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CH. 11 Jealously (BPOV)

The week has been fairly miserable. It started off alright. The morning after the picnic, Edward was back to his smiling self. So, I thought he had gotten over whatever was bothering him. After church, he offered to start teaching me to dance. He placed a record on his player then started teaching me some dance steps. I only stepped on his foot twice. Which, I thought it was an accomplishment.

Slowly, as each day went by, things got more and more sour. Starting Monday, while Edward was giving me a dancing lesson, gentlemen callers started to arrive. I did not receive them and I had no intentions of returning their call or leaving my card (not that I had any) with them. However, Edward would get increasingly put out each time. Maria just told me he was jealous and hopefully it will serve as a wake-up call for him to declare his intentions to me.

Wednesday, I believe was the worst day. Before I could make it upstairs to hide, the door bell rang and Maria answered it. The man behind the door was none other than Jason Sutton. Since he spotted me, I was unable to turn him away politely. Elizabeth whispered her apologizes to me as we led the young man into the sitting room. From there we commenced in a boring, mainly, one sided conversation.

Of course, to my misfortune, Edward came home in the middle of the visit. He took one look in the room and the blood drain from his face. The fact that he looked so hurt killed me. I never wanted to be the cause of pain for him. He curtly said 'hello' and turned to leave. What angered me even more was the smirk Jason threw at Edward's back. I went to follow him and Elizabeth stopped me, shaking her head.

As Jason was leaving, he offered me his card and I politely declined. Once the door was shut, I hurried up the stairs to Edward. I heard the piano playing so I knew where he was. I knocked on the door and volume on the piano increased. I tried the knob and it was locked. I took a deep breath and decided maybe it was best to let Edward cool off. I knew he could be unreasonable when he overreacted.

Edward didn't talk to me for the rest of the day. I only got a polite nod when I wished him good-night. That night my old nightmares came back of Edward leaving me.

I woke up with a headache and feeling unrested. On top of it all, it was a rainy day. I had to fix this. I had to get him to talk to me, to make him realize that Jason caught me off guard and I had no intentions of letting him get near me. While I was getting ready, I realized I hadn't received any notes or flower from Edward since Monday. I hoped this didn't mean Edward has giving up.

The morning started off much like yesterday afternoon. Edward ignored me. I could tell even his parents thought something was wrong. I choked down my breakfast, working up the courage to say something to Edward.

I didn't get my chance until after lunch. I followed Edward up the stairs and stopped him right before he entered the library.

"Edward, can I please talk to you?" I asked from behind him. He turned to me; his stare was cold and hard.

"What is it Isabella? I have to get back to my studies." His voice was harsh and cut straight to my heart. I blinked back my unwilling tears from both rejection and anger. He could have at least listened.

"Never mind, I just got my answer." My voice broke as I snapped at him and I choked backed my sobs. I wanted to get away before I broke down and he started to pity me.

I turned to walk away fast, and since, I was hurrying, I trip and landed flat on my face.

"Bella," I heard Edward come up behind me. I see him hold out his hand but I ignored it, getting up myself and rushing up the stairs.

I spent the remainder of the afternoon in my room. There were a few knocks on the door, but I ignored them. Shortly, before dinner, I decided to take a risk and leave the room. I knew I wasn't going to be able to be in any condition to see Edward. After I peaked out the door, and seeing the coast is clear, I exited the room. I used the servant's staircase to avoid running into anyone.

When I got to the kitchen, only Maria was there. She looked up and gave me a sympathetic smile.

"Everything will be okay." She came over and gave me a hug. She handed me a glass of water. I opened the packet of powder Carlisle gave me and I poured it in, then grabbed a spoon to stir. I drank it down before speaking.

"I don't think I can make it through dinner." I placed the glass on the counter.

"I understand. Go on back upstairs and lie down. I will bring you something later," She told me moving about the kitchen. I turned to head back up the stairs.

"Miss," I turned back around. "I know he has hurt you before and he is hurting you right now and you have every right to be upset." She started spooning out the mashed potatoes.

"But…" I urged her on.

"Remember that this Edward never has been in love and he has never been jealous before. He deflected to protect himself from being hurt," She answered.

"I know that. That is why I gave him space and then tried to talk to him. But he shut me out, and brings back memories of when he left me." I felt at a lost.

"He will come around. Just let him in when he does." She had moved onto the vegetables at this point.

I walked up the stairs and went back to my room without running into anyone. I went to bed and laid down, closing my eyes. Hopefully, the headache powders will relief my head enough to sleep.

(EPOV, 1918)

I messed up. I messed up big. Once again, I let my jealously get in the way. I knew Bella had no interest in Jason Sutton. But that did not stop me from becoming an idiot; when I walked into my house and saw Jason sitting there with a cocky smile with my mother and my Bella. Well, she technically is not my Bella. I might have screwed up any chance when she tried to talk to me and I was rude to her. The second I saw her eyes well up, yet again from me, I realized how I have been a jerk. Bella did nothing to deserve the way I treated her.

I tried to follow her, but she refused to answer her door for me. I deserved it. I left the house and came back before dinner. My plan was to beg Bella to talk to me after dinner. I entered the dinning room to find Bella not there. My mother was giving me a disappointed look. I took my seat as Maria entered.

"Please, wait for Bella, Maria," my mother said softly.

"Miss Swan will not be joining you tonight. She is ill and has taken to bed." Maria started serving us. I got up from my seat. I had the strong urge to check on her.

"Where do you think you are going? Sit and eat, young man." I automatically sat with a bit of shock. Maria was hardly cross with me. She was always more like a second mother to me than hired help.

"I wanted to check on, Bella. Do you think we should get her cousin?" I asked not giving up yet.

"You have done enough for now. I will check on her in a bit. There is nothing wrong with her a good night sleep will not cure." Maria said sternly. Was I the cause of Bella's absence? Guilt filled me.

"Yes, Ma'am," I answered and I picked at my meal. I felt the loss of not having Bella beside me. Two and half weeks and she already seemed a permanent fixture in my world. I was going to fix this.

After dinner was cleared, I started to get up to leave.

"Son, I would like a word with you," my father spoke up.

"Yes, sir." I sat back down. He looked at me sternly.

"Have you declared yourself to Miss Swan?" he asked. I noticed he didn't even ask if I had feelings for her. Was I that obvious?

"I have left her flowers, notes and candy." I told him; leaving out that I have been sneaking into her room nearly every night.

"Have you declared yourself, verbally to her?" he asked. I shook my head.

"I strongly suggest that you do, and soon. She is a beautiful girl and boys will continue to keep calling. So far she has refused all of them. Do not give her a reason to start receive any of them." My father advised me.

"But she did receive Jason Sutton." I muttered.

"If you listened to Bella, or your mother, you would know that visit could not be avoided. She did refuse his card upon leaving, though," my father informed me. He left me there at the table to my own thoughts. I needed to make things right. I will apologize and declare myself to Bella tomorrow. Hopefully, it is not too late.

(BPOV)

When I awoke it was the middle of the night. The room was dark. Apparently I never woke up after leaving Maria in the kitchen. I slowly slid out of bed to go use the bathroom. I didn't make it two steps before tripping over something in my room. I land on something other than the floor and I heard a familiar 'oaf'. I removed myself quickly and grabbed my housecoat off the chair to cover me.

"Edward? What are you doing in my room?" I whispered. Edward was now sitting up looking disheveled. The light from the moon shone brightly in the room. I could see his face clearly. He looked embarrassed and ashamed. He ran his hand through his hair and started stuttering as he spoke.

'I.. am soor..ry . Bellla. Yeell ..Youu….III…"

I stopped him.

"Take a deep breath and start again. You are not making sense." I told him. He took a deep breath. When his eyes opened he still looked troubled.

"I am sorry, Bella. I did not mean any harm. I came in to check on you. I was worried when Maria said you were sick. You were thrashing about, yelling. Mainly, yelling for me not to leave you. I tried to wake you, but I could not. When I touched your hand, you calmed down. So I stayed. I meant well. I only want the best for you. I guess I fell asleep in here. Please, do not be mad." He begged me, He looked so remorseful that the anger from earlier was gone.

"I am not mad." I whispered. I was not even that surprised to find him in my room.

"Not even after how I have treated you? I would deserve it. I have acted like a jealous, spoiled jerk. I am sorry for that. You did not deserve to be treated that way." Edward pleaded with me.

"I can forgive you. Can you forgive me for unintentionally hurting you?" I asked back.

"There is nothing to forgive. You have done nothing wrong. I am the one who twisted things and made more of a situation then there was. The fault lies with me, only. I should have…" He trailed off. He was now looking at the floor.

"Should have, what?" I prompted.

"This is not the time for the conversation. Will you go on a walk with me tomorrow?" Edward asked shyly. I was glad he was looking away because I flinched. The last time I went on a walk with Edward when he was in a mood like this it did not end well.

"Alright," I whispered, forcing a smile on my face. Edward stood up and offered me his hand. I took it this time.

"I should leave before my parents find me." Edward started to head for the door. I followed him. He looked at me questionably.

"I have to use the bathroom," I blushed. Edward nodded and gestured for me to go first.

"Good-night, Bella," he whispered when we parted in the hall.

"Good-night, Edward," I whispered back.

When I got back in my room, I noticed a flower and a note on the vanity. Rather than wait for morning I picked them up. The flower was a purple Hyacinth. Inside the note was simple.

My Dearest Bella,

I am a jealous fool! Please forgive me!

Yours,

Edward

I placed the note into the drawer with the others and climbed back into bed to go to sleep.

The next afternoon was sunny, but my nerves were on edge. Although, Edward seemed back to his normal pleasant self, I was still cautious to not get to happy to soon. After Maria saw me fret all morning, even changing my hair about two times, she told me to stop over thinking. She told me to relax. I never thought I would be one of those girls who worried about what they were wearing. I chuckled inwardly about how happy Alice would be with my behavior.

After Professor Hillsgrove left for the day, Edward and I set out for our walk. Edward seemed as nervous as me. His mouth moved silently as he seemed to be working out what he wanted to say.

When we approached the bench where we sat last time, I sat.

"Would like some ice cream?" Edward asked. I shook my head the butterflies in my stomach would not make a good mix right now.

"No, thank you." Edward sat down beside me.

"Bella, I realized that I may not have been clear with my intentions. I thought, with the flowers, notes and candy that I had been, but I guess I was wrong."
"I enjoyed receiving them from you," I answered softly when he paused.

"I am glad, but my mistake was not talking to you. I knew you had been hurt before and I did not want to rush you. But, now I realize that I may have waited too long. Potential suitors are already lining up. I can not blame them, for you are the most beautiful, sweetest, kindest and intelligent girl in the city." Edward spoke while keeping his eyes on me. My cheeks brightened on his compliments.

"You are exaggerating." I told him as my cheeks turned pink.

"And you are the very modest. Other girls would have reveled in what I just said, but not you, which just proves how special you are. I guess what I am trying to say is that from the moment I met you, I felt this connection to you. I care for you a great deal and I wish to court you properly. Please, say you will accept?" Edward's voice got softer towards the end. Relief flooded through my body, then happiness. This Edward wanted me.

"Edward, I would be happy to have you court me." I smiled at him.

His face broke out into a big grin. He pulled my hand to his lips and gave it a kiss.

A/N: So jealously rears its ugly head with Edward. After all he is only a 16yr. old boy. He is now going to court Bella properly. Next chapter Carlisle will be back to learn more about his future family. There may be some surprises. We will jump back to the future with Edward in Chapter 13.

Sorry for the slight delay. Between outages from the hurricane and sick kids, I did my best.

The purple hyacinth flower meaning is 'please forgive me' according to images/stories /Florist

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Preview:

"Bella, I have to tell you I am quite interested in knowing more about my family. I never thought it would happen. I was prepared to live be myself for the rest of time."

"Well, how much do you want to know? I am afraid if I tell you some things about certain ones you may be try to prevent from happening. Like how I thought I should with Edward." I was mainly thinking of Esme and even possibly Rose too.

"Are some of them that bad?" Maria asked, I nodded grimacing a little.