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Forgetting To Remember: Chapter 11: Silence is Golden
Wednesday, May 02, Age 798
Okay… So Pan just basically said that she was in love with my brother. I can't take this seriously can I? I mean… She's hallucinating… She could just be saying things…
I removed hair from her face as she coated her lips with saliva. "I-I love him… I never said it out loud… I thought that it would go away but it just grew bigger… I hate myself…"
My hand cupped my mouth to keep me from gasping. "Pan… Go back to sleep…" I choked, sill surprised.
"I was never going to make it to the wedding Gramps… I was gonna watch it from your view…"
It's intriguing. She stopped stalking and fell asleep a while ago. Leaving me to tend to the hot mess of thoughts in my skull. I was sitting next to Pan, but I felt as if I didn't know who she was.
If this was true, how long had her feelings for Trunks been confined? I mean, I had always had a feeling that she at least had a crush on him but that it was nothing more…. Not that she went for the whole love shebang.
I could just ask Pan. Yeah! When she wakes up… I turned my head and saw her steady breathing enter her body as well as exit. I bit my lip as I contemplated waking her up or not. I guess I could skip work tomorrow too…
My mouth let a sigh escape me as I looked around Pan's apartment. I managed to clean it up in the time I spent here. Now it doesn't look or smell like someone was dying in here. I huffed my bangs out of my face. Me… Bulla Briefs cleaning? Preposterous… I didn't even believe it.
Morning came and I woke up to the sounds of Pan throwing up whatever was left of her stomach. I can't take seeing her like this. If there was anything I could do- Actually I could do something, she just wouldn't let me!
I quickly sprinted to her as she finished up. She didn't like me seeing her like that either. We had gotten into a routine; she throws up, I grab Kleenex and mouthwash. I handed her the soft tissue and small cup as she wiped her mouth.
"Morning…" I say with the slightest of smiles.
When she finished rinsing her mouth she smiled back. "You stayed tonight again? Don't you have a fish back at your house you need to feed?"
I knew that wasn't what she wanted to ask. "Meh… It was gonna die anyway-" Oh dear Kami… I am so careless towards my word choice. The look on her face… She looked as though she was already dead. "Pan… I'm sorry…"
She shook her head and looked towards the ceiling to keep her tears in. "No… It's okay… I guess it's just finally hitting me..." she made some weird choking noise, "I'm going to die…"
I dropped to my knees and wrapped my arms around her. She had gotten so frail so I had to be careful with my own strength. I tried to be strong as she wept on my cardigan.
I got her back to bed and tucked her in. She just laid there, motionless, thinking.
I inhaled and wanted to ask her about Trunks. Would she deny it? "Pan…"
She mumbled, letting me know she was listening.
"I uh… While you were hallucinating… You um said some things…"
She placed her large dark eyes on me, raising her eyebrows. "I'm sorry if I made you feel like crap Bulls…"
I rubbed the back of my head. Bulla Briefs does not beat around the bush! "You said you were in love with Trunks. Is that true?"
Pan looked like she just the saw the damn Ghost of Christmas Past. "I was hallucinating Bulla. I was probably just babbling stuff-"
"Do not lie to me again Pan. Tell me the truth."
Her eyes moved away from mine and began to water. She quickly rolled her thumbs over her eyes to wipe them away. She won't cry again. She lifted herself up to a sitting position. Her silence said it all.
"So it's true…" I mumbled. She stayed quiet while I demanded an answer, "Pan… How long?" I questioned, digging my fingernails into my palms.
"I… think you're taking things to seriously… I could have said anything…"
My anger was bubbling up inside me. I think it's because I wasn't furious at her for lying to me about her condition. Now it was all taking its toll. "Pan! Stop lying… Tell me the truth. I have never kept anything from you. Why are you keeping things from me?"
I could see her trembling. "Bulla… I couldn't even face it myself… I always thought it would go away… It just kept snowballing."
I averted her eyes. "So how long?"
She laughed and let her head hit the wall. "Since… I think after our trip from space. I realized I liked him."
My head snapped to my friend. Woah… "So… Is he the only guy you've ever loved?"
Pan nodded once while frowning. "The one and only."
Pan's POV
Now I had officially no secrets from Bulla. I cannot express how much I despise my illness. Loving Trunks was one secret I wanted to keep shut in the deepest corners of my heart. Now a person knew.. Scratch that! Her father had somehow known! Something which I was still running through my head.
I told Bulla… everything. How I was still carrying my v-card, why I kept it a secret, and how my love life was affected by it. I guess… It just all slipped out of me. I'll be honest, I'm glad I can finally talk to someone about this… It was bothering me.
I didn't cry, in fact I laughed a little here and there. There was an awkward silence that fell on us when it somehow got looped back around Marron.
"Oh dear Kami… I made you go out with Marron and… I am so sorry Pan…"
"Hey, you didn't know… It's not your fault…"
She face-palmed herself and frowned. She was about to say something when her phone rang.
Trunks POV
I could feel the air around me swish as I paced around my office. I was fuming with a cocktail of irritation and what felt like complete disappointment. A lethal mixture.
Gohan had come earlier expressing concern for his daughter. He had been keeping tabs on her trust fund. Low and behold, little Panny had blown through half of it in just of matter of weeks.
He hadn't even known about her little cruise vacation. She's blowing through her life. What the hell was wrong with her?
I had called my sister, seeing as how she's the only one with Pan's number. I can't even locate her energy… She's somehow masked it.
When Bulla got to my office I was just about ready to unleash. My dear sister had been missing a lot of work, so I am under the impression that they're up to something, and I don't like it.
"What's up Trunks?" she said, a smirk laced in her lips.
I crossed my arms while leaning my foot on the edge of my desk. "Can you explain to me how it is that Pan has blown through her trust fund?"
Bulla's eyes widened and she seemed surprised. "Has she? Woah… I wonder on what-"
"Don't play coy with me Bulla. I know you. And I know that you and Pan are basically joined at the hip so spill. Are you guys in some sort of financial debt?"
She rolled her eyes while plopping herself on an armchair. She looked exhausted. "I have no clue what the hell you're talking about."
I inhaled to calm myself down. I didn't need a fight with my sister right now. It was at that moment of clarity did I suspect a fowl thing. "Are you guys on drugs?"
It would explain why Pan's money was flying away, why my sister looked so worn, and why they've both missed work. Her head snapped on me like flies on honey. "Are you insane!?" she spat.
That was all I needed. "You have the nerve to call me insane!? Kami Bulla! You're to become the VP of this company and you're off doing god knows what, snorting, smoking, drinking, injecting that smut into you!?
"And Pan! She must be even more stupid than you! Blowing through the money her parents worked for so that she could have something to fall back on! Are you kidding me!? Is she that dependent on drugs? Kami, what an idiot spoiled brat!"
I was heaving with anger. I could feel my hands dig into my desk, crushing the border, leaving the dents of my hands forever imprinted on it.
Bulla lowered her head and was trembling. I wasn't finished yet. "So, are you going to tell me what the hell is in that bag?" Silence once more took a bow. I ran a hand through my hair and clenched my teeth. "Why have you two been missing work? Is Pan whoring herself now too-"
"Shut up!"
I stood back, shocked. She had finally opened her mouth. "Why? Can't take the truth?" My response had been cut off by my sister's fist on my jaw. She sent me across my desk, nothing too bad.
"You have no idea what the hell you're talking about!" she roared. She was shaking with anger.
I nursed my jaw and stood up. "Psh. Don't tell me you're in denial as well-"
"Pan's dying!"
My mind went into a state of complete blankness. I couldn't think or for that matter process what was going on at the moment. "W-What do you mean?"
Bulla fell to the floor and began sobbing. "She's sick Trunks. She has a heart virus… and she's dying."
Words cannot express how much like a douche I felt. "I-I didn't know…" I choked, falling back, bumping my head against the window. That was all I could say... I didn't know...
"Of course you didn't! That's why she's been missing work. She's been giving her money to charity. I've been missing work to help her out. Kami Trunks… How could you say those things?"
I bit my lower lip and held my head in the nook of my palms. "I'm sorry…I just… I didn't know…"
Dying… Pan… How? So many questions buzzed through my head. "How long have you guys known?"
Bulla wiped her nose and let out a sigh. "Pan's known since she passed out at the mall. I found out about two weeks ago."
"You mean you've been keeping it a secret!? What the hell is wrong with you guys!? She needs help!"
"It's too late… Medication won't help. Plus… she doesn't want to live…"
I felt like my stomach was just pulled out through my throat. "No… No that's not possible! Pan can't die!"
Bulla began laughing, her hair tangled over her face. "To make matters worse, she didn't want to live because of you!"
I couldn't breathe. What the hell did I do? "Me? How?"
Bulla pointed at my ring finger. "You're getting married aren't you? For Kami's sake Trunks, she's in love with you!"
Phew… I went like 1k words over what I originally wanted this length to be… Oh well. Bulla! Learn to keep your mouth shut! Jeez… Oh sweet baby hobo…. Next chapter is gonna be fun… I'm excited.
Okay here's something I'm putting out there right now. Marron and Trunks will get married. That is for sure! But (there's a "but") Pan will enjoy him… Question is for how long? God I love Marron...
This is not an Anti T/P or G/T fic. Hell if anything I'm all for it. Just keep that in mind. REVIEW and tell me what you thought.
