Note: short holiday coming up. I promise to take that opportunity to write more. Well so far this fic has spanned about…37 pages, 1 prologue and 10 chapters. This chapter is special to me. why? Because it's the 10th one and I'm about half way through the story. to those who have been reading and following this story, I thank you so much for letting me share this story with you. it started last year, and for it to have crossed into the new year makes it all the more special to me. to tell the truth, there's a lot of me in this story, past experiences and stuff, and well I guess I just really sincerely hoped you liked it.
Chapter 10 – anger and depression
I don't really know what to do anymore. Life seems so meaningless now. I can't take it anymore, the pain and the anger.
How could he reject me like this? After all that I've done. After all that I've had to put up with. I accepted him when no one else did and now after all these years, he rejects me.
How can she just saunter in one day and take him away from me. What has she done to deserve his love?
I had to do something about it. I couldn't just sit here and watch them any longer.
With anger coursing through my veins I ran towards her room. I opened the door, only to find it empty.
The pain just washed over me and I collapsed onto the floor crying.
"Kagura? Are you okay? What are you doing here?"
I looked up at this girl who stole him away. He was just behind her, concern written all over his face.
I stood up and wiped away the tears.
"I hate you." I said in reply.
She looked shocked, while he just shook his head.
"Kagura, don't do this. Don't be like this. It has nothing to do with her, you know that." He explained.
"It has everything to do with her. If it weren't for her, we would still be together. And what has she done? She doesn't deserve your love."
"We never were together. We will never be together. If it weren't her, it would have been someone else. You have to understand that. And she's done a lot. You have no idea."
"But she hasn't even seen the true you. How do you know she'll accept you as you really are?"
"But she knows about it, and no matter what she has promised…"
"But you never know. You never know."
"You can't love to order, Kagura. I really appreciate all that you've done for me, but please, for my sake, stop it."
"Kyou. You can't do this to me? You can't!" I clung on his hand. He was serious. I could hear it in his voice and it showed in his eyes. He was leaving me and …
I didn't want to know what would happen to me then.
He tried to shake me off but I just clung tighter.
"Kagura. I'm sorry."
I looked at her.
The girl who Kyou had chosen over me.
The girl who was now apologizing to me.
I could see now why he had chosen her, I now understood. And it broke my heart.
I ran through the corridors, vision blurred by tears. Suddenly I hit into someone and the 2 of us tumbled to the floor.
It was Yuki.
"Are you alright?" he asked, giving me a hand up.
I didn't say anything, just flung my arms around him and cried my heart out.
"It'll be okay. Don't worry about it." He said, patting my back and smoothing down my hair.
I wanted to believe him. I really did, but I couldn't. Life had stabbed me in the back, and my past sins had finally caught up with me. I didn't know what to do anymore. So I just cried.
I knew something was wrong, and it took me a lot of courage to ask.
"Tohru. What's wrong?"
"Nothing. Don't worry Kisa, everything's alright."
"Then why do you seem to sad?"
"I'm not sad. See I'm smiling. I'm not sad. Really."
Perhaps she could fool the world, but she couldn't fool me. I didn't understand why she smiled when she was sad. And I didn't even know why she was sad, but I wanted to help her through this time, just like she had helped me through the difficult times.
I took her hand in mine and smiled at her.
"Don't worry. I'll be here for you."
The effect these words had on her.
She bent down and hugged me, a true smile on her face and tears in her eyes.
I smiled, wrapping my arms around her neck. I knew everything would be alright.
That night as Haru tucked me into bed, I told him about what had happened.
"I'm really glad you did that. Tohru has been feeling rather depressed lately."
"Do you know why?"
"I think so."
"Can you tell me?"
"I'm not sure. You might not be able to understand it yet."
"But, I would like to know. And I would like to help Tohru."
And so he explained to me what he thought happened, and although I didn't fully understand everything, at least now I knew what had happened.
I loved Tohru very much. I think everyone did, after all she had done for us, it was hard not to love her, and seeing her this way saddened everyone. I wanted things to go back to normal, where she would do her chores with a smile on her face. Where she would take time just to talk to me. I didn't want her to be sad, because it made me sad.
So the next day I went to see Kyou and Aisha.
I haven't really spoken to Aisha. I see her around, but I've never really talked to her. I admit I don't know her at all. Most of my cousins say she's a nice person, but I don't see how someone who has made Tohru sad can be nice.
Aisha and Kyou are together; they're holding hands and talking.
Kyou is the first to see me he greets me with a smile. Aisha does the same.
I tell them about what has happened to Tohru and tell Aisha to stop making Tohru sad and returning Kyou to Tohru.
Aisha smiles kindly at me and takes me by the hand.
"Kisa, I understand that you don't want Tohru to be sad. None of us want that, but if I return Kyou. Both Kyou and I would be sad. Do you want that?"
I shook my head.
"So what should I do?"
"I don't know."
"Neither do I." Aisha sighed.
"I'm sorry."
"It's okay. No harm done. Why don't you go keep Tohru company? I think she'll be very happy to see you."
I smiled at her. Maybe she was nice after all. She didn't want Tohru to be sad, but I guess there wasn't much choice in the matter.
The holidays were coming to an end. And as the students prepared once again for school things were getting out of control. Pent up emotions kept for too long were being let loose and this spelt disaster for a few.
One day Akito called Kyou and Aisha into his room. He couldn't take it anymore. He hated the fact that the 2 of them were together and he wasn't about to let them continue on like forever. The sight of them together made him angry and if anyone so much as put their names in the same sentence he would lash out.
Kyou and Aisha had taken a big risk in announcing their relationship to the family, but they weren't afraid. They had nothing to lose anymore. And no one, not even Akito could tear them apart. Or so they though.
"Well. How are the 2 of you?"
"Great." Aisha answered.
"Good for you. Well I just thought that since the 2 of you love each other so much, it's about time to let out some secrets."
A shadow crossed Kyou's face. He knew what was about to happen. Aisha looked at Akito. There was fear in her eyes.
Everyone has skeletons. Some skeletons are best left in the closet.
"I'm sure the two of you know what I'm talking about. Well let's just say that this is a test of your love. I'm sure it can withstand something as minor as this."
As Akito talked he moved closer and closer to Kyou.
"Don't." Aisha suddenly said.
"Why? Scared? You should be. You're way in over you head. You have no idea what you've gotten yourself into."
"It's not that. It's just that I don't think there is a necessity."
"Well, I think there is. How are we supposed to know that you really love Kyou? I'm sure he would like to know too."
Kyou looked at Aisha. To some extent he did, but not in this way. Never with Akito.
"But it doesn't have to be like that. We don't have to prove it to you."
"Well. As the head of the family, I think you do. I do have to look out for my family members don't I?"
"Akito…" Kyou started.
"Take it off."
"No." Aisha said. To some extent she was afraid.
""Take it off."
"Please…" Kyou begged.
"Weak." Akito said lunging forward and pulling the bracelet off Kyou.
Aisha screamed but it was too late.
The scene before her was too horrifying for words. She would never have been prepared for it. She didn't know what to do or what to say.
The stench was overpowering and the thing before her was something out of her horror movie except ten times worse because it was here in the same room.
Her mouth was open in a silent scream, and her eyes were filling with tears.
Even though he had witnessed it before, he would never be able to get use to it. The smell was killing him and this monster; this monster was in the same room. He couldn't take it. It was all too much, but the pain it must be causing the 2 of them. He could see it in their eyes. Somehow it made things a little better.
For Kyou is was a nightmare. It was a nightmare repeated again. First is had been Tohru, now it was Aisha. The transformation was painful enough, now coupled with the pain he felt as he watched Aisha grope for support before falling in a heap on the floor.
It was all wrong. They weren't meant to be together. It was all just a mistake. Why? Why did fate play such cruel games with him?
It was all too much. The overwhelming pain that washed through the room.
Kyou was the first to break; he opened the door and rushed out.
"Well. I guess you failed miserably." Akito said smugly.
He moved to the windows and threw them open to let fresh air in.
"At least that beast is gone. Now I can actually breathe."
He leaned out of the windows and took a deep breath.
"Well. I guess that's all."
He turned around to see an enraged Aisha.
With all her might she slapped him.
"You're the beast." She said leaving the room and slamming the door shut behind her.
Maybe he was. But beasts do hurt too. And Akito was left all alone once again.
It had been his own doing. It was his fault.
He was a beast. A beast with a stone cold heart.
But if that was so, why was he crying?
Note: Kagura. She's such a sweet girl don't you think? and I hope her POV was true to her character. Kisa's POV showed a bit of Tohru's not so happy side, and how much Kisa truly cares for her, as for what's going to happen next, you'll just have to wait and see. I myself am not really sure as to how Aisha is going to react. So…pls review. pls?
