hello campers! hope you are well sorry for the wait on this chapter It was pride here this weekend just gone so I was busy being really gay! heres chapter 11... full warning its about to get a wee bit steamy :) so enjoy that hehe

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Chapter 11

Lexa sat tall on her throne as Titus was escorted into the room by Indra, she had just had enough time to apply war paint to her face before she left Clarke. She had wanted nothing more than to stay with the blonde sky girl but Titus had to be dealt with first before she could truly rest.

"Leave us Indra" The grounder general nodded and left them alone.

"Flame keeper, information about you has been brought to my attention. Information that troubles me, information that as Heda can only be seen as treason" She was careful to keep her mask firmly in place, she was furious that he had taken such actions against Clarke. She couldn't deny the sadness she felt too though, he was the closest she had come to having a farther.

"Heda, please allow me to explain. I did what I must do to protect you…" Titus took a step forward causing Lexa to stand from her throne.

"Remember your place Flame Keeper!... To use Aiden…" Her mask fell then at the name of the young Natblida. Titus dropped his head in shame, he had used the boy.

"To give her this…" Lexa held the poison in front of her, she could barely look at the older man.

"Forgive me but I begged you to remember my teachings…love is weakness" Lexa began pacing in front of her throne.

"I will not hear this again" her pacing stopped at the sudden outburst of the older grounder.

"YES, YOU WILL! Your feelings for Clarke put you both in danger… if you care for Clarke you will send her home. It is the only way she will be safe, don't make her pay the price of your mistakes as Costia did" As soon as the words had left his mouth he knew that the line had been fully crossed, Lexa turned on him and descended the stairs slowly.

"My mistakes?... Azgeda cut off Costia's head and delivered it to my bed! And still I let them into my alliance. I AM MORE THAN CAPABLE OF SEPARATING FEELINGS FROM DUTY!" She was physically panting from the words, Titus hung his head low.

"I'm sorry Lexa, I didn't mean to offend you"

"Yes, you did… but you also mean well, and I know that teacher" there was silence between them for a long moment before Lexa reached up and wrapped her hands around the taller grounders neck and brought their foreheads together.

"Your wrong Titus she…she makes me strong. Swear that you will never try to harm Clarke again" He took a deep breath before nodding slightly.

"Sha Lexa, I swear it" they parted and she smiled fondly at the older man, she would still need to keep a close eye on him but this was improvement. She dismissed the man and instructed Indra to keep a close eye, she was anxious to get back to Clarke.

Their conversation had ended with Clarke returning her feelings, once they had stopped kissing each other over and over again they had laid down on her bed just looking at each other. To say Lexa was scared was an understatement, what if Titus was right and her love could only bring pain to the sky girl. So much of her just wanted to shut all her doubts and duty away and just simply enjoy the feelings that was controlling her body.

She started walking towards Clarkes room, this floor was empty apart from the odd guard. She looked down at the veil in her hand, would Clarke of taken it? Did she know what would have happened to her if she had? Did she still want to take it? Angrily Lexa hid in the pocket of her tight leathers, she wouldn't lose Clarke.

Softly opening the bedroom door, she was confused to find the room empty. She quickly scanned the room her eyes falling on the sheets blowing silently in the wind from the balcony. Panic filled her lungs as rushed towards the opening.

"KLARK" Lexa practically shouted as she broke through the curtains to come across a very shocked and confused blonde who had been enjoying the light breeze and warmth of the sun on her skin in silence.

"What's wrong? What's happened?" Clarke studied Lexa's worried features franticly. Lexa surged forward and kissed Clarke hard, cupping the blonde's cheeks to keep her in place. Clarke melted into the unexpected kiss, Lexa was normally so controlled but when she was like this Clarke could feel herself fall more and more deeply for the taller girl.

"I thought…" Lexa broke the kiss and held Clarke close to her own body.

"You thought?... That I was hurt?... No… you thought I had jumped…" Lexa nodded gently pulling her even tighter to her chest. They stood there for a few moments just enjoying the others scent, it was Clarke that broke the warm embrace. She reached one hand up to softly cup the grounders face, Lexa's eyes closed on instinct at the touch.

"How could I ever think that I could fight this…love for you?" Clarke smiled at the words as she continued to stroke the warm soft skin below her finger tips.

"Clarke I… there's so many things I regret" Lexa began but was silenced by a small kiss to her lips.

"Shhh… not now, it can wait Heda" Lexa's hands tightened slightly were they rested on Clarkes hips.

"I like the sound of that…" Clarke's eyes darkened slightly in the shift of air around them.

"Mmmm what do you like the sound of Heda?" Lexa pulled their hips together, Clarke released a small moan at the contact.

"The way you say Heda…it makes me wanting" Lexa was now trailing soft but desirable kisses down Clarkes neck, the blonde tilting her neck to give the grounder more space to explore. As Lexa reached the warm skin covering Clarkes shoulder she stopped her lips to look down at the scars that came into view. Teeth marks.

"I'm sorry" Clarke quickly readjusted her top to hid the scars, Lexa must feel disgusted at the sight of them god knows Clarke was. Lexa took her hands shaking her head lightly.

"No Klark, don't apologies. You are beautiful, these scars are part of you…and I love you. All of you therefore I love these scars, they show your strength… that your still here." Clarke watched her quietly as the ground pulled the top again to show the healed wounds, slowly so that Clarke could pull away if it became too much she laid soft kisses on 3 of the scars that lined the shoulder. When Lexa looked back up at Clarkes face she saw the soundless tears fall from her eyes.

"I'm sorry I shouldn't have…" It was Clarkes turn to surge forward to press her lips to Lexa's hard, the kisses that followed would surly leave their lips bruised and swollen. When they parted, both were struggling for air.

"You really want me?" Clarke asked still feeling Nia's words plague her mind.

"Always" Lexa raised Clarkes hands to her lips and kissed every finger before pulling the blonde back into her arms.

"We will go slow, take our time. There's no rush, I love you" Clarke relaxed into the protective embrace. They stayed there for a long moment just enjoying the feeling of the other, it was a knock on the door that broke the bubble.

Clarke pulled the door open to find Niylah stood on the other side, they smiled at each other for a long moment. Relief filled Clarke at the soft look Niylah gave her, it would be hard but they would get through this. Clarke hugged the taller woman tightly, Niylah made no move to return the embrace and instead just enjoyed it the best she could.

"Thank you" Clarke whispered into her hair.

"What for little sun?" Niylah noticed then Lexa coming back into the room from the balcony. She couldn't deny the pain that filled her chest at the sight of the other grounder. Clarke pulled back to look at the taller woman.

"For staying, for trying" Niylah nodded looking slightly guilty, she was worriedly biting her bottom lip while looking at the floor.

"What? What is it?" Clarke knew this look.

"I have to leave…Roan has sent for me, he says there is urgent business that requires my attention in Azgeda" Clarke struggled to not show her sadness at this information but she also knew that she had to let her go.

"I see, is it safe for you to go?" Clarke looked back at Lexa who studied her for a moment before nodding gently.

"I shall have some of my men accompany you Ambassador" Niylah wanted to protest but didn't, she would contain herself for Clarkes sake.

"Thank you, Heda… we shall meet again my little sun. Be safe." Clarke hugged her once more and watched her back fade around the corner of the hall way.

"She will be protected Clarke" Lexa came to stand next to the blonde.

"Thank you" Clarke reached out to hold the commanders hand before bringing it up to her lips.


A week had passed since Niylah had left Polis, Clarke and Lexa had stolen small moments with each other. They would talk, share stories of their childhood. Of course, Clarke had read the story of Lexa but to hear it from the commander herself, to see the emotions that would surface as the memories were shared.

Lexa had very little memory of her parents, she had been brought to Polis at a very young age and began her training to become Heda. Anya had become her mother in many ways, Titus her farther. They never spoke of the conclave that had decided who would lead the grounders once the previous Heda had died, whenever they got close to the topic Lexa would close the conversation.

Lexa would make sure to see Clarke before she slept, their kisses had increased in passion with every night that passed. Clarke had never felt desire like this, she burned with need for the other woman. But she would be lying if she said that she wasn't terrified still to let them go any further than kisses, she was currently holding a sleeping Anis in her arms as Aiden asked her another question about her people. He was always so hungry for Knowledge, he reminded her so much of Lexa.

"Aiden, can I ask you a question" Anis stirred lightly in her arms before being still again. Aiden nodded his consent.

"The conclave…how do you feel about it" Aiden looked down at the sleeping girl in her arms.

"Could you hurt her Clarke?" She too then looked at the sleeping child.

"Never" Aiden nodded in agreement.

"The sacrifice of a few for the many…That's what Titus teaches us." Neither of them had noticed they were being watched by Lexa from the shadows of the room.

"That's enough for tonight, sleep. Tomorrow we have a long day" Clarke gently tucked the sleeping child in her cot and kissed Aiden's head as he settled into his own. Clarke smiled at the sight of all the children sleeping in the dorm, she had to find a way to save them.

"Wanheda" Clarke turned to look at Lexa coming out of the shadows her skin tingling as it always did at the sight of the taller woman. But the feeling passed quickly as she saw the firm face the commander worn.

"Come with me" Clarke followed silently until they reached the commanders room. She shut the door behind her and watched Lexa carefully as in removed her heavy coat before turning to look at the blond her hands firmly resting behind her back. Yep Clarke knew she was in trouble.

"Your unhappy" Lexa tightening her jaw at the words.

"Your right to be…" Lexa's mouth fell open slightly had Clarke really just said that.

"I crossed a line…I shouldn't have asked him that, but… fuck Lexa they are just children. I don't want them to have to…to kill each other" Clarke was pacing becoming more and more angry with every step.

"You…YOU SHOULDN'T HAVE BEEN MADE TO KILL YOUR FRIENDS…you were just a teenager…I can't forgive them for doing that to you Lexa…" The commander closed the difference between them in 3 long strides and pushed Clarke against the wall hard. The gasp that fell form Clarkes lips was stolen by Lexa's lips pushing against hers hard, when Lexa finally released the other woman's lips they both struggled for air.

"No one's ever… I feel it Klark… your love" Clarke stared at the struggling woman in front of her, she had never loved anyone the way she loved Lexa. She knew that she would never love anyone like this again, she wrapped her hands around the tall grounders neck and kissed her slowly.

"They shouldn't have made you…it wasn't your fault" And then for the first-time Lexa could even remember she felt tears fill her eyes, she tried to pull away from Clarke. Angry at the emotions that she couldn't keep down, she had to hide this.

"No…it's ok" Clarke held her in place before gently kissing the brunettes eye lids, tasting the salt of the tears that now fell down the commander's cheeks.

"You don't have to hide from me… this is not weakness, this is the strongest thing I have seen you do" Clarke held her close, she made no sound. Her body was still but Clarke could feel the dampness on her shoulder as the tears continued to fall.

"I can't…I can't make them stop…" Clarke stroked her hair softly.

"I love you Lexa" how long they stayed like that she didn't know but after some time she guided them to the bed, Lexa was still so tense her eye brows frowning deeply. Once they were both lying down Clarke stroked her forehead trying to ease the tension there.

Clarke sat up taking a deep breath before slowly pulling her top up and over her head, Lexa watched her carefully. Next Clarke climbed off the bed turning to face the other woman her hands shaking as she reached down to try and unbutton her trousers, Lexa sat up quickly to capture the trembling fingers.

"Klark, stop you don't have to" Clarke took a few deep breaths trying to calm herself.

"I want… I want you to see all of me…" Lexa let her eyes drift over Clarkes exposed torso, yes the skin was lined with scars but she was the most beautiful sight that Lexa had ever seen. Lexa looked back up to Clarkes determined face giving her a gentle nod allowing her hands to drop from the blondes.

Slowly Clarke got the button free, she pulled the leathers down until she stood in nothing but her underwear. Her eyes were shut tightly she couldn't stand the idea of seeing disgust in the brunette's eyes once she saw her.

"You are the most beautiful sight I have ever see Klark…" Clarkes eyes shot open to look at Lexa, she saw nothing but truth in those forest green eyes.

"Touch me…" Lexa bit her bottom lip at the words and Clarke felt a shiver of pleasure run through her body. She leant down to take one of the grounders hands and brought it to the skin covering her lower abdomen, a low moan escaping her lips at the contact.

"Make me yours's Heda" Lexa was on her feet the moment the words had left Clarkes lips, Lexa wrapped her arms around Clarkes body kissing her sweetly before guiding them back to the furs that covered the bed.

"You are mine" Lexa's lips passionately traced down the expanse of Clarkes smooth neck, her pulse throbbing under her lips. Clarke reached behind her back to unhook the bra before throwing it in some random direction, Lexa pushed herself up to get a good view of the two mounds that had been freed. They had not been spared from scars and the knowledge of Nia touching Clarke in her most privet of places made her blood boil.

"Hey Shhh, its ok… please kiss away her touch. I want to only feel your mark on me Lexa" That was all the encouragement that the grounder needed, she took the left nipple into her mouth and Clarke arched into the contact earning them both a moan of pleasure. Lexa took her time kissing every inch of skin that was bare to her, Clarke gripped the sheets and tossed her head left to right as she grew more and more impatient. She couldn't believe that her body could feel this good, she thought that she would only ever feel pain. But Lexa was kind, soft, gentle, hungry.

"I need more… fuck Lexa please, more!" Lexa looked up from Clarkes navel to smirk knowingly.

"Where do you want me Klark…what do you need, tell me" Lexa kept eye contact as she traced the top of the blonde's underwear with her tongue.

"Oh god…you! I need you! Touch me lexa, I need… I need you inside" Clarke reached down grabbing one of Lexa's hands roughly pushing it against her already soaked knickers. The pressure made her groan deeply, her head titled back and her spine arched into the touch.

Lexa quickly hooked her fingers around the small piece of fabric and slowly pulled it down Clarkes slightly sweat covered skin, once gone she shuddered at the sight of Clarkes wet core. She licked her lips at the slight before raising her eyes to catch Blue ones, the look a question.

Clarke nodded and watched as Lexa lowered her head between her open legs, she felt her breath first. Her whole body trembled in anticipation, next a soft kiss placed on top of her aching centre. Then finally she felt Lexa's gentle exploring tongue part her lips, Lexa moaned into her at the taste and Clarke almost lost it right there and then.

Lexa took her time exploring every inch of Clarke with her tongue, lips, teeth mouth. She only stopped when Clarkes hands pulled her face away from between her legs, she guiding the grounders face up to her own before kissing her deeply tasting herself on her lips. When they parted, Clarke could see how much that had turned on the woman above her so she pulled her down again this time using the tip of her tongue she licked her wetness off of the brunette's face.

"Klark…" Clarke could hear the arousal in the commander's voice, it made her shiver in need. Lexa traced one hand between them to cup Clarke in her palm, not breaking eye contact for one second she slowly parted Clarkes wet lips and pushed the tip of one finger inside the Blonde. They both moaned at the feeling, pulling out Lexa re-entered her again this time with two fingers. They found a rhythm that worked and before long both were panting and whimpering in pleasure.

Clarke felt so good wrapped around Lexa's fingers she wanted more so she squeezed in a third finger earning herself a loud deep moan from the Blonde below her.

"Oh god…so full, yes…keep going…keep fucking me" Lexa followed her request happily moving faster and harder than before and soon she felt Clarke tighten around her fingers.

"I'm…I'm cumming…oh fuck I'm cumming on your fingers!" And then they loudest of all Clarkes moans filled the room as she climaxed. Lexa held her tightly until the blonde's breath calmed.

"Good?" Lexa asked as she kissed Clarkes neck and nuzzled into her enjoying the way Clarke smelled after sex.

"Mmmm…" was all Clarke could manage.

"Rest" Lexa pulled a fur over them and wrapped her arms protectively around the blonde, within a minuet Clarkes breathing evened out and Lexa could tell she had fallen asleep. Lexa had never felt peace like this, she would do anything to keep it.


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