Chapter 11: Shut Down

Riggs was laying in bed looking at the wall. Roger walked in and looked at him. Martin had been out of it since the whole thing with his father. He would not smile or laugh, not even Austin made him smile anymore. He had told Roger that maybe he shouldn't have adopted him. Roger could not believe how depressed Riggs was. Roger walked over to the bed and sat down.

"Hey, you getting out of bed today?" He asked in a loving voice. Riggs didn't look at him, he just kept looking at the wall. He finally shook his head no. Roger sighed and Martin turned closer to the bed.

"Come on Martin what is wrong?" He asked. Martin said nothing and looked at the bed. Roger sighed an angry sigh and got up and walked out. Riggs laid there, and tears started to fall from his eyes. Trish saw this from the door. She walked in and over to Martin.

"Martin." She said and made him look at her.

"You alright." He shook his head no.

"Martin we are here for you, but you have to meet us half way?" She told him. He looked at her and then sat up.

"I want to go back to the institution again." He told her.

"Why?" She asked worried.

"Cause I belong there." He said looking away from her.

"No, you belong here with us." She told him again.

"Roger hates me and doesn't love anymore. He gets mad at me cause I'm not who I was before." He told her with tears coming to his eyes. She grabbed his hand and told him.

"Martin, Roger loves you very much and is not mad at you."

"Then why did he just get mad me….Cause I'm not good enough anymore." He said with the tears falling from his eyes.

"Martin, why are you think this? Who told you that you are not good enough?" She asked. She knew who it was.

"My father." He said, and she looked away.

"That fucking bastard." She said out loud. She looked at Riggs again.

"Martin, Roger loves and needs you, and Austin needs you too." She told him. He was still not looking at her.

-Next Day-

Riggs sat in his truck and looked at the building. He got out and walked up the stairs and went in.

-Later-

Roger was at home and it was getting dark. He was worried about Riggs. He tried to call him, but no one picked up. He was setting there on the couch when his phone rang. He looked at it and didn't know the number.

"Hello?" He answered it.

"Mr. Murtaugh, my name is Doctor Catherine Spinella. I am your husbands Doctor here at the institution." She told him.

"What?"

"You husband checked himself in today, and I was calling you to tell you that he will be here for two weeks, and if everything goes well he will be let out. If not, then he will be here longer." She told him. Roger could not believer what he was hearing.

"You may come by tomorrow and see him and we will talk more." She told him.

"Okay I will." Roger said this and ended the call. He looked up and over and saw Trish standing there looking at him.

"Baby what is it?" She asked him.

"Martin check himself into the mental institution." He said still in shock. Trish sat down beside him.

"Oh baby, I'm sorry." She said to him.

-Next Day-

Roger walked into the institution and asked for Doctor Spinella. He waited for a bite and then she came out. She showed him to Riggs's room. Roger looked in and saw Riggs laying in the bed. He sighed and turned toward the Doctor.

"Will he be okay?" He asked her.

"Mr. Murtaugh, I read what happened to him and I have to say that he in a deep depression and has PTSD." Roger looked at her with wide eyes.

"Why would he have that?" He asked.

"Well what happened to him in is past and recently was very dramatic on him. I have seen this before, and I have to say that some have never gotten over it." She told him. He turned and looked at his love.

"Can I go in and see him?" He asked her.

"Yes, you may." She said and put her card key up to the lock. The tiny light went from red to green. Roger opened the door and went in. He walked over to the bed and saw Riggs looking at the wall. Martin saw someone and turned to look. He saw that it was Roger and looked away.

"Hey, I came to see you." He told him and sat down on the bed.

"Why?" He asked.

"Cause I love you and wanted to see you." Roger told him.

"No, you use to love. Now you hate me and are mad at me." Riggs told him. Roger was taken aback by this.

"Why would I hate you and be mad at you?" He asked and moved closer to him.

"Cause I'm not the same as I once was." He said and looked at the bed and moved closer to it.

"Martin, I love you very much and want to help you." Riggs said nothing. Roger could see the tears in his eyes. Roger sighed and looked away. His chest was starting to hurt now. The door opened, and the Doctor came in.

"It's time for your medicine." She told him and walked in with his medicine in a small white paper cup. Riggs sat up and took the pills and laid back down. Roger moved to kiss him, and Martin moved quickly and closes his eyes and moved his arm up to shield his face. Roger looked at the Doctor with wide eyes.

"I think you need to leave." She said, and Roger got up and leaned in and kissed Riggs on the cheek. He noticed that he froze in fear as he did so. Roger and the Doctor walked out.

"I didn't know that he was this bad." He told her.

"He is having a hard time." She said and looked at Riggs. Roger turned his head and looked at him too. They walked down the hallway to the front desk. The doctor looked at Roger and said.

"I think you need to talk to his other Doctor." She told him. Roger looked at her.

"Doctor Cahill." She said.

"Why?"

"Because a woman by the name Santos wants him in here for good." She told him with a worried look. Roger's chest was really starting to hurt now. He nodded his head and left. He got in the car and rubbed his chest.

-Cahill's Office-

Roger walked into the woman's office. She looked up at him and smiled a I'm sorry smile.

"Help me understand what he is going through?" He asked her. She got up and walked around and sat on her desk.

"Bad memoires are coming back to him and he is playing them in his mind. He is reliving some of them." She told him.

"He thinks that I don't love him anymore." He told her. She looked at Roger and noticed that he didn't look well. Roger grabbed his left arm.

"Are you okay?" She asked him.

"No." He said and fell to his knees.

-Later that Night-

Riggs was in bed still looking at the wall. He heard the door open and he looked over. No one was supposed to be in his room at this hour. He looked, and it was Cahill.

"What are you doing here?" He asked her. He looked behind her to see if Roger was with her, but it was just her.

"We got to talk." She said and moved to his bed.

"About what?" He asked and laid back down and looked at the wall again.

"It's about Murtaugh."

"What about him?" He asked in a sad voice.

"He said that you think that he hates you and doesn't love you anymore." She repeated what Roger had said to her.

"Well he doesn't, and he is not here so that tells ya that he don't." He said while turning over onto his other side. She looked down and then back at him. She had to tell him.

"Riggs, he is not here cause he had another heart attack." She told him, and he sat up quickly and looked at her.

"WHAT!" He yelled out.

"Yes, he was in my office asking about how to understand what you are going through, and he grabbed his arm and fell to the floor." Riggs's eyes got wide and he moved and got out of bed.

"What are you doing?" She asked him.

"Can you get me out of here for like a day's pass or something. I have to go and see him." He asked her.

"I don't know if I can." She told the truth.

"I can, and you can go and see him, but I have to go with you." They looked over at the door and saw Doctor Spinella. Riggs smiled, and they walked out of the room.

-In Roger's hospital room-

Riggs ran into the room. He saw Trish setting by the bed and Roger setting up in the bed. He ran over and took Roger's hand. Roger smiled at him.

"What are you doing here?" He asked him.

"I had to see if you were okay." Martin told him and leaned over and kissed him. The kiss broke, and Riggs looked at him.

"Was it a bad one?" He asked.

"No, it was not." Roger told him in a loving voice. Roger watched as Riggs looked away and to the floor.

"This is my fault." He said.

"Martin, it was going to happen no matter what." Roger said and took his hand.

"Why is it that everyone I love, or touch gets hurt or broken? I'm fuck up." He said. Roger looked at him.

"Martin" Riggs looked at him.

"You are not a fuck up and I was going to have this heart attack no matter what." Martin looked at him with a sad look.

"I love you very much and I was not mad at you. I was mad at myself cause I didn't know how to help you." Roger told him.

"Rog."

"Yeah."

"I love you." He said to his husband.

"And I love you." Riggs smiled.

At the door Cahill and Spinella had seen the whole thing.

"I don't think he has to go back." Spinella told Cahill. Cahill smiled at her and then looked at Riggs who was still smiling.