When Taylor arrived we moved into the kitchen while i made a start on some tea and coffee.

"Ana i don't have much time to explain this to you and walk you through this so please listen. Amber is in love with Christian that is not fake she is innocent in all of this. Flynn on the other hand is not. For the last few years he has been almost grooming Christian to be with his daughter when you came home into the picture it ruined it but when you left Christian wanted to go after you. Flynn convinced him that if you loved him you would come back then he told Christian to start sleeping around and being young again that way when someone special came along he could commit. When Amber and Christian met and got together Flynn told him they couldn't continue if he was Christians shrink that's why he got a new one. Flynn has been planning this for years and when you came back with Darcy it threatened that. If he came back to you and took Darcy as his daughter he would loose everything. He is in major debt but if Christian marries Amber then he could sell his practice due to ill health to settle the debts because Amber would insist that they look after her father and his family during his fake illness."

I stood there in complete shock. Christian was being played by Flynn someone who he thought he could trust.

"What can we do?"

"Nothing right now but i promise you i will sort this out even if it costs my job. I can't sit by and let this happen to him after all he has been through."

"So we wait until you get something Flynn can't talk his way out of I'm guessing?"

"Exactly. The man you loved is still in there Ana he just has lost him self. I have to go but don't tell anyone about this. If it gets back to Flynn it would ruin everything and he's a desperate man. Desperate men are the most dangerous of them all. Stay safe and keep Darcy away from him." He kissed my forehead before leaving. I will sat still in shock when Guy turned up later that night. I remembered what Taylor said so i never spoke a word not that i didn't trust Guy but even saying the words out loud was hard. I did love Christian more than anything in the world apart form our daughter but he was so different now. The man i fell in love with would never turn his back on his child, sure he would have struggled with it but he wouldn't abandon her like he thinks his mother did to him. He wouldn't want to repeat that cycle.

My phone ringing in the middle of the night woke me up, i slowly reached out and pressed answer without checking caller i.d.

"Hello?" I was so tired Darcy had played up that night and she finally settled down at 2am. Checking the clock now it was only 3am. I had one hour of sleep no wonder i was feeling tired.

"Ana it's Christian I'm sorry i woke you. I am outside and wanted to know if we could talk if that's alright?" I rolled onto my back before kicking the covers off getting up. I stretched as i padded along the hall.

"I'm coming now. Why are you here instead of being at home with Amber?" I run downstairs to the front door unlocking it after looking through the peek hole. I open the door and see him hang up.

"She's away for a few days and i was sat home and i thought about how i felt when you took the call from Guy about Darcy. I was worried something had happened to her and it felt...odd." He was struggling with his feelings about Darcy. I let him in and closed the door behind him.

"It's strange isn't it how everything can change once your a parent." I sat on the chair with my legs under myself. Socks scared of the stranger in the house sits next to the chair watching Christian with distrustful eyes. Christian sits on the sofa opposite rubbing his hands on his thighs and running his hands through his hair. "I don't know what you want from me Christian so you have to help me out here."

"I don't know but i know i feel comfortable around you that i can tell you anything. Amber has been talking about wedding things non stop and its freaking me out. To be honest i thought if i was going to marry anyone it would be you. Ana no matter what you think i still love you and i think i always will. You made me feel for the first time in so long and i know I've messed up but i want you to be in my life in some capacity."

Before i could answer he was out of his chair sitting on the coffee table in front of me sending socks flying upstairs and into the spare room where i knew Onyx would be sleeping on the bed. "Ana i miss you." He leaned forward and kissed me. I knew it was so wrong but i couldn't help myself we ended up having sex on the floor in the living room.

Afterwards i sat up trying to find my top as the fog in my head began to fade. Christian had his hands behind his head breath deeply and heavy.

"That should not have happened. Your engaged i have a boyfriend and this whole thing is a mess." I heard a cry from upstairs and that seemed to snap Christian out of it as well. He began to dress in silence. "You need to go and we never talk about this again. Nothing will change. Agreed?" He nodded as he finished putting his shoes on.

"Agreed. I will see myself out you go see to Darcy. Bye Ana." I ignored him running upstairs to my daughter. Once she was in my arms i burst out crying. What had i done? Jackson was an amazing man and i cheated on him within 24 hours of agreeing to be his girlfriend. I had slept with the man who doesn't want my daughter. As her cry's got louder i took a deep breath and began to feed her. I was a mother now and not a little girl crying over a boy. I was going to be strong for my daughter. I would not be weak and i would not let man drama take me away from Darcy like my mother did to me. Darcy is my number one priority.

As the days went on i kept my vow to myself to remember that it was all about Darcy. I kept on seeing Jackson learning about his life and childhood. Christian had told Amber he wanted to stay engaged for a while and that seemed to go down alright with her but not her father. Carrick even got involved telling Flynn that it was up to them when they got married and that there was no rush. That seemed to calm him down a little but according to Kate not much. Kate and Elliot had told the family they were expecting much to my relief. Keeping that secret plus my own was hard.

Three months had gone by in a flash and Darcy was nearly nine months old and getting more steady on her feet. She had began to say the odd word such a mama, cat and gammy which was her way of saying Grandma and Grandpa. Elliot was called a cat which made us all giggle to no end. I had not spoken to Christian since that night at my house and had only seen him a handful of times during which we ignored each other. The guilt was eating me alive and I'd decided i was going to come clean to Jackson. As i got Darcy settled down for her nap i heard the front door open which told me Jackson was here. I told him to walk straight in because it was Darcy's nap time and i didn't want the door bell waking her up. I made my way down the stairs and saw him with a huge bunch of flowers.

"Jackson you didn't have to being anything I'd feed you wither way." He kissed my cheek.

"I wanted to besides i love your cooking and i know you've felt down these last few weeks even though you have tried to hide it from me. I just wish you would tell me what is wrong but i understand you are used to relying on yourself so opening up is hard." I put the flowers in some water and sat at the breakfast bar asking him to join me.

"I need to speak to you about something. Please don't think this is because of you because it isn't. I slept with someone the day after the coping together ball. It meant nothing please believe that. As soon as it was over i regretted it and asked him to leave. This has been eating me up inside and i wanted to tell you because you deserve better than me." He put his head in his hands staying silent which worried me. "Please say something. Scream at me anything just say something."

"i already know Ana. I didn't know when but i just knew and i don't want to scream and shout. You mean a lot to me and i just hoped you would tell me sooner. Was it Christian?"

"Yes but please we both regret it and we don't want anyone to know."

"Ana I'm not going to tell anyone believe me on that. I know you still have feelings for him and I'm alright with that for now. I think we should take a break for a few days until you can honestly decide who you want. I will see you soon." He kissed my check and walked out looking heart broken. What had i done? I sat on the sofa looking into the fire thinking about what he said. I was still in love with Christian but i was falling in love with Jackson. I began to cry silently letting all my anger at myself and the situation out.

The next morning i got into my car after dropping Darcy off at Guy's place and began the long drive to a cafe where i was meeting with Kate. She was craving cheesecake and had heard this cafe did salted caramel cheesecake. The traffic was rather light so i settled into driving thinking more about what Jackson was saying the night before. I never saw it coming but i felt the whole car shift as a truck tried to cut me up and ended up pushing me off the road. The car began to flip and i braced myself to die. They say your life flashes before your eyes before you die well mine didn't. Darcy's tiny smiling face was the last thing the flashed before me.