Chapter 11
A/N: I Know... I'm horrible... On top of not updating for FIVE whole days! I give you a shitty short chapter... I feel awful :(
I suffered from the worst Writers block you could ever imagine. it was AWFUL!
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"Starfire…" Nightwing whispered her name. Raven stared intently at the Tameranian before her.
Impossible. She thought.
She should be dead… Raven shook her head. She would not think such things, but it was the sick truth. There was nothing in her heart, everything about her was like a robot. Starfire turned her dead gaze towards Jynx and Bee. Raven saw the two girls shrink.
"Hello Jynx and Bumble Bee." Chills ran up and down Raven's spine. This isn't right, something is very wrong. She was half tempted to jump into Starfires mind, but stopped herself. It was too risky, and she needed to meditate before she does anything.
"Starfire, what's wrong with you?" It was Cyborgs voice. Dead eyes met a brown one.
"Nothing is wrong Cyborg. I am Alive and Healthy. Is that what you wanted?" Nothing but a dead monotone. Cyborg couldn't even respond to that, all he did was stare.
"Raven, what's wrong with her?" Nightwing asked, completely ignoring the dead eyes focused on him.
"Like I said, I'm no expert in Tameranian Physiology but… It… It felt like her heart was… gone. Like the pain had made her numb. In all reality, she shouldn't be alive. People can't live through that amount of stress. But again, I may be wrong." Raven shuddered as Starfire looked at her.
"What about Galfore? Maybe he can come along and tell us what's happened." Bee suggested. Nightwings face lit up
"That's Brilliant! If anybody knows what could be wrong, it would be him." Nightwing reached for his communicator on his belt and flipped it open.
A few moment later, Galfores deep and hardy voice came through the tiny speaker.
"Aye! What is it?" Galfores voice sounded filled with stress. Guess running a planet isn't very easy after all.
"Galfore, its Nightwing. Something has happened to Starfire… and we don't know what's wrong with her."
"What happened?" Nightwing took in a deep breath, and relayed the past events to him quickly.
"And when Raven scanned her, she said that the area around her heart is filled with pain, and it's like she's numb." Nightwing finished.
"A Chakra is there, one that handles intense emotions. The Heart Chakra is very important in Tameranian life, it handle with love as it does in every living being. However, Tameranians have focused mostly on that one Chakra. Love is a powerful thing on our planet, so intense that if one doesn't hear the three magic words it can kill. By not telling her you love her, you denied her confirmation. Doing that, you caused her heart to stop beating, and she closed the Heart Chakra off. With our species, if one Chakra is closed we die. Unlike humans where you can live without Chakras we cannot. It stops our life energy.
A Tameranian has never lived through such an experience, Starfire has to be the first in centuries. You denied her love, which means everything about her died the moment her heart stopped beating. All she is; is an empty husk. She cannot even use her powers, for the stem from her emotions. I can send someone to look at the situation, but don't get your hopes up. If she's as bad as you describe, then she will most likely be gone forever." At the last sentence, his voice broke slightly. Nightwings face held sorrow, and blame.
"If I only told her…" He shook his head; he refused to break down in front of his team again.
"Wildfire will be there in a solar day, I would come but Tameran demands my presence. Good luck." The line went dead and Nightwing closed his communicator. All was silent for a long moment, until Raven appeared at his side and placed a gentle hand on his shoulder.
"You couldn't have known. This isn't your fault." Raven tried, but Nightwing whirled on her
"That's Bullshit! She begged me to say it and I wouldn't do it! She sobbed, she begged, she got on her knees and tried to pry it out of me for years but I never said it! Even if I did really love her I didn't say it." Raven sighed. Nothing she would say would stop him now. Nightwing turned from the empath, and knelt down next to Starfires bed. He took her cold dead hand in his and put his other hand on her cheek. She forced her to look at him.
She did, her green eyes dull.
"Starfire, I'm so sorry I did this to you. This is my entire fault, I should have told you what I've felt for years. I should have trusted you, and confessed everything too you. I love you Starfire, I love you so much and if you would please come back to me… I will let you know every day that I love you. Every second, you will never doubt it again. Please Starfire… I love you." Nightwing stared at her intently, waiting, hoping. But Raven knew it was all in vain.
Starfire stared at him, silence stretched on. Finally, she turned away from him and stared at the wall in front of her.
Nightwing let out a sob as he released her hand and put his head on the bed.
"Come on; let's give him a minute alone." Cyborg said. He guided the girls out of the med bay and the door shut behind them. Raven wrapped her arms around her torso; she sighed and stared to walk towards the elevator. She needed to Meditate, or everything in the tower would grow much worse.
Cyborg sat in the garage, his tools spread out before him and many car parts. He went straight to his spot without a word to anybody. Bee had decided to leave him alone, which he had to say he appreciated. He needed to be alone for a few moment, to process the information that had been relayed to him.
Starfire was basically dead, a Zombie. He didn't know how she was alive, and apparently Galfore didn't either. And now some guy named Wildfire was going to come into their home and try and help. But Cyborg got the growing feeling that the only thing he would offer is a quick death.
The Elevator doors swished open, and Cyborg looked to see Beast Boy walking out. His hands tucked in his pockets, his eyes never leaving the floor.
"Can I help you?" Cyborg asked. New spread through the tower fast, and Beast boy knew what it is he wanted.
"Is it true? Is it that bad?" He looked up, emerald eyes watering. Cyborg gave a sigh, and nodded.
"Yeah… Yeah it's true." Beast boy chewed on his lip. But said nothing. He took a seat next to his best friend, folded his hands and rested his elbows on his knees.
"She's tough. She'll make it through this; Starfire always turns out to be okay." Beast Boy's voice held no hope. Cyborg just nodded.
It was heartbreaking, to see his little sister staring back at him with dead eyes. It was heartbreaking, trying to keep her alive the night before. The moment her heart failed he felt like he did. Everybody looked up to him, came to him about advice or whatever the need may be. And he felt he failed Starfire.
"Am I to blame for what's happened?" Beast Boy shot a sideways glance at his metal friend
"Of course not, why would it be your fault?"
"I should've…. I should've seen the signs. I should've pulled her aside and talk to her about it. Maybe I could have done something more and possibly saved her life."
"You're holding onto guilt that you shouldn't own Cy. You know that, you did the best you could; we all did. We need to see what happened when this Wildfire comes. It may be small, but I still hold onto hope. And you should too, because that's all we have right now." Cyborg felt a tear roll down his cheek.
"Wise words coming from you man." Beast boy gave a sad chuckle.
"I've learned from the best. C'mon, we should probably do something else than wallow in self-pity. Starfire wouldn't want us to do that." Beast boy stood, and offered at hand to Cyborg. He took it, and then Beast boy handed him a tool. Cyborg smiled, and began to work.
