A/N: I know, you're shocked, I actually updated. I was waiting for a brain spark, and it finally came! *cheers* So here's chapter 11, I was supposed to be doing my homework, but I couldn't stop thinking about this chapter, so I just decided that I'm not going to do my homework… yet. =P So, since it's been a while, I'm going to give a brief synopsis of what's been going on.
So Lily's father dies and she can't tell anyone, but she ends up telling Remus because she needs to get it off of her chest. James finds them hugging and gets mad at Remus and Remus tells him that there's nothing going on between him and Lily. Later, Lily is in the forbidden forest, just walking alone when she is captured by Death Eaters. She's stays with them for 7 months until Regulus Black saves her and just leaves her to fend on her own. Later, she is found and taken to the Hospital Wing at Hogwarts. When she finally wakes up, she finds that her mother, who she presumed to be dead, is comforting her and telling her that Lily is coming home with her. James naturally gets curious, and Lily finds herself telling James everything that happened when he left (in case you forgot, Lily and James were best friends when they were kids, but James ended up moving). In the end, Lily goes home (seeing as its summer now) and finds out that her new neighbor is none other than James… coincidence? I think not!
Chapter 11
"We are the dead, short days ago we lived, felt dawn, saw sunset grow. Loved and were loved, and no we lie in Flanders's Fields." (Flanders's Fields)
Lily's POV
Have you ever wanted to do, or say something so bad, but you didn't? Questions literally clouded my mind as James talked to my mother acting just like a host should. He would occasionally steal glances towards me, but I pretended not to notice. Actually, I was quite surprised that he was even listening to my mother talk anymore; she had been talking for the last hour. By now, I had taken in my surroundings to find that this house did not disappoint. It had a high ceiling with an absolutely huge chandelier. The walls were the traditional white, and the white leather sofa that I was sitting on felt too soft to sit on. There was a fireplace on the other side of the room; it looked modern and recently finished. I felt so insignificant and small in a room like this.
After a while Sirius came to join us and sat next to me fiddling with his fingers, not even bothering to show that he was paying attention. I almost felt bad for James, listening to my mother like that… almost.
"So, James," mom started, "Is your mom coming home soon?"
"She should be home any minute…" In that instant I heard the door open and a flustered looking Mrs. Potter walked into the room, she looked absolutely exhausted.
"Oh…" she said as she noticed that she had guests. "Elena! How nice it is to see you!" she looked at me. "Lily? Is that you?"
I stood up, "Yes, it is," I said.
"Oh, my! You've grown so much! You're not much of a girl anymore, now are you?" She came up to me and hugged me, and for the first time in the longest time, I didn't want to let go, she hugged the way that a mother should, and it felt… like home. I did eventually let go, and she moved to my mother.
"Mum, where's Cassie?" James said as his mom hugged mine.
"She's outside." This lifted my spirits.
"Oh!" I said, "Can I go see her?"
Mrs. Potter looked at me, "Why, of course, Lily!"
I walked out of the living room to find Sirius walking beside me.
"Where are you going?" he inquired with a smirk on his face.
"Outside, why?"
"Because, you're going the wrong way." He walked in front of me and led me around the house until we reached the door. The entire time was spent with me awing over the magnificence of this house. It was absolutely gorgeous; it almost made me want to explore the rest of it. I made my way outside to find Cassie sitting on the porch swing.
"Cassie!" she looked up
"Lily!!" She immediately got up to hug me and I hugged her back. "So what do you think?"
"You never told me that you lived in a castle! It's huge!" Cassie laughed.
"Yea, it's pretty nice…" It was just then that she noticed that Sirius was behind me. I had forgotten about him since my attention was focused on finding Cassie. Her eyes narrowed. "What are you doing here?"
Sirius jumped as though he did not expect Cassie to notice her. "Umm… I was just bringing Lily to you." I had never heard Sirius sound so… nice before, he sounded so innocent. It was actually kind of cute.
"Just leave," She said. He left without another word and I wasn't sure if he was happy or sad to leave
"Finally. Lily, I have to tell you so much!" Before I could even react I was lead back into the house and upstairs into another room. It was obviously Cassie's with the pink walls and posters. I sat on her bed and she caught me up on everything that I had missed.
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James POV
When I could finally leave my mom, I made my way up to my room. I could hear Cassie talking in her room as I passed it, and knew that Lily would be busy for at least the next 3 hours. I opened the door and walked in feeling tired and heavy, but I didn't go to bed, I knew that if I did, I would never be able to go to sleep. Instead I made my way to the balcony that was just outside of my room. It was quiet outside, peaceful, even. Looking out, I stared at the sun that was just about to set; it was going to be a perfect evening. If only I didn't feel like crap.
I thought back to the times when Lily and I would play endlessly until the sun set like this, all of the those times when the day would fly by; weeks would be gone in a flash.
I don't know how long it was until Sirius made his way up to my room, but when he did come, the sun had long set and the half moon shown through the clouds. He stood next to me.
"You missed dinner, mate."
"I realize that, Sirius."
"You may want to eat something."
"I'm not hungry." He didn't say anything to that. He knew how stubborn I could be so he didn't push it. We stood for another immeasurable amount of time, until Sirius finally spoke.
"Is there something that you're not telling me, James?" I didn't answer for a while. I trusted Sirius with my life, he had kept all of my secrets and he kept mine, but for some reason, I wasn't sure if I wanted to tell him this. He wouldn't tell anyone, I knew he wouldn't.
"I just have a lot of stuff on my mind." I said.
"Really, I hadn't noticed." He mumbled sarcastically. I only had to say one word for him to understand.
"Lily."
"I should have known."
"I think you already did." Silence again. It wasn't uncomfortable, it was just silence. He didn't make me tell him, he was just waiting for me to decide. This is one of the reasons that Sirius Black is one of my best friends. It wouldn't be long before I would tell him everything. He didn't say anything and I kept on talking until I finished. It wasn't until that I did, that he said something.
"Wow…"
"That's an understatement."
"I think that you need to talk to her."
"There is no way that she's going to talk to me."
"You have the entire summer! Just talk to her!"
"I can't, Padfoot!"
"Why?"
"I-I just can't"
"You're afraid to talk to her now?" And when I didn't say anything he started laughing. "Prongs, mate, you have it bad."
"I realize that, thank you very much." I mumbled as Sirius laughed.
"But what you don't realize is," Sirius continued when he stopped laughing, "that trying to get your mind off of her is only going to make you think about her."
"I'd think about her anyways."
"That bad?" I nodded. "Hmmmm…"
"Hmm… what?"
"Just thinking…"
"And what lead to this phenomenon?"
Sirius didn't say anything for a while, and it got quiet again. Though, it was quite amusing to see Sirius think. It almost looked like he was having a battle with himself. He would hit himself for thinking something and then smile and laugh. I was absorbed in his expressions when he finally said something.
"AHA!!" I jumped. "I knew it! I knew, I knew, I knew it!!!" He started dancing around the balcony; it wasn't until I asked him what he was dancing about that he talked again. "Why don't you tell me, Prongise?"
I just stared. "Unless you're going to telepathically tell me, Padfoot, I have no idea what you're dancing about."
Sirius sighed, "You say that you can't stop thinking about Lily, that you're affected when she is, Merlin, when she was gone, you were like a ghost, Prongs. Do you know what that means?"
"No…"
Sirius sighed again, "You love her! You more than just fancy her, you love her!!!!"
I didn't say anything; could it be possible, could I be in love with Lily Evans? I had never really thought about it, but now, as I did, it made complete sense. When she was gone, it was as though I had ceased to live. Whenever she talked to me, I felt as though I was at lost for words, and I was always thinking about her!
Sirius was looking at me expectedly. "Say it," He said.
"Say what?"
"Say that you love her."
"Why?"
"Just do it, Prongs."
I sighed, "I love her," I mumbled.
Sirius put his hand to his ear, "What? I can't hear you?!"
"I love her!" I said a little louder this time.
"Love who?" Sirius asked.
"I love, Lily Evans!!" I yelled. It echoed in the night as I said it, but it felt as though a huge weight had been lifted off of my shoulders. I smiled.
"My work here is done," Sirius said.
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Cassie and I talked for hours on end; she filled me in on everything that had gone on while I was gone. Alice and Frank had gotten together at the end of the year. Rachel had helped them get together. Cassie said that the days tended to drag on when I was gone, but for some reason, I thought that she would have found a way to entertain herself.
"Oh, my God, you should have seen James; he was at total loss when you were gone." I looked at her in disbelief. "Really! He wouldn't talk to anyone! He would constantly ask Dumbledore if he had heard anything about you, and get this, he didn't even play one trick on Snape when you left. It was as though he turned into another person."
"I find that extremely hard to believe, Cassie."
"Lily, you know James better than I do, don't you think that it's possible for him to change? He really cares about you, Lily. He blames himself for everything that happened. You should really talk to him."
"Talking to James won't do any good, Cassie. He'll probably find a way to ask me out, or make a joke out of it, or something."
"Lily, he's changed. Just give him a chance."
I snorted. "The day that I give James Potter a chance will be the day that you go out on a date with Sirius Black."
"You can't hate him that much."
"You have no idea."
"Lily Evans, you cannot lie to save your life." She whispered. "I should bring you home, let's go." She got up and headed outside. She started walking incredibly fast, so fast that it wasn't long before I lost her.
"Dammit," I mumbled. Lily Evans being lost was not a good thing. I started aimlessly walking around the house hoping that I would be able to find Sirius and he would take me outside again, but so such luck. I was lost. Its okay, Lily, don't panic, you're only lost in a ginormous house, no big deal. I was going to kill Cassie when I found her; wouldn't she realize that I'm not behind her?
Finally, I saw a light at the end of the hallway that I was walking in. I turned the corner only to bump into someone… and then I fell.
"Ouch," Potter said as he got up. That was before he noticed that he had bumped into me. "Dammit, Evans, you're head is as hard as a rock."
I got up mumbling as I did and started to walk away, pretending to not notice him.
"Where are you going, Evans?"
"I'm going home, Potter." I said coldly.
"Well, you're going the wrong way…" I could hear the smirk in his voice, but it vanished when I turned to look at him. "I could take you home… if you want." Did he honestly think I had a choice?
"Under one condition, Potter… if you even try to make a move on me, I'll make sure that you will never have children, do I make myself clear?"
"Naturally, come with me." He led me in the other direction and that was when I noticed that right above me, on the balcony near the stairs, Cassie was waving goodbye.
"I'm going to kill her," I mumbled.
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