I wish I had noticed clue # 3
"So when I saw Inuzuka-san, Haruno-san, Yamanaka-san and Uchiha-san; Naruto-kun asked them, as the wonderful and nice person that he is, to join us and well from then on no romantic moments any more. Actually I didn't even get to sit next to him in at least one ride. I mean it was fun with Inuzuka-san, Yamanaka-san and Haruno-san but well they are a tad bit too loud and not Naruto-kun. Plus whenever we decided on a ride, either Yamanaka-san or Haruno-san would throw a fit that they didn't like it at all while the other claimed to love it and the constantly arguing over Uchiha-san drove me crazy…I didn't even have the chance to apologize for what I did and all he ever did was being dragged into the rides and glare at me. I bet he must have felt awful."
"Haha, Hinata-chan don't be like that. Naruto-kun kissed you. You should be jumping with joy. His friends and my son have ruined your date but it was fun as long as it lasted right?" Ms. Uchiha states while looking with twinkles in her eyes. Ohh I know how much she loves it. It must be nice to hear and laugh at somebody else's date. But still I can't believe how she so easily has forgiven me. She is such a good person. It would be nice if someday, somehow I could be more like her.
"You're right, I should…" I get cut of when suddenly the door gets slammed open and a head pops in the room.
"MUM, I'm home I'll cook diner. I'll make sliced salmon noodle soup." His head disappears and the door gets slammed close. Okay…did Sasuke just say he is going to cook? I hear a small noise and turn around facing my little sister who is trying to stifle her laughter. Somehow a huge grin is forming on my lips just from seeing her laugh. Though, it doesn't make sense a guy who cooks isn't supposed to be that funny. Sure we've never actually seen one. Neji tried it ones and since then he is banned from the kitchen. So why is she laughing?
"Hanabi-chan! Is it that funny to hear that my son is cooking?" Ms. Uchiha says but it only makes Hanabi laugh louder. "Sorry Ms. Uchiha but Sasuke in an apron…bwahaha." She says while twisting from laughter. Ms. Uchiha and I look at each other and I'm trying to picture him in an apron. It makes me giggle out loud.
After a while my giggles die out and there is an awkward silence. "Hinata" she leaves out the 'chan' again. "You haven't apologized to my son yet." She says.
"Y-Yeah!" I don't know when the room turned ice cold and a lot darker but it gives me the creeps. "Then don't you think now is a good moment?" Ms. Uchiha asks with a sugar coated smile. She could be Sai's mother if you ask me.
"Erm…I-I..." suddenly she grabs my arm drags me to the door and opens it. "Good luck." I hear her say before she pushes me into the kitchen. The kitchen is actually really gorgeous. The stone floor is white with some dark blue wood-like veins on it. The walls are pure white. The sink is white with a dark blue edge. One the walls are hanging 3 big kitchen cabinets made of ebony with beautiful figures gouged in it. Next to the sink stands a big black oven with 5 gas burners on it. With next to it the dish washer and on it a microwave. And in the corner of the room before the white ebony dresser stands Uchiha Sasuke cutting the salmon. Sadly he is not wearing an apron; or maybe that's for the best because if he does I probably won't be able to apologize properly.
I swallow and cough. No reaction. I take a step forward. "U-Uchiha-s-san?" I say with shaking legs. He still doesn't react. The air feels thick and heavy pushing me down. No sound, only him chopping the fish into tiny parts. "Chak chak chak." How I wish I can turn around and run away as far as possible. "Erm…U-Uchiha-san…I'm s-sorry." The murderous sound of chopping dead salmon suddenly stops. I wait for something to happen. For him to turn around or something. Glare at me. Sneer at me. Humiliate me. Anything. But he does nothing. Instead he continues with chopping the dead fish. "I-I shouldn't h-have said those t-Things…"
"Hn" I take a step forward.
"I-I know t-this sound l-like an e-excuse b-but I-I was a-afraid." I take another step. "You a-always c-come b-between N-Naruto-kun and I- I." I want take another step but stop in the mid air when he stops chopping. "a-and I" he goes on with chopping and I take the step. "I-I don't k-know." Just another step and I am at arm length away from him. "I was just scared." I take the step. He suddenly turns around. I stare at his painfully red eyes and feel a knife against my throat. This so not good. Tomorrow in the newspapers 'Hyuuga Hinata, killed by a knife. The suspect is a 16 year old boy. The reason for killing is unknown.'
"Cowards may die many times before they are actually dead." He says in a low voice. I gulp. Dear Kami I don't feel like dieing just yet. "Keep your distance!" keep my what? Ohh. Well, that's sort of understandable right? That he wouldn't want to get close to me. I jump backwards so now I'm at a large distance from him.
"S-Sorry. I w-wanted y-you to l-leave me a-alone a-and…a-and I w-was nervous b-because N-Naruto-kun c-called me and then y-you p-pop up. E-Every time y-you're there e-everything goes w-wrong s-somehow I-I always… I-I always end up c-crying. N-Not that, this t-time I actually d-didn't…erm… I-I mean n-not that N-Naruto-kun is m-making me u-unhappy he's actually p-pretty sweet and s-somewhat dense. But he gives me c-confidence. He makes me want to be better. I feel like Naruto-kun and…"
"Get out!" he whispers.
"W-What?" I must have misheard it right?
He turns around. Anger radiates from his face. "GET OUT!"
Okay now it is time to run. I turn around and the first door I see I open it and go in. I stand with my back against the door breathing heavily. What in the world was that? Scratch clowns and balloons or being in the spotlight. Uchiha Sasuke is down right my number one scariest thing ever. How can anyone like him, when he looks like Satan is coming after you? What exactly did I do? Why did he become so angry so suddenly? I don't get it everything seemed to be fine, right? Awkward, threatening but fine. For a moment it even…
My trail of thoughts gets broken by some rustling. I look up and stare into 2 red orbs. Kami help me! "AAA…." My desperate call for help gets cut off by his hand. I try to kick him. Not that it would help much I mean he has a fish knife but I miss. Suddenly I am blinded by white light. Did I die? I blink with my eyes and see now that I am in the hall and the person holding me is not Sasuke but his…father?
I do know now where he got his looks from. I mean this man is gorgeous. Even though he has the same red eyes he doesn't have such a pale skin as Sasuke. He is a tint darker what makes him look more alive. He has dark black hair, but it looks duller but softer than Sasuke's, that frames his face near his cheeks and the rest is tied in a ponytail. His face looks exactly like Sasuke's the only difference is that he has a gentle look on it - instead of the look of a murder - and he has long pronounced tear troughs under his eyes. Now I know why Ms. Uchiha loves her husband so much he is really hawt and looks unbelievable young for his age. I mean the v-neck t-shirt together with those blue pants makes him really look like a teenager. This is also the first time I see a man with a necklace on. It's pretty interesting though he has three rings hanging on the necklace. Did he marry 3 times or what? Though the most interesting thing is that his nails are painted dark purple. Never have I seen a man with nail polish. But it does look cool anyway.
He removes his hand and stares at me. I feel my cheeks burning up again. "H-Hello?" I say making a bow. I look up and he is still staring at me. His stare is so intense it feels as if he is seeing right through me or stripping me of my clothes or something. Wait, what? Bad Hinata! Don't think about that. I feel myself shaking on my legs. I don't know which is worse this room or the one from before.
I hear him cough. "Having some trouble with my little brother?" he says in a dark sexy voice. I only nod. Wait! Little brother?
"Something wrong?" he asks. My eyes must have widened at that statement.
"Erm…I-I thought y-you were his f-father." I say looking at the ground.
"I see." He says and an awkward silence follows.
"I-I think I-I'll go b-back now." I say. I turn around but he stops me.
"You do realize Sasuke is still in there?" he asks.
"Y-Yeah, b-but I…." wait how does he know that….did he hear us? What would…
"I was tying my shoes and preparing to leave." He says. Somehow it looks like a lame excuse but something in the way he said it makes me think that he was speaking the truth. Not that it really mattered. He did hear us, that's what matters. What does he think of me know? Does he hate me?
"You should learn how to apologize properly."
"W-What?" I have apologized many times. I guess more than any other person because I'm such a useless being. I'm clumsy so I break a lot of things. I am not the person my father expects me too be. I always say things at the wrong moment because somehow I am too dense to realize people's feelings. So I do have a lot to apologize for but this drops my pants. Is he saying that I suck at the thing I do more than anything?
"You don't know why he got mad." Is that a question or a statement? But anyway he is right so I nod.
"Let me ask you. Why did you apologize to him?" he says.
"B-Because I s-said something h-hurtful. I f-feel g-guilty so…"
"That is it."
"What?"
"You apologize because you feel guilty. Basically you are apologizing to make yourself feel better not because you want to make him feel better. Sure he might feel better if you do but it isn't your main priority." He is right. I am only apologizing for myself. What am I for a person? I am the worse.
"Because you don't have the right intention you are making excuses like 'I was afraid'. People don't want to hear such petty reasons. If you apologize you should say 'I was wrong you were right. I am an idiot.' Say straight out what you are who you are and don't make excuses." I did make excuses actually I made a lot of them. Being afraid is not an excuse to say the things I did, even though it is partly true.
"On top of that you said that he makes you cry and that everything goes wrong when he is there." Why did I say that?
"Plus you insulted him." What how?
"Don't talk about someone else when you are apologizing. This is between you two don't drag other people in it. Especially not if it is only to talk about how great and wonderful that other person is. " O My I did I really did start to ramble about how great Naruto-kun is. I'm such a fool.
"In general it isn't smart to talk about Naruto."
"W-What? W-Why?" I ask. I look at him be his expression is blank. I can't read anything from it.
"You will figure that out someday." He says while gentle shoving me away to get his jacket. "You know he might be a pain, but he doesn't hate you." And then he opens the door and walks away leaving me here in the hall. What in the world does he mean? He doesn't hate me? He tried to murder me with a knife. Sure any normal person would do that if they didn't hate you?
I sit down on the stairs. What am I supposed to do? I don't know any more. Naruto-kun what would you do? Naruto-kun would never be in this situation. He is sweet, nice, gentle, positive, caring, sportive and social. He would know what to do. If this happened to him I am sure that he wouldn't sit just on the stairs because he never gives up and…That's right. Naruto-kun would never be in this position because he wouldn't give up and would try again. That's right. He would try again and so will I. Like Ms. Uchiha said "The moment you regret your wrong doings is the moment you earn forgiveness. You just have to trust this other person and make him have fate in you again. If it is you I'm sure you can do it." I can do this. I will just have to try again. Eventually he will forgive me because I'll be stuck on him like glue. Watch out Murder Sasuke, Sorry Ass Hinata is coming after you. Haha.
"So how is it going Hinata-chan?" Ms. Uchiha asks me.
"Erm…not so well. I have apologized every time I saw him for two weeks now, but he doesn't even blink. He walks just pass me. Does he hate me that much?" I say staring at Grimmjow who is spinning on my lap.
"Aww, don't give up Hinata-chan. He will come around some day. I'm sure of it. Besides if he really hated you he would have killed you the moment you stepped into the kitchen." She says smiling sweetly. Now I'm scared of her. What if he did hate me? He would have killed me the moment she had pushed me into the kitchen and she would have been fully aware of it. Surely the Uchiha's are one crazy family. Not that mine is any better. I mean they might be scary but somehow I like them. Even if Sasuke and I are like the way we are now I can't seem to dislike him. And his mother is such a sweet woman. Really nice and caring. She feels like an adopted mother. Maybe that's why Hanabi is more here than at home.
"Maybe you will have your chance at the field trip?" Hanabi suggests. The field trip just thinking about it makes my cheeks burn up. Naruto-kun asked me to pair up with him during the trip. It will be so much fun. I will make the best bento for him that I can manage.
"Never mind. You already have your plans." She states.
"Maybe I could just whack my son's head until he will accept your apology." Ms. Uchiha jokes.
"Please don't, it would be painful for him." It definitely will I just know it. I mean not that I ever saw her hit anything but if you just look at the way she smiles and how the room turns cold ever times she gets angry I just know it most hurt a lot. "Besides I want him to forgive me, because he forgives me not because he has too." I'll give him a sincere apology and some day I do hope he will accept it.
"Hey Hinata, I saved a seat for you." Sakura says while gesturing me to sit next to her. Ever since I've been dating Naruto-kun I feel like I belong somewhere. Everybody seems to know who I am and talks to me. They are saving seats for me. I finally made some friends. Especially Sakura and Ino are really nice to me. Though, Karin doesn't really like me. But she is nicer than I thought she might be a bit bitchy but somehow she is not that bad. I wonder what they would do if they knew I said such a mean thing to Sasuke.
"Ne Hinata, you want to sit next to me during the bus ride?" Ino asks.
"S-Sure I-Ino-san." I say.
"Ohh! There is Naruto!" Ino exclaims. I immediately turn around to look at him but see nothing but a great hall full with peers enjoying their lunch. Then I hear some giggles. I turn around and see that Ino and Sakura are trying to stifle their laughter. They tricked me. I am pouting.
"Aww, Hinata don't do that. We were only teasing you. But you look so adorable just by hearing his name. You look so cute." Ino says.
"Yeah…you really look cute together…You two seem to be…perfect for each other." Sakura says thoughtful but is smiling sweetly.
"Young puppy love." Ino teases me.
"Maah, I-Ino-san." I say irritated.
Suddenly I feel two strong arms wrap around me from behind. I don't have to look around to know who it is my senses tell it all. My cheeks are burning up, my heart is beating faster, I feel butterflies in my stomach and I can smell the smell of Axe deodorant. Honestly I absolutely hate the smell it is too heavy and makes you feel suffocated but if Naruto-kun wears it I will die for it. I even bought it so I can smell Naruto-kun back at home in my room. Hanabi said I was crazy because she absolutely detests the smell so I asked Neji to buy it. I thought he would get a heart attack but after I said it was for school and I was too embarrassed to buy it he did it for me.
"Ne Hinata-chan, can I borrow your biology answers?" Naruto-kun asks.
"S-Sure, I w-will get them o-out of my l-locker." I say while standing up and picking up my purple bag. Naruto-kun grabs my hand and smiles at me. He is so cute he does that all the time. If there are people around us he will grab my hand showing that I am his or that his is mine. Though, it doesn't matter how many times he does it my cheeks are still burning up and my heart will beat even faster just from the touch of his sweaty, rough big hand. Naruto-kun and I are walking towards my locker when Sakura yells at us. "Wait for me! I have to go to my locker too."
As we arrive at my locker I pick out my books and hand Naruto-kun the biology answers. "Ne Hinata, you really shouldn't give him those, it will make him even more stupid." Sakura says. I fake a smile and Naruto-kun just chuckles. I don't know why but lately she has become a lot meaner towards Naruto-kun. We walk with Sakura to her locker and wait for her to get her books out of her locker. When she finally has her books -It takes her hours to find anything in her locker because of her make-up and Sasuke pictures and posters - we go back to the great hall.
As we arrive we see that all the girls who are supposed to sit at the table just magically disappeared. "Ohh, there is Sas'ke-kun!" Sakura suddenly exclaims. Well that explains it. She runs towards the crowd that is surrounding him. "G-Good L-Luck, S-Sakura-san!" I say waving sheepishly.
"Thanks, Hinata!" she says and she storms away. Somehow it makes me chuckle. She really looks so sweet and innocent as she goes after him. She like a totally different person.
Suddenly the warmth surrounding my right hand disappears and Naruto-kun walks away irritated. What's wrong with him? I mean he normally lets go of my hand as there aren't any girls around us. He probably does that, so that every girl knows that he is taken. Isn't that sweet? But he normally isn't irritated. Did I say something wrong?
I feel like somebody's watching me so I turn around to meet with a pair of red eyes. They are studying me thoroughly as if he is searching for some kind of sign. Then as soon as it came he turns around and walks away with the crowd of fan girls following him.
Somehow I feel the same knot for in my stomach again. Will something bad happen again?
Heya, it has been awhile.
Though, now I can finally say that I'm feeling a lot better. Thank you all for your concern and reviews it really helps me getting through the pain. I still have to lie in the hospital for like 2 weeks but that might actually be good news. Since it's really boring here and so I can work on this fanfiction. So I can finally up-date everyday again for the next 2 weeks. I will also be up-loading a one-shot to celebrate a friends birthday and me feeling better later this week.
As for the story, some people are really interested in what Sasuke really feels for Hinata. Well, since this story is from Hinata's point of view and I think she is actually a bit dense concerning people's - especially Sasuke's feelings – it might take a while before you will figure it out so be chapter would be by Lady Sweet Pink's suggestion a fieldtrip.
If you might have any hints on how to improve or what you would like to read please don't hesitate to tell me I am always in to learn new things. As for if I am not getting the friendship right between Ino, Sakura and the others then please excuse me for that because it's really hard for me to figure out how girls actually think. I still curse the day when I actually thought that it would be funny and challenging to write a story in a girl's point of view.
*this might sound totally random and way too late but I just realized something. In chapter 4 I put Hinata's initials as H.H. well the English and American's pronounce the H as aitch while the Germans and the Hollanders pronounce it as Ha. So well that was a bit mixed up since I've lived in all 4 the country's XD
