Thank you for being so patient for this update! I know, I was just... going through a lot! My best friend past away in February & I just felt hopeless... there almost would've been absolutely no more chapters or stories if it weren't for my favorite author (actual published author) Susane Colasanti! Her books kept me side tracked & holding on! Yeah, I was considering suicide, thankfully I'm still here. Enjoy. I own nothing!


Alexis's Pov

4 months later

So, here I am. At a dinner table with 2 brothers who think I'm a slut, an ex boyfriend, & my potential baby daddy... make that 2 ex boyfriends. I sighed at the awkward silence.

"So, I heard One Direction was having a concert here in LA," Alli spoke up.

"Really? That's cool!" Gabi tried to cheer up the mood in the room.

"Yeah. And you, Alexis, & I are all going! Because, I got front row tickets & backstage passes. Not only that, but thanks to Cody we even get to spend about the entire day with them!" Alli had a huge smile on her face.

"Oh my gosh! Alexis why are you not flipping out right now! You only absolutely adore Harry Styles! Come on at least let out a fangirl squeal!" Gabi gripped my arm.

"Trust me, I am on the inside," I looked down at my food which was barely touched.

"Hopefully there won't be another one," Nathan whispered underneath his breath. I took another deep breath.

"Eat." Campbell told me.

"Not hungry," I shoved my plate to the side.

"You're kidding right? Look at you, you're skin & bones. You need food, I'm surprised you haven't passed out. What's going on? Are you sick?" He checked my forehead for a fever.

"No. I'm fine, just don't have an appetite anymore." I got up. Caleb had followed me.

"What do you want? To give me another lecture? Go ahead maybe another one is what I need so I stop screwing up!" In, out. Inhale; exhale.

"No, I'm not here to do that. I realized something, I have no right to call you a slut. You're my baby sister, I should be protecting your heart from boys who I know don't deserve your love. And I'm sorry. I should've never let any of this happen," Caleb looked down at his hands after apologizing.

"It's not your fault. I probably would've screwed up anyways." I said and hugged him tight.

"Truth is, Nathan blames himself more than I do, but you know how stubborn he is." Caleb smiled.

"Yeah, I know. He'll come around though," I smirked.

"Now, why haven't you been eating?" Caleb asked. I never told him about the text I had gotten from Skye. He basically had cursed me out & has recently been more forceful & demanding... and sometimes, physically hurting me. He'd apologize afterwards, so I guess it's okay.

"Just been overwhelmed lately. The wedding and all," I shrugged.

"Oh yeah, & the six month Australia vacation," Caleb rubbed my back.

"Australia? Six months," what?

"Mom didn't tell you? We're going to spend six months in Australia a little bit after the wedding," I groaned and rubbed my eyes. I have to be honest here.

"Caleb-" Nathan had cut me off.

"Six months away from boys is just what you need," he leaned against the door frame.

"Nathan. Stop. We can only blame ourselves, we're her brothers. We should've been the ones protecting her heart from those boys," Caleb told him.

"She probably would've gone behind our backs and do it anyways," He ignored every word.

"Do you love our sister?" Caleb asked.

"Of course I do," He stated.

"Then protect her. It could be a lot worse... remember Melissa from school?" My brothers go to some boarding school & I was home schooled.

"Yeah, oh... yeah, could be a lot worse... You're right." Nathan bit his lower lip.

"Hey, I'm here to pick up Alexis." It was Sky.

"C''mon Lex, you boyfriend is here!" Alli was all giddy. I didn't want to go. But I was out the door and at some party by myself. Sky had left me and went go find his own friends. It had been about 2 hours before I had seen him again. And within that time frame I had seen my brothers and I hid from them.

"Here," He handed me a cup of soda.

"Thanks," I replied and took a sip. Within minutes I began to feel a little woozy.

"Just give it some time, she won't remember a thing," Everything became hazy. Next thing I know Sky is taking me upstairs with some of his other guy friends.

"Where are we going?"I slurred my speech.

"Shh, you'll be fine." Lights purred. Sky shoved me on a bed. I rested my head on a fluffy pillow wanting nothing more than just to sleep. But I heard pounding on the door & yelling.

"Block the door!" Sky ordered. But it was too late the door had been busted open. Caleb and Nathan there to my rescue. I didn't even know that both my pants button and zipper had been undone and my shirt was half off. I opened my eyes, I was about to be raped and not even know it.

"The hell is this?" Nathan demanded to Lights's older brother, Michael. He didn't answer. Caleb pulled Sky off of me.

"Caleb?" I croaked and began to weep. He helped me fix my clothes since I was so sleepy.

"That's my little sister! My fucking sister! How dare you.. to any girl! We've been friend since we were 8... you bastard," Nathan punched Michael in the face good and hard. The others didn't even bother. Caleb picked me up, I wrapped my arms around his neck and nuzzled my face into him letting sleep wash over me.

I woke up in my bed with my brothers by my side.

"Morning," Nathan whispered to me.

"Hi," I turned to face him.

"I'm sorry for everything, I was the most harsh too... Caleb's right, we should be protecting you," He ran his fingers through his blond locks.

"Doesn't matter anymore... now go brush your teeth! Your morning breath smells rank!" I laughed.

"I wouldn't be talking," He smirked. We got up and brushed our teeth.

"What?" I questioned him, after all Nathan was staring at me while we were brushing our teeth. I rinsed my mouth out.

"Nothing... just realized exactly how much you've all ready grown up,"

"And I'm still growing!" I smiled brightly.

"About last night, we got the cops to arrest them all," He didn't make eye contact with me.

"Good." I replied.

"I'm gonna go out for a run, want to come?" I asked Nathan.

"Sure," We changed clothes & began to run. I had so much energy that Nathan had trouble keeping up. I was barely breaking a sweat.

"You okay?" I asked him.

"Yeah, yeah. I'm fine!" He panted.

"C''mon we'll walk the rest of the way," I laughed. As we were walking I saw Cody & Hailee out on a breakfast date. The same café he took me to.

"Bothers you, doesn't it?" Nathan asked.

"A bit," I gritted my teeth.

"Go ahead, I'll catch up in a few," He groaned.

"Thanks, I'll jog just for you." Even though I wanted to sprint as fast as I could. As I was jogging past The café Cody called my name out.

"Oh, hey Cody. Hailee." I said jogging in place.

"Back on the morning runs?" He asked.

"Yep, with Nathan this time." Nathan caught up.

"Wearing you out yet?" Cody asked, oblivious to Nathan's heavy breathing.

"How do you keep up?" Nathan asked in between breaths.

"You don't, she's independent" He grinned.

"Yeah. Great. See you at the wedding tomorrow. Yeah?" I asked.

"Yeah, will Sky be there?" Cody doesn't know about last night.

"No, c'mon Nathan. Let's go," I grabbed his hand to pull him along. When we got home Nathan was seriously tired.

"I'm going to die!" He cried.

"You'll be fine! You baby," I stuck my tongue out at him. I took a shower and once I got out Cody & Alli were waiting for me.

"Uhm... hi," Thankfully I had gotten dressed in the bathroom!

"Care to explain Alli? Or should I?" Cody began. She let out a sigh.

"Fine. I set Hailee & Cody up so Cody could see that you're perfect for him," Alli admitted. I wasn't mad, I could go my entire life & be okay knowing or not.

"Okay, and obviously it didn't work. So I'll see you tomorrow, yeah?"

"How can you be so nonchalant about this? And maybe it did work." Cody argues.

"And here we go." I heaved a heavy sigh.

"What do you mean here we go?"

"We do this every time! We both deny wanting to be with each other or one of us does & then we get hurt." I pointed out the obvious.

"Then let's try one more time and not screw up," Cody grabbed my hands. I pulled away,

"Cody, no I can't. Well, I can but... It's just not going to work!"

"Why? Because of Sky, you broke my heart even worse than Izzy did. How can you do that?" He said in a low tone.

"Don't say that. Sky is gone. Because of what he did... I'm not the same person anymore Cody. Now, if you'll excuse me I need to take some Anti-depressants," I moved pass them. Alli went home but Cody stayed.

"What did he do?"

"Look it's nothing you need to worry about!" I swallowed the pills.

"Yes it does if it concerns the love of my life," Cody grabbed my arm, I immediately shielded myself out of habit.

"He didn't." Cody let go of my arm.

"Happy you know now? The little depressed girl Cody Simpson dumped was abused by her new boyfriend. I don't need your sympathy." I wanted to move but my body wouldn't let me.

"You're trembling," He's right. I'm scared still; Cody wrapped his arms around me. I hugged him back.

"What if he's still out there? His dad is a cop, what if he comes after me?" I said into his chest. Cody's heartbeat added comfort. It wasn't cold & lifeless like Sky's. His warm and the beat was perfectly in sync with mine.

"He's not getting anywhere near you."

"I'm not going out with you," I whispered.

"I know, I just want to be your guardian."

"Angel." I smiled.

"What?" Guardian Angel.

"You're my Guardian Angel," I wanted to stay like this forever. But then Hailee comes in.

"Cody Robert Simpson!" She raged.

"Yes?" He was always acting the right when somebody else wasn't so they would calm down..

"Get away from that slut! Don't you all ready have a boyfriend?"

"Hailee, you don't know what she's going through!"

"Fine, then tell me what she's going through," She sat down.

"It's a long sto-" I cut Cody off.

"My dad is dead because of me, my child is dead because of me, my ex-boyfriend abused me & I was almost raped last night. Welcome to my sad little life." She sat there shocked.

"Oh umm, I uh, have to go. See you later babe." Hailee kissed Cody on the cheek.

"Raped?"

"He drugged me,"

"He won't be anywhere near you within a hundred mile radius," Cody leaned his forehead against mine.

"She going the wedding?" I asked him.

'Nope, kinda figured she'd bring the happiness down," He shrugged.

"Good, did you see Alli or Gabi in their dresses yet?" I asked.

"Yeah, Gabi spent the night last night. Alli was helping her with her makeup to match the dress... But I really wanna see you in your dress," I giggled. The ones we wear down the aisles are all the same, but for the reception they're all different.

"I guess you'll just have to wait for tomorrow then," I winked.


Okay, so wedding chapter tomorrow & then the Day With One Direction? Depends on how many reviews I get... We'll see ;)

Much Love,

Alexis C.