Concert Songs Part Two
Bella's Point of View
I took a deep breath and started to play my guitar with Matt accompanying me on the other acoustic. This song was the one that I had written specifically for Edward and I looked at him bearing my soul. The words were everything I felt as I wrote this song.
Take everything out just put it back, right where you found it,
You, your hands in your jeans,
Were you waiting for me?
'Cause that's how I found you.
That verse made me think of the day he left me. I drove up and he was standing there waiting for me and I knew it wouldn't end well.
Every word seemed to roll off your tongue,
Like honey on my lips,
I never thought I could get enough.
How much I loved that velvety voice that could make me give into anything in a moment.
You took me around the block,
But I couldn't stop,
I thought it was real.
The rush, so intoxicated,
I look back and I hated,
That I couldn't tell.
How foolish I felt for letting myself fall for him when I knew it could only end badly. I was stupid to believe he could actually loved me.
I'm lying alone on the floor,
Just laughing at myself.
How could I ever go back for more?
Put, everything back,
That you took out, right when it started.
Matt grabbed electric guitar and played as Tyler and Jeremy joined in.
When we started
When we started
How can I get back what you can't give out again?...
How can I face my mother, how can I face my friends?...
How can I look in the mirror and try to love again?
How can you get back what you can't give out again?
How can I get back what you can't give out again?
All the questions I asked when he left me alone.
Take my deepest breath,
I just let it out,
I will be stonger.
You took everything out,
I put it back, just where you found it
The end was me saying I'm okay and I don't need you anymore. The crowd cheered and I let my dad take my stool as one of his officers uncovered my piano. I couldn't help but sneak a look as I sat down at Edward and the look on his face was priceless. The next song was for Jake and I held my breath as I began to play;
I found that box of letters
Lying on the ground
The ones you used to write me before it all went down
I even got a paper cut trying to figure out
What to do with all these memories
And you're not who you used to be
And I wonder where you've gone
Have you fallen in a black hole?
Somewhere there's a universe of missing stuff
What happened to the good times?
What happened to the moments where we felt so much?
Where's the love?
Where's the love?
I missed Jake so much when he left me, my best friend who I trusted not to break me.
Remember all those hours laughing on the floor
Those days of doing nothing fell like nothing did before
I don't need those sneakers or that money after all
I'll trade them for old message you've called
'Cause it's not how we used to feel
And I wonder what went wrong
Have you fallen in a black hole?
Somewhere there's a universe of missing stuff
What happened to the good times?
What happened to the moments where we felt so much?
Where's the love?
I wanna go there, and I wanna know where
Everything that meant something to me is all
I found that box of letters, used to make me smile
But now I feel so lonely
Have you fallen in a black hole?
Somewhere there's a universe of missing stuff
What happened to the good times?
What happened to the moments where we felt so much?
A black hole
Somewhere there's a universe of missing stuff
What happened to the good times?
What happened to the moments where we had so much?
Where's the love?
Has he fallen in a black hole?
I started to feel this weight come off my chest and now it was the time to just let all the anger and hurt I felt go. I picked up my guitar and started to play these next songs were me letting go of everything we had. It was me saying I'm going to move on and start over with someone else. It was me closing this chapter of my life and saying goodbye.
I see your face in my mind as I drive away,
Cause none of us thought it was gonna end that way.
People are people,
And sometimes we change our minds.
But it's killing me to see you go after all this time.
Music starts playin' like the end of a sad movie,
It's the kinda ending you don't really wanna see.
Cause it's tragedy and it'll only bring you down,
Now I don't know what to be without you around.
And we know it's never simple,
Never easy.
Never a clean break, noone here to save me.
You're the only thing I know like the back of my hand,
And I can't,
Breathe,
Without you,
But I have to,
Breathe,
Without you,
But I have to.
Never wanted this, never wanna see you hurt.
Every little bump in the road I tried to swerve.
But people are people,
And sometimes it doesn't work out,
Nothing we say is gonna save us from the fall out.
And we know it's never simple,
Never easy.
Never a clean break, no one here to save me.
You're the only thing I know like the back of my hand,
And I can't,
Breathe,
Without you,
But I have to,
Breathe,
Without you,
But I have to.
It's two a.m.
Feelin' like I just lost a friend.
Hope you know it's not easy,
Easy for me.
It's two a.m.
Feelin' like I just lost a friend.
Hope you know this ain't easy,
Easy for me.
The way they acted when they came back acting like the last several months were easily forgotten. That I had just lived like nothing had happened.
And we know it's never simple,
Never easy.
Never a clean break, no one here to save me.
I can't,
Breathe,
Without you,
But I have to,
Breathe,
Without you,
But I have to.
Sorry (oh) Sorry (mmm)
Sorry (eh eh) Sorry (mmm)
Sorry (eh eh) Sorry (mmm)
Sorry
Again the crowd cheered, but I didn't even give them time for a full cheering session when I went directly into the next song.
Say you're sorry that face of an angel
Comes out just when you need it to
As I paced back and forth all this time
Cause I honestly believed in you
Holding on the days drag on
Stupid girl, I should have known, I should have known
I'm not a princess, this ain't a fairy tale
I'm not the one you'll sweep off her feet,
Lead her up the stairwell
This ain't Hollywood, this is a small town,
I was a dreamer before you went and let me down
Now it's too late for you
And your white horse, to come around
Baby I was naive, got lost in your eyes
And never really had a chance
My mistake, I didn't know to be in love
You had to fight to have the upper hand
I had so many dreams about you and me
Happy endings now I know
I'm not a princess, this ain't a fairy tale
I'm not the one you'll sweep off her feet,
Lead her up the stairwell
This ain't Hollywood, this is a small town,
I was a dreamer before you went and let me down
Now it's too late for you
And your white horse, to come around
And there you are on your knees,
Begging for forgiveness, begging for me
Just like I always wanted but I'm so sorry
Cause I'm not your princess, this ain't a fairytale
I'm gonna find someone someday who might actually treat me well
This is a big world, that was a small town
There in my rearview mirror disappearing now
And it's too late for you and your white horse
Now it's too late for you and your white horse, to catch me now
Oh, whoa, whoa, whoa
Try and catch me now
Oh, it's too late
To catch me now
I finally looked at the Edward and Jake and I knew they had gotten the message. There was no hope of me ever being like we once were. They had damaged me and it was not something that was easily forgiven or forgotten. There would always be a space between us and they had no one to blame except themselves.
The next song was something I wrote just for me. Each day away from them after moving to Mystic Falls got easier and easier and this one wasn't for anyone but myself. I would always feel the pain they caused but it wasn't taking over me like it used to. I was ready to let go and never look back.
Woke up late today, and I still feel the sting of the pain.
But I brushed my teeth anyway, got dressed through the mess
And put a smile on my face.
I got a little bit stronger.
Riding in the car to work, and I'm trying to ignore the hurt.
So I turned on the radio, Stupid song made me think of you,
I listened to it for minute, but I changed it.
I'm getting a little bit stronger, just a little bit stronger.
And I'm done hoping that we can work it out,
I'm done with how it feels, spinning my wheels
Letting you drag my heart around.
And ohhh
I'm done thinking, that you could ever change.
I know my heart will never be the same,
but I'm telling myself I'll be okay.
Even on my weakest days, I get a little bit stronger.
Doesn't happen overnight, but you turn around and a month's gone by,
And you realize you haven't cried.
I'm not giving you a hour or a second or another minute longer.
I'm busy getting stronger.
And I'm done hoping that we can work it out,
I'm done with how it feels, spinning my wheels
Letting you drag my heart around.
And ohhh
I'm done thinking, that you could ever change.
I know my heart will never be the same,
but I'm telling myself I'll be okay.
Even on my weakest days, I get a little bit stronger.
I get a little bit stronger.
Getting along without you baby,
I'm better off without you baby,
How does it feel without me baby?
I'm getting stronger without you baby.
And I'm done hoping that we can work it out,
I'm done with how it feels, spinning my wheels
Letting you drag my heart around.
And ohhh
I'm done thinking, that you could ever change.
I know my heart will never be the same,
but I'm telling myself I'll be okay,
Even on my weakest days, I get a little bit stronger.
I get a little bit stronger.
I'm just a little bit stronger.
A little bit, a little bit, a little bit stronger.
I get a little bit stronger.
I was free from them and although I knew it hurt them I hadn't felt so alive in so long. I smiled at the boys and they started to play.
I looked at Damon and said, "Questo è per te." (This one's for you)
Is this a dream?
If it is please don't wake me from this high
I'd become comfortably numb
Until you opened up my eyes
To what it's like
When everything's right
I can't believe
You found me
When no one else was lookin'
How did you know just where I would be?
Yeah, you broke through
All of my confusion
The ups and the downs
And you still didn't leave
I guess that you saw what nobody could see
You found me
You found me
So, here we are
That's pretty far
When you think of where we've been
No going back
I'm fading out
All that has faded me within
You're by my side
Now everything's fine
I can't believe
You found me
When no one else was lookin'
How did you know just where I would be?
Yeah, you broke through
All of my confusion
The ups and the downs
And you still didn't leave
I guess that you saw what nobody could see
You found me
You found me
And I was hiding
'Til you came along
And showed me where I belong
You found me
When no one else was lookin'
How did you know?
How did you know?
You found me
When no one else was lookin'
How did you know just where I would be?
Yeah, you broke through
All of my confusion
The ups and the downs
And you still didn't leave
I guess that you saw what nobody could see
You found me
(You found me)
(When no one else was lookin')
You found me
(How did you know just where I would be?)
You broke through
All of my confusion
The ups and the downs
And you still didn't leave
I guess that you saw what nobody could see
The good and the bad
And the things in between
You found me
You found me
I smiled and we left the stage.
Damon's Point of View
Bella had bared her soul to everyone here and through most of her songs many people cried. Bella could make you feel everything she did when she sang. That last song though caught me off guard. I knew I held some place in her heart, but the way she looked at me and sang let me know that I had her heart no matter how damaged it had become she was giving it to me to look after. The crowd kept cheering encore and finally they returned to the stage.
"Alright I think we have a couple more in us and these songs have special meaning to me because my brother and I wrote them together, so here we go."
I smiled as I heard the familiar tune play. Elena, Bonnie, and Caroline started to dance. Bella started to sway to the music and the crowd went wild to the more upbeat tempo, but the lyrics were deep. I should know because I walked in on Chris and her writing them;
(Flashback two years ago)
"What are you two doing?" I asked walking into the living room.
"Working." Chris replied.
"New song interesting." I said and leaned over Bella's shoulder to see. "How long you been at it?"
"A while, but now it's almost perfect." Bella said.
"What's it about?" I asked pouring some scotch.
"Fairytales." Bella said and laughed.
I looked at her and she me our eyes locked and quickly she turned away no doubt blushing. Chris looked at me and started to mumble under his breath;
"So help me God Damon you do anything with my sister I will kill you. You are still hung up on Katherine and I won't watch you hurt Bella you got me. I haven't killed you yet because she made me promise not to, but one wrong move and you'll have a stake through your heart before you realize it."
I laughed and walked out thinking that there was no way I could ever hurt Bella…she was too much fun.
(End flashback)
Bella smiled and started to sing;
She lives in a fairy tale
Somewhere too far for us to find
Forgotten the taste and smell
Of the world that she's left behind
It's all about the exposure the lens I told her
The angles were all wrong now
She's ripping wings off of butterflies
Keep your feet on the ground
When your head's in the clouds
Well go get your shovel
And we'll dig a deep hole
To bury the castle, bury the castle
Go get your shovel
And we'll dig a deep hole
To bury the castle, bury the castle
Ba da ba ba da ba ba ha
So one day he found her crying
Coiled up on the dirty ground
Her prince finally came to save her
And the rest you can figure out
But it was a trick
And the clock struck twelve
Well make sure to build your house brick by boring brick
Or the wolf's gonna blow it down
Keep your feet on the ground
When your head's in the clouds
Well go get your shovel
And we'll dig a deep hole
To bury the castle, bury the castle
Go get your shovel
And we'll dig a deep hole
We'll bury the castle, bury the castle
Well you built up a world of magic
Because your real life is tragic
Yeah you built up a world of magic
If it's not real
You can't hold it in your hand
You can't feel it with your heart
And I won't believe it
But if it's true
You can see it with your eyes
Oh, even in the dark
And that's where I want to be, yeah
Go get your shovel
And we'll dig a deep hole
To bury the castle, bury the castle
Go get your shovel
And we'll dig a deep hole
To bury the castle, bury the castle
The crowd cheered and Bella smiled, "Alright you guys want more?"
Elena, Bonnie, Caroline, Stefan, and I took in a deep breathe. It was the song they had worked on the day Chris died. Bella never touched that music she made me take and wanted it burned but I had placed it under the loos floorboard in my room; how did she find it?
Everybody's talking
But they don't say a thing
They look at me with sad eyes
But I don't want the sympathy
Its cool you didn't want me
Sometimes you can't go back
But why'd you have to go and make a mess like that
Well I just have to say
Before I let go
Have you ever been low?
Have you ever had a friend that let you down so?
When the truth came out
Were you the last to know?
Were you left out in the cold?
What you did was low
No I don't need your number
There's nothing left to say
Except I never thought it'd hurt this much to be saved
My friends are outside waiting
I've gotta go
Have you ever been low?
Have you ever had a friend that let you down so?
When the truth came out
Were you the last to know?
Were you left out in the cold?
What you did was low
What you did was low (low)
What you did was low (low)
What you did was low (low)
I walk out of this darkness
With no sense of regret
And I go with a clear conscience
We both know that you can't say that
Here's to show
For all the time I loved you so…
So...
Have you ever been low?
Have you ever had a friend that let you down so?
When the truth came out
Were you the last to know?
Were you left out in the cold?
What you did was low
Have you ever been low?
Have you ever had a friend that let you down so?
When the truth came out
Were you the last to know?
Were you left out in the cold?
What you did was low
Have you ever been low?
Have you ever had a friend that let you down so?
Cuz what you did was low
Bella smiled and looked at me, "Alright I have one more that we just finished today so here we go. This one is about anyone who has ever lost anyone suddenly and without reason."
You took my hand you showed me how
You promised me you'd be around
Uh huh that's right
I took your words and I believed
In everything you said to me
Yeah huh that's right
If someone said three years from now
You'd be long gone
I'd stand up and punch them out
Cause they're all wrong
I know better
Cause you said forever
And ever
Who knew
Remember when we were such fools
And so convinced and just too cool
Oh no, no, no
I wish I could touch you again
I wish I could still call you friend
I'd give anything
When someone said count your blessings now
Before they're long gone
I guess I just didn't know how
I was all wrong
They knew better
Still you said forever
And ever
Who knew
Yeah yeah
I'll keep you locked in my head
Until we meet again
Until we
Until we meet again
And I won't forget you my friend
What happened
If someone said three years from now
You'd be long gone
I'd stand up and punch them out
Cause they're all wrong and
That last kiss I'll cherish
Until we meet again
And time makes it harder
I wish I could remember
But I keep your memory
You visit me in my sleep
My darling who knew
My darling
My darling who knew
My darling
I miss you
My darling who knew
Who knew?
Bella looked around and Jeremy said, "Hey B you think we got one more in us?"
Bella laughed, "I don't know do you guys want one more?" Everyone cheered and she continued, "Alright well we all wrote this for graduation season so this one is for all the seniors." And the music began;
Grew up in a small town
And when the rain would fall down
I'd just stare out my window
Dreaming of what could be
And if I'd end up happy
I would pray (I would pray)
Trying hard to reach out
But when I tried to speak out
Felt like no one could hear me
Wanted to belong here
But something felt so wrong here
So I prayed I could break away
I'll spread my wings and I'll learn how to fly
I'll do what it takes til' I touch the sky
And I'll make a wish
Take a chance make a change
And breakaway
Out of the darkness and into the sun
But I won't forget all the ones that I love
I'll take a risk take a chance
Make a change
And breakaway
Wanna feel the warm breeze
Sleep under a palm tree
Feel the rush of the ocean
Get onboard a fast train
Travel on a jet plane, far away (I will)
And breakaway
I'll spread my wings and I'll learn how to fly
I'll do what it takes til' I touch the sky
And I'll make a wish
Take a chance make a change
And breakaway
Out of the darkness and into the sun
But I won't forget all the ones that I love
I'll take a risk take a chance
Make a change
And breakaway
Buildings with a hundred floors
Swinging around revolving doors
Maybe I don't know where they'll take me but
Gotta keep moving on, moving on
Fly away, breakaway
I'll spread my wings
And I'll learn how to fly
Though it's not easy to tell you goodbye
I gotta take a risk take a chance
Make a change
And breakaway
Out of the darkness and into the sun
But I won't forget the place I come from
I gotta take a risk take a chance
Make a change
And breakaway, breakaway, breakaway
Bella walked up to the front of the stage as did Tyler, Matt, and Jeremy and took a final bow before retreating to the back. Quickly I found my way back there and there she was smiling and drinking on water. Elena, Bonnie, Caroline, and Stefan came in behind me and as Elena opened her mouth Bella interrupted her;
"Elena I swear to god if you ask me I'm okay I'm going shove this sweaty towel in your mouth. If I wasn't okay I wouldn't have done what I did." Bella said.
Tyler, Matt, Jeremy, and the others started talking and I stole Bella away.
"Not bad after two years." I said, "Although there were few places…." I started, but Bella slapped my arm, "I'm kidding you were great."
"I feel awake and alive for the first time in a long time." She replied.
"How did you find that sheet music for Low?" I asked.
"Damon I know you all too well. I knew you never threw it out and I know all your hiding spots. I just wasn't ready to finish it until a week ago." She said.
"I loved that one you did." I said knowing she knew which one I was talking about.
"Every bit of it was true. Damon you've seen me at my worst and have helped me. When Chris died and then with Edward and Jake; I trust you completely. Hell I knew that first night I met you I could trust you with anything." Bella said and then she kissed me.
The Cullen's and pack didn't stick around after Bella left the stage which I didn't care. They had hurt her and now the Bella I knew two years ago was back, but she was older, wiser, and more content.
A/N: alright you guys I know this was sort of a long chapter, but I needed this in here to show the development of Bella. She's finally ready to let not just Edward or Jake go but also her brother Chris and how she's growing stronger than she was before. Please review and let me know if you liked it. Also in the review let me know if the songs fit. Songs in this chapter are;
Full Circle- Cheyenne Kimball
Black Hole- Lindsay Lohan
Breathe- Taylor Swift feat. Colbie Calliat
White Horse- Taylor Swift
Little Bit Stronger- Sara Evans
You Found Me- Kelly Clarkson
Brick By Boring Brick- Paramore
Low- Kelly Clarkson
Who Knew- Pink
Breakaway- Kelly Clarkson
