Changes: For Better or Worse
A/N: I know. Its been 3 months and 10 days…I am a truly horrible person. ( It was never supposed to wait this long. I don't even have an excuse… I am so so so sorrryyy!!!
This is dedicated to all of you who were so patient in waiting for me!
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Chapter 11
The room broke out into an uproar upon Meredith's frenzied exit. Nurses and doctors alike standing up after the "movie" ended. Suddenly the cold heartless Dr. Grey was being seen in a new light. And that bothered them. It was easier to hate someone so nasty when they didn't have a reason to be nasty. Slowly the staff filtered out into the hall and back to their jobs mulling and gossiping over the newly revealed history of the notorious Meredith Grey. Soon the hall was emptied all for a select few. Derek and the Chief among them.
"Suspended? Richard you can't be serious! I'm the best neurosurgeon you have!" Derek's face was a mixture of rage and disbelief as he puffed out his chest a bit.
"Yes suspended! You should feel lucky I'm not firing your ass! I don't give a dam who the hell you are right now! Not to mention the fact that you are NOT my best neurosurgeon here! Meredith has surpassed you, even you can see that by now! But none of that matters! What you did was unforgivable! You humiliated her, you brought up Adam, and to top it all off you did it infront of the entire staff OF THIS HOSTPITAL!!!!" The Chief's voice rose steadily until he was all but screaming in Derek's face.
"You'll be lucky if you don't hear from her lawyers! Do you have any idea the lawsuit that she could put you and this hospital in? This could ruin the name of Seattle Grace all for a bit of revenge!"
"She broke my heart!" His lame excuse however was only met with more anger.
"It's been ten years and it was your fault anyhow! Get over it! Now get out of my hospital before I call security on you! I'll see you in three months! And if I so much as here of you stepping in this hospital or near Dr. Grey you will find yourself without a job at Seattle Grace PERMANENTLY!"
Without another word the Chief pushed through the exit, Derek having already scrambled through as well, his anger positively radiating.
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The four of them sat there, vaguely aware of the argument going on between Derek and the Chief but they were soon snapped out of it as the doors slammed with their exits. None of them seemed to know exactly what to say. It was shocked to say the least. All of them just seemed to sit there in a daze until Izzie spoke up.
"I- I don't even know what to say.." Her voice quivered a bit with uncertainty.
"She was so different. A good different I mean. Not like now." It was George who had taken up the conversation now. "I mean here she always seemed so miserable, and sure she had her moments, but she never seemed so…happy. I always thought that she'd regret leaving here. But why should she have? Look how great her life was with that guy. No one deserves what happened to her."
"Figures something would screw up her life. God forbid she be happy.." Surprisingly it was Alex who had responded to George, his voice even more bitter than usual. "I don't know why she came back."
This comment seemed to set off a little alarm in Izzie's head.
"Then why did you! Why did you come back if you hated it here so much?"
"Because I promised him I would!"
"Because she promised him. I get it now." She had muttered it under her breathe but without the silence she was easily heard.
"What are you talking about?" George had given her a strange look and his curiosity got the better of him.
"When she first came back remember? I asked her why she came back. She said because she promised him she would. I didn't understand what she had meant. But it makes sense now. She promised Adam she'd come back and fix things with us." Said Izzie comprehension dawning on her face.
"Yea well she's doing a great job at that now isn't she?" It was the first Christina had said anything since the tape had ended. "Just came right back and started in on us."
"Christina…"
"No. Don't "Chrisitna…." Me! What I don't get is why bother pretending she even still cared about us then? Why come back if she obviously doesn't want to fix it! Why-"
"Because she does care about you."
All four heads whipped to the right to see Beverly standing there her eyes suspiciously red as if she had been crying.
"Yea sure" Scoffed Christina.
"She does. You saw the movie she named Emily after you, she even named you godmother."
"That doesn't prove anything. She was probably just high on Demerol."
"Do you want to know what you didn't see up there today? You didn't see the conversation after Emily was first brought home. I had never minded that she chose you, I still don't but Meredith always did find the need to ramble on about why she chose something even if it didn't require an explanation."
There were a few chuckles as they remembered Meredith's old habit.
"She told me that you used to be her person. That you were the person who she could call to drag a dead body across the floor if she needed you too. And that even though I would be her legal guardian if something happened to both her and Adam, that she need to know that Emily would have a person. That she would have someone that would take care of her no matter what, even if it was dragging a dead body across the floor. That's why she chose you as godmother. Because she trusted you to take care of her little girl if anything were to happen to the three of us. If that doesn't prove she cares about you all I don't know what does." Beverly ended quietly but her gaze never broke contact with Christinas until she finished.
"You don't know what the past 7 months has been like for Meredith. Adam hasn't even been dead a year but his death, it killed her. Don't get me wrong, it killed me too, he was one of my best friends, but she, she just snapped. She was forced to take a break from work but when she came back she was like this. Even I've been having trouble getting through to her lately. Emily is the only one she is normal with. But I'm sure you've noticed that by now." Bev's eyes gazed sadly over the now quiet group.
"I always thought she just hated us, and that's why she was so cold, so different." George's voice filled the room.
"I wish I could say it was that simple. Sometimes I wonder if she'll ever be the same. You only saw a glimpse of her and Adam. God I wish you could have met him, him and Emily, they were everything to her, and now she's taking every ounce of happiness she has and putting it towards Emily. I don't know what would happen if anything ever happened to Emily. I don't think she'd be able to live through it."
"Yea…" The four nodded their heads slowly, the day finally taking it's toll on them.
"I better go... I need to umm... go find Meredith and make sure she's alright. This is the first time she's really being forced to face it. She refused to ever even hear Adam's name before this... I'll talk to you all later I guess." With that Beverly gently passed through the exit as well, the four attending standing up silently making their way to the door.
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The four made their way to the locker room and slowly changed into their street clothes, having cleared their schedules for the day's "meeting".
Heading towards the parking lot George and Izzie took off in their car, while Alex started his job down the road. Soon Christina was the only one left in the parking lot. She made her way towards her motorcycle which she had parked in the farthest lot hoping to avoid it getting hit by some idiot intern.
As she slowly approached her bike she heard sniffling and a couple of gasps. Normally she would have ignored it, she hated dealing with families and stupid sobbing weaklings, but something made her turn. Her heart stopped. Not far away was Meredith leaning against the hospital wall where no one could see her, her hands pressed flat against the wall her head looking downward.
Slowly Christina approached her, not sure what to do, saying the first thing to her mind.
"I missed you."
A strangled laugh interrupted Meredith's sobbing as she turned around placing her back against the wall and looked up at the sky still crying, her eyes squeezed shut.
"You - you're my best friend."
Meredith didn't look at her. Her sobs had quieted down but tears stilled rolled down her face.
" You were. You are my person, still I mean. And I'll still drag that body for you. We could make it Shepard's if you'd like."
Meredith turned her head to look at her, her eyes stilled held a tortured look, and tears still flooded her face, but her mouth had quirked slightly. And to Christina's surprise a few tears even made their way down her own face.
"I really really missed you Meredith."
Christina looked down not knowing what else to say, having never become this emotional for years. Looking back up she saw Meredith's mouth open slightly and prepared herself for the emotional anger and yelling to come…
"I missed you too."
To be continued…
A/N: So how was that? Decent? This was one of my favorite chapters to writer but I didn't think it was my best. So R&R!! Review review review!!! PLEASE!!
