anything besides business happening inside the squared circle. If they decided to take out their frustrations someone was bound to get hurt. "Ok, good luck and be careful." I told him as he leaned down to kiss me on the cheek.

"I always am," He told me. "I'll see you after the match…how about I get cleaned up and you put on something special and we just go somewhere later? How's that sound?"

"Fine." I told him, what else could I say. I had to act like nothing was wrong or else he would know that something was wrong. Completely wrong, horribly wrong…terribly wrong. I just smiled and kissed him gently poring all the love I had for him into it. I didn't want to ever have to let him go, it killed me the first time and now once all this was said and done it would hurt even more the second time.

"I love you." He said, making his way out the door. Why did it hurt so much to hear him say that?