The Twilight Twenty-Five
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Prompt: #24
Pen Name: randommama
Pairing/Character(s): Edward/Bella
Rating: T
Word Count: 414
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Certain Consequences Of Forever
I stared out into the lake, looking at my distorted reflection in the water. I was lost in thought. I was so lost in my mind that I didn't even hear Edward come up behind me until his arms encircled my middle and he planted a sweet kiss on my temple.
"What are you thinking about so deeply?" He asked.
"I was thinking of home and the people we'd left back in Forks."
"What about them?" He prodded.
"I miss them, Edward. I don't know if I'm supposed to feel that way, but I do. I mean I completely understand why I had to leave them behind. I'm at peace with that. It was a condition I accepted when I chose this life of forever with you. I guess I just underestimated how much I would miss them."
He turned me in his arms so that we were now face to face. I could see the sadness in his eyes.
"You know, one of the reasons I was so hesitant about turning you was because of all the people in your life. You had family and friends that you had to leave behind once the change happened. I knew it was going to be a lot to ask of you. I didn't know if it was even right to ask that of you. You see, for the rest of us, it was entirely different. When Carlisle changed me, I'd already lost all of my family and my friends. I was already alone in the world. Esme, Rose, Emmett, Jasper...well, their loved ones already considered them dead when they were turned. So, it was pretty easy to overcome losing their loved ones. It wasn't like they could go back. Alice has never remembered anything of her human life once she went through the change, so she couldn't really miss anyone from her old life. Carlisle separated from his family for their protection once he turned. For all of us, becoming a vampire was never a choice we made. It just happened to us and we made the most of it. I can't even begin to understand how difficult it must be on you now. Knowing that you could probably still have a relationship with them if you didn't make the choice to be with me. I don't know what else to say but I'm sorry. I'm so sorry that I selfishly wanted you for forever, but it meant you had to give up so much."
