hi sorry i took so long! i'm at a dance camp in LA so i'm just writing between classes, rehersals, and all the other stuff so ya but thank you for the wonderfull reviews also i was asked why i named physalis after a plant, well the truth is any name not already in the book (excluding analia, i just loved the sound of that!) well it was because it seemed like a lot of people in district 12 were like katniss prim, madge, and rue (ya i know district 11, sorry) so i figured why not! also this is kind of filler i promise chapter 12 will be better

chapter 11

When we return to physalis's house I notice there's something different about him, he's not being himself "what's wrong?" I ask him

"nothing, why do you ask" he replies

"your just not yourself, today" I say

"oh I guess I just have a lot on my mind" he says

"ya I know what you mean" I tell him

"prim, I know this is about the last thing you want to do, but we should head for the square" he says as gently as possible

"okay, but i'm not sitting up there with them" I say

"no you don't have to we'll just be 2 more people in the crowd aright he says comfortingly

when we come into the square I can see my mother and gale at the front of the crowd, but I just go sit by physalis and analia, and not a moment to soon because the show is about to begin. It is different we start out in a capitol control room and I know this can't be good, the man behind the desk looks into the camera and says

"now since we reached our half way point things have been a little dull so to liven it up we've got something up our sleeves!" he says sounding very exited and I can do nothing but pray that whatever they have "up their sleeve" doesn't affect katnis

but of course I couldn't be more wrong. And so I watch helplessly as a wall of fire descends on my sister she is out of the tree and running for her life with the careers doing the same, and just when she out runs the fire wall, they start chucking fire balls at her and, one hits her right in the thigh SHE IS ON FIRE! No, no, no this can't be, and this of course is when they decide to show what happened to the careers no I don't care about them, my sister could be dead!

the careers weren't completely unscathed they're coughing and have some pretty bad burns themselves, though peeta looks fine, that boy from 1 got a burn almost as bad as katniss, then they show clips of some other tributes who see the huge wall of fire and run the opposite way, and the girl from district 5 almost runs into the pack of careers but she's clever and avoids it. They go back to katniss and we see her alive and soaking her injured leg in a pond and sorting her packs, she falls asleep.

we see a fight, but no one dies they both get away alive it's almost time for them to sign off but wait there is more action we see the careers approaching katniss no their so close but she hears them, and is 30 feet in the air before they even get to her

I am so terrified I can't watch and I just burry my head in physalis' chest. I hear a huge CRASH and look to the screen, and see the boy from district 2 lying on the ground injured from his fall and katniss is already 80 ft up the tree no way anyone's catching her!

then the girl from district 1 tries to shoot an arrow at her, she fails miserably katniss is teasing them and making them angry which is not a good idea, but it is funny, finally peeta says that she's not going anywhere and they can get her tomorrow. wow he's a very convincing liar.

"what am I going to do?" I ask to no one in particular, certainly not expecting an answer so I'm shocked when I get one

"your going to believe in your sister, she's smart she can make it out of this one" says an unfamiliar voice from behind me, I turn to see an older man

"thank you, but um and I don't mean to be rude, but who are you?" I ask

"oh of course I'm sorry prim I'm john, I trade with your sister a lot she's an amazing hunter, she will come home" he says without a trace of doubt in his voice.

When we get back to physalis's house I decide to join analia because I know there is no way I am going to sleep tonight, but my bed is in the middle of the living room so I just get ready for bed, crawl under the covers and I know I can't do this alone, so of course just then, as if on cue he walks in and dutifully sit beside me.

he puts his arms around me and the show continues, we are shown the top of a tree with a tracker jacker nest in it, yikes I'd hate to be near that tree I think, and then of course they go down the tree and we see katniss sitting in the tree, with a hole in her bag for her burnt leg to hang out. We see the careers asleep with someone on watch but peeta is not sleeping, he's at the tree base watching katniss to make sure she's okay he's not letting anyone hurt her, but wait what about the tracker jackers

They show tiny rue in the tree top warning my sister, oh that was really nice of her, wait no I can't like her she has to die oh what a horrible thought, how can they kill this little girl, how can they do this. By the time I come back they are playing the anthem and katniss is sawing at a branch, hu oh my gosh she's going to drop it on them yes she's going to live! Wait she could hurt peeta! no he's smart enough he'll get away he'll be fine, probably, I shake my head no, he has to die, they all have to die. The anthem ends, and she returns to her branch, and she has a gift, oh good haymitch is using the money we sent him she gets some medicine that helps her burns, oh that's wonderful. I feel so tired, and with his arms wrapped tightly around me I feel safe and warm so I just drift off.

I am up in a tree far above the ground and I hear a faint humming, I look down and see physalis at the base of the tree, but wait he's not alone there are a bunch of people looking up shooting arrows at me, wielding swords but there he is fighting them off to protect me, because the price of my life is his and all these people's. Then the scene abruptly changes I am still in this tree but beneath me I see tiny rue on the ground bled white with an arrow in her side, and a little farther off the boy from district 5 with his neck snapped and if I look I see all of the tributes even those not yet dead, they are all bled lifeless, but worst of all I look to my right and see katniss, physalis, gale, and peeta sharing the same fait, and then my branch snaps and I'm falling, falling…..

I fall into a lake, but it's not normal water it's thick, like quicksand, and I fight against the current pulling me down, down into this thick lake of BLOOD I am in a lake full of the drained bl-bl-blood of all the tributes I swirl around and round being pulled farther down, I am drowning in the blood of all the people I love.

"AHHH" I scream my way out of the worst, (or best depending on how you look at it) nightmare of my life. I have to look to the couch where physalis and analia fell asleep, just to be sure he's still there, he's alive it really was just a dream, well most of it, my sister is still out there in that arena, and she could be dead,

but I won't know until tonight, how am I supposed to get through this day and then I just start crying, like that will do anything, god I'm such a baby how can change anything if I break into tears at every bad dream I have, and I know that I'm not as strong as katniss is, but I've never felt this weak.

I know now what my part is, in a rebellion you need 4 main types of people, you need people like katniss to motivate everyone and give them hope, you need fighters like gale, you need snooty talkers, and smooth liars like peeta, and you need someone who can pull on adults heart strings like they're puppets, someone like I imagine rue could be, but she's clearly not an option, no my part, I must play the hurt little girl who only wants her sister back, the little girl who's lived in hardship her whole life, and I know how desperate and pathetic that sounds, but even though we say they don't the people in the capitol have hearts I mean they don't want to break up katniss and peeta, right.

"What's wrong, prim are you okay" says physalis waking up in a full scale panic. he's already beside me with his defenses up before I can even tell him "

no, no I'm fine" while giggling

"oh I thought you were in trouble" he says

"and you were gonna come protect me?" I ask

"well I was going to try" he says

"aw my hero" I say planting a quick kiss on his cheek.

"but really what's wrong?" he asks

"nothing I'm fine, really" I say not wanting to burden him with my horrible dreams

"well that's a lie, I mean you don't wake up at" he looks at the watch on his wrist "4:37 in the morning screaming just for the fun of it, c'mon everdeen tell me what's wrong" he practically begs

"no it's my problem, not yours" I say determined to spare him from the horror that is my subconscious

"aughghghghghghghghghghghgh i WANT to help you, your problems are my problems, because I need to protect you" he says protectively wrapping his arms around me, and I've never seen him like this, I've never seen anything but gentleness in those beautiful eyes, but now he is pure fear

"well oaky but only if you promise, not to think I'm crazy" I say

"never" he replies so I proceed to tell him about my twisted dream.

"so there you have it I'm completely insane" I tell him finally taking a breath after rushing through my story

"are you kidding, I would never think you were insane, especially not because of a dream" he says earnestly

"really you don't think I'm nuts" I ask

"of course not your just afraid for everyone you love….. and for some reason peeta. so your imagining the worst" he says comfortingly.

"ya I guess your right, I'm just being dramatic" I say laughing, because I really am being ridiculous, I mean it was just a dream… right.

"if anything I'm flattered" he says

"why, I killed you" I say

"well yes but you also said I died trying to protect you, so maybe you understand now" he says

"are you calling me stupid" I accuse

"No, no not at all I was just sang that I would die to protect you" he replies

"how do you always know what to say to cover your blunders?" I ask

"what I'm not covering anything it's the truth" he says earnestly

"no I believe you about that it's just you called me stupid in one sentence then you make me melt like butter in the next" I say wanting a real answer

"okay I wasn't calling you stupid I was just saying that you know understand how strong my feelings are for you" he says staring at me with those deep blue eyes

"oh" is all I can muster up to say, then I just stare blankly into space

"I don't deserve you" I whisper after a moment of silence "

what?" he asks sounding genuinely baffled by my comment

"well your so giving and kind, and all I can do is mope around and feel sorry for myself" I say

"no prim, don't ever talk like that it's the exact opposite" he says

"what?" now it's my turn to be confused

"you're perfect, prim so brave, beautiful, and gentle, you are so much more than you realize" he says gently running his figures through my knotted hair "people listen to you, they love you before they've even talked to you, you can make a difference prim, and I don't see why you like me" he says and I begin to lean in but then we hear something

"ya neither do I, I mean c'mon she's waaaaay out of your league" says a little voice behind us

"pft waitta ruin a moment, analia" says physalis grinning back at his sister. all I can think of is katniss, and how we always had such an easy relationship.

then he runs up and throws a giggling analia over his shoulder "hehe put me down phyly pumme down" she says with no conviction since she's laughing so hard

"No way, nally" he says laughing as loud as her, and I can't help smiling myself. Then his father walks in

"Okay, okay what's all the fuss about… physalis why are you carrying your sister?" he asks

"Um well you see-" we start laughing, effectively cutting him off

"We jus habin a wittwe fun da da" says analia acting 3 instead of almost 9

"Okay well you guys better get ready for school" he says leaving the room

"Okay why were you acting like a baby nally" he asks his sister

"um did you want to get grounded, no "daddy's little girl" just saved your but, you always wondered how I got all that stuff from dad, well know you know" she says mischievously

"oh you little" he says "now, now children let's not argue" I say

"prim you sound like a teacher" he says

"speaking of teachers, we really gotta go" I say so we head out the door and begin running to school.

i hope you liked it! analia's birthday party will be in the next chapter, and i just might have something else up my sleeve, but you won't get to know until i get 10 more reviews mwahaha i'm so evil so review, review, review!