Save Me From Myself

Chapter 11

"Fang?" Max asked.

"Yeah?"

"I don't want to watch this." She told me.

I sighed. It was an episode of Law and Order: SVU that I had never seen. "You love this show Max."

"How do you know what I love? You haven't seen me in how long?"

She had a point… "What do you want to watch Max?"

She took the remote from me and flipped through only a few of the channels before turning off the TV. She laid her head on my chest, causing me to freeze. Was she okay?

"Max?"

"What?"

"Are we not going to watch TV?"

"Nothings on." She told me.

"Max you only went through ten channels. We have-"

"You guys are spoiled brats now." Max told me. "Why do you even work? Daddy Jeb takes care of you."

"Hey that's not fair Max! We ha-"

Max rolled her eyes and stood up. "Whatever. I am so over being with you in your room."

"What?" I got up, following as she walked down the hall. She went into the living room and sat on the couch. "Max?"

"Go to hell Fang."

I sat next to her. "What did I do?"

Max shrugged. "I hate you."

I sighed. "I know but you're not answering my question."

"You want to know what you did Fang? You breathed my air."

"Max-"

"Shut up!" She stood up, yelling in my face. "All you do is talk! You're giving me a headache!"

I was going to say something but stopped myself. She stood in front of me, looking like she was about to cry. What did I do? All I did was tell her that there were more channels! She walked off to the kitchen. I got up and followed her. She was sitting at the table, where Nudge happened to be sitting.

"Hi Max!" Nudge said excitedly. "What's wrong? Was Fang being mean to you?"

Max nodded. 'I hate him."

"Oh well, that's okay! You can stay in my room now. That would be so cool!" Nudge stood up. "I have a couch in my room so I'll sleep on it and you can sleep on my bed. And Angel and Ella can come in there too!"

Nudge continued to go on and on as she and Max walked past me. They didn't even look at me! I watched as they headed up the stares to go to Nudge's room. How the hell did that happen?


Max's POV

"So then I was like, omg! Can you believe that she said that to me? I mean, I know that Ella thinks that she's all grown up but I know what I'm talking about!" Nudge finished. "So, what did Fang do?"

I shrugged from where I was lying on her bed. I wonder what the dark ones doing. Hmmm, I bet he's mad at me for going to Nudge's room. Whatever. I need to make him mad, he is starting to get to attached. Well, truth be told, so am I. I shouldn't still be here. I should leave soon. Maybe I could take the dark one with me. Max and Fang… Saber and Max… Definably Fang. But who is to say that I need a man anyways. Saber says I do. He says that only he can care for me but… Is Fang not taking care of me? Nudge's bedroom door opened and Fang walked in.

"Max, I really want to-"

"Sit." I said, pointing to the floor.

"Max, I don't think that Fang should be in here. Especially since he has been being such a jerk to you." Nudge commented but I chose to ignore her.

Fang rolled his eyes. "Max, I'm sorry if I-"

"Apologizes are for the weak." I said out of instinct. It was something that Saber had always told me.

Fang sighed. "Fine. But are we okay?"

"We?"

"Yeah, me and you."

I shook my head in confusion. "I don't think I understand the question."

Fang took a deep breath. "What I was asking was that are you mad at me?"

I shrugged. "I hate you."

"Yeah I know that, but are you mad at me?"

"If I hate you, aren't I mad at you?"

"Oh my God! Just kiss or something!" Nudge yelled.

"Why would I kiss Fang?" I asked.

"Because he's your boyfriend and you love him." Nudge said slowly as if I was stupid.

"No matter my feelings for Fang, if I were to voice them or kiss him, Saber would kill him." I sighed. "Even if I hate you Fang, I don't want you to die at the hands of Saber."

Fang looked at me, his eyes softening even more than they had all day. "So you care about me?"

I snorted standing. "Come Fang."

He stood and, like a puppy, followed me out of the room and into his own. I sat down on the bed. Fang started to sit on the floor but I stopped him.

"Bed Fang."

Fang nodded and got on the bed with me. I laid down and Fang, slowly, laid next to me. I sighed, looking at him.

"Fang?"

"Yeah?"

"Saber is very… possessive." I told him, picking my words carefully.

Fang moved his hand to my cheek and gently stroked it. I flinched for a second but the relaxed. Fang waited for a moment before speaking. "I'm possessive too Max. I'll never let him get you."

I shook my head. "You don't understand."

Fang shrugged. "I'm hard headed."

I sighed. "Fang is it bad if you tell someone that you hate them but you really don't?"

"I guess not. But why would you tell me- I mean that person that you hate them if you don't?"

"So that when the person who lied leaves, they won't have to hurt the other person."

Fang looked me in the eye. "Why would that person need to leave?"

"Because, the person that they we kidnapped by is after them and will find them." I sighed. "If the liar stays, they could be taken back."

Fang took a deep breath. "What if I go with you?"

"Who said that this was about me?"

"Max."

I sighed. "Fang, you can't go with me."

"And why not?"

"Because, you would have to leave the flock." I said. "Having you all with me would get us caught."

Fang got a pained look in his eye as he said his next words. "What if I leave the flock… for you?"

I looked at him with disbelief. "You would leave them? You would leave all of your family for just one person?"

"Max, you're my family too." Fang sighed. "It's not like they would be in any danger with out us. You would be with out me though."

"Why? Because you're a man?" I pushed his hand off my face. "I knew you were like him."

"No." Fang said quickly. "That is not what I meant at all. I was saying that by yourself you're unsafe. I know that you're strong Max."

I shook my head. "No. I can't. Saber says that I'm weak."

Fang smiled at me. "What does he know?"

"A lot."

"No. He knows nothing." Fang moved his face to where it was inches from mine, our lips almost touch. "I, on the other had, know everything. Especially things about you."

"What do you know about me? It's been four years!"

"Yeah but Max, I will always know you." Fang's breath tickled my face. "Remember that."

I gulped. "Fang, I'm scared."

"Of what?"

"Of this."

Fang smiled. "You mean of me and you?"

I shrugged. "I guess."

"What are you scared of?" Fang asked me. "I love you. I would never do anything to make you afraid of me. Max, I just got you back and I would never jeopardize it pushing you to far. Trust me."

"I can't."

Fang kissed my head, causing me to freeze. He pulled back and looked at me. "Yes you can."

I looked into his eyes. "I-I think that I don't hate you. I think that I-" I cut myself off. "Never mind."

Fang sighed. "Should be dinner time soon."

I nodded. "Fang?"

"Hmmm?"

I moved my lips to his, afraid of what I was feeling. Fang froze for a moment be pulling me closer to him. I pulled back, looking into his eyes.

"That's what I was afraid of."

Fang chuckled. "Max, I love you."

I sighed. "Don't say that! Me kissing you is bad enough but when Saber find out that you love me…" I just trailed off.

Fang ran his hand down my back leisurely. "I'm not afraid of him."

"I am." I admitted.

Fang smiled at me. "Why? I'm here."

"So?"

Fang seemed to be slightly hurt by my comment. "Well, as I have said before, I will protect you… Always."

"Quit saying that!" I yelled at him in sheer frustration. "You have never seen Saber before. He will kill you."

Fang said nothing. He continued to run his hand down my back. I knew that he was going to be quiet now. I mean, what could he say to that anyways? I leaned against him, hating myself. I trusted him and more than likely, it would end up being the death of both of us.