Chapter 11
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JPOV
Our first date was perfect. We talked a lot and ate emily's amazing food. I felt closer to my lilly, much to my pleasure. However, our date was far from over. My dad felt that my date is the best time to tell lilly about the imprinting. She already knows about our furry secret. He thought that it was the right time. But, I felt that she was not ready for this. She does not know about our legends. She doesn't understand the imprinting properly. What if she hates me for it?
And, what about my history with bella? Lilly is not aware of that either. I thought it was a bad idea to tell lilly but dad thought otherwise. According to him, I should tell lilly as soon as possible because girls hate when we keep secrets from them for a long time. He even went as far as predicting lilly's reaction on the imprinting. He said that lilly will be happy with it because the way she looks at me, she will be crazy happy that I am hers forever. His words not mine. I could feel the nervousness building inside. Lilly was telling me about one of her childhood stories when jasper 'stole' her and rosalie went almost nuts. She was laughing while telling the story and I gazed at her. I do not want this to be the last time I see her.
But It's time. I should tell her. 'lilly' I started once her story was over 'I .. I need to tell you something.' I stuttered. She smiled encouragingly at me so I continued.
'umm... there is this thing that we wolves do. I mean its not a bad thing. It's just... I am getting nervous.' I took a deep breath 'lilly, you know wolves have mates, right. We are shape shifters but we have mates too. We find them in a unique way. When we look at them for the first time, we imprint. All our ties to this world, people, we lose all those ties. But we gain one bond, the strongest bond. With our imprint, our mate. We feel the immense love for them, the protectiveness, the possessiveness, the need to take care of them. We would do anything for our imprint, be anything for them. Whatever she wants us to be. Emily is sam's imprint and mate. Kim is jared's and my sister rachel, she is paul's imprint. And, you are mine. My imprint, my mate'. There. I said it all in one big ramble.
Now I was staring at her to get an answer, a reaction, anything. But her face was blank. Only her eyes showed emotions. Confusion, fear, betrayal, and then anger. Her lips were set in a thin line. She looked ready to cry. I was getting worried. What is going through her mind? But her next words broke my heart.
LPOV
I sat there listening to jake's rambling. Each word broke my heart. Now everything makes sense. Why he wanted to be around me? Why he kept visiting even when my whole family hated him? Why he wanted to get to know me? Why he looked like crap when I was sick? Why he kept coming back for me? How he always knew when I was upset or angry or sad? Its the imprint. He is bound to me because of this imprinting crap.
He does not really like me. He is stuck with me because of the imprinting. This realization hit me hard. Words came out of my mouth before i could stop them 'You like me just because of imprint.' And, it was not a question. It was a statement, a fact. His face fell, he looked like I slapped him. The first tear fell and others followed. I felt like I was going to die. I could not stop the tears falling from my eyes or my legs as I got up and ran towards the road. I had to get away from him before I said anything else to hurt him.
It was not his fault. He is stuck. But, he could have told me. He could have told me the truth from the very beginning. I heard him calling my name behind me. But I kept running. I do no know how far I ran but I collapsed on my knees when I felt I was far enough. I cried and cried. For me, for him, on my stupidity, for the loss of my first love. With that thought my breath hitched. I love him. He is my first love and I just lost him to the fate.
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