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I couldn't think straight. My thoughts were all over the place, thinking about the past day's events. Victoria had been killed. Nobody in my family had been hurt defending me. Jacob had pretended to imprint. Jane tried to convince Jacob to live with her in Italy. It seemed like it would never end. Like, there would never be a smooth path for me. There would be bumps that would be impossible to avoid.
I wanted to leave. I wanted to go to Edward's house, or up to my room even, but I couldn't move. My body was telling me to, but my mind was saying otherwise. As I looked around the room, I thought I was alone, but then I saw him. My angel was still here with me, which made everything go back into focus, until I looked into his eyes. Every coherent thought that was passing through my mind at the time, disappeared. He was breathtaking.
"I'm sorry about that, love. I'm sure he wouldn't take her up on that offer," he said, sympathetically. I thought about his words, and I wished they were true. I wished that Jacob wouldn't do such a thing. He had to have more self preservation than that. Surely he knew the danger he would be putting himself into. But, a part of my mind was telling me that he would do that. He made it perfectly clear that he wanted nothing to do with me, and if going all the way to Italy to live with the Volltera was the way to do so, then so be it.
"It's okay," I muttered.
I could tell that he didn't believe me. Like my mother always said, I was an open book. My attempts to hide my emotions from Edward were pointless.
"Are you sure?" He closed the space that was between us and wrapped his arms around my tiny waist.
"I don't know. I don't really want to dwell on the last few days. Including today."
"Okay. Do you want to do and do something?" He asked.
"Sure, but what?"
"How about our meadow?" He knew that I would go with him there. Heck, he knew I would go with him anywhere. But, the meadow was one of the few places I felt safe. When I was there, it felt like no matter what was going on in the outside world, that place wasn't effected by any of it.
"Of course," I said, with probably too much enthusiasm. Edward just laughed and led me to the door.
We drove in silence, but I didn't care. I had Edward's hand in mine, holding it as tightly as I could. Though, my strongest was probably weaker than his weakest.
The sun was shining outside, which made me smile. One of the most beautiful things I had ever seen was Edward in the sun. The way the sun shined off of his skin made me speechless.
"Ready?" Edward asked, breaking me out of my thoughts.
"Yes," I said as I climbed onto his back.
And then we ran. It felt good to have the wind whipping my face the way it did. It was exhilarating. It felt like all of my inhibitions were being set free.
When we got to the meadow my heartbeat started to increase. Not only because Edward was standing next to me, with sparkles reflecting off of his flawless skin, but because it was so beautiful. The way that the flowers perfectly surrounded the circle-like space that held no trees, but just grass, was amazing.
We laid in the grass for a while, just talking about anything and everything. Edward was telling stories that I had already heard, but I listened with true curiosity. Every time one of these stories was told again, I would gather something that I didn't catch the previous time.
We stayed like that for an immeasurable amount of time, until I thought of something.
"Edward," I whispered.
"Yes?" I loved how he was so oblivious to what I was about to say. The fact that he couldn't read my mind made me smile.
"I think that we should tell Charlie." As I said it, I thought to myself about how crazy it was. I knew that this was going to be dangerous, but it had to be done.
"Are you positive? I don't mind waiting." He knew I was nervous, as was he I'm sure.
"Yes. I can't keep this from him, and the sooner I tell him, the sooner I can tell Renee." The thought of telling my mom was worse then telling my dad. She opposed getting married at a young age more than anybody I knew.
"Okay, let's go." He said, pulling me off of the ground with him.
When we got to the car, there was a note under one of the windshield wipers. It had my name on the back.
Bella,
I decided to not join Jane. You seemed to have greatly opposed it. This means that I am going to stay in La Push, but that does not mean that we can see each other. This will be the last time that I will bother you. That is, until I think I can handle seeing you. I'm sorry Bella. But hey, maybe I'll be man enough to go to the wedding. I love you, Bella. Talk to you later.
Jacob.
P.S.
I'd much rather you didn't respond to this. It's just going to make everything more difficult. I'm sure you understand. Thanks.
Relief pulsed through me when I read that he wasn't going to join Jane. But, at the same time, I felt guilt. He couldn't even see me without being in pain. I was going to be with Edward. The core of my existence. The reason that my heart kept beating. But, Jacob didn't have that person. He was watching her leave him for what could be eternity, and I couldn't find it in myself to do anything to stop that.
Edward didn't say anything as we got into the car. He didn't have to read the note to know what it said. He just grabbed my hand and drove towards what was going to be a very difficult night. It didn't matter though.
What mattered most in my life, was sitting right next to me, and I couldn't have asked for more.
End Story
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