Lily walked into her room and slumped to the floor. Seeing the whole Nick, Amber exchange did not help her bad school day.

Amber had chosen a seat infront of Miley and her. She then continued to make out with Nick for the entire lunch period.

Lily was never so angry in her life. How could Amber be so mean? How could Nick be so mean?

You were mean to him first, that voice in her head said.

Lily ignored the voice and locked her bedroom door. She slipped to the floor next to her bed.

She fished under her bed and found what she was looking for.

She slowly opened the regular looking shoebox.

She fished out the first thing. A picture.

It was old and taped where it was ripped in half.

It was a picture of her and Nick 11 years old heading off to camp, arms around eachother, grinning.

She licked her lips. She missed the old days.

She moved on to the other object, a crumpled piece of paper.

'To Lilykins:

Hi! :D

From: Nicky'

Nick's 7 year old handwriting filled the page.

She pulled out another object, tears now blurring her eyes.

A little pink bear, from when pink used to be Lily's favorite color.

Lily hugged it and remembered Nick gave it to her when she broke her arm.

She pulled out the second to last object. Another peice of paper, this time with Lily's handwriting.

'Dear Diary:

I think I love Nick.

-Lily'

Lily moved the paper just as a tear fell.

She pulled out the last thing.

She felt the edges of the very sharp razor.

Lily hadn't done it in a while and she knew she wasn't going to stop at that today.

I'm sick of this...I'm sick of life Lily thought.

She turned on her bathtub and watched as the water filled up. She stopped it when it was full enough and took out a sheet of paper.

'Dear mom, Miley, Oliver and everyone else:

I'm so sorry. I'm sick of this 'life'. I don't want to go on this way.

Please find a way to forgive me.

-Lily' she wrote.

She put it on her bed and made her way to her bathroom.

She turned her radio up loud. She brought the razor to her arm placing the first slash.

She watched as her blood seeped through where she cut her skin.

She brought the razor back to her arms several more times, tears of pain flooding her eyes.

Suddenly she was numb and she knew she had enough she put down the razor and glanced at what she was wearing.

Her favorite outfit, perfect for ending everything.

She looked in the mirror aimlessly at what she was giving up.

It didn't matter, she had nothing.

She got into the bathtub and slowly put her head under the water shutting her eyes.

She kept her head down working toward her goal.

She heard parts of 'Breath Today' by flyeaf playing through the water.

The lack of oxygen was making her feel tired.

What she didn't hear was her mother banging the door and slamming it open, walking into the bathroom.

Just as Lily was out of it, her mother grabbed her out of the water.

"LILY!" her mother screamed.

Lily was unconsious and couldn't respond.

A/N: sorry I took so long for an update. How's that? lol did u like it? comments please.