| { Confound : Chapter 11 } |
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"Kikyou!" The molten golden eyed half-demon shouted while he cracked his knuckles, "you are being completely! Completely—!" He couldn't say it, not to her, if it was anyone else he'd spew out the curse word that was burning its way through his hot tongue.
"Inuyasha," sighed the fair Madame with a small shake of her head, "stop, you are making a scene."
"No one is down here!"
"You are going to wake the girls upstairs," Kikyou hissed. It only got a narrowed glare out of the man as he continued to stride around in annoyance.
"Don't tell me I can't see her! This is ridiculous! I am a paying customer!"
"Yes, you are," she asserted as she waved her hands down, trying to calm him, "and you can have any woman you want expect Kaoru-chan."
"Kagome," he corrected bitterly.
"You fool," she scoffed while taking a step away; he gripped her wrist before she could walk away from him.
"You are jealous, aren't you?! Gods, Kikyou! You know that I would have given you ever—"
"That hasn't anything to do with this," she protested as she yanked her wrist free, a stern façade fixated upon her pretty face.
"Then what the hell is it?!"
"Keep your voice down," she ordered in a harsh hush, "if you ever figure out why you cannot see Kaoru-chan anymore then perhaps you will be allowed to again."
"What the fuck does that mean?" He snarled. "I refuse—!"
"She asked me to do this!" It was the first time she raised her voice and it put him in his place right away. His golden orbs widened before he looked away with a bitter frown.
"You're lying, why would she do that after all I've done for her?"
"Inuyasha," Kikyou soothed after regain her cool, she took a step forward and raised her hands to float about his face—as if she wanted to touch but some force kept her from doing so. "I told you this many times already, I will tell you again… forever, you will forever be from a different world. That is why you do not understand. Please, Inuyasha, let her be."
"I'll pay more—"
"That won't matter," she assured as she lowered her arms so she could fold them upon her chest.
"I friends in high places, Kikyou," he snickered, "I'll go to them and tell them to shut down the Shikon, you forget I can do that?"
"Oh, I know," she stated sternly, "you made a fine point at parading that in my face last time. I failed to protect Kaoru-chan like I should because I let that threat move me into breaking the rules but… not this time, Inuyasha. If one of my girls does not want to see someone, truly, truly, does not want to, I will never force them. Go to your friends, Inuyasha, but I will not let Kaoru-chan down again."
That was the last thing she said before she turned her back to him.
That was the last time he entered the Shikon.
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I couldn't help it, I dreaded every night after the last day I saw Inuyasha-san. It wasn't until the second that he showed up and I left the room, right away, like Kikyou-sama told me to do. Before I exited fully, I saw Kikyou-sama intercept him. She came and got me when he was gone and the night went on like any other. Then he came back again, the same events followed, and again, I did the same, and again... it stayed like this for about a week and a half before I woke up to the sound of his frustrated shouts. I couldn't really hear what he was saying to Kikyou-sama and I didn't want to either... I just wanted it to be done.
And it was... because after that morning a month past without a sign of him.
Inuyasha-san, I suppose I am confusing you, hm? Why would I ever not want to see you after you showed me such a great time? After you took me to Osaka, showed me to beautiful ocean, and bought me so many fine things? After you were so kind? After everything? It's simple, Inuyasha-san, and if you only understood the world than you wouldn't even question my decision.
In all your supposed kindness... you were crueler to me than anyone else in the whole wide world ever could be.
You, you showed me a life I never knew, that I could never have. Yes, Inuyasha-san, I could have dreamed of a life outside of the Shikon but I never ever had before you. Even when I grew closer to you I never let that fantasy take me, I never let a happy story of what-could-be appear to me as I slept night after night. Now I do. Now you made me. I knew my life was not grand, but I found happiness within it. How was I supposed to find that again after you shoved into my face a life I didn't even knew existed?
How?
I want that life, Inuyasha-san, I want that life with you... and you don't. You want it with another. That does not even matter in the end, that's not really a factor into why I refuse to see you. Even if you did want me in that pretty lie of a life it could never be. We don't live in a fairy-tale, there is no happily ever after. I am what I am, I will always be. You are what you are, you will always be.
We can never be.
I can never have that life.
Yet, I will never be able to get that dream out of my head.
And it is because of that that I can never forgive you.
I am sorry, Inuyasha-san, but... I can never see you again.
Goodbye.
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It was strange, he thought, to see her floating about outside the Shikon, about the streets of Kyoto, laughing in good cheer with her friends. That and the fact she wasn't wearing her usual kimono but instead a simple western dress along with most of the girls she waltzed about with. All girls from the Shikon, he recalled their faces from around there.
He honestly hadn't left his home that day in hopes of finding her, he had no intention of seeking her out after more than a month of a cold shoulder... it just so happened that her ever so subtle calla lily scent caught his senses, and she wasn't too far away... so he just wondered on over to see what she was up to. At least she wasn't wearing that bellflower perfume like she had each and every night he tried to see her at the Shikon, so… she must have just done that because he told her not to—that only added to his annoyance.
There was no way he knew how terribly ticked off he would become by simply seeing her smile and strut around with her friends that afternoon. It really made his blood boil. He had given her so much, taken her to Osaka, and she refused to see him? If anything he should get a couple of nights for free.
A smirk crossed his lips when he noticed her linger behind her friends to look at a booth. He waited just a bit more until he was sure her friends waded out of sight in the mass of people before he walked up behind her. Perhaps, it was a little perverse to just watch her for a few minutes until she seemed to notice someone was there, watching her.
With slight panic she turned about to see him right there. It only caused further irritation to notice the way her eyes widened with... fear? So he grasped her wrist and pulled her across the road to the alleyway.
"T-Toashi-san!" Kagome chocked while she tried her best to pull away from him but it was useless... he'd forever be stronger than her. "You're hurting me, Toashi-san!"
"You know that's not even my name!" He barked back as he flung her against the wall.
Her eyes closed right away, she hadn't even thought that she'd run into him on the streets... for a month she'd been going out almost daily with her friends, just like always, to do this and that and not once had she stumbled upon him. Why must her luck run out now?
"What?" He growled as he slammed his hands on either side of her head, "you think I'm going to hurt you?"
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Hurt me? Do I think you will hurt me? You already had! You have scorned me like no one before. If past habits will hold true, of course you will hurt me, Inuyasha-san!
I took a breath before I looked up at Inuyasha-san wirily, half-lidded, "To-Toashi-san—"
"Tsukino or Inuyasha but not Toashi!" He pressed his fists harder against the bricks before he narrowed his eyes upon me. It was sudden when he grasped my upper arms and pulled me down to a door, opened it, and pushed me in. It was small, I suppose it was a storage room for one of the shops all the street. I ran into one of the shelves as the sound of the door slamming shut and locking echoed from behind me.
Fear consumed me from inside out... yet so did excitement.
He pulled me to him, pressing my back to his strong, stiff, stomach, "tell me why you have been avoiding me!"
Tell me, tell me, tell me! Inuyasha-san, you are always ordering me to tell you this and tell you that! Why can't you just leave good enough alone? If you had never made me tell you when I had a night off then all would be fine. If you had never made me tell you my name, my heart would not have been shattered into fragments to be spread all about. If you had never made me tell you that next night off, my mind would be at ease, my happiness hedged, saved. Now I didn't have that, I didn't have any of that to help mend me.
And that's entirely your fault, Inuyasha-san. Why can't you figure that out?
"No," I whimpered before he moved his hands from gripping my hips up to my shoulders, he slid Sango-chan's dress that I was wearing that day down my shoulders so they would be bare enough for his lips to trail across them. "Inuyasha-san," I could tell I had his attention as I cried out to him, "stop!"
"No," he grunted back before pushing me forward so that I had to grip the shelves for support. I heard the tear of my stockings as he flung up my dress and forced my legs apart.
Not this again... he said he'd never be rough anymore. This is not fair. This is not right...
But you don't care; do you, Inuyasha-san?
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He wasn't even ready when he got her legs to stay open, he couldn't help but allow his golden gaze to wander all about her bare bum that he did enjoy so much before he slid one of his hands down it—the other was keeping her pinned in her place—before he slid two digits into her. A small muffled gasp refused to break her lips free as she closed her eyes tightly before she felt him begin his assault.
In, out, in, out, swirl about, and just like she expected he added his thumb for aid to stroke her sweet spot. There was no point for her to try and count anything, to avoid the feeling, because... she could not be Kaoru with Inuyasha, no matter how much she'd love to.
"Stop," she begged as she involuntarily moved her hips once along with his rhythm.
If she acted like she really wanted him to perhaps he would but when her words cried no, her body beckoned for more as he pulled his stroking fingers out to lick them clean briefly.
Now, he was more than ready to plunge in to her—to pulse within then out. With the first set she cringed closer before grasping the shelves tighter. She shook her head as he gripped her hips tighter to pull her to him as he pushed in, to create a deeper sensation for the both of them. After he had a fixed pattern, adding a swirl here and there for a mild moan from her, he pulled the dress down more to expose one of her breasts so he could fondle it. His fingers pinched her erected nub, meshed it with his palm.
"In-Inuya-yasha stop!"
"Tell me why you've be-been," he groaned as he pumped into her with more force, her back arched, "avoiding me!"
"No," she murmured before she pushed into him. "No. No!"
Was it wrong that it turned him on more to hear her cry that? "Kagome!"
That was it, she gave up as she let his feeling consume him before she arched back again, this time enough to grab his neck, it was a bit tricky but she was able to get him to push away enough that she could turn around to grab a chunk of hair and pull him close, he was the one that took that as a sign to clash their lips. It took far more effort than he would have thought to keep up with his rhythm—that she seemed to have taken over—and pry open her mouth with his tongue.
Finally, he managed to. For a while they both forgot they needed to breathe until both their lungs burned for air.
It was flawless, their lips parted so they could both gasp for air right as they pushed into each other enough to trigger her reckless cry from ecstasy. The way she rippled and tightened about him caused him to do that same.
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I have never had so much trouble regaining my breath in all my life. That didn't stop me from readjusting Sango-chan's dress to sort of sit upon my shoulders like it was meant to—how am I going to explain to Sango-chan that I destroyed her dress? Well, I didn't, Inuyasha-san did. Inuyasha-san... I closed my eyes as I found my stockings, well, again, Sango-chan's.
They were completely ruined... completely... ruined... I...
"Why are you avoiding me?" Inuyasha-san bickered bitterly to me, I could tell he had yet to pull himself off of the ground he had fallen upon after we finished... he finished. "Huh? After—?" his hand gripped my shoulder to turn me to him and... and I couldn't help it. I raised my hand higher than ever before in my life—well, at least it felt like it—and slammed it down upon his face.
Ow, my gods, that stung my skin terribly so I hope it at least hurt him some. By the time I opened my eyes I saw that his face was turned, a large red mark upon his cheek. It took a moment for both of us to process what had just happened, he brought his hand to his cheek before he looked back at me with a brow cocked.
I could tell he was about to shout something at me again from the way his other brow bent down, too. So I swallowed the choke within my throat and blinked the burning hot tears out of my eyes, it was almost, almost soothing to have the salty substance seep down my cheeks but... not really.
I opened my mouth to say something as I threw the torn and useless stockings into his face and finally managed a few fumbled words, "you broke it."
That was it. He didn't stop me; he didn't say a word, as I turned around and exited that hellish area that was far too familiar, far too similar to the closet I'd never enter again.
That was the last time I would ever be Kagome with a man.
I'd... I'd destroy Kagome to make this pain go away.
That was the last time I saw Inuyasha-san, for that I'm thankful...
Farewell, you cruel man that made my happiness fade away.
