Chapter 10: Memories

Chapter 10: Memories

So… first of all- disclaimer: the song I'm using is Memories by Within Temptation, hence they own it and I don't. Enjoy, and please review (: I also recommend you look the song up like on you-tube and listen while reading, it's really inspiring

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In this world you tried
not leaving me alone behind
There's no other way
I prayed to the gods let him stay
The memories ease the pain inside,
now I know why

All of my memories keep you near
In silent moments imagine you'd be here
All of my memories keep you near
Your silent whispers, silent tears…

Draco Malfoy could not fall asleep. He laid in his lavish bed, tossing and turning, but the thoughts of his lost friend Cady would not leave him alone…

What had happened to her? Who was she?

Just when he thought he unraveled a part of the mystery that was Cady Smith, she showed a sign that threw him off completely.

First, she turns into Cady Smith, Slytherin superstar from a nobody, then she becomes his closest and dearest friend, but then it turns out she was using him to become a death eater no less, a young aunt Bella, and now she is in Voldemort's inner circle and is telling him not to worry…

What could she possibly mean by that? Was she saying she'll use her position to defend him from you-know-who's wrath? How was that possible? No one had that much influence on him… in anyway she tried, Cady would be putting herself in jeopardy by standing beside him, and besides… she was on you-know-who's side, not his…

Or was she?

Then it dawned on him… the rapid changes in attitude, the private hours with Snape… was she faking allegiance to the dark side?

But then again- for what purpose? And how far will one go to… she killed innocents, no pretender will go to that length… would they?

He decided that the notion was ridiculous and turned to the left side of the bed, in another attempt to fall asleep.

Although… inside he continued hoping that it was true…

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Made me promise I'd try
to find my way back in this life
I hope there is a way
to give me a sign you're ok
Reminds me again it's worth it all
so I can go home

All of my memories keep you near
In silent moments imagine you'd be here
All of my memories keep you near
Your silent whispers, silent tears

Cady was permitted to return to her own chambers, and so she did.

She immediately took a warm shower, her legs were stained by blood and she felt sore.

But she had achieved something important… it was worth it, she found a way to help the one person she held dear, not to mention that now surly she will find a way to weaken and possibly kill him…the dark lord…

Images of the night's event flashed before her eyes… she felt pain,but it, in no way compared the pleasure, the pleasure Tom Riddle gave her, it was not difficult to see why her aunt fell for him, he was undeniably good looking and charming, he had that effect, she presumed, on the entire female race.

What Cady failed to see, or rather ignored all together, was her moral decline and decay. She had no values, no scruples… she was using all means to achieve her end, while blocking all good sense and compassion, in order to allow herself to act as she did.

She had mixed feelings about the night. On the one hand, she was pleased with what she had accomplished, on the other hand, she gave herself up to a man she hated, and worse… she liked it, in some primal, primitive place in her black heart, she enjoyed it…

She now knew she was in deep, she had to push forward and succeed, or all she has done would have been in vain, she could not let that be…

Cady thought a lot about Draco that night, how much she wanted him to know the truth and pardon her… the memories of the happy times they shared, the special bond they had… he was like the brother she never had… but he was not the only one in her thoughts… the mysterious letter writer, the one who loved her for no reason, who thought she was so awesome… she could not afford to keep the letters, but she remembered them, and they gave her love and thus were a source of comfort.

'Whoever he was, he probably hates me now…'

then her thoughts shifted again- to her father and mother, her life which Tom Riddle had destroyed, how because of him she was destined to suffer… she thought of her mother's aunt Mildred, auntie Millie, who passed away when Cady was a child of nine, leaving her father to take care of her himself, a task he was not able to perform very well.

'All the sacrifices are worth it…'

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Together in all these memories
I see your smile
All the memories I hold dear
Darling, you know I'll love you
'til the end of time

All of my memories keep you near
In silent moments imagine you'd be here
All of my memories keep you near
Your silent whispers, silent tears

Early next morning, Cady Smith left her room dressed simply as ever, at the same time she closed the door behind her, another door was shut.

Two people paced towards the staircase…

Two pairs of eyes, dark brown and blue, meet once again… all the memories

Hurting, burning and comforting at the same time.

Two people plagued by solitude.

One frightened and lost, the other lost and determined.

Cady Smith and Draco Malfoy stood before each other, this time for a few silent moments, but the silence had it's voice, and it said it all.

Hatred and love…

And above all, a deep sense of lose and yearning, longing.