Crazy Mixed Up Love Square
by
Sakura-chan Master of the Clow
Chapter 11: Revelation
Summary: Syaoran and Sakura are happily together. But Tomoyo has always had a thing for Syaoran. Eriol comes back to confess to Tomoyo and asks for Sakura's help. She gladly agrees but has promised not to tell anyone. What if Syaoran gets the wrong idea? SS & ET
Disclaimer: I do not own any original characters from CardCaptor Sakura. Everything belongs to the wonderful members of CLAMP. The story line for this fan fic, however, is all mine so please no copy write.
Announcement: As far as I know, nothing special is going on in the CLAMP world, so for once, I didn't update on a special date for me. Enjoy the chapter and please read my author's note at the end. Love you all!
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Tomoyo stared at Syaoran in surprise. Had he really said the words she had only dreamed of him saying to her? His big amber eyes bore into hers, patiently waiting for her answer. Tomoyo bit her lower lip as she considered all the possibilities. Did she want to be his girlfriend? Heck yeah. But could she with the circumstances involved? She didn't know.
"I—" she started. "I can't. I'm sorry, Li-kun. But I'll have to say no," she answered timidly.
"No?" Syaoran repeated in bewilderment. A part of him had expected her to say no, but he was sure she would say yes. Needless to say he was surprised, and hurt, by her answer.
"No," she said with a bit more confidence.
"But you just confessed to me," he said, still puzzled by her answer.
"Yes," she answered. "But that doesn't make it okay for me to go out with you."
"Why not?"
"Because," she said sighing, "you're already going out with Sakura-chan. She's my best friend. I can't do that to her. And it would be unfair to both you and me."
"I'm asking you to go out with me. It wouldn't be unfair for me at all."
"But it would for me," she responded. "You're using me as a rebound, Li-kun. If you really did love me it would be one thing, but you don't have any feelings other than mere friendship towards me."
"I don't think that's completely true," he said sincerely. "When you told me you loved me, I felt something . . . else towards you—I felt what I feel for Sakura; or felt at least."
Tomoyo gave him a quizzed look. "Why do you say it like that?"
"I guess," Syaoran said sighing, "because I can't trust her anymore."
"Trust and love are two totally different things."
"But they also come together, right? If you can't trust the person you love, then your relationship will most likely not be a good one and so your love over time will dwindle as well."
"But you still love her," Tomoyo said with a sad look in her eyes.
Syaoran was quiet for a moment. "You know what the worst thing I can imagine is?" Syaoran asked. Tomoyo shook her head. "Not trusting the person you love more than anything else in the world. And after what I just saw, I'm not sure I can trust Sakura."
"You have to give her a chance, Li-kun. It may not be what you think it is."
"Or it could be exactly how I think it is. I've given her so many chances already—I'm tired of being heart broken. I want to be free from this feeling."
Tomoyo's eyes widened. "You're—you're not going to break up with her, are you?"
"I don't know yet. I might."
"You have to think this through, Li-kun. Do you really want her out of your life? I mean, of course I would love it if you returned my feelings, but you still love her. Your heart belongs to her. And no matter how I feel towards you, I know her heart belongs to you too. I wouldn't be able stand the fact that I tore you two apart. I would be devastated."
"It wouldn't be your fault at all," he said, smiling gently at her. Eriol's face popping into his mind. "But you're right. I need to think this through."
"And I'll always be here, no matter what you decide."
Syaoran's smile broadened. "Thank you," he said and hugged her. Tomoyo knew he wasn't one to express himself too much through physical contact, except with Sakura when he held her close or held hands. She relaxed and hugged him back, smiling to herself as she enjoyed the moment while it lasted. When he let go, he grabbed his school bag from the bench before standing up and took Tomoyo's hand with the other, pulling her up too. "Come on, I'll walk you home before we both get a cold."
Tomoyo nodded as they started walking in the direction of her house. Eriol-kun was right, she thought. I feel like a huge burden has been lifted off my shoulders now that I finally told him. Halfway through their walk, she noticed they were still hand in hand. She loosened her grip and was about to say something when he tightened his hold, indicating to her that he was well aware and okay with it. She smiled and closed her fingers around his warm hand once more.
After dropping Tomoyo off and giving her one last hug, Syaoran headed towards his apartment. He stopped at the cross road that lead to Sakura's house; debating whether or not he should take a detour to his house. He looked to his left, towards Sakura's street, and saw two figures standing in front of her gate. Her house was about five houses in from where he was standing, but he could still see her perfectly. It looked as if she had just gotten home herself. Syaoran's jaw hardened seeing Eriol standing next to her as they both chatted; most likely giving their farewells. His eyes darkened once more as he saw Eriol and Sakura hug. To him, it seemed to last longer than he would have wanted. He dug his hand into his coat pocket and huffed; a puff of air formed, showing him his breath. He turned his head away from them and continued to walk straight, clearly deciding not to take the detour anymore.
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"I'm sure everything will be alright," Eriol said as he let go of Sakura.
"I hope so," she said sadly. "He seemed really mad. He's never acted that way with me before. I mean sure, he was cold at the beginning, but once he warms up to you, he's really a nice guy."
"Just give him some time, Sakura-chan. He'll come around."
Sakura sighed and nodded. "Okay." She turned around and opened her gate. "See you tomorrow, Eriol-kun." She waved goodbye, smiling sadly at him before making her way to her front step, unlatching her keys from her school bag's zipper. Eriol waved back and made sure she was safely inside before heading home.
"Welcome home, Sakura-chan," her father greeted from the living room.
Sakura smiled at him. "I'm home, Otou-san."
Her father's happy gaze turned into a sad one. "Is something wrong?"
"Hoe? Um, kind of, I guess. How did you know?"
"I'm your dad," he said smiling once more. "I can tell you're not as cheerful as you usually are. You know, you can tell me anything and I'll try to help as much as I can."
Sakura smiled at him. "I'll go change first okay? Is Kero-chan here?"
Fujitaka nodded. "He's been in your room all day playing that new game."
Sakura laughed. "Again?" She rushed upstairs and threw her school bag on her bed. "I'm home, Kero-chan," she said cheerfully as she made her way to her closet to find some comfy home clothes. She settled for some grey baggy sweat pants with a yellow stripe running down on either side of it and a yellow tank top with a small white dove at the center top.
"Welcome home," Kero responded, his eyes never leaving the screen. "What's for dinner?"
Sakura giggled. "I don't know. Otou-san is cooking tonight," she answered before leaving to go back downstairs. Fujitaka was on the couch, watching the news.
Upon seeing her, he smiled and turned the TV off, signaling he had her full attention. She smiled and sat next to him cross-legged, hugging a pillow between her legs. She explained what had happened today at school and also why she thought Syaoran could have reacted that way; all the while strategically keeping her promise to Eriol. Fujitaka listened, never interrupting, and nodded occasionally to show he understood. ". . . I'm worried that he got the wrong idea. He's never been this mad before and we never fought. I don't know what to do, Otou-san," she said, finishing her story.
Fujitaka smiled at his daughter. "I'm sure everything will be alright. Just give him time."
Sakura smiled. "That's what Eriol-kun just told me."
"I guess we do think alike." Fujitaka laughed. "But as weird as this may sound, I'm almost glad that you two are having a sort of fight."
Sakura gave him a questioning look. "Why?"
"Well, because I've never seen you two fight before. And although that's not a genuinely bad thing, I was getting worried. Every couple has their fair share of fights and you can learn more about the other person that way. It's not necessarily always a bad thing."
"Did you and Okaa-san ever fight?"
"A few times, yes. But once we made up, it was like we grew to love each other even more than before. I'm sure that when you and Syaoran-kun make up again you'll love each other even more. Just give him time to sort out his feelings."
Sakura smiled Fujitaka. "Okay. Thanks Otou-san," she said as she threw her hands around his neck, giving him a hug.
Fujitaka hugged her back and patted her head soothingly. "So how do you feel about curry for dinner?"
Sakura instantly perked up. "Really? You make the best curry ever! I'll go tell Kero-chan, I'm sure he'll be thrilled."
"Make sure you start on your homework early!" he called after his daughter. He laughed when he heard her groan. I hope everything ends okay for the two of them, he thought as he got up to start on dinner.
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Sakura groaned as she heard the alarm ring for the umpteenth time. She hit the snooze button, yet again, before starting to doze off.
"Sakura, WAKE UP!" Kero yelled while throwing one of her stuffed animals at her.
"Five more minutes," Sakura said groaning.
"If I give you another five minute, you'll be late getting to school!"
Sakura bolted up. "What? Why didn't you wake me up sooner? Didn't Syaoran call me?" she said checking her phone. She saw that she hadn't received any new calls or texts.
Seeing the disappointed look on her face, Kero immediately changed the subject. "Hurry up, before you're even later!"
"Hoe?" Sakura immediately got out of bed and rushed to put her uniform on while Kero helped her get together her materials needed for school before entering her school bag. Once her teeth were brushed and she was ready, Sakura ran downstairs. "Good morning," she quickly greeted before swallowing her breakfast as fast as she could.
Fujitaka smiled at his daughter. "Good morning," he greeted. In a flash, her plate was empty and she was making her way to the door. "Don't forget your lunch," he said as she finished struggling with her second shoe.
"Thank you, Otou-san," she said giving her father a quick hug before disappearing through the door.
"Get a move on, Sakura," Kero said emerging from her bag.
Sakura scowled playfully. "I don't see you running ahead of me." Her face fell once she got to the tree where Syaoran would normally wait for her at. It was empty. He didn't call me and now he's not at the usual spot. He must really be mad at me, she thought to herself. What am I saying? He probably got tired of waiting for me that's all. If he had waited we would both be late and he hates to be late for anything. Yeah, that's it. He just didn't want to be late.
Once she got to the gate, she saw that Tomoyo wasn't there either. Well she doesn't like to be late either, Sakura reasoned with herself. She quickly changed shoes and ran to her class avoiding the few people still out trying to make it to their own class as well. She slid through the door and not a second later did the bell ring. She smiled and walked to her seat. She slumped down on her desk, trying to catch her breath. Her friends exchanged worried looks and made their way to her. Thankfully, the teacher hadn't arrived yet.
"Hey, Sakura-chan, I haven't seen that in a while. Did something happen this morning?" Naoko asked, concern filled her voice.
Sakura smiled at her. "I just woke up late, that's all."
The gang exchanged worried glances again. "But, didn't Syaoran-kun call you like every morning?"
Sakura stiffened and sneaked a glance at Syaoran. He just stared at her with a blank face. He was expressionless but waiting for her answer just like the others. "No, he did. I just dozed of again right after. Ke—uh, Otou-san had to wake me up again." Syaoran was shocked by her answer but didn't dare show it.
"But you two always show up together. Instead we saw Tomoyo-chan and Syaoran-kun come in without you," Rika said.
"Oh that. Um, well, I texted him saying I was running late and that he and Tomoyo-chan should go on without me," she said smiling.
Before they could interrogate her more, the teacher came in. Sakura silently thanked Kami-sama before paying attention to what was to be said in homeroom. Sakura jumped slightly when something white jumped and landed on her desk. She saw that it was a piece of paper folded in a perfect triangle. She opened it and instantly recognized Tomoyo's handwriting.
Sorry I couldn't wait for you this morning, Sakura-chan. I saw Li-kun walking alone and I got worried but he said to go on ahead since you were running late so I followed him inside.
-Tomoyo-chan
Well, at least I didn't technically lie to them, Sakura thought. She turned to Tomoyo and saw her concerned look. She smiled and gave her a peace sign, telling her it was okay and that she forgave her. Tomoyo sighed in relief and smiled back before they both got back to whatever the teacher was saying. Somewhere mid through, she felt her phone vibrate in her pocket. She jumped slightly and fished out her phone. The screen read that she had an incoming text message from Syaoran. She took a quick glance at the teacher. Thankfully, her back was turned to the class as she was writing a something on the board. She quickly opened it and read the message.
We need to talk.
Sakura smiled. He wants to talk to me, she thought happily to herself. She texted back a quick "okay" before hiding her phone in her pocket once more. (A/N: Please do not do this in class. I know we like to text but you can get caught. Trust me, it's not fun. XP)
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The last bell of the day could not have come sooner for Syaoran. He did a lot of thinking the night before and had finally come to a decision. The sound of the bell snapped him out of his thoughts and started gathering his materials along with everyone else in class.
He tapped Sakura on her shoulder. She jumped slightly and turned to face him. "Let's go home together," he said. He saw Sakura visibly beam at him and nodded her head before she continued to put her jacket on.
Once they were both ready, they said goodbyes to the rest of their friends and made their way to their lockers. They silently put in the lessons they didn't have homework for and took out the ones that did. Once finished, they both closed their lockers at the same time and made their way to the school gates.
The walk home was a silent one. Not those pleasant silent ones where they just enjoyed each other's company either—but an awkward one instead. Even Sakura, as dense as she is, could tell something was wrong. He hadn't even bothered to hold her hand or even display any sort of affection towards her all day. She was hoping it was just because he was still mad at her but was now willing to let her explain herself.
Finally they reached Sakura's house with not a single word uttered between them. Sakura stood there awkwardly staring at her feet. Should she invite him in? He did say he needed to talk to her. Though he didn't give her any indication on what he wanted so Sakura wasn't sure what to say.
She looked up at him. "Ano, would you like to come in? I think Otou-san just made a new cake this morning. It should still be there if Kero-chan hasn't eaten it yet," she said timidly.
"No, thank you," Syaoran said nonchalantly.
Well, that's that, Sakura thought, her head gravitating back down to her shoes. But he never passes on anything Otou-san makes. "Um, well, thank you for walking me home, then," she said and turned to open her gate and let it swing shut behind her. She was about to walk to her porch when he grabbed her arm to stop her.
"Wait," he said. "I need to talk to you."
Sakura noticed his suddenly serious mood and her eyes immediately furrowed in concern but nodded nonetheless. "I'm all ears."
Syaoran sighed and let go of her arm. He looked at her right in the eye and said, "I want to break up with you."
Sakura's face slowly fell and was silent for a moment, taking in his words. Suddenly she felt as if her whole world as crashing down, and he saw that in her eyes. "What? Why?"
"Because," he said. ". . . I don't think I love you anymore."
Sakura felt a pang in her heart. Unconsciously, she clenched her right hand into a fist and held it over her heart as if she could stop it from hurting if she held it and took a step back. "I don't . . . I don't understand. Is it—Syaoran, do you— Do you love somebody else?" she asked, trying to make sense of everything.
"I think I do." His reply was quicker than she would have wanted.
Her eyes never left his. "W-who is it?" She regretting asking as soon as the words left her mouth, afraid she was coming of as pushy. If he wanted her to know he would've told her by now, wouldn't he?
He was quiet for a moment; debating on whether or not he should tell her. Finally, he opened his mouth and said, "Tomoyo."
Sakura's eyes widened in shock. "Do—do you really, really love her?" She couldn't believe what she was hearing. Syaoran loved Tomoyo? Since when? Did Tomoyo know and return his feelings?
"I think so," he said. "And I know for a fact that she loves me too. She confessed to me only yesterday."
"She—what?" she said in surprise as she dropped her school bag. This was all too much for her to handle. Tomoyo-chan confessed to Syaoran? she thought. "Then that would mean you're—" she whispered to herself. Even though she was still looking at him, her eyes seemed to be a thousand miles away.
Syaoran had heard her and for the first time showed emotion instead of blank face. He was confused. "I'm what?"
"—The one she's been in love with all this time," she finished. Her head was starting to ache as she was putting everything together.
Syaoran looked shocked but returned to his poker face before she would notice. "After all that's happened, I think we should both be with the one we love now—the one who makes us the most happy."
Sakura snapped back to reality. "What? But, Syaoran, you—"
"It's best if you call me Li from now on."
"But—" She was pleading now.
"It's fine. At least now we can both be happy. Me with Tomoyo, and you with Hiiragizawa."
Sakura's heart sank once more. "You . . . want me to be with Eriol-kun? But I—"
"It's fine," he said cutting her off again. "I already accepted the fact that you love him more than me."
"What?" Suddenly it clicked to Sakura. "No, you've got it all wrong. I told you I don't love Eriol-kun in that way. I was only—" She stopped herself by clasping her hand over her mouth. Was it okay to tell him? She promised Eriol she wouldn't tell anybody. Not even Syaoran. But even though Eriol already confessed, was it alright to tell everyone about it?
Syaoran's eyes darkened at how casually Sakura was able to say Eriol's name. "You were only what?" he said gritting through his teeth. Just knowing that Sakura was thinking about Eriol in a situation like this riled him up. Sure he had been the one to first mention him, but he didn't want him in the conversation longer than planned.
Sakura's head gravitated back to her shoes—finally breaking eye contact with him. "I'm sorry. I can't tell you," she said quietly.
"Just admit you love him more than me. I already know that's the truth."
Sakura shook her head as she was trying to blink back the tears. "It's not like that, Syao—Li-kun. I wish I could tell you but I made a promise to Eriol-kun a while ago that I wouldn't tell anybody."
Syaoran was silent for a moment. "Then it's over." With that he turned his heel and walked away.
"But I still love you," Sakura whispered as the tears finally started falling. But she knew he hadn't heard her.
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"Tomoyo-sama, there's someone here to see you," said one of the maids.
Tomoyo looked up from her book and nodded. "You can send them in." The maid bowed before leaving the room to get the mysterious guest.
"Hey, Tomoyo-chan."
Tomoyo's breath hitched when she saw who entered her door. "Li-kun!" She still couldn't believe that he had called her by her first name. Again.
"Call me Syaoran," he said casually as he took a seat beside her on the bed.
Tomoyo nodded warily as she placed a bookmark on the page she was in and closed the book. "Is something wrong, Li, er, Sy-Syaoran-kun?"
Syaoran was quiet as he stared across the room. His eyes were distant. "I broke up with Sakura today."
Tomoyo's eyes widened. "What?" She furrowed her eyebrows in confusion. "Why?"
"Because," he said sighing again. "I don't think I can trust her anymore. And how can you go on loving someone you can't trust."
"But you still love her, don't you?" Tomoyo asked dubiously.
Syaoran turned to face her one more; looking into her eyes. "I'm honestly not sure anymore. But, Tomoyo-chan, I came to ask you again, would you please be my girlfriend?" Tomoyo's breath hitched. "I'm honestly not trying to use you as a rebound," he continued before she could turn him down again. "But I do know that I have strong feelings for you. I'm not sure if it's love yet but it could most certainly be. The feeling is a very strong one. Tomoyo-chan, I'm willing to give us a shot if you are."
Tomoyo bit her lower lip as she thought through all the possibilities. She observed his amber eyes and saw that what he was saying was sincerely true. Just the thought of him loving her back sent her to cloud nine. Finally, she opened her mouth and said, "I would love to be your girlfriend."
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Anonymous Reviews from Chapter 10
James Birdsong Thank you so, so, so much! =^~^=
Chapter 11! So the reason why it took me so long to update was a number of things. First of all, thank you so much for your kind reviews. Believe it or not, your reviews inspire me to write and also to help me write what will happen next. I had a whole different mindset for this chapter but reading your reviews made it so that the chapter turned out the way it did. So really YOU are the ones who are writing this fanfiction. It became clear to me what you wanted Tomoyo's answer to be so I gave it to you, only with a twist at the end. It also opened my eyes to her as well. Sorry but she would've said yes a whole lot earlier if it weren't for your reviews. Second, I lost some inspiration to write. Your reviews really do inspire me. For the first few says, every time I checked my e-mail I saw a new review in and it lifted my spirits and got me writing the very next day! I spent the ENTIRE day writing. I didn't finish but I was almost there. Third, along with losing inspiration because the reviews were dwindling down, I had a hard time writing the breaking up scene. I've never had a boyfriend as such I've never been in a relationship so I wasn't sure how to go about it. I can imagine it would be very painful for Sakura because she does love him very much. I don't know, I really wanted to make it believable but I'm not sure if I did it right. So if it's not great, please forgive me for I've never experienced it myself so I didn't know how to go about it.
Fourth, family problems. I'll leave it at that. I'm not one to share about my personal life all that much and the friends I made here can vouch for me. I'm still trying to get over something that happened to my dear big sister as I was trying to be strong and take care of her. Sorry I can't say much more but you really don't care about my excuses for not updating, huh? Lastly, I was busy revising the past chapters (Which by the way you have to thank AngelNguyen1 for helping me revise everything. I officially love you!). So I will post the revised chapters after this so all my new readers wouldn't have to suffer from my horrible grammar errors too much (I might have missed some XP).
I would like to thank my new super special awesome friend, Aizawa Li Syaoran Vessalius for helping me keep in track in my writing and reminding me that you all are expecting the next chapter and I need to update soon. Thank you to AngelNguyen1 for stepping up and offering to be my beta while my amazingly awesome beta, Ametyist213, is vacationing with her family. And finally, thank you MusicAngel92 for your support. 3 Anyhoosits, now that you have read, it's time to review! Love you all and until next time!
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