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Chapter Eleven

I didn't want to get anyone into trouble. I didn't want to make anybody feel like they didn't fit in and I especially didn't want to humiliate anybody to the point that they began to let go but it seemed that they were doing it to me and I just wished that they stopped. As it began nearing Halloween I quit that job and decided I didn't need it. Greg was a douche that kept hitting on my girlfriend and nearly all the perverts there thought that I was into them thanks to a little rumor sparked at my school and by Chris. Thank you Chris, I wanted grown perverts nearly the age of my father trying to kiss me and feel me up. If you don't get the sarcasm then I guess you really are the ignorant fool that I thought you to be. I'm sorry Josh that I took this all out on you. I really didn't want to but the stress was escalating and I'm sure you never even had to see the pictures they got out of it either. If you saw it though then I'm really really sorry.

Marc was such a jack ass.

He was laughing with his friends before pre-calculus class started and I didn't want to know. It didn't take long what with all the secret glances and their loud snickering to find out what I didn't want to find. It was a couple of glossy photos and it was of the kisses that were forced upon me. I had had no idea that at the time of each that pictures had been taken and if I had, I probably would have been even madder than I had. With face rapidly turning red in what could have been humiliation but I liked to think of was anger; I quickly turned around and tried to avoid it. I could do that all I want I also found but I couldn't avoid them.

"You gave both Gary and that guy a kiss, where's mine Parker?" Marc asked snidely.

I quickly put my hands to my face to avoid any unnecessary ones that they liked to spring upon me. I didn't know why they thought it was funny to say I was gay and do all these things to me just to spite me but it turned out that they had nothing to do and found that they were annoyed with the popularity I received. How do I know this? Marc then proceeded to tell me in front of the class that I have always been popular for my own good and that I broke way too many hearts. He also said that he wouldn't be surprised if I was gay.

I wondered at that time if someone was able to die from humiliation. No, I wasn't thinking about suicide at that time like it probably seems. I just wanted to get away. Maybe go to a different class that didn't have Marc Adams, Gary Richards, and Chris Thomas. I didn't really care about the rumors at that point and if my reputation was gone when those photos came about, I guess I had to say goodbye to that too but the one thing that made me feel worse than any of that combined was that I felt incredibly lonely and I didn't know what to do about it.

Dumb, dumb Marc Josh thought. He wanted to go back to school and throw a brick at his face or something. Did he have to do that? Did he have to make Drake feel even more horrible than he already had? He and the others combined were slowly destroying Drake. He hoped that they were happy. He also wished he would have made Chris talk more about the things they had done to him.

But he was sure it was far from over. Nothing was ever that simple with them.

I got home ignoring all the cat whistles and stares. I even had to ignore the half-hearted heated jeers that some of my peers threw around but once I was in the door, I slammed it and then leaned there heavily for a few minutes. I hated going to school even more this year than I had probably any other combined. I quickly made my way upstairs only to get bathed in oil and whatever stuff that Megan probably thought was funny in her stupid prank. What? She got bored of our small truce over Christmas and just had to get us messily when I wasn't sure if I could take it? I wiped a hand through my eyes and grabbed for a towel. I didn't know it would set off another of her pranks but let's just say when it was all over I looked like a powdery mess. No scratch that. I looked like a fricking brownie mix recipe gone wild.

Megan thought she had the upper hand but I don't' think she seriously thought she was going to piss me off. Not more than usual anyways. But it did bother me. And with her looking so smug in the kitchen I figured it best to glare and walk away for the time being. I needed to clean up and heaven forbid mom saw the mess, she wouldn't believe Megan would do it.

No her prank didn't help, Josh thought somberly. Where was he during that time? He could only guess that he was studying over at Mindy's with Craig and Eric whilst it happened. And who knew that Drake was spiraling out of control? Nobody had because nobody had wanted to see Drake other than happy. It was another thing that everybody failed. Drake could have used one person to stand up and talk to him, make him realize he belonged when he felt so alone but even Megan didn't even see it and she normally could see as much if not more than Josh did. It was probably why she was angry with herself now.

It was at dinner that I told them that I was bringing my girlfriend over soon. I knew our parents had a small Halloween party planned and I also knew that my mom was wondering why I was getting all responsible by wanting to get a job and all. Megan seemed to think it was funny but Walter had told her off and I was happy for that at least. I told them that her name was Hannah and she was a real sweet girl. You seemed to tune out when I started talking about her but then again I always talked about them in the past so you probably didn't think it was that important. Megan was mad but soon lightened up.

"I'm so bringing Brandon over then," she said and I could tell by you spitting out your drink that you were shocked just as I was. I didn't spit out my drink though. I didn't make my reaction known although you kept going on and on about boyfriends and how Megan was too young.

"Listen Josh your little sister is going to be thirteen and I think it would be normal for a girl her age to start liking boys. It's okay for him to come over okay. We could determine if he's good enough for you then but you're not allowed in any of the bed rooms closed off and alone. I don't want him getting you pregnant," Mom said calming everyone down and that instant making me realize that she probably was going to be very pissed when she found out she was already going to be a grandmother.

Yeah because there wasn't a time that you didn't make her pissed off that she ever forgave you, Josh thought angrily all over again. The baby would have been a shock and even made their mother pissed off but she would have warmed up to the idea especially when you put your girlfriend so high on the pedestal. But no he didn't say anything and again nobody knew how Drake really felt, just that everything seemed to go okay. How were they ever supposed to know Drake, when you wouldn't tell them you were starting to slip and didn't know if there was going to be a time where you couldn't pick yourself back up? That you would let yourself fall when it all got too much?

Well the Halloween party didn't go off as planned. We all didn't really care for our great aunt Catherine but it wasn't that bad. Hannah was there and her belly still wasn't showing as much so with baggy clothes even you were fooled. I don't think Mindy was dumb though. And Brandon was okay, I mean he didn't rub anybody the wrong way or anything but he was standoffish as well as nosy about everything. Hannah listened and I may be a little biased because I love her so much but four months of being with her and no single problems probably makes me entitled to it. She was sweet and she lit up every time she talked about something fascinating to her and mom simply loved her.

"So yeah I saw him at work a couple of times and it was a bummer that he quit but hey it's okay because he really didn't want to work there and I support that." Hannah said. I don't think I got the whole conversation but mom laughed and I looked over in surprise.

"I'm sorry you two it's just that before Drake was born I was always looking at his father like you two are doing with each other. I know you probably don't believe in love and all that quite yet but the way you two look at the other I'd say you two simply don't know how much you love each other right now."

I smiled and gave Hannah a small kiss sparking mom to giggle. I think she had a little too much to drink at this party and I think that she was reminiscing too much in the past. Hannah suddenly jumped and took my hand leading me away from the adults. At my questioning look she put my hand on the small bulge of her stomach and I felt nothing. She looked down for a moment before releasing my hand.

"I'm sorry but I felt the baby move," she looked around as did I and knowing we were in the clear, I kissed her.

After we broke apart I smiled over before looking down where the bulge in her stomach was.

"When do you think I'd be able to feel it," I asked and she shrugged.

"I'm four months which is sixteen weeks now so I'd think maybe five months and then we could probably find out what the baby was-"

"Only if you want to though." I blurted out.

Hannah nodded though and leaned forward to where her head rested on my shoulder. She paused and I took in the small hint of raspberry shampoo before she spoke up again.

"Let's keep it a secret. What's there to know anyways besides it being a healthy baby."

I agreed silently.

The baby being healthy was all that mattered to us so what would I care if I knew right now. The baby wouldn't have been loved any less and the baby wouldn't have been loved even more either.

"I love you." I whispered into her ears.

It was worth so much to see her smile. I loved her so much then and I knew she loved me. Kissing her, we mashed our lips against each other and I ran my hands through her body, stopping to rest them on her sides. I knew birth control wasn't an issue anymore but I was hesitant to do anything that would make her think I was overstepping my boundaries but she seemed to want it too. I don't think I hesitated nearly as much here that I did the first time.

It was even more satisfying to hear that "I love you too."

Josh closed his eyes and pinched his nose. Now he remembered seeing her and looking back he thought she was pretty and very sweet. Too nice and too sweet for Drake it seemed like. She was shy and didn't seem to stick out much but reading what he did now he knew that she was good for Drake and she helped even for the time that she did because that day was the thirty-first. Drake would attempt to take his own life four months later.