A/N: Hey everyone, I posted Chapter 10 just yesterday so I hope you have read that before reading this. (You should double check just in case) That's all! Enjoy!
-Sunday night, Tessa's Apartment, Philadelphia-
Tessa took a sip of her tea as she sat across the table from Jess in silence. He had been very quiet since they had left Stars Hollow earlier that morning. She sighed, "Do you want to go out to dinner tomorrow night?"
"I have a lot to do tomorrow."
"How about Tuesday night?" she didn't even know why she asked. Tessa already knew the answer.
"Sorry, I can't Tuesday either."
Tessa nodded. What happened that she missed? Why was he acting so distant? She stood up and dumped the rest of her tea into the sink. Tessa turned around and folder her arms around her chest, "Its late Jess. You should go home."
He looked slightly taken back but stood up to leave anyways. Jess grabbed his coat and held it in his hands. He kissed hers lips quickly before saying, "Goodnight Tessa. I hope you feel better." Jess walked out the door robotically. Tessa sat down at the table and covered her face with her hands. After a few minutes, she stood up to get ready for bed. As she was walking towards her bedroom, she noticed something on the ground.
Tessa picked up the object and her eyes grew wide. It was a letter for Rory, written in Jess's handwriting. She found her chair back at the kitchen table and reluctantly opened the letter. She had a right to know didn't she? She slowly unfolded the letter and began to read.
Rory,
God only knows why I'm even writing this. The chances that I will actually give you this are slim to none. I still have to do it though. I'm coming to Stars Hollow tomorrow and I realized about ten minutes ago that I have to write this for you. Regardless if you ever read it, I have to do it. I have obviously made my point about why I'm writing this and now I guess the next logical step is to give you something to read. So, here it goes. A year ago I showed up at your dorm room asking you to come away with me. Was I stupid back then? Yes. Was I out of mind? Of course. I have changed from that though. I have become a better person. As I look back on that night, I notice a few things that haven't changed. Rory, you have to know that my feelings for you will never completely go away. I don't know why but it's just something I have discovered recently. I will always have something for you, you will always be somewhere in my mind. I obviously will or I should say have moved on. You're still at the back at my head at all times though. I think I just need you to know that I can never fully get over you. Instead of denying it I have decided to just come out and say it. So your probably wondering where I'm going with all of this. Honestly, I don't even know. I'm sort of writing whatever comes to my mind. Maybe what I'm getting at is this; don't ever think I have forgotten about you or don't care about you. Also, I don't know if I have ever had the courage to tell you how sorry I am for the past. Like I said, I was a complete and total idiot back then. I think I have finally decided a purpose for this letter. It's like my goodbye to you but let me leave you with this. I never wanted to let you go. (Yes, I have grown quite cheesy over the years) I never wanted to end it but it's too late to go back. So just remember that you're always on my mind and I will always feel something for you. These feelings will never be returned and that's why I must keep going. Would you like a summary because reading over this is sounds quite confusing and deformed? Here's one anyway; I'm sorry, I will never forget you, and goodbye.
Jess
Tessa sat the letter back down on the table with tears in her eyes. Jess still had feelings for Rory. Tessa understood the letter. He was saying that despite his feelings, he would move on because that's what he had to do. She just didn't know if she could get past the fact that Rory would always be in the back of his mind. Tessa didn't want to be the next best thing after Rory. She wanted to be his first choice, the best thing. She tried to read the letter over again but she couldn't do it. It hurt too much. Tessa didn't even try to fight the tears. She laid her head on her kitchen table and cried.
As Jess pulled out onto the road, he reached into his coat pocket. He had put the letter in there after Rory brought it up. He couldn't risk Tessa finding it. Jess's pocket was empty. He searched his other pocket and it was also empty. He swore under his breath as he looked around fearfully. Jess turned the car around. He had to get that letter back.
Jess pulled up to her apartment complex and practically ran up the steps. He banged on her door, "Tessa! Open up."
A few moments later, the door opened and Jess realized he was too late. Tessa's eyes were filled with tears and she held the letter up, "Is this what you're looking for?" she whispered through her sobs.
Jess took a deep breath, "Tessa…" he stopped there because he didn't know what else to say. What else could he say?
"You still have feelings for her."
"Yeah but like I said in the letter, I moved on."
"Jess! You wrote about how you will always feel something for her! Do you expect me to be okay with that? I can't just carry on knowing she's in that head of yours!"
"Tess! I know but you're not listening to me! It's over I swear."
She nodded and wiped away some of her tears, "Your right Jess. It is over."
Jess shook his head, "No, I won't let you do this. We are going to get past this okay?"
She closed her eyes and whispered again, "I can't get this past this. Jess, I saw the way you looked at her. You have never looked at me like that.You wouldn't have written this letter if you weren't still in love with her. You're ex girlfriends are not supposed to always be on your mind. That alone says you're not over it. I'm sorry Jess."
He just looked at her for a long time. He knew every word she said was true but yet, part of him wanted to keep denying it. Part of him wanted to try and save them but, he didn't have the energy. He was sick of trying to save them. "I'm sorry too." he finally said.
Tessa felt more tears coming, "I loved you. I really did."
Jess nodded, "I know you did." That's all he could say. There was no saying it back because he didn't feel it back. Tessa let out one last sob and then got herself together. She kissed his cheek and pulled him into a hug. "Bye Tess." he said softly.
Tessa released herself from his arms, "Bye." she smiled as he turned to leave. It didn't hit her until the door closed that that was probably the last time he would leave her apartment.
A/N: Ahh so the letter is revealed! Finally! I like this chapter because Tessa is gone! Yay! Thanks for your reviews guys! I'm glad you liked the last chapter even though I didn't
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