"Do you really think he'll make you use your gun?" I asked Beckett
"I hope not. What are you doing?" She replied, noticing me pull out a book
"It's my diary. I want you to know how long I've loved you. April 20,2009: I noticed how nervous Dad looked for his "date" with Detective Beckett. I had only met her a couple of times but I felt something strong when I saw her or thought about her. When she entered the loft, I couldn't take my eyes off her. I had to see her more. She made me forget everything.
May 4,2009: Dad told me how Beckett picked Angela Candela up during the case. Sounds like she's very maternal.
November 2,2009: I can't believe Haley Blue is dead. I found out on a blog and went to the precinct afterwards. Dad tried to get me to leave for school but Beckett looked like she wanted my help. I helped her decifer song lyrics. I told her all I knew about Haley Blue and her sister Sky. She acually wanted me there. She came to the memorial service Sky held for Haley. I wonder if she likes me.
March 22,2010: I hate to say it, I'm glad Beckett's apartment blew up. If Ben Conrad hadn't, she wouldn't be here with me. It's true Gram and Dad are here but Beckett and I talked for hours before Dad came back from the store. I hope she doesn't find an apartment soon. I wanna stay with her forever.
October 11,2010: I asked Dad how you know when you're in love. I had to make sure I said Ashley since I know he'll get mad if I tell him I'm thinking of Beckett. He wants to date Kate, but I want to marry her. She's mine!
October 31,2011: I can't believe Dad and Gram were trapped in a bank. When I found out what branch, I hailed a cab there and kinda threatended her. I hated doing that but when it comes to family, I don't mess around.
May 7,2012: I graduated last night. I was hopping Kate would be there. When she didn't show up, I went to an all night party and got drunk. I finnally realized my mistake when I had my 20th drink. I called Dad but he didn't answer. I called Gram instead who drove down from the Hamptons.
October 8,2012: Dad told me he and Beckett were dating. He didn't tell me all summer. He waited until I went to college. He couldn't bring himself to tell me. I HATE him.
November 5,2012: I went to Super Nova Con with my friends trying to forget about Beckett. She doesn't notice me. I can't believe I got caught by Dad. He yelled at me and Beckett pulled him away. I noticed she stared at me before they left. Maybe she likes me.
December 3,2012: Beckett came over for Christmas dinner. Dad wanted to start a new tradition. He kept Cookie Angel I made in the 1st grade. I was happy to see her again. She makes me happy.
January 7,2013: I hated Beckett seeing me while I was sick. I didn't want to give her mono. At least she didn't run from me.
February 25,2013: Kate was waiting for me and Dad at our apartment. I gave Gram a hug first and then Beckett pulled me into a hug. I don't know if she was forced to or not but it felt great. I didn't want to let go.
April 1,2013: I helped Kate plan Dad's surprise party. I was glad we could spend time together. I think I'll tell her how I feel tonight.
April 29,2013: I can't believe Beckett stepped on a bomb. I wanted to be there, but I'd fail this semester if I left. I'd gone out with Max to try and forget Beckett once I realized how serious the relationship she had with Dad was. I guess I'll never get to tell her.
May 13,2013: Dad showed me the ring. I see how happy she makes him. I don't want to tell him I'm not "normal". I want Beckett. Maybe I need to forget about her. I'm so confused lately. She won't be mine because Dad holds her heart."
"Alexis, I didn't know how long you've felt like this. I'm sorry it took me this long to act on it."
"No, I'm sorry. I should've paid attention when you asked me questions. I'm sorry I didn't believe you. If I'd known how you felt, I wouldn't have bought you Feast of Love. After seeing how much you love her, you can date Beckett if she wants to."
"Alexis, wanna go out with me? I'm moving to DC and need a room mate. I hate cold apartments."
"I would love to. If you hate cold apartments, why did you live alone for so long?"
"Never found the right person. Castle, I'm sorry this didn't work out. It was fun while it lasted. I hope we can still be friends."
"We were friends before we dated so we can still be friends afterwards. Be careful with her ok? She's my only daughter. She cares about you." He said, kissing my forehead and Beckett's lips before leaving.
Lanie and Jenny were waiting outside with Javi and Ryan. Dad was at the precinct when he called me. He had Ryan trace the call and got the next flight out. I heard him tell them Caskett was changing.
"What do you mean Caskett's changing?" Javi asked
"Beckett and I are no longer together. She's Alexis' It took me this long to realize that."
As I walked out of the house, Lanie and Jenny ran over to give me a hug. I went to Ryan next when Beckett walked out, looking like she saw a ghost.
"Castle, I'm pregnant."
