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Tilly felt as if she was in bliss, after that amazing love making her and Jen had she couldn't contain her happiness. She lay there waiting for Jen to come back from the bathroom, smile spread across her face.
'Someone's rather happy' Jen snapped her out of her daze as she swoon her way to Bed. Tilly open the blanket for Jen.
'I just had the best sex in my life, who wouldn't be happy?' She happily said kissing Jen.
'Hmm well I am happy to hear that because to be honest, I've never felt more alive than I am now' she respond nudging her nose to Tilly's.
'You and your nose' Tilly joked
'What about my nose? Hmm?' Doing it again.
They were being so playful, tickling and giggling. Stealing kisses when they get the chance. Until Tilly ended up on top of Jen, she look down at the beautiful brunette' moments like this make them realize how much they love each other. They don't need to say a word, their eyes does the talking. The look of love, desire, longing, just the thought of not seeing each one minute hurts as if it's the end. Tilly stroked Jen's face, then slowly moving her finger down to her neck, to her breast running circles around her nipples causing it to harden. Not looking anywhere else but each other, scared to even blink not wanting to lose the connection. Jen by now is so turned on, she tried to sit up but Tilly stopped her by shaking her head frowning a bit. She continued with her exploration on Jen's body, cupping her breast kneading it gently. Jen's chest rise enjoying Tilly's touch, Tilly grinned. She wants to return what Jen did to her, maybe even more. She was going to position herself but Jen beg for a kiss, which Tilly happily delivered. Jen pulled her ever so close their bodies touched from every single part of it.
Both enjoying the very sensuous flow of their kiss, tilly would tug on her lovers lips every time she lets go for air then back again. After a while, Tilly let her hand wander down Jen's hot spot causing Jen moan. Slowly, Tilly moved the kisses down to Jen's neck, up to her ear where she whispered 'I love you' then another kiss on the lips all the while still pleasuring Jen. She then positioned herself and replaced her finger with her mouth, soaking all of Jen's wetness.
'Tilly, please..' Jen begs wanting Tilly to take it to the next level. Inserting two fingers inside of Jen, she let out a loud moan. She tugs at the blanket, her pillow' as tilly speed up her phase it drove Jen wild' her bellies on fire. Then she intensely came, but Tilly didn't stop there in fact she speed up again this time harder causing Jen to groan with her sensitive state. 'Fuck..' Jen gasp.. Her body shakes, her orgasm was uncontrolable, over and over this time she grab on Tilly's head, screaming her name. She lets her body go, eyes closed the she felt the small kisses coming up from her belly to her lips, Slowly she opens her eyes..
'I love you..' Came from Tilly who by now's on top her Jen
God Tilly, that was amazing! I.. I don't know if I can ever move after that.
I love you so so much. Was her respond, cupping Tilly's face.
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Jen felt exhausted, but she lay awake while Tilly's passed out after their intense love making. She can't believe what Tilly did to her, never in her whole life has someone ever done that. Still she thinks if it was with somebody else, it's almost certainly wouldn't feel the same. Then her thoughts went from the lovemaking to their circumstances, she remembers Liam who will soon come home. There's no way Liam will be approve of this, of Tilly. Returning her gaze to her sleeping lover, her heart melts at how peaceful she looks' so so beautiful. It will never be the same she thought.
She checks the time, it's almost 8. Not really sure what time Tilly needed to leave, she was going to ask but got lost in their moment. Then she heard an alarm, not really sure where it's coming from and not a familiar sound. She got up quickly putting her robe on searching around the bedroom but it wasn't there. Then out of the bedroom, into the hallway, she grabbed Tilly's Hoodie and check the pocket sure enough it was her phone alarming. After stopping the alarm she noticed Tilly's got 3 miss calls from Esther reminding her at this point Tilly's cheating on Esther with her. She made her way back to the bedroom, Tilly's still fast asleep. She hesitantly woke the sleeping beauty.
'Tilly..' She said moving the hair that have fallen on top of her eye. Tilly didn't even flinch. She must've been exhausted, poor thing Jen thought.
She tried again, this time running her hand on Tilly's hips where she's really ticklish.
Wake up sleepy head, she giggled seeing as Tilly's reacting to her touch.
'Hmmm..' Tilly opens one eye.
'Good Morning..' She said still half asleep.
'Ughh.. I feel like I just went to sleep' she added trying so hard to wake up.
Jen just smiled at her recalling what have caused her to be this tired.
'And how come you up already, did you get any sleep?' She asked
' I can't sleep, my body's still shock from what you've done to me.' She teased.
This comment woke Tilly up making her blush. She has never really done that to anyone, being a medical student and with all the research and that she's learn a lot in the past year. Happy her first performance was a big score, not that she's telling Jen that anytime soon. She run her hands towards Jen's hand pulling her for a kiss. Tilly tried to deepen the kiss but Jen's holding back.
Are you ok? She asked
Your phone's been beeping, here... She stands up after passing Tilly her phone. Tilly frown not sure what's causing Jen to be so cold to her.
Are you ok? She asked then she checks her phone. Seeing as she's got missed calls mostly from Esther, obviously Jen saw it. Almost forgetting that Esther's still in the picture she realize what cause Jen to be glum.
'Hey..' She calls for Jen's attention, who is now standing in front of the window watching her busy street, people in a hurry to work or school.
'Don't you have Uni this morning? Was Jen's reply
Tilly got up from the bed, with just her underwear on, she wrapped her arms around the brunette's waist. Jen closed her eyes, loving Tilly's touch.
'I do, and I need to go soon but not unless you promise me that whatever happened last night and this morning is real and everything that we've talked about will happen, we just need time to be able to be together properly because I promise you Jen that I love you so much, and everything that happened in the past 12 hours of my life have been amazing and I am really happy to have you back in my life. And...' She said turning Jen around so she's facing her. 'And there's no way I am losing you again, you are mine. And mine only as I am yours.. I promise..' Cupping Jen's face.
Jen just looks at her. How much she loves this woman she doesn't know. She'll die for her now, and Liam's becoming a blur to her. He won't be capable of ruining this, neither do Esther. Words wouldn't be enough for Jen to respond to what tilly has said so she hopes maybe a kiss.. Then another kiss will do.
Pulling away, they smiled at each other.
'I don't want to promise you anything but I would tell you one thing and that I really want this, Us to work. You make me happy, alive and I .. Jen grabs Tilly's hands then she looks at her again . 'I feel like my life has a meaning again, I have a reason to wake up every morning, knowing I have you. But I just,' she couldn't find the word. I just have this problem about trusting, I always have doubts on things. Doubts that..
That this would work? Tilly cuts her off
Jen looks down at her hands, shaking her head.
'It's just really hard for me Tilly, I mean i believe what you're saying but part of me has fears. I wish I didn't feel that way, I am working on it I swear. 'Jen explained.
Tilly smiled, she gets what Jen's saying because she felt the same. If she's honest, she also have doubts, and to trust each other 100% at this point would be impossible. It is one of the main things Tilly wants to gain from Jen. And she's willing to give Jen the chance to gain hers. Considering what happened to them in the past, she'll be surprise to have things back the way they were, the happy times. But then through the whole course of their relationship before, they haven't really gone to a point where they made commitments and made promises. They both wanted to, but held it back being in the situation they're at. Now though it's different, still not out of the woods but they can have a relationship without breaking any laws, just hearts maybe. All they have to do is to trust, love and fight for each other. At this point, the love is obviously there and both are willing to fight for what they have now. The question is, what does it takes for them to gain each other's trust.
Tilly decided maybe this is the time for them to talk about what happened in the past, this will be a huge step for them to get a clear view of what took place. The reason behind their actions, how the heck did they turned against each other, what went wrong. How their love for each other turned into resentment. Every person in this world has a reason behind their actions, Tilly wants to know Jen's. She cleared her throat, looked straight into her lover's eyes, giving her a very loving smile.
'I need you to trust me and to be honest I too need to trust you 100% but I think to be able to do that we should talk about what happened in the past, back in Hollyoaks' Tilly said a bit shaky.
