Let me be honest with you guys.

I don't exactly feel the same excitement for writing a new chapter as I did before.

I'm kinda feeling like I should just focus on what I kinda want to focus on which is Youtube and drawing rather than writing fanfiction. I'm just not feeling the whole...writing fanfic right now and I don't know if that feeling will ever come back.

I currently have zero plans to write anything else...I do have great ideas to start but I kinda wanted to finish some stories before I started something new.

Like I refuse to lie anymore...I have NOTHING planned for my Alice in Wonderland fanfiction, I previously did but not anymore, I have nothing planned for almost any of my fanfics anymore. Out of simply forgetting or losing it half way through the story I just have nothing planned at the moment.

I'm at a point in my life where I need to focus on finding a job or getting famous enough on YT to start getting money.

I'm 18 years old and I can't live the rest of my life making no money off of fanfics, I need a job, I gotta focus on that job, and then maybe when I open up a account I can start forcing myself to write new chapters/stories for payment but until then I don't think I'll be writing anymore.

I kinda just need to focus on what can/will pay me so I can live.

Also...the whole not getting feedback from each chapter (but when I don't upload some people freak out and comment) has affected me to the point that I don't think anyone is even reading what I put out. There were points where I stayed up until 1 in the morning, when I should have been focusing on high school, just to put out a new chapter and I'd get no feedback. Not even a simple "great chapter". That has kinda made me think no one cares for what I put out and if that is true...then I just don't care for writing anymore.

Like someone commented asking when I'd put up another homestuck chapter...NO ONE for MONTHS had been commenting to show that they were reading so I had neglected that one for a VERY long time. Now I've gotten to a point where I'm neglecting everything I write because I don't see a point in it. Just because someone likes the story doesn't really show that they are going to continue reading each chapter and if no one is reading...then what is the point?

There isn't a point.

I'm done for now.


I never originally wrote any of my stories for recognition and I still never have. I don't do it to be 'the best fanfic writer ever'. The reason I kinda wanted comments/reviews is, and I consider this to be the best example, so that way people can tell me my mistakes...to tell me that "hey! chapter 1 and 3 are the same thing! Please fix it!"

The other reason I wanted reviews is so I know that I'm not writing for no one, personally if I don't have reviews then I simply assume that everyone has dropped my stories and no longer cares for updates and if I'm writing for no one then I might as well stop writing all together. Because there isn't a point to continue writing something if no one is reading it, especially not since I need to focus on more important things.

I do agree though, my writing is subpar but English was also never my first fucking language and I've always had a problem with it because in America...sadly enough...all teachers I've had so far seem to think that 'Well if you are in America, you should already know how to write a sentence and how to form an essay properly!'

So I never really learned how to do either of those, I never properly learned much about the english language because many of my teachers just assumed that the previous one had 'done their job right' and taught me everything I needed to know so we never went over the shit I didn't actually know.